Responsible
It is well-known that our kind does not do responsibility. We are not to be held to account. We are never culpable. Nothing is ever our fault. We are free to act as we please, doing what we want without concern for repercussion or consequence. Responsibility does not figure in our considerations. There is a considerable deficit on our side of the equation when it comes to shouldering responsibility. Nature abhors a vacuum however and therefore since we create such an absence of responsibility, this raises the question who is going to step in and accept responsibility? Who is going to take on more than their fair share of accountability? Who is going to plug the culpability gap? The answer, of course, is you and this is a significant reason why you remain chained to us and naturally, we know this to be the case. This is one of the reasonas why we choose people like you.
As an empathic individual you have many traits which appeal to us. One of these traits is having a strong moral compass so that you “do the right thing” and you accept responsibility for your actions. That is attractive to us in itself. However, you go further than this. You are blessed or cursed, dependent on how you regard it, with the fact that you are over-responsible. Not only will you rightly accept blame when it is genuinely your fault but you will accept responsibility for us as well. This is extremely appealing. How does this over-responsibility come about?
On the one hand it is something which is intrinsic to you as a consequence of being an empathic person. You feel a deep responsibility for others and you do so because you wish to help. You do not believe that it is right to shirk responsibility or walk away when someone is in need. You widen your scope of responsibility by adopting the stance that as a decent human being you have a responsibility to aid others, assist them and help them. Added to that is the fact that we cause you to be responsible for us. We deny responsibility so you immediately feel a need to plug that gap – I return below to why you feel that need. Moreover, we make it your responsibility through our repeated projection and blame-shifting.
“It is always your fault.”
“You made me get angry, it is your fault.”
“Now look what you have made me do.”
“You should have known that was going to annoy me.”
This frequent projection and blame-shifting conditions you to accept responsibility for what we have done or not done. The more aware of our kind know that by reinforcing this double edged message – we are not responsible/ it is your fault – you will accept this to be the case. You are prone to repeated self-analysis and in order to find solutions, keep the peace and avoid those eggshells you will accept responsibility for us. An objective observer would find a certain action to be clearly our fault but you will take on the mantle of responsibility on our behalf.
“It’s my fault, I should have known.”
“He is tired, that is why he shouts at me, I should have let him rest.”
“I should have remembered that he doesn’t like fish.”
“It’s okay, I am used to it, I don’t mind because he can be wonderful to me you know.”
“It is just the way he is, I pick up the pieces, that is what I am here for.”
The repeated reinforcement that you are to blame coupled with your natural propensity for wanting to accept responsibility means that we know we can easily have you burdened with accountability and you will invariably accept it. This then paves the way for us to inflict other manipulations against you based on your acceptance of fault and guilt. You accept you are at fault so then we are entirely justified in shouting at you, cold-shouldering you, stopping you going out or having an affair. Having you as the one to blame suits our purposes to maintain our perceived superiority and provides us with justification for punishing you so that we receive further negative fuel.
This over-responsibility will extend into making excuses on our behalf when we have stormed out of a family occasion. It is our secretary ringing a client and apologising for us when we have been rude to somebody. It is a sibling who tries to play down our outrageous behaviour and finding something to explain it without pinning the blame where it ought to be pinned; on us. You accept that you are to blame and you become our spokesperson when dealing with other people as you are left to defend the indefensible. Not that you will get any thanks for any of this of course.
Why then do you feel such a need to be over-responsible for us? Where does this trait stem from? I have seen it within my own family with my sister. From an early age you have been subjected to such blaming behaviour when it was never actually your fault. This causes you to believe that there must be something wrong with you and that you are not good enough. In order to deal with this sense of inadequacy that was instilled in you most likely in your childhood you seek to over-compensate and decide that you will become good enough by being the receptacle for all blame, irrespective of real culpability. You have been convinced that you deserve this abuse, this blame and it is your duty to shoulder responsibility for what we do and what we do not do, in order to become worthwhile. It is easier to accept blame than fight against it because this is fulfilling the role that has been created for you. Always being to blame has caused you think that you deserve it and in order to do something about that state of affairs, you address it by accepting even more blame in order to reach an accord with what you regard your role to be.
We know that you need to feel responsible. It is a central plank of the empath’s constitution and we will exploit this by always blaming you, passing responsibility onto you and walking away from accountability. We will not laud you for such a selfless act of accepting responsibility but rather seize the opportunity to use it to justify our further foul treatment of you. You are at fault. You therefore deserve to be punished. You accept this and the repeated application of this only serves to reinforce and extend your sense of being responsible for us.
It is akin to being given six of the best with a cane at school for something you did not do and then asking,
“Please sir, can I have some more?”
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i’d take physical pain over this emotional abuse bullsh*t any day of the week! :-/
puppy eyes …
and on my knees…
Sir…Can I have some more please?
Yes.
Will it hurt?
It has to hurt so you know it is working.
but I’m scared of pain…
Please sir, can i have some more?
With pleasure.
PTSD can have my share, too…
Lol WP!
Happy new year to you WP!
Happy new year to all fellow commenters!
And happy new year to you HG!
Thank you, PTSD, my friend <3 <3 <3
Hallo HG,
that is right, what you did write. I was always the first to say, this or that is my guilt. Someone accuses me of a fault and at once I do look, if it is my fault. But I am changing my opinion. I have an engulfing narcisstic mother, she is only what I call a mini-narc. She is not a dark narc, if it is possible to say this. When I was about eight years she failed in helping me in a very bad situation. That was the point, when I decided I never let someone down, I never leave someone helpless . I will be a strong person, She is only weak. That was a wrong thinking. She was my mother and she had to care for me and not the otherwise. That decision at the age of eight guided me all my life and lead to wrong decisions, one by one and it opened a gate for someone like you. On the other hand there were people who told me, that I rescued their life. They came to thank me. They are happy now. It makes me proud. But what about me? I want to be happy too. Yes, I do change. Now I only help people, who deserve it. And I take a hard look at it, whether they do or not. Doors shut, when I smell some kind of exploitation or some kind of showing no responsibility. At first I look at the behavior of people not at their talking. Last days, I was a little bit upset, when I read your “protection.” I did not like it, I was full of anger from the very beginning and I did not know why. Now I know it was a new kind of beeing careful for myself and a new kind of wariness. Thank you very much for helping me to find out, where I have to be careful.
Very true. It is one thing to help when someone asks or appears through their words and actions to need help, but how egotistical of some to think that others should change when they deny they need help or state that they have no desire to do so. All you can do is offer and if it is declined-walk away. Any further action is a desire on YOUR part, but of course people will not accept that and continue to try to be a saviour. The behaviour instilled in most is never give up but they choose to believe it means on someone else when it usually should be applied to themselves. Much easier to look outward than inward I suppose. Good post and also observation Indy.
It looks like you are getting ready to strangle someone with that wire.
Sorry for the unrelated comment:
I remember hearing about dominatrices on TV many years ago.
The idea was confusing to me, paying money for negative behavior.
Do you think your brethren are the bulk of the clientele?
I guess it might not count as genuine negative attention?
Hello Dinnsite, given that whilst there are many of us in society we are not the majority. I would guess that we would be disproportionately represented in the clientele but not make up the bulk. As you identify, to the more refined of our kind it would not be genuine negative fuel.
Very timely post, HG! It is about being over caring, over responsibile, taking on other people’s problems as our own and not letting them solve it themselves. Indeed, those with narcissism often do not wish to take that responsibility and solve it themselves so it is up to us to refuse to take it for them. When we take away somebody else’s responsibility, we slow down their healing and our own healing, not speed it up. Codependency.