A Letter to the Narcissist – No. 87

If you had not been so dark, I may never have sought the light

If you had not caused me so much unrest, I may never have valued my peace

If you had not made me feel dread, I may never have appreciated the calm

If you had not been a compulsive liar, I may never have known the real importance of the truth

If you had not exposed me to the highs and the lows, I may never have reflected on the safety of an even keel

If you had not disrespected me, I may never have cherished morals

If you had not coached me on worthlessness, I may never have recognised my own worth

If you had not been so irresponsible, I may never have taken my own responsibilities so seriously

If you had not taught me pain, I may never have felt the immense relief

If you had not directed so much hatred, I may never have worked so hard to spread love

If you had not shown me vitriol, I may never have merited benevolence

If you had not shown me violence, I may never have prized gentleness

If you had not been so incensed, I may never have appreciated harmony

If you had not kept walking away, I may never have stood my own ground

If you had not been so weak, I may never have attained such strength

If you had not been such a coward, I may never have been so brave

If you had not educated me on compartmentalisation, I would never have been able to escape you

If you had not kept me caged, I would never have truly treasured my freedom

If you had not made me feel like I was dying, I would never have realised what it means to live

If you had not orchestrated my demise, I would never have learned how to survive

If you had not found me, I would never have found myself, or HG Tudor

Thank you…….I finally found the “good” in goodbye…….R.I.P……..Diva