The 5 Wants of the Narcissist

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  1. I want your fuel

 

I want your fuel. I want it all and I want it from you, him, her, them and especially you. I want it from the moment I rise until the moment I am embraced by slumber. I want it pouring over me, potent and plenty, gushing from you. I want your positive fuel, the joy, the adoration, the love, the passion and the praise. I want your negative fuel, the hatred, the anger, the tears and the fear. Pour it over me, immerse me in that edifying, invigorating and sustaining fuel. There is never enough and I want to keep on experiencing the surge as your fuel increases the flames inside me, burning and rising, powering me as I blaze a trail through all that `I do. I want your fuel now, tomorrow and always.

  1. I want to engulf you

I am immense, a giant, a prince amongst men, a behemoth that moves with ease and purpose about the earth. I want to subsume you into me, ensuring that there is no trace of you left as I fully integrate you into what I am. I want my tendrils to reach out to you, feeling their way towards the fuel vapours that emanate from you, their probing senses tracking you down. I want them to coil about you and pull you towards me, binding you to me until steadily I suck you into my world and into my false reality. I want you hooked up, connected, locked-in, attached and embedded as little by little I consume you and encompass you with my greatness. You will not resist for the elation and delight that you experience as this process happens is irresistible. I want to own you, I want you to become part of me, I want there to be no start to you and any end to me.

  1. I want to be the one

I want to be the one that you think of all of the time. I want you to be the person that you orbit around, your sun, your centre of the universe. I want to be the one that is recognised for my greatness, for my brilliance and my achievements. I do not care that I have exaggerated them or stolen them from others whom I have brushed against, stripping away facets of their character to add to my own. I have no care for that. All I care is that I am the one towards whom heads turn when I enter a room. I am the one who is applauded. I want to be the one who leads, conquers and smites. The destroyer of worlds, the creator of new ones, a god. I want to be the one whose power radiates from him so that is tangible to all those who look upon me. I want to be the one who shocks and awes. I want to be the one who does. I want to be the one who rules, who presides and who dictates. I want to be the one you rely on, turn to and devote yourself too. I want to be the one who is credited for all successes, I want to be the one who is your alpha and your omega, your first thought and your last thought. I want to be the one whose name you utter with your dying breath.

  1. I want your essence

I am the stealer of souls, the charlatan that comes and with sugar-coated promises and offers you the world in exchange for your very essence. You never realise that this is the cost of this transaction but I want to suck the essence from within you, drain you of it and consume it for myself. I want to leave you a broken, dried out husk. I want your essence to fill the gaping hole that endures inside of me. I want that sweet, wonderful essence to flow through me, easing the pain, soothing the fevered freneticism and bring comfort and relief. Like a purifying river, I want your essence to course through me, sweeping away the disease that riddles me. I want your essence to wipe away the dirt, remove the smears and eradicate the stains. I know I flirt with all kinds of dirt, but your essence will save me from such temptation. That is why I want it.

  1. I want it to stop

Or do I?

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19 Comments

  1. This reminds me. You mention Wuthering Heights in some of your articles so I decided to revisist the English original. Would you say Heathcliff is a narcissist?

      1. Interesting. I thought so too but wasn’t sure if his love for Catherine might be genuine, like when he told her “If he shot me in your arms, I’d die happy.” but I view that line differently now. It makes me wonder if most Byronic heroes are actually narcsissist, I think I will look into that.

  2. I got the coment….I want you to need me. I want you to come to me for advice. It’s like he wanted me to be dependent on him. This is from the mid ranger.

    I think why the f*** would I need you if you don’t even give a s*** about asking me how my day was???

    I ask for attention all the time…..yet you dont give it to me…. he must feel good having the power that I need something from him and he’s not giving it to me but yet I’m supposed to hold hands and snuggle and do all that BS. I don’t think so.

    Why would he keep hovering me if he didn’t really want me? He wasn’t even trying to pretend to be caring he would Hoover (cried 3x) me and then days later or the same day not even look at me when I talk to him I mean it was ridiculous
    He must have been punishing me for kicking him out.

    I say to myself–Thank you so much dumb ass for showing me you don’t care and your complete lack of remorse…you just confirmed to me that you’re f****** narcissist.

  3. Dearest HG: You want true love. So do I. When 2 become 1. But that train has largely left the station. For all of mankind in general. We messed up. We are in a fallen state. We have gone from ancient times to communism and socialism and capitalism, and from feminism, to men going the other way, in the Modern Age, in the final phase. And whether we believe it or not we all are basically doing the best we can and we all are basically doing time and we all are basically living and waiting and watching until something Big happens. Until then…..all of this.

      1. HG
        Is it deep down, you really crave for love??
        My man “friend” says he doesnt want love…
        Then says he doesnt respect woman, has never loved one, only his mother.
        Then says woman from this country dont know how to love.
        Is it…deep down he wants some love from me ?
        Seems to have plenty of supply already, why does he bother with me? Is he to chicken to say goodbye?? I am 2o years older)….trying to get the addiction out but hard to let go
        Did he under all the bs, just want and take fron me, or was he craving love??

        1. MB
          Oh. Is that not what it’s supposed to look like? Did I mention Geography was my worst subjectt? I once answered during a game of Trivial Pursuit that Texas was the capital of California. Nuff said.

          1. NA, geography isn’t my thing either. It jumped out to me that Florida was all wonky. But that’s to be expected since the HG storm hit there!

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