Golden Opportunity
Failure creates opportunity. It creates the opportunity for you to learn. We know however that sitting you down and explaining your failure to you is far too easy. That will not lead to a correction in your behaviour and neither will it provide us with what we need. A quiet word in your ear, a gentle touch, the whisper of blame and the suggestion of reparation will not serve either of us. You must be punished for your failure and in doing so I create an opportunity for you to learn from that failure and in turn I grant you absolution. I must confess that I dole out the savage sanctions for your transgressions to serve my purposes but happily there is a benefit for you as well.
The negative fuel which I extract from you as a consequence of the chastisement which I visit upon you is entirely necessary. I must have it for if I do not I run the risk of being destroyed and this world needs people like me. We are the achievers, the creators and the builders who act with clarity of purpose, absolute vision and without the blurring nature and hampering effects of the emotional baggage which hinders others. We are needed to succeed, create industries, entertain the masses, achieve sporting perfection, compose the sublime, paint the ethereal and shine. Without us the world would be a lesser place and that is why we must always exist.
Your part in this does not go uncredited. If it were not for you and your kind then I would not receive the fuel, both positive and negative which is required in order for me to exist and fulfil my purpose. I need you. I may not like to admit that fact but it is a recognised one. I need your fuel and in return I provide you with a period of brilliance and then a period of correction to allow you to recognise the error of your ways. I cannot just tell you what you have done wrong, that would be too easy and you would not become a better person if the way forward was made too easy for you. The harshness of my teaching, the horror of my manipulations and the savage lectures are all for your own good.
It is only through such stern and disciplined admonishments that you will begin to understand and then you will find absolution. You will eventually, although the lessons may take some considerable time, years in numerous instances, come to understand what your role is. Not only will you understand your role but you will willingly accept that position as a sacrifice which you much make for the greater good. By acknowledging your role in submitting to us you will find absolution. You will begin to realise that the sacrifices you have made, of your self-worth, your confidence and your self-esteem have been worthwhile because they have helped fuel me and thus you have allowed me to exist.
Consider that, you are central to the existence of one such as I. You prove to be an integral part in enabling me to exist and function and in turn it is through your involvement that I am able to bring my brilliance to bear on the world. Such an involvement should be welcome by you and you ought to give thanks for being allowed to contribute, to participate and to be involved in this manner. You, through me, are able to create a lasting legacy. True, you must ensure considerable hardship in fulfilling this role but in doing so you become a better person, a worthwhile person and a useful person. Through the correction that I shall administer to you, you will suffer but then when has anything that has been worth doing been easy and pain-free? Never. I share that pain. Do you think it is easy having to garner fuel each and every day? Do you think it is easy leading, guiding and forging a new path, always moving forward? No, we all have our crosses to bear and mine is heavier than most, but I exhibit the fortitude and determination that I know you possess in order to ensure that you realise your true potential.
I chose you because I knew that you would ultimately do the right thing. I knew you would provide me with what I needed. I hoped that it would always be good but I also recognised that even if you failed me in that aspect of your role I could count on you to endure the hardship and the denigration because you wanted to help me, you wanted to realise the role which I secured for you. You wanted to succeed just as I have wanted you to succeed. I am a harsh taskmaster but you brought it on yourself. You failed and therefore you must be punished for this aberration, yet through this failure you can redeem yourself. You can exhibit your true worth and make amends for your failings, your shortcomings and your betrayal. I know you can do this because that is why I chose you. I know you can do this because I can see it in you. I know you can do this because I will make you, no matter what and against whatever odd, achieve this. I only have your best interests at heart, even if my tongue and fists may seem to tell you to the contrary.
You will not like me because I am hard but it is this hardness which means that you will learn much from me. You will realise your potential and you will always strive, driven on by me, with my encouragement, harsh as it may seem, to achieve that is right for me, for the world and ultimately through that you will achieve your absolution.
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Do you get promoted from the Golden Period to the Golden Opportunity? Just sayin.
The religious overtones in this one are numerous: sacrifice, absolution, reparation.
Your article on regret segways nicely into this one as we see punishment serve a purpose.
And the purpose from your point of view is seen to be positive. And opportunity to realize our potential.
You will serve my purpose, which is far greater than yours, and you will be granted a part in my design.
I guess there’s something to be thankful for on Thanksgiving.
Alexis2016: I needed a laugh after this article & u delivered lol thanks girl
Erm, if I may so bold, Sir. To dare to ask a hypothetical question, Sir. Is any there ‘branding’ involved in this? Ie a barcode on the back of the neck, or red hot poker ‘branding’ – just like like the ways cows can be branded? I am quite sure you’d forgive me, Sir, for being so bold….
Well, this was hard to read. Brought back memories of my mother’s “disciplines”, the only difference being that she did not choose us. The memories of her extracting fuel from my siblings and I are horrific, my mind doesn’t even allow me to access most of them to this day, what is there all runs together. I know this because my sister and I have memories of different events involving each other that the other doesn’t remember. I am fine never remembering the rest.
Living with her now is very different, she is no longer that monster. But, there is a different one, a manipulator, a victim now. All part of the same I guess. In my studies yesterday, I realized that my dad was in very active devaluation much of the time. I had wondered about this because she never treated him as she did us kids, never yelled at him, I don’t remember one time even. They did not yell. But, I just found out that the type of narcissist she is has the ability unique to them to do both the hot and cold fury in equal amounts. I believe my dad lived with cold fury a lot. I know there was triangulation in which he always came up wanting as well as other evil things done to him. I am not certain yet that he was not also a narcissist, perhaps an NDC at some point, but if he wasn’t, he certainly lived with a lot of stress and she did choose him, poor guy, maybe 1-2 years of the golden period, 58-59 years of mostly hell.
AV, I’m so sorry your father had to endure that abuse for so much of his life. I can’t imagine that a narcissist would stay in an abusive relationship for that long. I would think only an empath could suffer abuse for that long. Hopefully he is finally at peace.
Leigh, me too. As a kid I always hoped he’d divorce her and we could live with him. He threatened to once, but said he’d wait until we were grown, he had no idea what she was doing to us at that point. But, he had his moments too, not abusive physically but he thought he was all that. Haha, one of his girlfriends before my mom was also friends with my mom, so one day my mom asked her if she would’ve married him. The friend said no way, he’s much too conceited! Haha, this was true and it made him pretty difficult sometimes too. But, generally he was more pleasant.
Interesting what you say “As a kid I always hoped he’d divorce her and we could live with him” – my sister told me years ago – that our parents would have ended up getting divorced. I would have gone to live with my dad – for sure!
Asp Emp, is/was your mom a narcissist too? Maybe I’ve seen something about this but I don’t recall it.
She WAS AV, was. Even after her death – the effects lasted until my ‘new’ understandings. Because I continued to be ensnared by narcissists and / or become their ‘victim’. One thing for sure, I never shred any ‘tears’ for her…..
Asp Emp, it seems many here have had a narc parent. It is encouraging to hear of your success since arriving here.
Yes, unfortunate RE: many having a narcissist parent – one’s victim decided to fight back – we wouldn’t be here otherwise. Thank you & you will succeed too x
Uhoh, someone’s in trouble until they are ‘aboloved’….
“I was good on my own, that’s the way it was, that’s the way it was
You was good on the low for a faded fuck, on some faded love
Shit, what the fuck you complaining for?
Feeling jaded huh?
Used to trip off that shit I was kickin’ to you
Had some fun on the run though I give it to you
But baby, don’t get it twisted
You was just another nigga on the hit list
Tryna fix your inner issues with a bad bitch
Didn’t they tell you that I was a savage
Fuck your white horse and your carriage
Bet you never could imagine
Never told you you could have it
You needed me”
Oh please be hard! I will try and be a better person and fulfil whatever role you have in mind for me.
First Boris and now this 😭
Alexis, I read that first part of your comment in totally the wrong way 😛
HG is right. I am a pervert xox
LET! Laughing…….maybe you’re not as such 🙂
Haha, AspEmp, long forgotten comment which potentially makes no sense when you read it back!