Ex Machina
I wake. I sigh. I wait. I see. I smile. I rise. I look. I notice. I awaken. I observe. I pause. I brush. I spit. I view. I hear. I glance. I surge. I type. I halt. I listen. I note. I grin. I step. I stand. I lather. I rinse. I wipe. I turn. I move. I check. I nod. I collect. I foam. I shave. I clear. I admire. I piss. I flush. I smear. I moisturise. I turn. I catch. I dry. I spray. I dress. I adore.
I answer. I speak. I understand. I climb. I descend. I eat. I compliment. I accept. I plan. I consider. I formulate. I read. I zone. I screen. I drink. I kiss. I extract. I gather. I accumulate. I garner. I stockpile. I brush. I check. I rise. I exit. I call. I tease. I plot. I move. I drive. I sing. I cruise. I forge. I advance. I frustrate. I lie. I speed. I overtake. I gesticulate. I rage. I growl. I glower.
I overcome. I bristle. I prowl. I dictate. I oversee. I lead. I achieve. I pioneer. I evaluate. I target. I flirt. I chastise. I laugh. I frown. I complete. I direct. I orchestrate. I demand. I secure. I fabricate. I succeed. I triumph. I challenge. I inspire. I decide. I action. I activate. I consume. I quench. I envy. I roar. I rage. I burn. I slash. I throttle. I lash. I denigrate. I belittle. I strike. I wound. I attack.
I conquer. I despise. I hate. I overrun. I dominate. I sign. I shake. I clench. I maintain. I read. I assimilate. I conduct. I move. I touch. I preserve. I continue. I subjugate. I exceed. I impress. I frighten. I illuminate. I shine. I blaze. I buy. I offer. I grace. I favour. I entertain. I joke. I outrank. I outflank. I identify.
I attract. I bind. I deceive. I con. I dedicate. I pretend. I know. I understand. I grasp. I press. I pull. I remove. I shadow. I lure. I beckon. I bestow. I receive. I evade. I deny. I deflect. I swing. I duck. I blacken. I obscure. I hide. I take. I grab. I have. I remove. I strip. I push. I enter. I thrust. I delight. I lick. I bite. I tug. I caress. I probe. I stroke. I entrance. I hypnotise. I mesmerise.
I float. I soar. I smooth. I sooth. I confuse. I defraud. I steal. I distract. I depart. I ignore. I sneer. I calculate. I follow. I invigilate. I guard. I misinform. I perjure. I mislead. I falsify. I construct. I destroy. I tell. I withhold. I reduce. I erode. I cloud. I arrive. I amass. I harbour. I harvest. I pluck. I suck. I drain. I acquire. I takeover. I obliterate. I annihilate. I beat. I overcome.
I assure. I ignite. I manipulate. I control. I assuage. I decide. I conclude. I reflect. I dismiss. I ascertain. I point. I click. I review. I tap. I send. I spin. I trap. I block. I unblock. I do. I don’t. I will. I won’t. I can. I cannot. I should. I shouldn’t. I would. I wouldn’t. I did. I didn’t. I oppose. I combine.
I bewilder. I daze. I encircle. I defend. I swoop. I revel. I increase. I fume. I snarl. I infuriate. I retaliate. I provoke. I win. I switch. I lower. I triumph. I outsmart. I outreach. I succeed. I delight. I accomplish. I remember. I twist. I turn. I grimace. I scratch. I scrape. I whisper.
I close.
I sleep.
I wake.
I am.
I repeat.
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I really enjoyed your last interview and in particular the last question about the formation of the empath! I’m so glad you want to expand on that one! Can’t wait! (and please don’t forget the contagion🙏).
Thank you.
Loved the interview. Questions abound! 🙂
This was another enjoyable interview and you raised a couple of things I wanted to comment on here.
One was the use of your work by others, and in particular the reference to a particular doctor who also uploads video to YT. Needless to say I came across that, and was stunned to find the use of your terminology, but with a slight variation on Greater (higher) and Lesser (lower). It was such obvious plagiarism, but the worst of it was when I began to listen to the explanation. I pity anyone who tries to make sense of it because it was not clear at all, which would make it more confusing for anyone trying to untangle themselves from a narcissist. It only makes sense when it’s presented exactly the way you present it, with the knowledge you have and the terms you have created. I was extremely disappointed to see this from a so called professional and obviously with no acknowledgement given. But worse was the lack of any true understanding of the concepts (e.g. mid-range narcissist). These people should stick with their own terms which generally cannot match the uniqueness or insight of your own. I get annoyed every time I read “covert narcissist” and “vulnerable narcissist”, etc., but I’m happy for them to keep those. That way they don’t pretend to have knowledge or understanding they don’t have and can’t mess it up for the people who need the knowledge you can give.
I am hurt every time I hear you say “There is no real me.” That makes me sad. I know you don’t care, or rather are unaffected in terms of what you do, but it’s the big gaping hole I imagine, that is where you should be, that upsets me. For someone with so much to offer in so many ways I just think it’s tragic. The only thing that helps me feel better is the fact that you don’t. I still wish it could be different.
Also, I got a little bit frustrated with the interruptions this time. Doug talked over the top of you a number of times, and I know there’s probably a time delay which makes it difficult, but that was getting on my nerves. Having said that, it was an interesting discussion and interesting to hear about your daily routine, i.e. A Day in the Life of H.G. Tudor 🙂 I’ve been watching “Escape Room” movies recently, and can imagine how hard it would be to get into that bolt hole of yours.
Thank you LET, I agree with your pertinent observations in your second paragraph and I am pleased you enjoyed the interview.
I ventured onto Quora again last night, I don’t even remember why but since I was there I checked out what people have been saying about HG and I found quite a few using his terminology. It was nice to see. His system makes it so logical, so well laid out, not to mention the accuracy of it, that once a person knows anything about narcissism HG’s is clearly the only system worth using. A few days ago I had opportunity to share it a bit more with my son and once he understood the basics.he stopped trying to argue.with me, that I should stay away from HG, and actually listened. He then said “Wow, that makes sense.” It’s a wonderful tool for teaching people about narcissism. I watched as I talked how his focus went off of HG and his fears around my interactions with him to seeing the sense in the system, it was actually quite amazing.
Back to Quora, it has been a place I’ve steered clear of, it seemed scary. But, last night, probably my 3rd time on there, I realized it is a place to have some potential impact, to spread.the word. So I left a few comments pointing people to HG’s work. If anyone those was so inclined, I think it could help people get here and get help. Maybe you all already do of course, I’m often behind! 😂
Thank you for doing so. I did have a presence on Quora a few years ago, but do not have the time to maintain it, so I do appreciate you and other readers going there and posting links and referring people to my work.
You are welcome HG. Anything I can do to spread word of your work I consider a valuable use of my time. I consider doing so but a teeny-tiny payback for the enormous positive impact your work has had in my life. I often wish there was a way to do more.
I went there just to.check out the whack job who claims she’s his ex-girlfriend. Strangely and mysteriously, everything she said contradicted everything else she said. Hmm, where’ve I seen that before? “Truths, half-truths …” (Been referring a lot of people to that on DM articles, as well as the “Harry’s Wife” series.)
HG, is your Quora stalker just delusional, or is she the kind of narc who thinks she’s an empath?
Plain delusional.
She is a nut. Wow. My guess is a narc who thinks she’s an empath. And that she’s quite taken with HG, she does seem to speak well of certain aspects, but they are only ones that would reflect well on her also.
Dearest A Victor,
I just checked Quora and surprisingly found the comments quite scathing of Mr Tudor and Sam Vaknin
Apparently Mr Tudor is really secretly a woman (he uses a device to disguise his/her voice) is actually a cat lady to 6,000 odd cats and uses the proceeds to feed them and for vet fees
Mr Tudor has absolutely no qualifications which he steals information from others and his followers are unintelligent gullible emotional women who are just being scammed by a professional con artist.
Luv Bubbles xx 😘
Hi Sweet Bubbles!
I know, haha, hence my sharing of my experience with HG’s materials, just to off-set that as much as I can and also, if someone reads their story in the bit I shared, maybe they will also come here and get some help. It does seem a bit overwhelming, the negativity. It is also the reason I don’t like commenting on YT. People here are quite sweet usually, even if there is something that needs correcting, this is a place of learning. In those places, people don’t seem to realize, or care, that they’re talking to another human and their words can be hurtful. Also, I strongly believe that concepts laid out as matter-of-factly and kindly as possible are better heard by the majority of people, those who respond negatively I don’t pull any punches with but I don’t like having to do it, it is stressful. So in a place where that is likely to happen, it is not my preference. I will go just to spread the word and leave again, not really interact, except to counteract if there is something worth speaking to.
One of the points I will make at some time is that it makes no difference to me if HG is an old cat lady, hahahha-this idea is hilarious to met!, but it makes no difference as to the help I have received. And, if he is using the proceeds to help house and feed 6,000 cats, more power to him!! I’m happy to help, I love cats! Haha, those ideas are so…stupid, I just laugh!
As to the no credentials, who cares?!?!? Again, the help received off-sets any need for them. “unintelligent gullible emotional women who are just being scammed”, they can call me what they will, I know better.
As to Vaknin, I tend to agree with many of the opinions there, though I would not say so since I’m sure he helps some. I found him creepy, boring and not all that intelligent, the little bit I saw on YT, though I might have a different opinion now that I know more. I happened upon him just prior to getting to narcsite and thankfully had heard from a number of different people about narcissism, things that made sense, so that I kept looking. Had I come across Vaknin first, likely I would’ve stopped right there.
I won’t spend any large amount of time there, I am too busy and I prefer to be here anyway, but, once in a while it will be okay.
Your comments a few months ago are the ones that got me there in the first place, so I thank you for that!
AV 🥰
Bubbles, yes, I read the same “information” about HG too and that was before I joined KTN blog! I couldn’t care less about….sorry what was the name of the other person you mentioned? 😉
Dearest Asp Emp,
Exactly
I’m with you …. who? 😂
Luv Bubbles xx 😘
Dearest A Victor,
The person who said that was highly likely a narc anyway
The comments on Facebook/Quora and such, I now tend to view as mild ‘ho hum’ amusement and nonsense ……it’s a right narcfest out there and now that we have been educated, we can laugh at them ……knowingly 🤣
AV, I happened to stumble across Mr Tudor after going thru copious painful YT’s. There was a bloke called Tom ‘Narcissism Survivor’ I quite liked and Pyschopath Free by Jackson Mackenzie was my first book introduction.
I still come across bibs n bobs, this that n the other, however this place definitely remains home…. haha
Awe AV, my comments resonated with you, how lovely
Was it funny ? 😂
Thank you dear one…. you just made my day 🤗
💞
Luv Bubbles xx 😘
What interview was it Jasmin? I would like to hear that also.
‘Dazed but not confused’ is the name of the YT channel. Probably still the latest video published so easy to find.
Brings up slightly what causes the empathic individuals school.
LOCE – Co-D or Super.
Safe environment – standard.
Therefore I assume that a LOCE would highly likely be a result of being an ACON, but could also be caused by another type of traumatic experience. The standard could be an ACON but been shielded and given safety through someone else/others.
Hi Jasmin, that sounds so interesting! I can’t wait to listen to it! Thank you so much!
Jasmin, they were good interviews. I would suggest that ACONs would be ‘created’ as a result of continuous narcissistic abuse from a child. A one-off traumatic experience would not necessarily lead to an ACON being formed. Interesting to read what you have to say, thank you for sharing it.
Hi Asp Emp,
Yes, they were very good interviews.
What I wanted to say was that one (or more) traumatic experience(s) could cause a LOCE and possibly cause the formation of a Co-Dependent or a Super empath.
It’s not something I know but it’s my guess based on what I’ve learned from HG about the formation of the narsissist and the information given from participants on this blog. Some have non- narsisist parents but have Super and/or Co-D in there empathic makeup. Some have narcissist(s) parent but are standard.
I think you can’t be an ACON missing the narc parent? And if you have a narc parent but never interacted, I think you would still be an ACON – a very blessed one!😅🙏
Hi AV,
Just in case jasmin doesn’t see your question, it was an interview on YouTube with Doug Kramer, who has a channel called ‘Dazed but Not Confuzed’. The video was uploaded a few days ago. Doug has interviewed HG two times before as well.
If you do a YouTube search on ‘HG Tudor Doug Kramer’ you should be able to find it easily.
Thank you WiserNow!! Thank you so much!! It is being added to my weekend playlist!
You’re welcome AV.
Thanks for the search terms WiserNow. (I love this series with Doug – listening now.)
You did another interview with Doug, HG!?
Doug is so likeable.
Well, you are too HG.
You’re welcome WhoCares. Yes, Doug is likeable and has a good interviewing style. I haven’t seen the previous two interviews. I’m looking forward to watching them.
WN,
The first two interviews are good and Doug’s enthusiasm for HG’s work is even more on display!
WhoCares,
Doug is definitely a big fan of HG’s work. In this recent interview, Doug made some comments about his past experience in a cult (Scientology). He has first-hand experience/awareness. I thought that made his questions insightful and on-point too.
Thank-you Jasmin for mentioning HG’s latest interview.
Yes, the bit on empaths (and normals) is really something a lot of blog readers would want to listen to.
Doug asked some great questions.
HG, excellent interview. I really enjoyed how you were more explicit with regard to some of your answers. Especially, on the current dynamic with the Shieldmaiden – I know that would definitely interest some blog followers!
Oh wow! This interview just got moved up in the queue!
Agreed that Doug is very likeable and asks great questions. Yes, many blog readers would want to listen. I think it is easy to miss. I had missed the first 2 interviews and was lucky to find the 3rd.
Jasmin,
I try not to miss the interviews (if I can help it) and even re-listen to them. I often find that HG drops little tidbits during them that aren’t to be found elsewhere.
I subscribed to Doug so I will catch future ones. I also find some of his cultstuff interesting, in small doses. Thank you for mentioning the interview here, it is good.
Miss you HG. Are you and the Sheild madian still going strong?
I’m guessing that a no.
See the last interview with HG at ‘dazed but not confused’
8 paragraphs = 8 breaks (or pauses)…….LOL.
It always stands out to me how many times ‘I’ is repeated in this post. Plus, there are no reflective or contemplative words and no sense of ‘endeavouring’ or ‘attempting’. Such as: ‘I remember’ or ‘I persevere’ or ‘I try’. There’s a cold, clinical, desensitised feel about the words used. Just like switching a machine on, using it in the moment, and then switching if off.
Reading this makes me think it’s the narcissist who operates like an ‘appliance’ and the narcissist projects that self-state onto others.
HG, you are self-aware, imaginative, and you can also be very personable when you choose to be. Underneath your ‘facade’, are your inner thoughts as ‘machine-like’ as this post presents?
Yes, that is why I am so effective, I do not allow redundant distractions unlike weaker individuals.
Thank you HG, for providing your perspective.
Deus ex machina 😊 Especially with this sudden appearance, initial rescue and redirecting attention – taking control 😊
Though I prefer to flatten “my” narcissist into the role of a clown suddenly popping out of the box.
A smile allows me to face the situation more gently. Like a wound balm. Such stratagems in my head always saved me from the worst of oppressions.
All these years, I have deliberately called him “Clown”, although he is much more …
In fact, “my” (it starts to annoy me with this term!) fulfills both of these roles at the same time… God and the Clown. Simultaneously. A clown with a welded tin crown 😊
A regular Clown, with that goddamn unusual magnet. The fucking minus.
Wish you are Perpetuum Mobile. You wouldn’t have to draw fuel. Though maybe that’s what saves us. Fuel like a bargaining chip.
Regardless of everything, the same Truth awaits us at the end, or just the same End.
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Text – life like life, full of verbs. Some people have more than others. For me, they are additionally sprinkled with adjectives. Lots of adjectives.
When your narc comes to mind, think of the last few minutes of the Twilight Zone episode “It’s a Good Life.”
Then wish him into the cornfield.
Violetta, I do not know this. I’m bad at movies and actors, especially American productions. I have my own niche interests in this regard.
But I guess it’s a nightmare 🙂
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_C34g5mz1ZQ
This has become a favorite. It seems a bit different this time but just as powerful.
Don’t theorize, realise, polarise (I feel numb)
Chance, dance, dismiss, apologise (Gimme what you got)
(Gimme what I don’t get)
(Gimme what you got)
(Too much is not enough)
Don’t spy (I feel numb)
Don’t lie
Don’t try
Imply
Detain
Explain
Start again (I feel numb).
I think this is one of the most genius articles you wrote, for so many reasons.
Thank you.
My pleasure.