This is a series whereby you get to write to the empath, namely yourself in order to impart your knowledge wisdom from where you are now to your past self at the beginning or in the midst of the narcissistic entanglement.
Dear An English Rose
I am your future self. I have hopped into my TARDIS and transported back to this day, five years ago to the day for me in 2020. No, we cannot meet. That would be disastrous to our time lines and the causal nexus.
Right now, you perceive you have escaped. You cannot know what an unbelievable achievement that is. What you have done is utterly mind boggling stupendously awesomely brilliant. He would have killed you if you had stayed, you know? You have escaped, for now. So let out that breath. You are safe for the time being.
Ahh, I’ve triggered a memory haven’t I? I see you now frantically pushing it back. No, I don’t want to hear your excuses as to why you kept your head down. In realty, you probably did the right thing but for the wrong reason. I’m sorry, I do not mean to sound so harsh but then, you are mentally ill from what has happened to you and your mind has sought to protect you from the full horror of what you have experienced your entire life. That day will come when it all unfolds and when it does, you must be very brave and very strong.
But for now, I do know what is in the forefront of your mind. You are thinking about the furniture for the cottage, perhaps taking some more cheeky pictures (give me strength) and of course how the children will acclimatise to their new life? You will achieve all of this and more. The big problem is that right now, you cannot appreciate how much of your life has been built on shifting sands. But I mustn’t say too much. I don’t want you altering where I am right now. I can say though that 2019 will be a pivotal year for you. We are going to be tested in ways that would seem to be very hell on earth. But you/me/us will get through it. No, it cannot be avoided. That particular timeline was set in motion back in the September of 1995 and is a fixed point. It cannot be altered and it was always to to turn out this way. People act within their own natures and he would never have been able to change his. Or you, yours for that matter.
You are about to go on one hell of a ride. The ride of your life. You will meet people, experience things, achieve in ways you cannot even possibly comprehend now. What can I tell you? Hmm, you will meet an ex-solider who is not what he seems, a very sly biker, a knight (have fun with him!), a very angry man and of course Loki.The man who you are with and gave you your name will not last but I know you know that. He will disappear, you’ll never see him again. All of these relationships you must experience because one day, a great teacher will appear and you will finally understand.
But there are other matters, not just about relationships. You will go on to write (Yeah I know! We always hated that at school), you will help others and sometimes you will be attacked for it. You will go on to develop theories concerning chaos, causality, entropy and boundary conditions (remember those? THEY’RE BACK!) You will even question the nature of time itself. Sometimes you will believe you are going mad; you are not. I had ourselves tested. Twice. I’ve got the certificate somewhere…
Right now, you are going to have fun and fun you shall have. Don’t take on too much, be kind and gentle with yourself and remember that people are not what they seem so do not trust so easily!
Take care of yourself
Love
Ren
x
P.S Be VERY wary of March ’18/’19 and ’20
P.P.S DON’T spend any money on therapy, it’s fucking pointless!
If you would like to write a Letter to the Empath, please do so and email it to narcissit1909@gmail.com headed “Letter to the Empath”.