Dear Narcissist,
Something was always off but I couldn’t for the life of me figure it out. For years I tried to improve myself and to prove to you what real love is about. No matter how much I did and no matter how much we had you could never be happy. There was always this vast inner void that could never be filled.
You were wonderful and charming in the beginning. Everything a single mother and woman would want. Helpful and caring a father figure who wanted a family. You were the easy and most obvious choice for me. My friends thought I was living a Cinderella story.
Everything was an illusion, it fell apart quickly. Since this was my second marriage I was determined to keep this mess of a marriage going. This was the biggest lie and mistake of my life. You do not comprehend love. You did do some grand gestures along the way that kept me hanging on.
In the end you all but tore apart a family and all that I held sacred. It took me years to figure out this mess. All that is Holy meant nothing. You are loyal to no one not even yourself.
Even though I feel nothing now your greatest impact on me is that I don’t trust myself and my feelings. I second guess things over think things . I’m terrified of meeting another monster such as yourself. Narcissists are the living breathing monsters that walk amongst us looking for their next empath to feed on.
J