What we had was beautiful, precious, the happiest time of my life.
I adored you, gave you everything and was happy to do so. What I had was yours, after all we were one, we were building a life together…… until you weren’t.
You kicked me to the gutter in just the rags that I was wearing, not daring to look up at passers by for fear of being judged or kicked down further.
The day you disappeared my world fell apart, from the strongest of people, I crumbled, became a shadow of myself, but I am back.
I made excuses for you, gave up my friends to be with you and you allowed me to do so, knowing that it would all fall apart, just like it had so many times before. I don’t envy her, I pity her, she will see, they all see eventually.
Those empty eyes, I see them now, the loneliness, despair and confusion that you live with, the squaler that you live in is all yours to keep.
I don’t hate you, I don’t love you anymore but I don´t hate you.
This thing that you have become has taken the very thing that you crave, control… it controls you!