Letter to the Narcissist – No. 122
What we had was beautiful, precious, the happiest time of my life.
I adored you, gave you everything and was happy to do so. What I had was yours, after all we were one, we were building a life together…… until you weren’t.
You kicked me to the gutter in just the rags that I was wearing, not daring to look up at passers by for fear of being judged or kicked down further.
The day you disappeared my world fell apart, from the strongest of people, I crumbled, became a shadow of myself, but I am back.
I made excuses for you, gave up my friends to be with you and you allowed me to do so, knowing that it would all fall apart, just like it had so many times before. I don’t envy her, I pity her, she will see, they all see eventually.
Those empty eyes, I see them now, the loneliness, despair and confusion that you live with, the squaler that you live in is all yours to keep.
I don’t hate you, I don’t love you anymore but I don´t hate you.
This thing that you have become has taken the very thing that you crave, control… it controls you!
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Carole,
A clear, concise letter.
It sounds like you’ve made your own closure – good for you!
“This thing that you have become has taken the very thing that you crave, control… it controls you!”
Well summurised. The ‘creature’ controls the individual with narcissism, unaware narcissists do not know exactly what is “driving” them, aware narcissists do know what they are yet they may not always react as ‘dictated’ by their creature but they do calculate their ‘action’ in order to quieten it.
It could be suggested that for some empaths, their ET “controls” them, sometimes, even with HG’s education obtained. It depends on how the ET is managed / instructed by LT.
It is a rather sad letter, as the author understood what she was involved in and had moved on in her life from this ensnarement she refers to here.
This one is so sad but also so happy, she wins!! She is stronger, smarter and so much more prepared now, he is still the same. This is fantastic.