This Time It Will Work



When you first come into my sights, when you appear between those crosshairs and I sense your empathic qualities, your adherence to the traits which make you so attractive to me, I am filled with optimism. I have spoken on many occasions about my need to extract fuel on a daily basis. This ritual necessitates the acquisition of someone who will be my primary source and then a whole host of secondary and tertiary sources who are drawn from friends, family, strangers, colleagues and so forth. It is a ceaseless task but one which I am built for, one I have been designed for and one which I will always apply myself to.

I prefer to conserve my energies and that is why I live in hope that this time the person that I have targeted will be the one who will not let me down. On this occasion I have found the person who will be my primary source so that I never have to embark on the devaluation of this person because they have failed in their obligation to provide me with fuel. Many people may regard me as prejudicial person and it is true that I pre-judge people, but only ever do so on the basis of satisfactory evidence.

I look for the necessary traits in how you interact with others, the things that you say and what you do. I watch carefully before I make my move. When I see the very things which I cherish and require for the purposes of gathering fuel, I experience an elation. There is excitement and anticipation. Mostly it is because of the fuel which I hope to gather from you, that delicious and golden fuel which super charges me, invigorates me and provides me with the power to sail through life charming and attracting. However, my excitement is not all based on the anticipation of tasting your fuel. No, a significant part of my anticipation is borne out of the fact that you might just be the one.

You could be that person who does not let me down. You could be the one who finally provides me with such sweet fuel that I never have to go elsewhere for a primary supply. I cannot give up my supplementary sources as they are a reserve and a contingency for when I am not able to draw my main fuel from you as my primary source. This is not because I have cast you aside or because you have committed that treacherous act of escaping me and instigating no contact. Not at all. The reserve is required because owing to various factors I cannot be by your side every hour of day or in some form of contact with you to this extent.

This means that much as I delight in your sweet, sweet fuel, I am forced to obtain it elsewhere and this is from those supplementary sources. It is you however that I still look to for the best fuel. You who I look to in order to provide me with the most fuel and to do so with comforting regularity. I want this fuel from just one primary source. You seem to think that I revel in the abuse that I dole out when I devalue my primary source victim, but I do not. It may look that way, a side effect of the power that courses through me as I drink deep of that negative fuel but in truth I would much rather never have to go down that route.

I would prefer that you continue to pump out that positive fuel to such an extent that it always remains satisfactory for me. I want you to be the one that is always there, reliable, dependable and magnificent in the production of your fuel. You would benefit too. There would be no awful abuse as devaluation takes place. There would be no mystifying discard (mystifying to you at least – it makes perfect sense to me) and then I would not even have to go to the trouble of applying various types of hoover in order to bring you back to me.

Imagine avoiding all of that and remaining in the glorious golden period of seduction the whole time? I know how much you love that. I have seen it in your eyes, I have seen you speak of it and of course I have seen how hard you have fought at times to recover it. You adore and worship the golden period and you can have that. You can have that all the time. All I ask of you is to keep providing me with that fuel at the potency and level that is appropriate and demanded. It cannot be too difficult for you can it? You once did it. You provided it brilliantly but then you let me down by not providing the quality I was used to.

You diminished the frequency and became unreliable, thus hurting me and that could not be countenanced. You had to be hurt in return. There was no hope for any other way. Imagine being able to avoid bringing all that horror on yourself as you keep doing what is necessary. You keep giving me my fuel at the prescribed level and in return you get to stay in the golden period forever. This is what I hope for too and you think that I am selfish. Not at all. We both win. You have the golden period and I have the golden fuel. This is what I hope for each time a new target presents itself and I begin my work to consider moving to the seduction of this target.

I am filled with hope, I am filled with optimism that this time, just for once, you will keep on doing what I need and you will not let me down. No matter how many times this has happened in the past. No matter how many times I have been betrayed and hurt by the treasonable conduct of those who said, so many times, that they loved me and they always would, I have always continued to believe in the power and capacity that the next target may just be the one. I am not a bad person for believing in that way am I? I just want to find the right one for me. Just like you do.

You want to find the person that you will love for the rest of your life, I want to find the person whose fuel I will love for the rest of my life. Surely you can understand and appreciate that? Surely you must accept that such a notion is noble? Surely you understand why I always think that you might be the one. This time.

13 thoughts on “This Time It Will Work

  1. Amy Norris says:

    This picture depicts beginning of life, fresh starts, and beyond infinity, symbolized also by romance, etc. Brilliant 👏 to whoever created and whoever chose it. Quite unique.

  2. Patricia N says:

    But I didn’t change. I didn’t diminish my fuel level or its frequency. So why was that not enough?

  3. Mag says:

    Each time I change my mind he forgives my rebellious behavior

  4. annaamel says:

    ‘It is a ceaseless task but one which I am built for, one I have been designed for and one which I will always apply myself to.’


    I want to ask about your use of the word design. I don’t think you believe in a grand designer. Do you feel like there is a source or entity external to you which has deliberately made you the way you are?

    1. HG Tudor says:


      1. Contagious says:

        Is your grand design referenced in relation to Hawkings?

      2. annaamel says:

        Thankyou. Have you changed your views over the last couple of years? You have said this in the past: ‘If there was no God then how is it that I have been chosen to be as special as I am. Who else would lead and create and test. His power flows through me, I am his instrument and I am blessed with his power of judgement.’ I recognise you sometimes claim to have views just to meet the expectations of others.

        Contagious, I am not sure if your question about Hawking was for me or HG. If it was for me, no, it wasn’t a reference to Hawking.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          No, I was demonstrating through that writing how the narcissist will adopt religion in that manner for the Prime Aims

  5. foxkrystalle66 says:

    HG: I am curious about something. What would happen if you truly did find the “One” where she knew everything about you….

    I mean Everything HG…No secrets, no lies.
    Including the good doctors diagnosis of you.
    Narcissist/Psychopath or Sociopath not sure which one it is.
    What would happen if indeed you did find the “One”
    Where you could be your true self with that person and have no fear that she will let you down or disappoint you again like all the other “Ones” did in your past.

    That person truly loved you, kept you well fueled and fed on every level; accepted you and even allowed for your extra curricular activities on the side.

    Could you actually handle having a person like that in your life.

    The reason I bring that up is because the late Sharon Tate, wife of Roman Polanski knew of her husband’s affairs and thirst for young woman.

    Her husband was away from home alot sometimes for months at a time.
    She understood him and also knew that a man has strong sexual needs.
    She also mentioned sometimes these needs can only be fulfilled outside the relationship..

    Sharon allowed him that. Because she loved and accepted her Husband and didn’t want to change him. She knew everything about that man before she married him.

    I have no doubt that each time you meet someone you have targeted, you really do want that person to be the “One”..

    I also think that as a result of more truthful information being revealed and offered through your audios, interviews etc people are becoming more open and less fearful.

    More people have come to understand what this disorder is all about: come to terms with it..

    There is a shift happening here and it’s all due in parcel to you HG and the legacy you intend to leave behind when you leave this world.

    I can guarantee HG you will NOT be forgotten.

    I apologize for the word salad that seems to go on forever, but I really do believe HG that anything is possible. That the “One” you deeply desire and have for Life as your IPPS is out there in the world..

    You can have that “One and Only”…ask yourself…
    Can you handle that? Cause she will show up…
    She will come in to your life.. guaranteed….

    1. HG Tudor says:

      They would ultimately be devalued and possibly disengaged from.

      1. Mag says:

        wow how sad

  6. Chime says:

    Is this why I haven’t been able to break away for 9 years? This rings so true. I need to meet someone fresh and new to be able to break away.

  7. Nadine says:

    Hi HG,

    private i dont wanna fand any more the narcicissist of my life…But the autor about this i fand for all my life-YOU, HG.

    Try to introduce your books in German, plz. Your are inknown in thise language.


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