The 5 Wants of the Narcissist

THE 5 WANTS OF THE NARCISSIST

  1. I want your fuel

 

I want your fuel. I want it all and I want it from you, him, her, them and especially you. I want it from the moment I rise until the moment I am embraced by slumber. I want it pouring over me, potent and plenty, gushing from you. I want your positive fuel, the joy, the adoration, the love, the passion and the praise. I want your negative fuel, the hatred, the anger, the tears and the fear. Pour it over me, immerse me in that edifying, invigorating and sustaining fuel. There is never enough and I want to keep on experiencing the surge as your fuel increases the flames inside me, burning and rising, powering me as I blaze a trail through all that `I do. I want your fuel now, tomorrow and always.

  1. I want to engulf you

I am immense, a giant, a prince amongst men, a behemoth that moves with ease and purpose about the earth. I want to subsume you into me, ensuring that there is no trace of you left as I fully integrate you into what I am. I want my tendrils to reach out to you, feeling their way towards the fuel vapours that emanate from you, their probing senses tracking you down. I want them to coil about you and pull you towards me, binding you to me until steadily I suck you into my world and into my false reality. I want you hooked up, connected, locked-in, attached and embedded as little by little I consume you and encompass you with my greatness. You will not resist for the elation and delight that you experience as this process happens is irresistible. I want to own you, I want you to become part of me, I want there to be no start to you and any end to me.

  1. I want to be the one

I want to be the one that you think of all of the time. I want you to be the person that you orbit around, your sun, your centre of the universe. I want to be the one that is recognised for my greatness, for my brilliance and my achievements. I do not care that I have exaggerated them or stolen them from others whom I have brushed against, stripping away facets of their character to add to my own. I have no care for that. All I care is that I am the one towards whom heads turn when I enter a room. I am the one who is applauded. I want to be the one who leads, conquers and smites. The destroyer of worlds, the creator of new ones, a god. I want to be the one whose power radiates from him so that is tangible to all those who look upon me. I want to be the one who shocks and awes. I want to be the one who does. I want to be the one who rules, who presides and who dictates. I want to be the one you rely on, turn to and devote yourself too. I want to be the one who is credited for all successes, I want to be the one who is your alpha and your omega, your first thought and your last thought. I want to be the one whose name you utter with your dying breath.

  1. I want your essence

I am the stealer of souls, the charlatan that comes and with sugar-coated promises and offers you the world in exchange for your very essence. You never realise that this is the cost of this transaction but I want to suck the essence from within you, drain you of it and consume it for myself. I want to leave you a broken, dried out husk. I want your essence to fill the gaping hole that endures inside of me. I want that sweet, wonderful essence to flow through me, easing the pain, soothing the fevered freneticism and bring comfort and relief. Like a purifying river, I want your essence to course through me, sweeping away the disease that riddles me. I want your essence to wipe away the dirt, remove the smears and eradicate the stains. I know I flirt with all kinds of dirt, but your essence will save me from such temptation. That is why I want it.

  1. I want it to stop

Or do I?

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9 thoughts on “The 5 Wants of the Narcissist”

  1. “And I never wanted anything from you
    Except everything you had
    And what was left after that too.”

    -Florence + the Machine (Dog Days Are Over)

      1. Chi Mum,

        Yep, then they fill us back up so they can do it all over again.

  2. You know what is killing me? Its hope they that they take that does the most damage. Throughout life we believe if we just try hard enough, be good enough, shoulder the impossible, suffered enough, all with a good attitude we will finally earn our freedom, be shown the light, given the key and reach the place that we can love and be loved. A place where we are treated with honor and respect. A place where we fit, made just for us and our talents. Where we can use those talents as part of the whole and finally make things right. Instead we are shown that there is no place like that. Life will forever be an endless battle locked with the narcissists for eternity. They use and abuse and we clean up the mess. Forever downing it their sh*t. Because that’s all we are ever given, sh*t. From birth, fed an endless diet of narcissistic sh*t, yum!

  3. Mr HG, let`s be candid, shall we? The “soul” that you seek is your own soul, the validation of self that you were deprived of as a child, when you were treated as more of an object than a child. Unconditional love you did not receive, so now you demand it from your victims. An object who performs, that’s what you were, an appliance. The thing is about all that, all those emotions, “fuel,” that you claim to consume does nothing for you, no, not one iota. Goes in the bottomless void, right thru, like a bottomless glass, good going in but does nothing to fill you and never will. Why not? Because you cannot see anyone, you are looking for your “self,” everyone you see you only see yourself looking back, and that will never satisfy you, because your child self has no validation, has been declared unworthy, shamed, unloved, a mere object by the person who was supposed to have unconditional love and security, and must be destroyed. You destroy yourself over and over again, and by transferring also destroying your abuser by becoming the monster, your abuser, the abuser. You cannot eat souls, you are a little child, with a child`s logic, with an adult intelligent and body.

    1. Oh boy I think you nailed it. Narcissists such no doubt however sometimes I feels so sad for.them. They are simply children who were abused and their souls literally died but their bodies didn’t .

    2. Our souls are our internal power so to speak. Narcissists have no souls no internal engine that powers them up. Each day they wake needing to find a generators because their internal power is out and it can’t be fixed. These people are so painfully dependent that they refuse to see how very dependent they are on others. The thought of not being able to generate any internal power scares them so deeply that they spend their entire lives trying to convince everyone that they are superior and need no one which is absolutely not the case. It’s always opposite land with a Narc They really are so painfully dependent

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