A Personal Jesus
I am your personal Jesus. I enter your life and bring light and healing. Have you been hurt and damaged by another who did not value the honesty, decency and truthfulness by which you lead your life? I will soothe your fevered brow and reassure you that you are a good person. I bring calm where there is confusion and misunderstanding. Listen to me as I explain to you how the world really is. I have created paradise. I will open its gates and let you gaze upon it. Feel the love, warmth and tranquillity flow from it. This is all yours. All you need to do is follow me. That is all I ask. Come with me and I will be your world. I am everywhere and understand everything. When you are feeling down I will call you and remind you of how wonderful you are. My angels will remind you through my text messages and love notes of how special you are. You have a place reserved in my heaven. I chose it for you.
If you feel that your journey through life has taken a wrong turn, let me guide you. If the road ahead seems dark and stony, do not be troubled. Climb onto my back and let me carry you. I am your angel and my wingspan is wide enough to protect both of us from the darkness that lurks in the world. Open your heart to me. Give it freely and it will prosper under my stewardship. Listen to my words. They are imbued with wisdom and you are welcome to keep them as watchword to your heart. For too long you have struggled alone. I am here to relieve your burden and show you the wonderful, beautiful perfect love that you deserve. Just take my hand and follow me.
I am your saviour.
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My narc often compares himself to Jesus. Out loud. He seems to feel no embarrassment about this and apparently really believes that they are alike. The similarities between himself and Jesus were often trotted out when I didn’t accept his worldview of sinister Jewish conspiracies, or when he was aggrieved that he’d told someone the “right” way to do something and they’d chosen to ignore his wisdom and do things differently. People didn’t listen to Jesus, either. You have no idea how many times I’ve heard that.
The subject of paying taxes was another one where he became Messianic. Apparently it’s “our” fault (the sheep, of which he is not one) the government behaves as it does, if we would only all stop paying our taxes they would be forced to listen to us. He’s just taken up smoking (in his fifties!) He does not see his voluntary payment of large amounts of extra tax from buying cigarettes as hypocritical and it does not change the lecture in the slightest. I guess if Jesus were around to hang with his buddy, the narc, he would also stand outside pubs smoking B&H while discussing how to stick it to the man.🙄
Littlebit,
Your comment and the way you describe the narcissist you know made me chuckle. From a distance and with enough awareness, they can be quite comical and very hypocritical at times.
Yours is a perfect example of how grandiose and deluded they can be.
Littlebit, my sis had a narc husband that took up smoking at nearly 50 also. We always say that and A LOT of other things were signs that he changed drastically and was not the same man she married. It all makes sense now that I’ve found HGs work. I think the smoking was either (a) a long standing habit that was put down for the golden/bronze period and picked back up during devaluation; or (b) taken up during the seduction of a new target while she was in devaluation.
MB
My MMRN started smoking when he began the seduction of his IPSS and it was the same brand of cigarettes that the IPSS smoked.
This was one of the first posts I read when I found the blog. On more than one occasion my ex called himself my Saviour. I am now sure he did it for the fuel. I would always get irate. Jesus is my Saviour and will always be the only Saviour for me. He loves me and I do not understand why. I always include my ex in my prayers. I pray that Jesus cures my ex of his NPD.
Yes! Follow me to a place you will forever be praying to get out of!!
There is only One Who is my personal Savior, and He is not a Narcissist.
Jesus is Everything. He loves Mr. Tudor, too.
He loves me even when I misbehave terribly. I am trying to do better, though.
Hi HG,
I’m not sure how to phrase this as you don’t feel any kind of connection, but still – when you have a really full-on submissive partner who is happy to controlled, punished, whatever, — does this make you more uhm satisfied with the relationship? Is it more “special” (well, I suppose you don’t do special)? Do you appreciate the bond your partner feels?
It is covered by fuel provision.
All of you narcissists want to be Jesus, Sam too. Lucifer did too, and he’s the first narcissist. Jesus is not a narcissist, as Sam would have you believe. Jesus wasn’t in it for his own glory, he said the 2nd greatest commandment is, Love your neighbor as yourself, and the greatest commandment is Love God with all your heart, soul and mind.
What emotions does a narc have? Jealousy, hate, envy, anger (fury) – these are only evil.
I’m not a narc, I know they do believe in God, I know you don’t have to be a narc to be self-centered, and, well, I get off the path from time to time too – like when I’m obsessed over a narcissist. But narc aren’t superior, they’re jerks. They can’t give it up because it’s either their choice to choose evil, or because it’s insanity. Psychopathy is evil and insane. It’s not good for an individual or for society, and it’s not healthy for the narc themselves, always being in fear of exposure, slaves to their creature and their disease.
Yes
I have read about the reality gap concerning the mid range narcissist. I have also read about the co dependent being the opposite side of the same coin, and a frequent target for abusive relationships. I am wondering if it is possible for a co dependent to have a reality gap as well. Where the narcissist’s reality gap occurs because of perceived self importance and entitlement, the co dependent sees where they should be as opposed to where they are not because of entitlement but because of sacrifice and a constant need to give. It would be directed outward as opposed to self, anger at other’s who have not earned what they have received, or people who have failed to notice how hard the co dependent tries and tries yet is left spinning their wheels so to speak.
My friend is a co dependent and has recently entered into therapy for self esteem issues as well as her relationship with the narc. She has been subjected to the antics of a (possibly) narcissistic boss who’s behavior has gotten to the point where it can no longer be ignored for two years. She has bemoaned this situation for quite some time, yet when people finally step in to handle this particular boss she has chosen instead to defend them. No matter how bad the situation is she will always find a way to be the good person, including giving a co worker (whom she loathes and is currently in competition for a job position) a heads up on how the interviews were set up.
She is also in complete denial that she was involved with a narcissist. While she recognizes she was in an abusive relationship and on the surface agrees that’s what he is, she has made several statements that lead me to believe she doesn’t quite believe that he is a narc. She once told me (this time last year, in fact) that he kept his exes on FB to play mind games with them. At his goodbye party, a few exes were there and warned her that once he is gone, he is gone. She has latched onto that, believing he will not hoover her, and that after four years she knows all of his manipulations. She has dismissed my role more or less. When I explained to her I did not come up with narcissism to get myself off the hook, I mentioned his reaction after I cut ties and blocked him on social media. She inferred that she had already been aware of his coke rampage, and when he called to apologize she was “whatever, I knew what was going on.”
I was there when it happened. Shortly after I sent the message to him and then blocked him he forwarded the message to her asking her what the hell was going on and then severed ties with her for several days as she left pleading and panicked voicemails telling him she didn’t deserve to be treated like this and why was he acting like this?
I apologize for the amateur psychology hour, I have had this floating around in the back of my head for awhile. I would be delighted to read any input on this.
You explained very well… I read the “Personal Jesus” first of all the title with Dave Gahan voice in head. I thought literally Jesus I am the Narc.
However, I think I am the Co-dependant who thought love cured all who wants the World to be a beautiful place.
wounded
what do you mean “I have read about the reality gap concerning the mid range narcissist.” Please educate me or tell me what to read. Thanks!
‘We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just letting you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel like you’ve been down the same road..’
HG,
it is said that it is typical for narcs to brag about his new intimate partner on social media, to show his friends and former victims how happy he is with new partner, how perfect couple they are.
But a narcissist I know never does that. He never posts photos with women, looking at his social media you can tell he is a single guy. BUT he doesn’t mind and even like it when the partner brags about him on her social media, posts pictures with him but he doesn’t do the same on his social media platforms.
He only posts something “partner related” when he hoovers exes. It is passive and mysterious in nature, only a former victim knows it is directed at her to provoke a reaction for example a photo of a restaurant they both liked, a photo of a place he kissed her first time and so on. But he never posts anything that would tell his followers who he is dating right now. If you want to know who his partner is, you will have to check his followers social media – there is always a girl who posts pictures with him but he will never do the same. But when they break up ot he gives her a silent treatment he would start posting these mysterious hoovering posts.
Why is that? He is a M-R.
To keep his options open so he cannot be pinned down to one. Further to cause the individual to try harder to be the subject of a post or announcement.
Faking being an empath and leading people into hell.
This makes me think it could have been written by Charles Manson or Jim Jones or someone else like that. I feel a cult coming on…