Ghosts

GHOSTS-3

Whether you believe in ghosts or not, we certainly behave with certain similar attributes. We appear out of thin air. It is similar to how you can never remember the beginning of a dream can you? You cannot remember quite how we appeared. We just did. We seemed to coalesce into your life with the ease of a ghost walking through a wall. We arrive and ghost into your life. In the same way as seeing a ghost, when you experience us, it is not an event that you will forget in a hurry. We sidle up to you, insert ourselves into your lives and make connection after connection with you as we feed from you. Like some wraith we attach ourselves to you and steadily begin to suck the life force from you as we gorge on the fuel that you provide.

Often we will vanish just as we arrived, without any warning or announcement and try as you might you cannot find us again. It is as if we have disappeared off the face of the earth. Naturally we chose the moment of our vanishing act without any concern for its effect on you. We slip away like a mist evaporating. Once we were everywhere, woven around you and captivating you. Much in the same way as one might be transfixed by the appearance of some spirit. You are entranced by our appearance, there is something ethereal and mysterious about us that causes you to be drawn to us and then we are gone.

We are that elusive spirit that can now not be found. You might go to the same place where we first manifested but there is no sign of us. We have left no footprint, no trace of our existence when you try and seek us out, just like our spectral cousins and then suddenly we have returned. We ghost back into your life and continuing our haunting of you. We are incessant and ever present, drifting about you as we resume our extraction of fuel. We resume our draining of your spirit, leeching it from you as our cold, dead hands take hold of you once again.

People have many theories as to what ghosts are if they indeed exist. Some suggest that where there has been a sudden explosion of emotion, a heightened experience, then an imprint has been made on the fabric of existence. This imprint appears to those who are attuned to seeing it. That imprint is seen doing the same thing over and over again. It walks the same route, passes through the same wall and then vanishes only to appear the next night in the same place. The spirit follows the same routine like a piece of video film stuck in an endless loop. Just like such a ghost we engage in the same behaviours over and over again. The same actions all designed to haunt you as we extract our fuel. The same gestures, the same actions all of which must be replayed. Some believe that a ghost is the soul of someone who has suffered eternal damnation. He or she has been denied entry to heaven or hell and instead has been consigned to walk the earth for eternity, stuck in an unceasing routine. Our endless quest for fuel finds us in such a similar position. We must make our way through life, restless and never finding peace. We move from place to place, unable to rest and be satisfied. Instead we are driven onwards, plagued by the curse of our need for fuel. Thus we must haunt others, our appearance bringing dread and fear in the same way as terror follows the appearance of a spectre.

Unable to quite fit in we are ghost at the feast. Even when we have vanished there is a lingering coldness that strikes you to your core. You still sense us, able to feel the effect of our chilling appearance. You are wary and anxious as you know we will appear once again. Quite when is a mystery but as we first arrived and as we first disappeared we will ghost into your life and continue our haunting of you. Better consult that exorcist.

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8 thoughts on “Ghosts”

  1. Pingback: FANTASMI – CONOSCERE IL NARCISISTA
  2. Have any of you guys experienced the following?
    A handful of the narcissists I have come across affect me physically from the moment I get near them. One example: I was at a social gathering of approximately 40 people. I walked into a room and I could immediately “feel” a sense of power emanating from across the room. It took only a moment to spot the man this was coming from. Unfortunately, as soon as I spotted him, he also spotted me. I diverted my eyes and quickly found someone to start talking to, in an effort to avoid his gaze. The feeling was so overwhelming, my left eyebrow started twitching. (This had never happened before and has not happened since.) I left that room and started chatting with other people I knew but as I left the room, I could feel his gaze following me.
    Next thing I know he is standing next to me, in my “personal space.” My eyebrow was still intermittently twitching but not in a very noticeable way, to others. As soon as he stood so close beside me, I began to feel some mix between dizzy and faint. Hard to explain. I was managing to hide all this from everyone else but he made it VERY clear, that he was noticing. “Well, I know most everyone else here but who might this flaming red-headed filly be?” A friend introduced us. “Would you like me to get you a drink or a glass of water?” “Might steady your nerves a bit.” Then he winked at me with that oh so charming smile that only a narcissist can give. I told him, thank you very kindly, I’m fine but I appreciate the offer.” “No problem,” he remarked.
    He was flitting back and forth talking with everyone in the place but he kept looking at me, I refused to make eye contact but I was watching him with my peripheral vision. When I did, inadvertently make eye contact with him, he gestured with his finger for me to come over to where he was standing. I walked over and joined him and two others. In the middle of someone else talking, he moved even closer to me, leaned down and whispered in my ear, “you are the most amazing creature I’ve seen in a long time, fly with me to Vegas tonight.” Then, he intentionally brushed his lips across my neck and forcefully breathed on it! He said it as a demand, not as a request or as if I had a choice in the matter. My knees almost buckled. The other person was still talking as if he noticed nothing strange about how the guy was acting, which was so obviously inappropriate. I smiled and slightly shook my head, no and looked at the floor. I felt if I did not get out of his presence, I was not going to be able to stand much longer. I made the excuse of going to the ladies room and left without saying goodbye to anyone, something I would normally never do. But I felt I had to go, and it had to be “now.”
    I am not a shy person and I have met many many people in my life, from the good simple folks whom I adore, to what most would call “powerful” (a lot of them are pathetic) people. Precious few have had that affect on me and I began to feel his presence as soon as I walked into the same room as him. I can instinctively sense narcissists, most of the time and then use logic to figure out what part of the spectrum they are on or if they just have strong narcissistic traits. But this, was something entirely different. Wondering if anyone on the board has had similar experiences.

  3. I am most impressed how your words describe perfectly my most recent “true love” experience.
    It is just scary!

  4. “Naturally we chose the moment of our vanishing act without any concern for its effect on you.”
    You’re doing a pretty good job right now my darling Tudor! Enjoying holidays? Well, I wish you a good time!
    Musician narc is hoovering me again today, so if you don’t come back soon, I’ll go back to the ex, just like you narcs always do 🙂
    Missing you xx

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