Questioning Me
Do feel free to ask me anything you like. I am here for you to dip into my mind and for you to benefit from learning how I view the world. No question is off limits and if you want to establish a dialogue with me, then so much the better. You will be helping me so I can show the treatment team that I am interacting with people in this setting. You can ask me why I do certain things, what am I thinking, what my favourite food is, whatever you like. This is your chance to extract as much knowledge and information from me as you possibly can. If you want to just make a statement, go ahead. Fill your boots. I don’t know you so I won’t fly into a rage (this does happen when people I know question me but that is because they have an agenda – you don’t because we don’t know one another). I look forward to hearing from you.
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HG, me again.
After my Stewie Griffin comments, then feeling the need to explain myself, THIS vid drops into my feed. I was drawn to watch & listen.
It was a timely reminder. An ice bucket. I am under little illusion about your ‘real’ self, but it can be easy to half forget. You scare me. I am also fascinated by your capacity to communicate and operate on several levels, despite this ‘real’ you at the core.
Question:
Sometimes I wake in the dead of night, hyper aware of my absolute aloneness. This does not depend on being in bed with someone or not. It isn’t filled with fearful imaginings, yet, it’s being scared to death and thrilled to be alive, simultaneously. A sense of omnipotence and total insignificance simultaneously.
Do you ever feel such stark self-awareness, minus the trepidation? Can you relate to what I’m describing or is it alien to you? In your world/other narcissists’ worlds, could a moment like that be a Creature moment, whereby you feel Its presence and it must be dealt with?
Thank you.
I do not wake in the dead of night because I am either sound asleep or moving already amidst the darkness, but that is another story for another time.
I understand the point you are making. I experience something similar but it is a combination of might tempered with frustration when I lie on my back at my property in the mountains and I look at the night sky which is unaffected by any light pollution and I see the thousands upon thousands of stars wheeling in the sky above. It is then I think “So much to conquer and yet not the time to do so.”
Dear HG,
Regarding my comparison of you as a baby to Stewie Griffin: I feel compelled to clarify incase it seems I was trying to challenge or insult. His character traits of precociousness and superiority, his attitude toward his mum, his high cognitive function, advanced language/speech and interest in weapons, destruction, machiavellian tendencies, etc. Stewie’s a fave character of mine and it amused me to think of you regarding your family and surroundings with similar awareness as a bairn 😀 I didn’t mean the physical features.
Sometimes my random humour is not well received in online spaces 😀
Thank you for your expansion, I understand better why the comparison was made.
Mr. Tudor,
I recall you saying in passing on a YouTube video that Tucker Carlson is a narcissist. Have you seen one of his newest videos?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V6cRuUglZOM
It’s interesting. I know your take would be valuable, and I thought others here might be interested in the opportunity to practice spotting the narcissist behavior.
Thank you much for all the answers yesterday. Just incredible. Much appreciation!
Dear HG,
I may not be the first to mention it, but I can imagine you being a bit like Stewie from Family Guy as a baby! 😀 Am I right?
No, I am not a cartoon.
Aha! Not a cartoon – check. My detective work is yielding results. If you were a cartoon though, I can see you being a bit like Stewey as a baby. I’ll get my coat.
Surely like Optimus Prime given my voice!
Dear HG
Why did the narcissist become affectionate with me again right after I attacked his dad?
His dad is someone I would normally tell to fuck off after a few seconds. I eventually yelled and insulted his dad after years of being polite. I also yelled at the narcissist at the same time so that I didn’t create an awkward situation for him- he wasn’t to blame because he was getting attacked too.
I would need more information through a consultation to provide you with a comprehensive answer. The basic answer is that in that particular compartmentalised moment, his narcissism identified affection as the appropriate manipulation to deploy in respect of you to acquire the Prime Aims. To give greater context will require the provision of more information from you.
Thank you HG. I would love to hear your gorgeous voice, but I don’t want to waste time talking about those fuckup losers
It is never time wasted when you speak with me.
So I have a discussion/questions for the whole crew – only you guys would understand!
I’ve noticed for a while now that quite a lot of narcissists have children who are autistic- I’m starting to think it may be disproportionate to the general population… could there be shared genes between NPD/ASPD and autism?
It was found that Adolf Hilter carried genes related to autism and also mental health conditions.
Could there be shared/similar genes for the social deficits in NPD/ASPD and autism but they present differently?
Patrinarc had developmental delays related to his learning/education. I was slower at learning to read. Patrinarc was also disorganised generally, and had a lot of difficulty completing house chores and I’m the same although I never lived with him so this isn’t down to nurture. Matrinarc mostly gave up on trying to make me tidy.
HG identified him as a victim narc; however I’m not a victim narc yet we have certain shared traits.
Could this be trauma induced neurodivergence?
Hi Witch, great question, I’ve wondered about this also. I would also ask this regarding ADD/ADHD. Whether it’s genes or the way the LOC or trauma hits individual brains, the specific type of LOC etc, or a combination.
Hi AV, If I remember correctly, Gabor Mate frames ADHD as a trauma response, a type of flight response or dissociation.
Thank you Two, I will check him out.
dear two, i read some of ‘Scattered Minds’, from the front and from the back, but didn’t reach the middle. it ended up covered in coffee, curled, dried up and dog-eared, then in the bin…go figure 😀 i do recall the part about highly sensitive babies developing in relatively harsh or traumatic circumstances.
@A Victor
I’m thinking it’s more so genetic especially if there is no improvement over time once you’re out of the LOCE.
For example my ptsd symptoms have improved, I’m not triggered over small things, I think far more logically than I have done before, if I saw an ex I doubt I would have the same level of anxiety I would have experienced previously.
However when it comes to executive dysfunction issues and other things, there’s no improvement
For example if I’m at the gym and I get annoyed because other people exist and are at the gym too and I don’t want no one to stand next to me, and I feel uncomfortable to talk to anyone, that’s nothing to do with ptsd – I’m just socially different.
It could be possible for some people that due to being in a LOCE certain genes are triggered early because of their individual polygenic risk? I don’t know
Hi @Witch,
That makes sense, thank you.
Interesting thoughts Witch. I think from current understanding someone could be ASD and have NPD (and I think I have met a few people that would fit this) but I haven’t read anything specifically on this specific topic and overlaps. I’ll be interested to see others thoughts. I did ask HG recently if autism was ever thought to be part of his picture and he said no though to me, some of his psychopathic traits around logic (in a good way) seem more fitting to ASD than NPD does.
@two
The logic is related to his psychopathy not to autism.
Yes some autistic people have low emotional responses that can appear psychopathic superficially but autism and psychopathy are distinct phenotypes.
To be autistic you have to meet the diagnostic criteria related to both social deficits and restricted repetitive interests/behaviours and the symptoms need to be present in childhood and negatively impact you.
Psychopaths will have social deficits but it’s specifically related to an anti-social phenotype not to the autism phenotype and I’m assuming some of them will have restricted interests but probably not repetitive behaviours which is referring to the compulsion to stim to an unusual degree.
Fascinating Witch!
Both my parents are narcs. Both of my brothers are neurodivergent. I’ve never been tested but I definitely think I might have some traits. I might even fall on the spectrum. I can become fixated and hyper focused. I can obsess over things too. I definitely obsess over cleanliness. My mother is a victim narc and never cleaned so I just assumed I went the other route because I didn’t want to live like that. Of my two daughters, its my narc daughter that’s obsessed with cleanliness as well. My empath daughter doesn’t clean at all. But my empath daughter can become fixated on things as well. Their father is a narcissist.
This is interesting to think about. I believe my husband’s brothers and sisters are all narcs and neurodivergence runs very high with them and their children. I’m looking forward to hear what others say as well.
Its nice to see you comment again, Witch. Hope you’re well.
Interesting points Leigh. another similarity we have 😅 (hyper focus and obsession). I’ve learnt a lot about OCD over the past few years and I wouldn’t be diagnosable but definitely see traits of it come out, particularly when I’m stressed. I think a lot of these behavioural patterns are in the general population but only become a problem / diagnosable when they start interfering with every day life. I guess like narcissism .. on a spectrum. There’s a form of OCD sometimes called “pure o” which is just mental obsessions and compulsions (rumination) too. Very interesting.
Hi Two,
I don’t think I’d be diagnosable with OCD either. I don’t have compulsive behaviors. However, I do ruminate.
“There’s a form of OCD sometimes called “pure o” which is just mental obsessions and compulsions (rumination) too.” – I’ll have to do some research on this. I definitely ruminate and I can obsess as well.
hiya leigh,
my dad’s a narcissist and he is fastidious about cleanliness and order. i admire it, but can’t say it rubbed off on me completely, but i do me best (ish) i like a pleasant, high vibe but cleaning obsession makes me feel on edge. maybe on account of pater ramming the Hoover everywhere of an evening when he got home, with an air of cold fury haha.
Hi Mari,
My mother’s housekeeping was non-existent. She’s a hoarder and the house was covered in filth. Kind of like how you jokingly described your kitchen. It often created huge amounts of anxiety in me. My childhood hone was also infested with roaches. I was so afraid to eat.
I went the opposite route. I need to clean every day and it still doesn’t seem clean enough for me.
Leigh, that sounds truly horrible. I’m sorry you experienced that, so I’m glad you know the kitchen thing was a joke! I’ll admit it could be better though. I can totally understand your need to clean so diligently, very distressing environment for you.
“I’ve noticed for a while now that quite a lot of narcissists have children who are autistic- I’m starting to think it may be disproportionate to the general population… could there be shared genes between NPD/ASPD and autism?”
Good question. I think it is probably most likely.
Are all children considered to be autistic (or ADHD etc) future empaths, or, narcissists? Are any autistics neither empath, or narcissist? All children are likely to inherit similar intellectual ‘traits’ from either parent regardless their placement on narcissism to empath spaectrum of these 3 people.
Commenting February 15, 2026 at 23.59 (#469477) “there does seem to be an umbrella of neurological pathways ie Autism, ADHD etc, that I believe stems from one source on the chromosome chain but I do not know exactly what is considered the primary (main) source ie Autism.”
Fact, autism being neurological from birth. Narcissism / empath (in my thinking) may be considered as an inactive until active secondary neurological ‘development’ (due to a ‘redirection’ of their emotional development) as a result of their environment. Is it now considered as “alternative DNA structuring” rather than previously named as ‘mutations’ in DNA structures?
Maybe human biology has also changed due to many factors occuring within humanity on the planet. In a similar way how AI is also changing and developing? Humanity started it, AI aims to finish it.
@asp amp and everyone:
I was recently diagnosed ASD
so it made me think about where I would have inherited these genes from, I think it was paternally because my paternal cousin (also female) is also autistic but high support needs, her father is my dads brother and I’m sure he is also a narcissist. I think my dad may have behaviours related to being neurodivergent but he is a narcissist.
And I have noticed a lot of narcissists have autistic children, I’m convinced now it’s disproportionate which is sad for those children.
One of my sisters is also a narc and her dad is also a narc, he has an autistic son whom he abandoned and my sister also has an autistic son (she is ashamed that he is autistic.)
Maybe it’s the case that someone who is likely to be a narcissist/anti-social is also more likely to carry genes related to other disorders and therefore even though they themselves are not autistic they are passing it down and it’s being expressed in their children.
I also think I have some traits of inattentive ADHD.
My ptsd symptoms have significantly reduced – I don’t even think I clinically meet the criteria for ptsd at this stage, but I still have problems, so I guess that means I am in fact neurodivergent.
Hi Witch,
It might not be genetics as much as the LOCE.
Rates of autism have increased dramatically. Rates of divorce have too. Families are families in isolation as opposed to forming part of larger supportive communities. Many couples don’t live close to parents as they used to do there is less support from grandparents. All of these societal factors might contribute to a LOCE. Narcissists in families, obviously LOCE.
I’d probably go to increased LOCE contributing to increases in autism rather than just genetics.
Hmm. This is very interesting, TS. Based on my siblings, I would be inclined to say that the LOCE and not genetics was the contributing factor as well.
Very, very interesting. You’ve given me some food for thought.
Hi Leigh,
Autism is something I know very little about other than the fact it lies on quite a broad spectrum. I remember seeing an article recently written by a lady who was heavily involved in creating the early diagnostic criteria for autism. She’s now in her mid seventies and was essentially suggesting that the diagnosis had broadened to such an extent that there was now a requirement for additional new diagnoses that currently would fall under the umbrella of autism but which were significantly milder than autism as it was originally described. She intends to research further and create new terminology for the ‘milder’ end of the spectrum.
It’s possible that LOCE could impact those currently being diagnosed with ‘milder’ variants of autism, whereas ‘ stronger’ variants might present irrespective of LOCE.
Honestly though, I haven’t read enough about the condition to offer anything other than speculation.
Hi TS,
The reason I’m considering that the neurodivergence in my siblings might be due to LOCE & not genetics is because I don’t think anyone else on my mother’s side is neuro divergent.
I’m definitely going to dig deeper. The neurodivergence in both my brothers is profound. I often wonder how come its not so profound in me? Maybe the LOCE effected me differently.
Hi Leigh,
Dame Uta Frith is the lady I was talking about. Mid 80’s (not 70’s as I originally stated.)
Not sure if the link will work on the blog.
https://www.thetimes.com/uk/healthcare/article/autism-is-my-lifes-work-the-spectrum-has-become-meaningless-lg366z0wj
Definitely genetic as is ADHD. My son was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD last summer. I recently found out my female cousin and my nephew also have it. I definitely do. A lot of things I attributed to CPTSD were probably more ADD related. The things I do and how I think I’ve always thought we’re true of everyone until pretty recently. I feel like nerodivergent females fly under the radar due to being seen as over emotional weirdos. We also lack the hyperactivity component a lot of the time. My daydream game be on fleek 🤣
Hi Witch, thank you for sharing about your autism / narcissism within your family. I read a long time ago that it is the mother (maternal side ie grandmother and before that) that normally passes on the genes that the children inherit. However, when it comes to autism, even from the father’s side, that is probably the more stronger gene compared to just narcissism / empath because it is predominant as the neurological.
What people may not always be aware of, when it comes to autism, that starts in the foetal / fetal stage of the baby before birth and is not formed after birth. Narcissism & empath are. Autism can skip a generation (HG confirmed this within his blog) and it can be inherited (and carried) by descendants down the line.
Interesting but not surprising to read about your sister’s being ‘ashamed’ of her child being autisitc. It probably explains matrinarc’s treatment of me, she probably sensed my autism (as none of the family, to my knowledge, had awareness / diagnosis of such within the family). Unaware narcissists within the family ‘seeing’ my behaviours but cannot acknowledge their own behaviours – contradictory / hypocritical – did not stop them pointing out “defects” in other narcissist familial members!
In my view, CPTSD is basically similar to addiction to narcissism, triggered by repeated narcissistic manipulations during ensnarement / within narcissistic LOCE(s). Take into account the external stressors. PTSD is normally a one-off traumatic ‘event’, that can be triggered from time to time by reminders of such event.
An autistic’s sensitivities (within the 5 human senses) can be triggered by whatever environmental / human cause ie social interaction / communication / cues). Could the narcissist / empath within an autistic may be / appear more magnified? Possibly. It depends on the LOCE(s), whether in proximate, or external stressor.
@asp amp
Yes she is definitely ashamed. She cut me off anyway but when I meant him once I could tell, he would only allow my sister to touch his pushchair, he was fixated with toy vehicles and gave them human names.
however she never brought it up which I think is strange considering there are obvious signs.
Then I heard down the grape vine that he was diagnosed already, and in response she said something like it makes her question whether there is something wrong with her as to why he’s autistic – typical narcissistic response of everything having to be about the narcissist and how they feel.
She also wasn’t allowing him to go to school.
My guess is that she doesn’t want to speak about it because she is ashamed – but it will pretty much be an open secret considering people will know because it’s obvious.
I do think about him and it makes me sad because he was super affectionate with me and my sister is not! If you try and hug her she’ll flinch
Hi Witch, that is an interesting observation about naming the toys as it indicates that it is easier to ‘connect’ with other things rather than his parent and avoiding communication with her. Have you observed him interacting with ie a dog / cat? Does he have a sibling? No need to answer on the blog, just something for you to consider as a family member.
Is she projecting onto him as well as making it about her? He’s autistic because of genetics. She is different because of lack of emotional empathy. Does she have cognitive empathy? Possibly not, if she is not allowing him to go to school. He needs the opportunity to socialise and build on those skills of interacting, communicating and understanding about people (social cues) – the younger, the better. He needs to be around other children his age as that would aid his learning / development.
Some children do struggle to form a connection with a parent who is manipulating them (especially when there is also verbal / physical abuse taking place) and may struggle to talk about it. Even more so when they have no direct access to a mentor / nurturer / support / peer etc (as a potential intervener).
As per her words, I was described as “awkward” with (her) matrinarc when I was 3 years old – not surprising !
Does he try to hug her? It is not always obvious to other people because they do not necessarily know from one interaction / observation, they may assume in their perception as to what they see / hear. Even over a period of time, they may still make assumptions. Did she cut you off because of threats to her control? You can consider a consult with HG if you have concerns about his welfare. I do understand your sadness.
@asp amp
I don’t think his relationship with toy vehicles has anything to do with having a narc parent, as you probably already know autistic people can form strong attachments with objects, it’s quite common for autistic boys to become fixated with moving objects like trains, it’s also more common for autistic people to personify objects and feel empathy for objects and I believe this is why he gives them human names. I only really noticed that he had vehicles in his Toy box which is indicative of an intense interest.
I haven’t observed him around animals.
I didn’t see him try to hug his mum – I just know generally my sister is not affectionate and is impatient and yes she was impatient with him. I picked him up and hugged him and he was responsive to me, he enjoyed the attention.
I also noticed his speech was different, he didn’t pronounce things all that well and was difficult for me to understand.
Yes he has a sister (half) who’s a young adult now.
I believe my sister does have cognitive empathy as well but she is a lower grade narcissist – she’s certainly not above a lower midranger.
Yes my sister cut me off because I threatened her control, my sister is envious and absolutely does not want to be associated with her siblings, she doesn’t want to share the limelight. And being a narcissist she’s not going to want her children to get along better with me than her.
I have no way of contacting her children and even if I did, she would put a stop to it. I know that because our mother is the same. Although my sister is probably even more paranoid.
My only hope is that eventually my niece will leave home and she will contact me. I know her children are not like her, that’s for sure.
Hey Witch:
I can tell you that my best friends daughter over 7 years who has been violent to her, her dog , her property, suicidal, cutting etc… has been autistic since birth. She has seen so many doctors I lost count. Meds changed. Diagnosed with BPD, Cptasd, major depression…. But the doctors and social services have told the mother that it is hard to distinguish her autism from BPD. Bipolar was a thought but disregarded once investigated.
Based on my observations… yes but it could be communities and BPD usually has at least one.
hello contagious,
what do you think of HG’s theory on BPD, that it’s stemming either from trauma OR narcissism? i’ve always bristled at the term BPD, striking me as a lazy cop-out from professionals.
if you are in line with HG’s take, which would you attribute to the daughter of your friend? trauma or narcissism?
Hi Witch, I think the cleaning thing has to do with reward systems. For certain people, daily tasks often lack intrinsic reward. Daily tasks can feel especially unrewarding or cognitively draining, which reduces motivation for basic life administration. For others cleaning can be connected to self soothing, creating structure, and managing anxiety, because predictable activities often calm the nervous system.
LOCE connected anxiety would involve the feeling that things are chaotic or uncontrollable. Cleaning provides a simple domain where a person can immediately regain control. For many people it functions as a natural self soothing strategy, though in some cases it can become excessive if driven by persistent anxiety. So cleaning can act as a psychological tool that restores order and predictability, especially when other areas of life feel uncertain, which is often the case with narcissistic parents.
For autistics this varies widely: some struggle with chores due to executive-function challenges, sensory overload, while others enjoy structured organising tasks.
@jordyguin
Yes I think chores are particularly difficult for autistic people with higher support needs due to them typically also having learning difficulties and autistic people who also have traits of ADHD.
When I was much younger I saw a woman with inattentive adhd on TV, I think it was Dr Phil or something and I related to what she was saying
hello witch,
it’s an interesting postulation, but the scale of research and control groups needed to know for sure is blitzing my synapses! 😀 i’ve been reading the thread though, thank you. it’s crossed my mind before too, for so-called ADHD as well (it really needs a new name and a new understanding imo).
Could also be possible a lot are misdiagnosed.
Hi NA,
I’ve had that same thought. How many have been misdiagnosed.
Overdiagnosis driven by one of the newly induced trends: The pathologization of personality and the glorification of pathologies. Everyone suffers from something nowadays! And they brag about it! Further proof that planet earth is one big psychiatric asylum
WN, may I suggest something where the knot of accumulated need to resolve injustice, so to speak, could find release and benefit your energy?
Have you ever thought about going out and joining groups or organisations that help children in need directly? What J.K. Rowling is doing, basically. I remember you felt a shared spirit with her, so taking her actions as an example could help you resolve the need to change the world for the better, but through actions.
The acts need to be simple, small acts, nothing huge in reality. In this way, the faucet of that staggering need to change the world for the better could find release and help you balance and redirect your energy into what you are actively discussing on the blog and wish to change.
By doing it through words alone, you create an imbalance in your energy. You absorb the injustice taking place in the world by watching programmes and laying out the brutality of injustice in your posts. That means mentally you are capable of confronting the brutality of the world, but at the same time you secure the powerlessness of your own position by only sharing it.
Even a small gesture within circles that need empathic devotion, expressed through action, is the path to changing the world, or at least helping one individual and potentially altering circumstances for the future.
I sense that you have great potential to do something physically that would benefit those in need of kind gestures, while also giving your own energy release and balance. It could make you less anxious and give you a stronger sense of purpose.
You do not present as someone who only talks about making change, but as someone who can actually achieve some change, you know. PTSD and CPTSD could potentially be eased through helping others, giving you back the sense of power that felt lost through abusive dynamics in your life. Even one day a week could be enough to help restore some balance.
Hey Jordy! Great advice! When the world feels heavy, and I wonder why do I want to be in it, kindness is my savior. Helping one person restores me. Or even a kind thought. It brings meaning to my soul. I call it love. To love others is to love thyself:)
Prince William expressed something similar. Nothing spectacular, yet in those small acts lies the power. Princess Anne is also incredible. You share the same drive btw💖
https://youtube.com/shorts/rv-WRzuOYuc?is=kTPLcARckRq5Tw_B
I read Jordy’s post as a sarcasm.
Jordy’s post is an accurate observation, with therapeutic solutions offered to an individual who is known to have a lot of time on their hands, watching distressing cases and bad news, and engaging in outrage in written form, not only about those programmes and topics, but in many other instances as well. These are demonstrative of high levels of anxiety, which are best addressed by engaging in empathic actions in real life, whether driven by cognitive or emotional empathy.
These types of problems are best resolved when the focus shifts from “me and my outrage with the world” to other people, becoming about helping others rather than engaging in helplessness or seeking sympathy for being outraged at the wrongs of the world.
I often wonder who the recipients are here, at whom this recited outrage is directed, especially when the majority of readers have already taken on significant responsibility by raising children and grandchildren, and are professionally engaged in helping others, contributing their part. Not to mention the blog owner, who does this daily, reaching people worldwide.
So the question is, what lies behind the outrage and sadness this individual seeks to produce, if no action is taken to reduce the anxiety or to contribute to meaningful change?
Contagious is one of those extraordinary people with the heart of true royalty, a hardworking individual who serves others. Her empathic influence extends not only to her children, but also into her professional life. She helps everyone she meets, giving what she can, wearing her heart on her sleeve. When she shares difficult or distressing cases, she is also actively contributing to solutions and positive change.
Unfortunately, she does not receive enough credit for what she does in real life, but that does not stop her, because she is genuinely kind hearted and acts without condition. A true empath. Despite difficulties in her personal life, she does not rest in a position of powerlessness or fixation.
A valid observation was made, along with a therapeutic solution known to be effective. Whether the individual operates from cognitive or emotional empathy, this approach is widely recognised as helpful.
When one begins to feel overwhelmed by personal problems and anxiety, a practical solution is to go out and help someone in need, shifting the focus from oneself to others. This restores a sense of agency and reminds one that one is not powerless.
For those who already have children or professions centred on helping others, no additional effort is required. However, the individual in question does not have these structures, so what remains is voluntary engagement in a meaningful cause.
Dear HG,
Returning to ‘Narcissist’s Filth’: “Carrot tops, egg shells, lawn clippings, coffee grounds, dead mice…”
I found a drowned baby rat in my watering can on Saturday morning. In all my years of garden/yardening, this has never happened. The stench was dreadful, but I felt sorry for it.
I suspect the aforementioned cleaner is taking her revenge, quite possibly influenced by her excange with you. I hope this is the last of it.
Dear Mr Tudor,
Any chance, you, (with your insight, experience and expertise) address the lying, deceit and manipulation of what’s happening in the world right now?
This is way beyond narcissism, psychopathy and evil, we have ever witnessed world wide!
Many thanks
This behaviour has been seen before many times and it continues to be played out for reasons I have advanced previously.
Dear Mr Tudor,
I understand, to an extent, however, we need more explanation, some of us are newbies, still beginners, or just a bit slow of the mark.
If not, what can we reference to “advanced previously”?
Many thanks
I recommend you spend time with my work and then you will find the answer. If you wish for me to explain this in detail you will need to organise a consultation.
Everything happening right now is explainable by narcissism and psychopathy, imo, Bubbles. Everything.
I don’t know if you’ve accessed HG’s lists of famous narcissists and psychopaths but they show that the havoc wreakers of the world are narcissists, psychopaths or a combination of the two.
Some on the lists are those wreaking havoc right now, taking steps and making moves which maintain their positions of power, boost their personal gains or grow their influence and reduce their accountability.
Apart from the lists already published, HG can assess anyone through the ‘knowing the narcissist’ assessments in the knowledge vault. Have you considered putting some of the evil-doers you’re noticing through those assessments?
Perhaps if you see some people as evil beyond narcissism and psychopathy you might not see much value in it. (I’m curious what kind of evil you mean outside these personality types – I’m not sure what else exists. Ignorance maybe? Hubris?)
Watched the deposition video analysis of Hilary. I do not know what is wrong with me, but she is so enjoyable to watch. I had a class teacher like her at school who pedestalised me, and the benefits of such a dynamic, to a degree, cannot be denied.
Here Hilary commanded the whole room over a freaking photo. A photo! I would be like: please shower her with threats to control over something so banal, just to see how she would successfully manoeuvre herself out of the room.
I loved her facial expressions, the icy stare, the little smile, the body language and all the subtle details in how she carried herself. Imagine, just 🌸IMAGINE🌸, an empath taking a slice of that and simply walking out of those mindfuckery dynamics, just like that?!
Billy boy cemented with her for all the right reasons from the point of his necessities. JG approves🙌
Hello Jordy:
Hope all is well. You know… I had an opposite reaction. In law there is a saying, when the facts are on your side, stick to the facts, when the law is on your side, stick to the law and when neither is on your side, pound on the table. I felt she pounded on the table when she could have stuck to the facts.
I thought Bill even Lex did better. Lex seemed to enjoy being there now he is a criminal no doubt a psychopath tied early on to organized crime who funded Epstein…. and Bill seemed comfortable and confident. When Bill was shown a photo of a piece of art work that Epstein had with Monica in it, Bill quietly and calmly said “ if I had seen that before, I would have never met Epstein.” Bill didn’t get angry and threaten to leave the room. He remained composed which I find more effective in a legal proceeding.
My question to you is that the polls showed more men did not favor her in the Presidential race. Why do you think men tend to dislike her? I know every man I spoke to whether democratic or republican … found her off putting to say the least. Not so much with Kamala. Why do you think that is?
I had issues with her from whitewater. Now that being said, I tend to have issues with most politicians as I see them as self serving and bought and sold by corporations/ their owners and not serving the American people and often un-ethical.
X
You see, quiet, calm and composed can be boring. Bill is boring to watch. Her theatrics, on the other hand, are fun.
“Why do you think men tend to dislike her?” — Because her balls are bigger than theirs?
“Not so much with Kamala. Why do you think that is?” — Because Kamala is more la-la and not threatening.
Mr. Tudor,
After listening to your interviews with Michelle of the Royal Daily Tea & John Cooper, I have some questions regarding the psychopath vs sociopath.
In your interview with Michelle you said that sociopaths are unaware and can have anxiety and fear. This is very different than the psychopath so I’m wondering about other differences as well.
Are sociopaths also driven by the necessary triad? I’m assuming they definitely have a need for control, but what about accumulation and stimulation? Do pure sociopaths need to alleviate the boredom and collect things as well?
Thank you for your time, Mr. Tudor.
Thank you for listening to the interviews, Leigh.
Sociopaths are driven by the Necessary Triad. They do need to alleviate boredom, they do collect (accumulate) also. They find the latter more difficult owing to their greater degree of impulsivity and volatility.
You’re very welcome, Mr. Tudor. There’s a wealth of knowledge in your videos.
Thank you for clarifying why a sociopath will find it harder to accumulate.
Hello Mr. Tudor,
After listening to your video on the creature, it spurred a thought. I don’t think you’ve answered this already but if you have, I apologize. Do psychopaths and sociopaths have a creature?
No.
Thank you for your response, Mr. Tudor.
Following on from Leigh’s question, HG… could you (if you haven’t already) give us an insight into a pure psychopath or sociopaths inner world, particularly I’m wondering about their “inner child” and if any work could be done there? Psychopaths are “born” that way you have said, so not to “change” them as such but I wonder if there’s more room for progress when needed (rehabilitation in prison etc) than for narcs (narcissism being a hermatically sealed mechanism)?
Thank you 🙏
Hi Two,
I wonder since they have no empathy, could they genuinely be rehabilitated? Maybe they could learn to control their impulses. But I think if they did, it would only be because it served their own purpose to do so.
I would love some further insight into the psychopath’s mind though. I’m looking forward to Mr. Tudor’s upcoming book.
Hi Leigh. I wondered that too. So if someone is a psychopath and doesn’t have empathy could their cognitive empathy be enhanced, or impulsivity dialled down I wonder, to make them more pro social … ? 🤔
I’m particularly interested in the lack of creature in psychopath and whether that creates more opportunity for change than with the narc. The scientist (James Fallon) who discovered he was a psychopath when researching the topic, could be relevant here. He is married, holds down a good job etc (narcs can do this too ofc) though noticed he can be cold and aloof at times on learning about his brain scan. But you don’t really get “mild” narcissists though ofc they vary in how they behave. whereas maybe like him, psychopaths can be …
Hi Two,
Mr. Tudor has talked about being pro social as well. I believe the goal is to be a mote effective manipulator. You get more flies with honey then vinegar.
I agree that they’re cognitive empathy can be enhanced. Mr. Tudor is a perfect example of that. He’s very understanding and intuitive.
I don’t see change as a real possibility though, because emotional, genuine empathy will always be missing.
Could a psychopath become pro social? Most definitely. But they’re still missing genuine empathy, which means there’s still a chance they could stop being pro social.
I think its risky to believe they can have true, authentic change.
Hello HG hope all is well.
When you feel safe and secure in a relationship is that when you feel the need to leave?
Like is a relationship a conquest for you?
No.
Yes.
Thank you and if I may sir,
Do like a challenge more so the conquest took more effort?
As I have often explained, I like it when they fight.
Oh and one more question….
1. Have you ever met anyone with the exception of the lady you dated over time at Oxford who suggested you were a narcissist who quite early on came to the same conclusion?
For example, a greater N or a sophisticated intelligent psychopath or even an empath?
2. Have you ever chosen a greater narc as a romantic partner?
3. Have you ever chosen a psychopath as a romantic partner?
Thank you and my best always!
1. There have been others who have thrown the label my way.
2. As I have repeatedly explained I have not taken either a narcissist or a psychopath as the IPPS.
Regarding “I like it when they fight.”
What would you do if a woman you were interested in ignored you? (Unlikely though that is.) Is this “fighting” you? How do you combat the wounding/potential boredom? I would guess no response could cause boredom or it may drive curiosity in finding where to poke.
Thank you so much for your time. Much appreciated.
No, that is not fighting me. That would cause wounding. I would address the wounding through one of the three assertions of control.
Hello HG:
So you like the drama of fighting. It gives you negative fuel. That’s why they call Cluster B the dramatic and erratic. Thank you but to dig deeper…and I think this goes to learned behavior… do you think the reason you chose partners to fight with is because you grew up in that environment where fighting gave you attention?
I saw it with my ex. He grew up with his gran, mum, and bio mum who he called sis. From other family members, discord was norm. As a child my husband was coercively controlled. As he became a teen, he went to a mental hospital where they discussed his verbal aggression. Gee where does that come from? I can tell you in our marriage he would pick and create fights. I never understood it but now through you I can see that peace, contentment, day to day normalcy were alien to him and made him feel empty I think. Whereas I love a calm happy house, he needed drama. Plus anger is right below the surface. He is incapable of happiness. P I give him props on accepting poverty. Never met a family so inclined to love poverty but I think they do. It’s another drama and misfortune. They embrace it like honey to a bee. Doesn’t end the drama but they need that too.
I like it when they fight because it amuses me as part of the game. I recognise most fight because they feel they have no other option, they are unable to run or hide, therefore they must fight. For some, there is an earlier choice to fight born out of the misguided belief that they can bets me. I find that entertaining and am intrigued by such a stance. The individual is invariably of high cognitive function and yet, when faced with an opponent that exhibits all of the characteristics that mean they will lose, they still choose to fight. Not only does this reinforce the presence of emotional thinking, it provides me with a n opportunity to demonstrate they are wrong on several fronts. I do not regard it as a choice that provided me with attention in the environment I was in as a child. In that environment, I recognised the advantages of removing myself from my nemesis ; my mother. Gaining her attention was done through achievement, in that this was when the attention was wanted. One recognised reasonably prompted that her alternative attentions were not wanted and therefore any activity which brought those alternatives attentions was best avoided.
@Dani
What HG means is he wants a woman to slap him across the face, he’s into that kinky shit
Some try. All fail.
“I like it when they fight.” Meaning: fighting for the narcissist or the psychopath, I would suggest.
This is expressed through the appliance’s desire to fight for his or her attention, sympathy, validation. They fight for the satisfaction and the release of tension that the narcissist or psychopath can provide. Appliances fight to become the recipients of crumbs of comfort, or substantial validation, and tension release.
When the appliance fights by trying to please, love, or by trying to figure them out, heal them, or understand them, anything that shows the appliance will not give up easily on him or her means they are fighting. They give it their all. Good, the appliance is fighting, they are in the game, they are under control.
Appliances may also fight by resisting the manipulations. This can be stimulating to a degree, but those appliances will eventually be dropped if the feedback loop is not worth the investment and nothing reciprocates.
Or the appliance fights quite literally, arguing when it becomes negative fuel time, meaning stimulation and fuel-refreshment.
The testing of prospects is the stage when all these requirements are identified and evaluated in appliances. (Explanation is in the relevant articles and videos.) Each classification has its own entry points and methods used to trigger their fight mode.
Last but not least, something controversial to think about. The appliance fights for how the narcissist or the psychopath makes them feel. That is what becomes relevant. A symbiosis grown from lack. If another human holds the key to a person’s feelings and emotions, that person lacks self sufficiency.
Dear HG,
I’ve just had a second listen to your, Narcissist’s Filth piece. THAT is poetry!
I have one question: have you been snooping in my kitchen? 😀
Thank you. No, not directly, I heard someone screaming and I was curious to learn what had caused such a deep-seated agony, after all, there might be something new to learn, when I came upon a person who in between screams and howls of undiluted terror admitted that she had been hired to clean your kitchen. Lo, inspiration fell into my lap!
Dear HG, thank you for your transparency.
She’s a drama queen – it’s just a bit of indole and skatoli! My kitchen is a very ‘honest compost heap’. I haven’t seen her for a few months – bearing in mind the neighbour who broke in and made toast in there has since expired..
Hi HG,
Regarding the creature, do you know if any research has been done on this phenomenon? It’s obviously real but I wonder how and if it (or the process of it rearring it’s head in a narcissist) could be scientifically observable?
Thank you 🙏
It would necessitate disclosure from the individuals affected.
Ok so only aware narcs then, HG. 🙏 Was this something the good doctors broached with you and / or are you aware of such research on aware narcs?
Hi HG,
I have been meaning to come back to the point about narcissists ensnaring empaths more than other types of people, because they’re easier to control (which does make sense). But alongside this, is the potency of the fuel the narcissist “gets”, affected by who it’s coming from? You would get more “pure emotion” from non narcs / especially empaths I’m guessing whereas another narcissist will be giving more “muted” emotion (given their limited spectrum of emotions)? Is that right? And if negative fuel is more potent than positive, potentially that makes a narcissistic person or narcissist more appealing to a narcissist. I guess it’s the sweet spot of enough control, and enough “challenge”. I can see why supers are appealing to narcissists too. 🤔
Potency is linked to the position in the fuel matrix as explained in my book Fuel.
What you are referring to would be linked to the amount of fuel provided by virtue of the extent of the emotional output. Certain narcissists, albeit with a more limited emotional spectrum may provide substantial amounts of fuel, for example through the exhibition of fury or crying their pathetic MMR B eyes out because they did not get picked for the lead role in the AmDram production.
Is depth possible in the absence of love, Tudor?
The rapture in your writing betrays the spirit of a poet. I wonder if the void extends into your unconscious, or the unconscious keeps a recondite memory of a Love RMX of you
A high level of cognitive function has the capacity to generate depth from a different place.
This is interesting. I don’t think I have known any psychopaths that I’m aware of at least but narcissist wise, I notice mostly the superficiality, once aware of them (as if often the case), so you do seem quite the rare species in that regard, HG (which of course is true).
Hi Jade,
I do believe it depends on a combination of their cadre and cognitive function. I’ve met a number of mid-rangers who were able to portray depth but also many superficial ones.
My observation:
High in somatic traits = a very superficial individual. Cerebral traits, but not necessarily majority = some ability or good to very good ability to convey depth.
For Greaters, I’m convinced they’ll have excellent skills, although I think I’ve never meet one.
Thank you for this Jasmin. 🙏 That helps me understand things better. I don’t think I’ve met any greaters either, other than HG here ofc but I can see his skills seem way beyond. I need to observe some more cerebral narcs… 🧐
Hello dear Jade,
I want to thank you for what I have read in your comments regarding my contributions. I recognise your higher emotional empathy and also your beautiful fragility, and it is important to me to let you know that you will not receive any reactions from me that you need to fear. The same goes for Rachel. I loved the Wasabi song. You are absolutely welcome to comment to me in whatever style and manner you see fit. I see the place it comes from.
Also, regarding the conversations mentioned, to those with whom I share the same wavelength, thank you. I do not want to overdo it. You will know why. I do not want the ladies I became entangled with to spike in Emotional Thinking again because of what they might interpret as favouritism.
Thank you Jordy and welcome back. I didn’t want to be the one sitting on the fence trying to be friends to everyone and getting splinters in my bum, haha! but I did want to say what I saw.. which I did. Anyway, I appreciate your kind words. ❤️ 🙏
Mr. Tudor,
Regarding Epstein and the Clintons… Are you planning to analyze Bill’s and Hilary’s responses…they were fascinating, and I am sure that you could add a masterful interpretation…
Bill: “I had no idea of the crimes Epstein was committing,” Clinton said in his statement. “No matter how many photos you show me, I have two things that at the end of the day matter more than your interpretation of those 20-year-old photos. I know what I saw, and more importantly, what I didn’t see. I know what I did, and more importantly, what I didn’t do. I saw nothing, and I did nothing wrong.”
The narcissism is strong in him…
(https://www.cbsnews.com/news/bill-clinton-epstein-house-oversight-committee-deposition/)
Hilary: “You have compelled me to testify, fully aware that I have no knowledge that would assist your investigation, in order to distract attention from President Trump’s actions and to cover them up despite legitimate calls for answers,” she said.
It sounds just like the Narc Island rant. That’s amazing how well you captured the tone…
(https://www.nytimes.com/2026/02/26/us/politics/hillary-clinton-epstein-deposition-lauren-boebert.html)
Really hoping for your insight on both of them, sir! Thank you!
Yes, likely to be videos regarding their questioning tomorrow.
Thank you! Super looking forward to the Clintons breakdown. Those two spent a lot if time trying to squirm out of testifying.
Mr. Tudor,
I’m eagerly anticipating impressions of Clintons. Please, please impressions of two narcs in the midst of challenge fuel.
Also, the most recent interview you released…I think it was one of the most insightful learning opportunities into you that has come out in some time. The way you used your voice…the lightness in it compared to the content across multiple feelings generated by the wholeness. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing and I couldn’t doubt your veracity. It’s astonishing, how you can bring about, what in ways, feels like the experience of opposing emotions simultaneously.
A video/article about how you, personally, view justice and revenge in the situations discussed…and maybe how you’ve observed empaths of different schools wrestle with the two, if they do. It’s likely some will and some won’t.
Thank you so much for your time and all you do for us on the blog.
Was this the John Cooper interview Dani? I do like their dynamic if so and got a lot out of it. It was interesting about HGs views on revenge.
I also wonder how someone like yourself HG, might wrestle with the chance to dish out some revenge to someone who hurt children (as discussed in the JC interview) if it collided with something more fruitful for you. I guess that’s where the prime aims and nec triad comes in …? I liked your anger about that subject, and maybe your kind are the ones that could bring some justice in such a scenario. Ps i didn’t know how to feel re Ian Huntley being beaten to near death. I don’t think it’s the way to deal with people like that but part of me was definitely pleased he got a small taste of being on the recieving end of what he has dished out to innocent children. Life is very weird sometimes. 😟
Hi Two,
It was the John Cooper. I agree. Lovely dynamic between HG and him.
Thanks Dani. Yes, HG is always a good interviewee but the interviewer does make a difference and John and HG seem to work very well together.
Hi Dani and HG:
I was looking forward to the Clinton analysis too. And it has been great!
It’s interesting as often narcissists are said to be charming. I don’t see it with Hillary. Both Lex and Bill had that gosh shucks I am just an old man posture and Bill is a charmer. But Hillary has always rubbed people the wrong way. When she ran, men in particular did not like her. Polls demonstrated that, including Democrats not just Republicans.
I wonder if there is a category HG for unlikeable narcissists. ? Or if being unlikeable fits more with being in the mid-range?
She is and has always been haughty , miss know it all, and smug and bossy. And I don’t think she’s a good liar either.
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Good question Contagious. many lessers are unlikeable too from my experiences but I think the UMR like Hill’s 😄 do have that particular smug and bossy vibe. 😒 I have found “my” MMRs likeable till I’ve realised the truth.
Oh Contagious…. “Why difference at this point does it make” if she’s likeable? Sorry…I couldn’t resist.
Hey Dani, Juliette Bryant said Bill Clinton was with Epstein in South Africa, when she first encountered him! Juliette’s one of the aspiring models who ended up ensnared, if you’re not aware.
Another thing which caught my attention was the discussion of “It costs nothing to be polite”.
Let me shed some light on what the cost actually is.
An example is when LucifersLolita wandered in.
LucifersLolita: “You sad silly sluts.”
HG: “Easy, with the ad hominem attacks.”
And that was it. Nothing more from HG. No judgement. That is the gift of safety you all benefit from on this platform, and yet often complain about not feeling safe.
I am relaxed enough around HG to swear when I feel like it, or to be angry, loving, critical, supportive, or whatever my mind and observations produce. Safe, because HG does not judge. He does not make you feel wrong, he explains things. He provides safety through transparency and non judgement.
My trust is the currency and I pay with honesty.
Do you really believe it is so difficult to put on an act, presenting an identity that is always polite, ideal or perfect? It is not. But it comes with a cost, one you may have been paying your whole life, trying to please and fit the criteria for being “chosen” because of your good manners, politeness or kindness, even though you may be fuming inside. Emotional Thinking is, of course, part of it.
It is not for everyone. If being consistently polite comes naturally to you, even when you are angry, that is fine. As long as you do not lie to yourself that you are an ideal example of politeness, empathy, authenticity or a better version of a person compared to narcissists, or compared to those who simply do not present according to your ideal image of empathy or what a human being should be.
Ladies, I’ve gone back and read everything. Yes, I’m looking mainly at you, Leigh, AV and AA.
HG and his platform are a blessing for realisation. I’m truly amazed!
Your feeling of insignificance made you spiral down on your own, day after day after day. I did not even need to be present and Emotional Thinking did the job. You destroyed yourself while thinking you were destroying me.
I wish you healing from the mental abuse you put yourself through in your own mind again and again, even though I doubt it is possible. Still, I wish you well.
Apologies if this is a repeat question, HG, I think my last comment got lost. I watched “catching milat” on Amazon recently about Australia’s worst serial killer. He raped and killed and was diagnosed as a psychopath, not sure if a narcissistic psychopath.
My question is, he raped and did all the classic domestic abuse behaviours to his first partner before she escaped but not the partner he was with when he was caught. She stayed faithful to him till he died and said “he always treated her well”. His family denied he did the crimes too though it seems pretty clear he did. But how could the two different approaches to his partners happen and is it possibly related to him being a psychopath and not a narcissist?
Thanks as always 🙏
On the assumption that an accurate recollection has been provided, it will be linked to the issue of control.
Hi Two,
Maybe the first partner was harder to control so he had to use a different approach.