Spectre

SPECTRE

 

Whether you believe in ghosts or not, we certainly behave with certain similar attributes. We appear out of thin air. It is similar to how you can never remember the beginning of a dream can you? You cannot remember quite how we appeared. We just did. We seemed to coalesce into your life with the ease of a ghost walking through a wall. We arrive and ghost into your life. In the same way as seeing a ghost, when you experience us, it is not an event that you will forget in a hurry. We sidle up to you, insert ourselves into our lives and make connection after connection with you as we feed from you. Like some wraith we attach outselves to you and steadily begin to suck the life force from you as we gorge on the fuel that you provide.

Often we will vanish just as we arrived, without any warning or announcement and try as you might you cannot find us again. It is as if we have disappeared off the face of the earth. Naturally we chose the moment of our vanishing act without any concern for its effect on you. We slip away like a mist evaporating. Once we were everywhere, woven around you and captivating you. Much in the same way as one might be transfixed by the appearance of some spirit. You are entranced by our appearance, there is something ethereal and mysterious about us that causes you to be drawn to us and then we are gone.

We are that elusive spirit that can now not be found. You might go to the same place where we first manifested but there is no sign of us. We have left no footprint, no trace of our existence when you try and seek us out, just like our spectral cousins and then suddenly we have returned. We ghost back into your life and continuing our haunting of you. We are incessant and ever present, drifting about you as we resume our extraction of fuel. We resume our draining of your spirit, leeching it from you as our cold, dead hands take hold of you once again.

People have many theories as to what ghosts are if they indeed exist. Some suggest that where there has been a sudden explosion of emotion, a heightened experience, then an imprint has been made on the fabric of existence. This imprint appears to those who are attuned to seeing it. That imprint is seen doing the same thing over and over again. It walks the same route, passes through the same wall and then vanishes only to appear the next night in the same place. The spirit follows the same routine like a piece of video film stuck in an endless loop. Just like such a ghost we engage in the same behaviours over and over again. The same actions all designed to haunt you as we extract our fuel. The same gestures, the same actions all of which must be replayed. Some believe that a ghost is the soul of someone who has suffered eternal damnation. He or she has been denied entry to heaven or hell and instead has been consigned to walk the earth for eternity, stuck in an unceasing routine. Our endless quest for fuel finds us in such a similar position. We must make our way through life, restless and never finding peace. We move from place to place, unable to rest and be satisfied. Instead we are driven onwards, plagued by the curse of our need for fuel. Thus we must haunt others, our appearance bringing dread and fear in the same way as terror follows the appearance of a spectre.

Unable to quite fit in we are ghost at the feast. Even when we have vanished there is a lingering coldness that strikes you to your core. You still sense us, able to feel the effect of our chilling appearance. You are wary and anxious as you know we will appear once again. Quite when is a mystery but as we first arrived and as we first disappeared we will ghost into your life and continue our haunting of you. Better consult that exorcist.

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5 thoughts on “Spectre”

  1. … “apparition, specter,” from Latin spectrum “an appearance, image, apparition,” … …

    I had just been meditating on how my exnarc could give the appearance of being everything I am wishing for in a man, how he could create an image of that — and how it could be that I didn’t notice that it was only mirror image (the latin speculum), and no real connection, while I thought I felt it.
    Because I talked to someone who is the real thing, and I really wonder how I could not recognize that the exnarc was just an unreal mirror image, everything in reverse / inverted.
    How could I ever think that I was looking at the real thing, why didn’t I realize that it was just a projection, that he wasn’t giving or radiating anything?

  2. Dear H.G. you bad right… He come back to hoveer me dir this holydays. I chatting with him in the beginning but sono come the fight because He tried again to see me for having sex and i say NO. I discovered that hai wife sas pregnant so i told him my contempt toward him…He was very angry that i know it by a common friend and told me that he isn’t obliged to tell me anything and that hai wife lost the child. He then threatened me that if I talk about him around and the voice comes to his wife he will take his revenge on me. I close again every contact with him and He told me that he is like a gosht for me and i can really broke with him only if i clear the picture that i have with him (but i don’t want to clear them).
    Anyway it is real that he is a ghost inside me.

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