One More Chance

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What harm could it do to give us one more chance? Like the gambler placing another bet in the hope of winning big, there is everything to gain and not much more to lose really is there? You are down amongst the dead so what could possibly go wrong? Besides, imagine if you did not do so? Imagine that you pass up this opportunity and somebody else takes it? Somebody else benefits from all of your work and they get it right. They do and say the right things so they enjoy the joy of the golden period but this time it lasts forever. It would be like allowing someone ahead of you in the queue and they buy a winning lottery scratchcard from the selection you had your eye on. So near, yet oh so far. Imagine the crushing dejection of knowing that you had it in your grasp but you failed to fllow through and seize the moment. How could you live with yourself thereafter if you failed to act on this glorious chance?

You don’t want to let anybody else gain the advantage do you? Not after everything you have done to steady the ship, to keep things afloat and to steer a sensible course through hazardous waters. You are owed that chance. You are entitled to that magnificent outcome and here it is being offered to you. All you have to do is take hold of it and give us another chance to make things right. Yes, it has failed in the past but did Robert the Bruce give up in his attempts to defeat the English? No he did not, he kept on going didn’t he and I know, I just know that you are made of similar stuff. You have that indefatigable spirit, that is why I hcose you. I knew you would not give up. Too many people let me down, but not you. You aren’t going to do that are you? You have your eyes on the prize. You could not live with yourself if you knew you had given up the chance for us to return to our golden period once again.

I know some people say that past behaviour is the greatest indicator of future behaviour but they are just bitter because they lacked the capacity and the ability to make a change. They wanted to make a difference but they didn’t have the goods. They didn’t have the gumption, the wherewithal, the necessary to do the job. You have. I can tell. I know these things and if you just believe in me this one time then everything will be different. Just one chance. That is all that I am asking for. It isn’t much, not after everything we have been through.

You aren’t going to throw away everything that we have built up are you? I surely do not think that you will do such a thing. You are not like that. You believe in us and you are the one who holds the key to a magical future. Just place the key in the lock, turn it and open the door to me. I will be there waiting. I have all the time in the world. I am not going to go anywhere soon if I know that you are going to continue to believe in me, but if you are going to give up, even though I don’t think you will, well, there are plenty who will take your place. No, I haven’t got anybody lined up, I am not saying that. I am just pointing out that someone as special as me, well, there are people who would be interested, that is all that I am saying. But let’s not talk about them. That is just something which might happen if you make the wrong decision. Not that you will. You are good at making decisions. I know that. You chose to be with me. Oh I know I made it seem like that I came after you but let’s not delude ourselves here, you are the one who made the decision. After all, you are in control of your own destiny aren’t you? I just offered myself to you, you had to make the decision to make that step towards me and you did and do you know why? Because you know. You know that we belong together. You know how we feel about one another. Yes, I know there are difficult times, but that is just what life throws at us but you and I, well, we are better than that aren’t we? I am not trying to influence you because I have ultimate faith in you to do the right thing. You know your own mind. All I am doing is asking yourself whether it is worth throwing away all that we have, all that we can have, just because you will not give me another chance?

I know you are someone who believes in the power of love. I do too. Love is all that we need and what you and I have, well, nobody else really understands it do they? I know what people say about me and you being together, but it is all jealousy. Are you going to let the outrageous comments of others deny you your happiness? I would not think that for a moment you would conceivable allow that to happen. You are your own person. I have always respected that. I gave you what you needed. I know at times I might be a hard task master but I did it for us because it is only when you are truly and sorely tested that you can tell that it is love. Anybody can love like the books and the films. Anybody can be on top of their game when they have no worries and no concerns. A real test of a relationship is when the chips are down, when your backs are against the wall when it is against all odds. It is when somebody else interferes, wants what you have and you have to fight for what you want. You have. I have seen the fire and the determination in your eyes because I know you want me. You want us to be together. We have been tested, repeatedly, but have we not come through it? Have we not come out on the other side and we are better for it? Our love has become stronger because we have been tested and we survived that test. Are you going to let all of that go to waste just because I say some things in the heat of the moment? That is passion for you, you bring it out in me, I cannot help it that you cause these emotions to erupt from me. Would you rather me be a cold and heartless shell? Of course you would not. I am what I am and I am a cauldron which you manage to stir because that is how you and I are. Other people hurl their opinions around, I know they do, I am not stupid, I know what they say, but they do not understand you and me. They do not have what we have and they are misguided at best and jealous at worst.

So, give me another chance. It is easy and we have so, so much to look forward. There is nothing really more you can lose is there by trying again, but if you don’t you will always wonder, “what if?” and it will drive you demented not knowing what might have been if you had trusted your instinct and allowed me back.

Let’s do it. Let’s create our wonderful world again. Just you and me.

Just say yes.

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13 thoughts on “One More Chance”

  1. I got really depressed and lonely over the holidays. My son is here with his family and is constantly telling his wife how great and how beautiful she is. It made me miss having someone in my life telling me that and feeling that way about me. So l called him and suggested we go to a movie. We went last night. I felt comfortable with him. Laughter because he always makes me laugh and vice a versa. But the adoration was gone. It felt like I was with a friend. The total adoration love bombing was gone. He’s not dating anyone else It was gone from me as well because for the most part it was the love bombing that was the adhesive for me. I’m glad I’m a way that it’s gone. In a way I think due to my actions. ( ending it 8 months ago for the third time) killed the love. I feel ok about it. Not depressed like I did. And there’s a new guy I had a match with that I am excited about meeting. So I’m curious to get you guys especially you HG to give me your opinion.

  2. HG…..I could compare you to the concept of the Master Key 🗝……your not the psychopath who locked me in an invisible prison 4 years ago…,and of course he has a key….but I believe you have in your possession a master key….with your writings and your knowledge and your books….you posses the Master Key! 🗝 I’m not saying I believe your the only one who possesses a master key….but I do believe you have one. I bet they hate you! Other narcissists and psychopaths…..for presenting all the information you present! A trader you are to them….lol….hahahahahaha! Not that they have any allegence to anyone else but themselves….!

  3. I just received the final discard before new years eve as the upper-lower found another narc who he is so in love with and is his student and is 16 years younger… He wanted to discard his previous student exlover only on march but did before christmas as found a new ippss and this was secured before christmas. So i as the ex needed to go too. Beautiful! Clean cut discard.

  4. “There are plenty who will take your place.” That would be the death knell in the relationship for me. That would be a big flashing red warning light always going off in my mind. A “soul mate” could never, ever say that.

  5. Ive only recognized today…due to childhood conditioning i dismiss hardcore redflags.
    I feel like im being shut down in certain situations but because there isnt any tangible evidence (& of course the narcissist wouldnt be forthcoming) i stay the course because its not characteristic of empaths to jump the gun and be dismissive of another.
    Through the help of another empath, im able to see where my blocks are…and understand what the difficulty in leaving is. (I began a fwb relationship with someone i was unsure if they are a narcissist….turns out he is).
    Ive got to a place where i realized i couldnt say no…even when i wanted to. He even made a joke about shooting me in the head and fucking the hole. And somehow i became dead inside. I literally couldnt get up and leave. The understanding of what draws us as empaths to the narcissists will be our salvation to attracting different kinds of people.
    I tend to think the answer is in the problem like an algebra equation. If i stay long enough i will figure out what the problem is and be able to fix it. The solution is outside the problem. We need each other as empaths to listen and understand another’s predicament to help. We understand each other better.
    Just a thought.

  6. On top of the 100+ I already gave him? Yes, this one will be different!

    And that doesn’t include my rationalizing and excuse making on his behalf. Oh, anything to keep him in my life! Please, can I beg a bit more?

    I used to think that losing him would be such a tremendous loss, yet what was I losing, exactly, save myself?

    And there was never any sex. He was gay. One can get just as hurt without the supposed ‘mind blowing’ herpes-inducing sex.

    I’d sooner stick a meat thermometer up my rectum than ever give this disrespectful asshole 5 seconds more of my time.

    Happy New Year everyone! 😀

    1. Maybe they are all gay. That’s why they are so frustrated and angry. I have often asked my husband if he was gay, but he says he’s not into men at all. My last narc is very social and I see him seducing women, but also always hugging men. The looks he give to men are ‘weird’, different than any of the ‘normal’ men I know would give to other men.

      And I agree with you:
      “yet what was I losing, exactly, save myself?”
      Happy New Year to you too, Bibi.

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