Black or White But Never Grey



We all like to attach labels to people. People do it instinctively in respect of someone who they have just met, someone they have read about, a person they have known for a long time or someone they have seen on television. It is rare for someone to say that they do not have a view or an opinion about someone. Examples might include: –

“He’s a dependable chap, always there when you need him.”

“He’s a funny looking fellow.”

“She is very catty.”

“She is stunning looking.”

“A complete attention seeker.”

“A genius musician.”

“Really annoys me, I don’t know what it is but he does.”

Those are just classifications based on looks and personality. One can classify somebody by race, religion, birthplace, occupation, gender and so much more. Labels are used all the time as people are placed into boxes and compartments. Our kind do the same, but we differ in a fundamental way. We have an instant classification of people which is very straight forward. We will place people into further categories after this initial categorisation often using labels you would not and then we may well attach additional labels similar to the ones you use. What is this initial categorisation? It is simple. A person is either good or bad. That person is either with us or against us. They either do what we want or they do not. There are no ifs and maybes about these classifications. There is no grey with us when it comes to deciding into which camp someone should be placed. You are either white or black. You cannot be light grey, mid-grey or dark grey. We do not do the middling; it is one or the other. Let me give you some examples of those around me at the current time.

Julia (my boss) – Good

My mother – Bad

Paul (a lieutenant of longstanding) – Good

Andrea (predecessor primary supply) – Bad

Rachael(sister) – Good

Eric (colleague) – Good

Tania (lieutenant) – Good

Lesley (It Girl) – Bad

Elizabeth (litigious former girlfriend) – Bad

Phillip (lieutenant) – Good

Colin (competitor at work) – Bad

Not one of them am I indifferent to. You should be aware that this categorisation is based on my view of them irrespective of their behaviour towards me. Lesley for instance responded to a hoover a little while back and still messages me with pleasant comments from time to time. I play along as I am a far from finished with her but she is a bad person because of what she has done and moreover I know she will be looking for an opportunity to unseat me and seek some form of revenge over me as a consequence of my repeated thwarting of her ambitions. I know her game.

These categorisations are fluid. In fact, they are extremely fluid with some people, usually our intimate partners who are our primary sources of fuel. You may begin as a good person when I wake-up but by breakfast you are a bad person. Sometimes you will be utterly unaware of why your status has altered and it may appear capricious and arbitrary but it is not; you will have done something or failed to do something which has shifted your classification. Most often it is linked to your failure to provide me with fuel and therefore you will be designated a bad person and subjected to treatment in accordance with such a status; devaluation and denigration. Conversely, one can also move from bad to good in the blink of an eye. You won’t necessarily realise why this is, but we do. It is entirely logical to us.

As I mentioned once we have classified you as good or bad, we will classify you further, usually linked to the fuel you provide and how under our control you are. After that we will use similar labels to you – an interesting, handsome person and so on. Thus, take Paul my longstanding side kick. He is naturally a good person but I also regard him as a very good source of fuel, a highly reliable source of fuel and completely under my control, loyal and dedicated. My mother is a bad person. Whilst she is a good source of fuel for her emotional outbursts and temper tantrums, she is only fairly reliable. I have little control over her, she is a traitor and scheming to dethrone me, she has no concept of loyalty and is actively plotting against me. Thus whilst she may provide fuel the other factors cause her to be placed in the bad classification. I do not consider her to be grey just because she provides fuel but cannot really be controlled.

Why do we regard people in this manner? Why is it that we cannot take a holistic view of them? For instance, one might suggest that with the ex-girlfriend Lesley that she at one point was loving, dedicated and did much for me. Yes, she became a broken appliance and let me down, she also caused affront to me for which she must be repeatedly punished. She continues to try to be pleasant to me. Do I not look at this myriad of attributes and factors (plus more besides) and place her on some kind of spectrum between good and bad? No I do not. Why? Because my need of fuel is such I cannot have wishy-washy, amorphous classifications of people. This person is good – I can rely on them to give me positive fuel and do as I say. This person is bad – I can get negative fuel from them but I must be careful as they are plotting against me and seeking to avoid my control. This then enables me to apply my manipulations appropriately. It is also necessary to enable me to maintain my superiority and my self-worth. I need to keep those two aspects alive at all times. If you do not do what I want, you are calling into question my superiority. You are suggesting that I am worthless. Thus you are a bad person and I am the person who is admirable and worthy, you are wicked and evil. If you do as I want, you are confirming my superiority by submitting to my will. I am full of self-worth because you are acknowledging this by acting in accordance with my wishes. Deviate from that and you become a bad person.

You should have learned by now that because we look at the world through a different lens to you, there are many things that you will do (which you will not be aware about) which cause us to oscillate from regarding you as good to bad and then back to good, often in the space of an hour or less. This is all based on how we perceive your compliance to be. During our seduction of you, you are only ever a good person because you represent that wonderful potent source of positive fuel which we desire. You represent the prospect of an undimmed source unlike the bad person we are devaluing and about to discard. You always respond positively to our overtures, our love-bombing and you give us what we want. Hence you remain a good person. Those who are in our coterie, our lieutenants and those who form our façade remain good people. Challenge us, defy us or even worse see through us and you are challenging our need for superiority and self-worth and you must automatically be designated as a bad person, irrespective of what may have come before, that would create a more complex view. You failed to do what we want; you are a bad person. You then change and do what we want, you become a good person. It is a simple and necessary classification that we utilise.

Accordingly, everything is either good or bad with our kind. Admittedly, though it usually turns ugly as well….

16 thoughts on “Black or White But Never Grey

  1. The broken man says:

    H G …do you think i caused her a injury by finding out about her new supply? The 2 months discarding me…my word what a brilliant actress she was…making out shes so broken over our relationship breakdown…putting makeup on her mask making her look ten year older as if its taking its toll on her…she actually looked like coco the clown…obviously i also got the blame for it failing… apparently it was all my fault for breaking her heart so many times…you know…all the times i removed her from my home when texts were coming from different guys…only for her to cry im her one true love everytime…different story when it was me begging at discard time…she said i looked great and i will soon meet someone lol

  2. The broken man says:

    This is one of the things i used to scream at my what ive now learned to be narc ex …i used to scream why is this relationship so toxic…why is everything so black and white with you.

    6 years of pure emotional destruction..

    Im so glad she secured a new supply and discarded me obviously i wasnt at the time to educating myself on npd i feel relieved!

    I also exposed her…i was discarded november 17… she had new supply september 17.. i posted her a xmas card dec 2nd with hes name in it too and congratulated them on being together since september…thanked her for my blow job in november too…. 3 days later police were at my door… she didnt want me to contact her no more lol.

    Funny as she asked to stay friends…even with benefits lol and said she would reply to my texts when she can lol.

    Dont think so…block block block…good riddence!

    1. DUTG says:

      Hi broken man. If you are a victim of a female narc, I just wanted to acknowledge you as I feel information and support is weighted more heavily towards victims of male narcissists based on statistics showing male narcs outnumber females. It doesn’t mean you suffer any less, so bravo to you for speaking up in here. Keep posting in your safe place. Speaking of the abuse suffered from narcs is empowering. It all hurts regardless of gender.

  3. Hurt&Confused (but it’s becoming clearer) says:

    HG’s range of hair dye and colourants:
    01 as Black as my heart
    02 dragged through mud Brown
    03 golden period Blonde
    04 seeing Red – ignited fury

    100% narcissistic coverage guaranteed.

  4. ava101 says:

    I’m thinking about coloring my hair either in unicorn colors or from black to blue. Or simply pink.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      How about going bald and then you can choose a different wig each and every day.

      1. ava101 says:

        You are reading my thoughts more than you think:
        I have thought about wigs above my normal hair, then I could have galaxy hair one day, a pink bob the next … but I want to go dancing and then maybe it will become a bit hot … so maybe bleach my hair and then non-permanent color and a unicorn braid. 😉

        1. HG Tudor says:

          No issue.

          Get some cooling strips – place them on your bald head. Place wig on top.


      2. ava101 says:


        But I like my hair in general …

        1. HG Tudor says:

          Jolly good.

  5. Bubbles🍾 says:

    Dear Mr Tudor,
    After mixing with me, you’ll see a rainbow 🌈

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Not when I have covered up the sun.

      1. Bubbles🍾 says:

        Mr Tudor, would you really … ? 😱
        I was joking around, cos I’m colourful by nature!

      2. Somewhere over the rainbow says:

        Another perfect metaphor describing narcissism: you deny yourself all right to be really happy (=see the life’s “sun”) only to elude all possible pain!

        We(empaths)’ve seen the sun and now we’ll search it for the rest of our lifes, no matter the cost (or the “shadows/clouds” hiding it).

        Metaphorically speaking…

        1. HG Tudor says:

          Well put.

  6. DoForLuv says:

    I look at people the same way Black White , can change in a second .BPD really got some similarities with narcissism . But BPDs got too! Much emotions so different at the same time .

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