The Veiled Primary Source



You were crowned as the Intimate Partner Primary Source (“IPPS”) and you enjoyed that magnificent golden period. Those mesmerising days with the narcissist have gone, but the memory remains bittersweet. Blackened devaluation followed and now disengagement as you find yourself cast aside. During the downward spiral you had concerns that the person you loved and still love, was playing around, seeing other people and tarnishing that once professed perfect love. You believe that you have been pushed to one side and another has taken your crown.

Amidst the confusion and mayhem, your quest for answers, being the empathic truth seeker that you are, has led you to realise that you have been ensnared by a narcissist. You dive down the rabbit hole, reading all you can about this extraordinary disorder, shaking your head as you see the similarities of the experiences of other people, fighting back the tears as the humiliation of your treatments weighs heavy on your shoulders and still wanting him back. The wanting, the desire, the need remains and like so many others the questions form and occupy your thoughts on a daily basis.

Your suspicions that the narcissist was seducing someone else as the sun set on your empire with him, remain. You understand from your reading that the narcissist will often revel in rubbing the former IPPS’ nose in it, by parading the new IPPS to all and sundry. There are Relationship Bulletins placed on social media. The new subject of the narcissist’s infatuation is introduced to the narcissist’s coterie, the friends, the family and the colleagues as they get to bask in the golden light and you sob in the shadows. It is unfair. It is unjust. It is wrong. You worry that this new IPPS will be the one to make everything right and that the behaviours you experienced through devaluation will not be repeated. You want to derail the coupling and ensure you are installed back in that vaulted position of IPPS and this time you will strive to ensure you do everything right and avoid this awful fate that has currently befallen you. These are common responses and feelings.

You have been engaged in the customary social media stalking, looking to find out who has taken your place, but you cannot find anything. There are no posts showing the narcissist grinning with the new conquest, cold dead eyes gazing out from a score of posts, tendril wrapped about the new victim. You have not been able to contact any of the narcissist’s family or friends, learning that you had been smeared as an abuser by the narcissist, this litany of lies having been established well in advance of your disengagement. Nobody wishes to talk with you. You have managed to convince a handful of friends, failing to notice their eye-rolling, to try to find out who the narcissist is now with, but they have drawn a blank, yet you still have that nagging itch that someone new is in your place. Surely that is how it works? The narcissist needs that primary source of fuel to ensure that potent, plentiful and frequent fuel is provided to keep the construct in place. The narcissist cannot be without this particular appliance (or at least not for long) if a fuel crisis is to be averted, so what has happened? What is going on? Where is the new IPPS?

There are four scenarios which are relevant where it appears that a veil has been drawn across the new IPPS.

  1. Didn’t Receive the Memo

There is a new IPPS and the narcissist has not gone without the necessary fuel, but you do not know about it because you have simply missed the fact that this is happening. You have looked in the wrong places, you have been kept out of the loop and the side lining and ostracization which takes place following your disengagement has meant that you just have not come across the evidence of the new IPPS. You haven’t been included in the Relationship Bulletins because you have, as the former IPPS, been deleted from the world of the narcissist and you just haven’t learned of the new IPPS although he or she is very much there.

  1. Keeping It In The Family

Your suspicion that there is a new primary source is a well-founded suspicion but you have been looking in the wrong place. You have been looking for the new romantic partner of the narcissist, expecting to see him and her promenading together, dining at the haunts you were once taken to and splashed all over social media. Since you cannot find these indicators you are puzzled – surely he needs a primary source but where is she?

It is possible that the primary source is not an IPPS but a Non Intimate Primary Source and this usually means a family member. The narcissist has not ensnared a romantic primary source, for various reasons and therefore has fallen back on a family member to be the chief provider of fuel (and often considerable residual benefits). The NIPS will usually be a parent, child or sibling, in that order of likelihood. Extended family members can be NIPS but this is rarer.

If the narcissist has lived at home with a parent or moved back to live with the parent and you do not see a romantic primary source, it is highly likely that the mother or father is now the primary source. If the narcissist has children (minor or adult) and they live with the narcissist, one of these children will be crowned as the primary source and this is why you cannot find the new girlfriend.

If the narcissist rents an apartment with her sister or brother, then again, they are likely to be the primary source. If there is no romantic primary source and you know the narcissist is living with a family member, then it is a Keeping It In The Family scenario. If they are not living with a family member and you cannot find a romantic partner, ascertain whether the narcissist is spending a lot of time with a family member. Are they turning up at their mother’s house a lot? Do you know if he or she is popping across every day for dinner? Also keep in mind there are likely to be communications which you are not privy to between narcissist and family member which underlines their status as the new primary source.

  1. Troublemaker

There is a new IPPS but you are not being allowed to see that this person is in place. The narcissist is concerned that you are going to cause a major issue to the new golden period for this new IPPS and does not want you interfering. You have been smeared as a crazed harpy, the lunatic and psycho ex, so that the loyal members of the coterie form a protective wall around the narcissist and his new love interest. The coterie and the lieutenants will have been extensively briefed as to your catalogue of (fabricated) awful behaviours towards the narcissist, but your obsessed investigations as you sought to obtain answers are now used against you. You are painted as the crazy stalker, the oddball who just will not move on and although in part you are unable to move on, it is not for the reasons that have been explained about you.

The narcissist is most concerned that you are going to try to expose him or her to the new IPPS so that the wonderful golden period is derailed. He or she is worried that precious energy will be taken up trying to keep you away, fending off your attempts to display the truth about us as the narcissist seeks to manage the façade and prevent his good name being muddied. You will not find a Greater Narcissist in this position. The concern about you and what you will do is the preserve of the Mid Ranger (most likely) and the Lesser (to a degree) and therefore it is those schools who will be keeping the new IPPS on the down low. They will frequent different places, avoid social media pronouncements, block you on social media and create the appearance of there not being a new IPPS all done to ensure that you do not spoil matters.

This situation is most likely where you have escaped or if you have been disengaged it is where you have shown particular application in trying to have your truth told to many other appliances within the fuel matrix so you are refusing to abide by the expected role of weeping and woeful former IPPS. Show any fight against being controlled in this way, demonstrate a desire to confront and challenge and you will be swiftly labelled as a troublemaker. The narcissist will then pull a veil over the IPPS, shrouding them from you, ensuring the coterie makes no mention of a new girlfriend, avoiding any possibility of detection and thus ensuring that the newly embedded IPPS is not affected by your crazed rantings.

  1. Secondary Sources Rule

You cannot find a new IPPS for the simple reason that there is not one. The narcissist has not embedded a new IPPS or NIPS. Instead, the narcissist is content to operate by obtaining fuel from key secondary sources IPSSs, DLSs and NISSs. There are two instances where this occurs

  1. The narcissist is a Greater and has such an extensive fuel matrix that he can readily juggle various IPSSs and DLSs who provide plenty of fuel and therefore there is not yet a need for an IPPS (Greaters very rarely have NIPSs) . Indeed, some Greaters may operate a fuel matrix of extensive secondary sources and no primary source for several months;
  2. The narcissist is Mid Range or Lesser and has not been able to embed a new IPPS quickly enough and therefore has been forced to rely on the supplementary sources (secondary and tertiary) in the meanwhile. This state of affairs will not last long and the narcissist will be endeavouring to find an IPPS or turn to a NIPS if need be.

Thus, just because you cannot spot the new love interest of the narcissist who has callously disengaged from you (or more rarely you have escaped from) it does not mean that there is not one. Usually that primary source has an obscuring veil placed across them.

32 thoughts on “The Veiled Primary Source

  1. Aunirea says:

    If I have been married to a UMRN for 22 years, is it impossible to think he has been sexually faithful?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Not impossible, but highly unlikely.

  2. Kathleen says:

    Interesting info HG. My ex appears to be not veiling the new IPPS… but she is not broadcasting it on her social media. The new IPPS however- is the one posting and tagging my ex in pictures and such.

    One friend described to me two of the pictures that have occurred since October 2017. Which sounds like typical of what I experienced in her general ’coldness’ -the pics appear to show/ feel as if new IPPS is the one hanging all over my ex narcissist. The narcissist is just…”there”.

    Smile Like you mean it…. I used to think those song lyrics with mine— not much of a ‘smiler’ just when needed.


  3. K says:

    As punishment for shelving us, the reader, I thought a corrective devaluation was needed to address your treachery, so I went to the library to order Malignant Self Love: Narcissism Revisited by Sam Vaknin. However, someone did not return the damn book so I am triangulating you with The Art of Empathy. When you come back, I will paint you white again.

    1. K says:

      You are back! I have painted you white.

    2. blackunicorn123 says:

      Lol, K!!

      1. K says:

        Sometimes, I just can’t resist teasing HG a bit, blackunicorn123! Lol!

        1. MLA - Clarece says:

          Ditto for me K!

          1. K says:

            I noticed on Kiss Me, MLA! I was like oh no! She is asking for it…ha ha ha. Thanks for the laugh! Maybe we will both end up on the naughty step together. Diva probably carved her name into it.

          2. MLA - Clarece says:

            Hi K,
            I think the naughty step was created for me in the early days of the blog. lol Then there was a dungeon. I have no idea what he’s come up with for me now… haha

          3. K says:


            Maybe a net trap, and then he can shoot at you with a nerf/water gun as he laughs maniacally at your helplessness. Whatever he comes up with next, I am sure it will be quite amusing.

          4. MLA - Clarece says:

            Omg K, I somehow think HG was bored with Nerf water guns by age 7!

          5. K says:

            True, I wonder if he has a slingshot.

          6. MLA - Clarece says:

            Too sophomoric for our HG.

          7. K says:

            I think you are right, MLA.

        2. blackunicorn123 says:

          I didn’t realise you liked dangerous sports, lol!!

          1. K says:

            He knows I am puckish, but I always try to proceed with caution, blackunicorn123. Nobody wants to be sent to the naughty step.

          2. blackunicorn123 says:

            Lol, indeed…Although the self destructive side of me does wonder what the next level up (down?) is from the naughty step? 😳 Lol!!

          3. blackunicorn123 says:

            Anyway, he seems a bit grumpy at the minute. Best keep our heads down! 😂

          4. K says:

            After the naughty step comes spanking, blackunicorn123. If you want to get spanked, just send him an email. I haven’t “seen” much of him today, so I don’t know what his mood is. Usually I perceive him to be neutral/logical.

          5. blackunicorn123 says:

            Thanks K, but oh, how disappointing. Small increments then. 🙁
            I’m just picking up “vibes” at the moment. I loving his sarky dry humour right now, but I feel there is a bit of short temperedness woven in there too. I’ve probably had too much wine 😂

          6. K says:


            MLA wrote that there was a dungeon in the early days, which is pretty cool.

            Yesterday, I read a comment on The Golden Rules of Freedom No-4 with this description of HG: “a Greater Narc Huff”. It made me laugh. Every once in a blue moon I feel frustration in his comments but mostly I think he is unemotional and I think his humor is excellent, too!

          7. blackunicorn123 says:

            A dungeon, eh?! Better get the nipple clamps out 😂

          8. K says:

            Ha ha ha…blackunicorn123, thanks for the laugh!

          9. MLA - Clarece says:

            That’s right! HG….whatever happened to the audio about “Spanking” that you posted around the holidays?

      2. Nuit Étoilée says:

        Oh good, I’m glad I haven’t missed the spanking event.. i wondered..

        I thought so, too Blackunicorn, but I tend to read too much into things… but I swear I’ve received/read frustration..

        As for teasing Hg on the Kiss me post, i was happy for y’all’s company 😉

        1. blackunicorn123 says:

          NE – thank you, I’m glad you feel it too, I’ve been told I’m “hyper vigilant”, but I would argue I’m just observant, having honed my skills through circumstances not of my choosing!

        2. K says:

          Nuit Étoilée

          A spanking event sounds like fun. Maybe there will be hors d’ oeuvres and cocktails.

      3. Kimi says:

        That’s right MLA! I dutifully sent my email, but alas no spanking! What’s up HG?

  4. Portia S. says:

    Thank you for your insight, it is very much appreciated.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      You are welcome Portia.

  5. Carrie Ann khaddour says:

    Be on the lookout for a christian lady with a zip gun

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