The Seven Sins of the Empath’s Self-Doubt


In the beginning you are resourceful, confident and independent. Those attributes are there with no need for brazen displays but rather they exist in an understated and quiet manner. Then we arrive. The imposition of our manipulations is designed to bring life to these seven sins in order to leave you susceptible to our further machinations and control. These doubts will enable us to hoover you, draw fuel from you and maintain that connection we rely on to further our own ambitions.

  1. Is it actually my fault?


We will have you asking yourself and pondering whether what has happened is your fault. Did you do something to attract someone like us? Did you miss some sign which you ought to have seen and therefore it is your own failing which has caused you to be exposed to our control and abuse? We will have you analyse your behaviours as you become burdened with guilt. We are the experts in shifting the blame and through the repeated application of denial, deflection and projection, we will avoid any and all culpability for our actions, leaving them to impact on you. It must be your fault if we are so adamant that it is not our fault. The conviction by which we pin the blame on you will have you questioning yourself. It is natural for you to always reflect on your own behaviour, that is central to who you are and we know this. Add to this our incessant blame-shifting and this steady drip drip drip of the accumulation of blame will eventually take its toll and you will start to accept the blame and regard yourself at fault.

  1. Did I love him enough?


How many times have you been told, “You would do it if you loved me,” or “You wouldn’t do that if you actually loved me like you say you do”. You face the ultimate in supposed love through our love bombing and it sheer scale of apparent passion, affection and love would cause anything else to pale by comparison. You will always have this thrown in your face as we tell you time and time again about how much love we have shown for you, how we have loved you beyond anything else and nobody could love you any more than we do. Is it any wonder when faced with such repeated assertions and the behemoth that we are of love that you will query whether you gave enough love towards us? Perhaps we behave the way we do because we feel that we love you more than you love us? We will certainly tell you that and because you are such a devotee of love you will feel obligated to try to match what you have received. You cannot do so because the love we exhibit is smoke and mirrors, easy to conjure up, easy to say and what you understand as love takes more effort, but this will not stop you always wondering whether you do enough and whether a little more love might just be the solution that is needed to make everything perfect again. Thus, we keep you hanging on and trying all the harder.

  1. Was I wrong to leave?


This nagging doubt has to be created by us on order to keep alive the prospect of hoovering you. We know that you possess a near indefatigable spirit that causes you to stay and try to make things rights. So often it us that brings about the cessation (albeit temporary) of our relationship and we discard you. On the rare occasion where you decide that you have had enough and make a break for the border, to free yourself of our poisonous influence, we know that you will have reservations about doing so. You do not like to give up on people. You like to succeed. You desire for success is not the same as our self-centred drive for achievement but rather your success sf for other people and we know this. We know that you want to achieve resolution, that is why we lead you around the houses and up the garden path with our circular arguments. We know that you prefer to achieve an outcome, hence why we never fully answer questions, deflect and deny. This desire for a conclusion means that should you ever walk away from us we know you will be plagued by some guilt that you should not have done it. What if he could have been helped? What if he could change? What if he needed your help? Such doubts will manifest and mean that when we loom large as we seek to hoover you, this desire to leave nothing hanging (along with a host of other manipulative methods designed to get you to return) will leave you susceptible to being hoovered back into our twisted world.

  1. Should I have given him another chance?


Maybe if you had given us another chance (to add to the dozen or so that you have already given us) then the outcome might have been different? You invested so much and you gave us so many chances, perhaps you have cut loose too soon? Maybe one more chance was all that was required and now you are left wondering if you have made a mistake and lost the opportunity to help us and resolve our problems. Perhaps you had better try again and give that further chance? It would be such a shame not to do so, especially after all the effort you have put in? This might have been the point at which everything clicked and we finally made the changes and gained the understanding and insight that is required to return to a permanent golden period. You want to see good happen, we know this and therefore we know that you have that nagging itch that if you just gave us another chance this might be the one that is required to get us past the post. It won’t be, but we like to engender this hope in your mind so that you succumb to this doubt and return to us to try again. And again. And again.

  1. What if someone else makes him happy?


Have I been too hasty in making my escape? What if he finds someone else and she makes him happy? It shows it can be done and I let him go and now someone else is going to get the benefit of that wonderful golden period and she might get it all the time. Why should she get this when you have endured both the black with the golden? You are entitled to receive the golden period again surely? Perhaps it was something you had done and now she knows what to avoid because he will tell her what you did in the relationship and she will avoid making your mistake and reap the reward. How is that fair? Why should she benefit from the pain you have endured? It is your golden period and you want it back because it felt so wonderful. In fact, having checked his Facebook page for the sixth time today there seems to be a lot of mutual liking of one another’s posts between him and some new lady, whoever she is. What’s going on there? Has he found someone new already? Could she be the one? You had better act and do so quickly to avoid someone else getting the golden period for good. Why not ring him and arrange to meet up? Head her off at the pass? Yes, we instil such doubts in your mind in order to have you come back to us once more.

  1. Maybe I didn’t help him as much as I could have


There was something clearly wrong with him but maybe he could not help doing all those things. Perhaps something terrible once happened to him and this is why he behaves in such an abhorrent manner? Surely you should show some compassion and understanding in order to help him be free of whatever demons that plague him, after all, are you not a kind and considerate person. This is what you do isn’t it? Help people. You should not run out on him now, he needs you and you are the only one who can save him. Just be understanding, help him, give him what he needs and then together you can overcome whatever it is that has taken hold of him. You have seen him bleed, he is human just like you and it is help that he needs not condemnation. Yes, what he did to you was terrible but what if that could not be helped, what if he was trying to ask for your help and did not know how to ask for it? Now you have walked away from him, right when it is his hour of need. That’s not very empathic is it? That isn’t who you are. You are kind and caring, a healer. Go back and apologise and help him. Submit to his demands and help him walk through his personal hell, surely it is the least you can do, yes?

  1. Did I deserve it?


You spoke out of turn too many times so what did you expect him to do? He is a proud man and it was inevitable he would lash out. If you had not been so weak, you would have not annoyed him. Perhaps if you had done more of what he wanted, gone along with his demands just for the sake of quiet, things would have been drastically different? If you had not been so stubborn or had tried to change him? If you had not tried to mother him? If you had tried to mother him? If you had been someone else? If you had stayed true to yourself? If you had been more like his mother? Less like his mother? More like her? Less like her? You did try but somehow you always seemed to rile him and then the insults and assaults would fly. Maybe if you had kept a civil tongue in your mouth it would have turned out differently? Perhaps if you had tried to look at things from his perspective more often rather than thinking about yourself, then the outcome would have been better? You wish you were stronger and you needed to be stronger for both you and him, but you weren’t and that must the reason he treated you the way he did. Your weakness irritated him. Maybe if you had not been so pathetic then he would have continued to love you like he once did. Perhaps if you had not fought back when he was despondent he would not have felt the need to put you in your place. Maybe you just did not do enough of what he needed because you were too busy focussing on how you felt and that is why it all came tumbling down? Maybe you failed to understand him because you were too wrapped up in yourself? Maybe, just maybe, you got what you deserved?



21 thoughts on “The Seven Sins of the Empath’s Self-Doubt”

  1. Wow. HG, you totally nailed it! These are every one of the doubts that keep me in my marriage. I constantly question myself and distrust my feelings. I’ve said all of these things:

    “He says things with such conviction, he clearly sees that it’s my fault, and I don’t have the same unwavering conviction so he must be right.”

    “What if I leave and he marries someone else and they are happy, then I’ll know that the problem this whole time was that I’m just a shitty wife.”

    “What if I just expect too much? Am I being selfish? I am. No wonder he can’t stand living with me. If he had a truly good spouse, he wouldn’t have these explosions.”

    “It seems like he’s made a few changes, but I think they are just to appease and hoover me. I don’t feel like he is doing this out of love. But what if I’m wrong? What if I give up too soon, and he’s really trying this time, and I’ll never know how good it could have been?”

    On and on and on…..

  2. All that matters to these addicts is getting the fuel, that’s it. Everything else is just distractions to throw an empath off. Don’t fall for it. Turn off your delicious fuel to these maladaptive, sick fucks and keep it for yourself and people that really love you 😉

    1. Sherry: “Turn off your delicious fuel to these maladaptive, sick fucks and keep it for yourself and people that really love you” LOVE THIS! A very good strategy.

  3. HG, when a narc puts a very reliable and compliant appliance who always provided loads of positive fuel on the shelf and several months pass, is the appliance deleted from the narc’s mind, does he remember she is on the shelf, does she enter his mind at all? Any insight would be appreciated. Thank you!

    1. The appliance will enter the narcissist’s mind via an intrusive thought, same as any appliance.

  4. I’ve certainly wondered all of these many times about many situations. I think at least in my case they all come from the all encompassing fear – maybe I’m just not good enough?

    1. I think that was partly me. But I feel like in fairness, these tricks of socipaths would make anyone not feel good enough. People aren’t suppossed to so actively tear down other people. They do, of course, but being vulnerable to it is in part our own issues, but in other parts, just the power of all these games, tricks, manipulations and abuse. But as part of my defense now in life going forward, I keep a running mantra in my head. I AM good enough. It is slowly changing that negative self-talk that was always running even when I didn’t realize it. Maybe one day, I will just know this is the truth.

  5. Yes, we- women- have to be nice, pretty, modest, submissive and compassionate, then – some time- paradise will come (seven young men in heaven). This is the belief system that mothers and fathers all around the world still tell their female children and the society applauds- especially egotistical men and powerful men who do not want only the females to be gullible and to believe all nonsense they tell about justice, equality, good intentions. It is all about power.

    HG, I wish, you would meet a former school-friend of me, she is your female equivalent.. Left two husbands ruined, sold the house of her parents with all content( she did not take any memory) , went to the funeral of her mother in high-heels and a short skirt, marries always rich men and is now ruining her third husband. She has three children and – of course- she did not raise them. Other people had to do it. She is rich now, still pretty, powerful and a good match for you.

    That is the new way to live for “good” girls. Interest? She would support you until your money is finished.

      1. No, HG, it is pretty clear, what kind of person she is.
        I would like to watch your conversation. I would like to see the whole show. It would be amusing. At least I think so. She would try to ensnare you and you would try to ensnare her until you both realise with whom you deal. Great spectacle. I would like to be the mouse behind the wall to observe how you would deal with each other and to see your and her disappointment about each other. When narcissists collide…She is cold as ice, greedy, manipulative and dominant. I do have no contact with her. She ensnared affluent and successful men. And I think, that these men have not been gullible or very empathic. At least they have not been described as empathic people by others. Therefore it would be interesting…..
        And it is better for us, if your kind is busy with your own kind…

        I know, I enjoy today my nasty traits…

      2. “I would not try to ensnare her as I do not do so for my IPPSs.”

        This statement!?! Confusing. Would you be willing to elaborate HG?

          1. Thank you for clarifying HG. I misunderstood. I thought you were saying you didn’t ensnare to obtain IPPS’s. I know you’ve become much more aware, but that would be taking the shift in the MO a bit too far!

  6. Lucky are those that get to ask number 3. I would say those are fewer and further between cause they make sure they leave you before you leave them

      1. Lori, I meant to agree. The ones that escape are few . . . I remember in the golden period him telling me he would never leave me. That he never left anyone . . . his priors all had ‘dumped’ him . . . today I know what he was really saying to me was that he owns me 4ever. No matter who left whom first.

        Why was I so blind? Why didn’t I listen to my intuition? I must figure out the whys cuz I couldn’t take another relationship like that again . . . I’m batshit crazy now . . . another experience like that and I’ll end up on an episode of Snapped!

        Relationship is the improper word for it . . . Purgatory . . . Entrapment? No, ensnared is the better word for it, HG. Yes, ensnared . . . .

    1. Lori, I escaped but it’s small comfort because I still feel that he made me have to escape so he wins either way. And post escape he created so much chaos that I ended up going off on him like I rarely have done before. So I am not proud of the process of escape, even though I am glad that I did escape and did not second guess myself this time.

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