Shut Up!


I think I have said enough. I wish you would think the same. You have never shut up asking me about my day at work as I try to watch the sport on television. On and on you have gone asking question after question. It makes me wonder why you are so bloody interested. Fishing for something are you? Trying to catch me out? You won’t do that. I am cleverer than you. Much cleverer. What I do at work is nothing to do with you and you won’t find out about my plans there until such time as I decide that you should know. And it isn’t time, so I wish you would just be quiet and let me watch this game. You keep on going, talking over my television viewing which tells me that you regard my viewing experience as unimportant and that tells me you obviously think I am not important and you really ought to know by now that I am important. I hate you doing this. I can feel the burning from your selfish and treacherous action and it is paining me, but I know what to do. I know how to stop this pain and believe me I am going to do it and do it now.

You never know when to shut up do you? I suppose you think you are being pleasant asking me how my day has been, but you don’t care, you just do it for the sake of appearances, to make you look good, the caring and interested partner. I know your game. I have you worked out, you are a fraud. Yap, yap, yap,like some irritating puppy around my ankles, on and on you go. Just shut up will you? I cannot concentrate with your wasp like buzzing around me.

“How is the new recruit getting on?”

“How is the project developing?”

“Where did you go for that business lunch? Was it good? What did you have to eat? Who was it with?”

Just shut up. No, you are still chattering away. I don’t think you are even waiting for an answer are you? Just asking questions to seem like you are involving me in the conversation when all you are doing is engaging in another of your pointless and egotistical monologues. Do you know how boring you sound? If I wasn’t trying to concentrate on this match I think I would slip into a coma listening to you drone on with your worthless opinions and your anodyne observations.

Just shut up. No? Very well. I will. No, I am not saying anything. I am not even going to nod, shake my head or make an affirmative grunt. Nothing. A total silence.

My goodness me, you have stopped. Perhaps you have remembered that you need to breathe? Ah, excellent you have noticed that I no longer appear to be listening. Believe me, I am listening and I am doing so with considerable attentiveness, because I need to listen to what is coming my way. Let me guess, I think you will lead with “are you listening to me?” any second now and yes, there it is as predicted. I am not going to answer. Go on, repeat the question and true to form you do so. Now I have your attention haven’t I? I can see you from the corner of my eye as I stare at the screen pretending that the figures running around with the ball are more interesting than you. They are not because what you are starting to do is what I am interested in. I can see you leaning forward, trying to catch my eye. I know you are there but I am not going to acknowledge you. Sometimes you throw something towards me to get my attention, usually a cushion. It is not a nasty action,not like when I throw things at you. That reminds me, I must replace that coffee mug which I hurled at you. You were light on your toes that day as it sailed past and smashed against the wall. Anyway, that was last week and this is now and I can hear you asking the question a third time. Will it be the cushion? No, you have chosen to stand up instead. Gosh, you must be looking to assert some authority from the get go.

“I am talking to you.”

I know that you are but I am not answering you but already I can hear the mounting irritation in your voice and already I can feel the flames rising inside of me as they burn away the cold, harsh iciness of your criticism. That pain is already receding.

“Will you answer me please?”

No I will not. I have to turn my head so you do not see my smirk at your attempt to be commanding. It amuses me. I can see your hands move to your hips and I half expect you to stamp the ground with your foot.

“What’s the matter? Why won’t you answer me?”

The voice rises higher, signalling your anxiety and frustration and the flames continue to build inside of me. I maintain the stony faced expression, ink black eyes staring at the screen. I can see the movement on the television but it as if I am watching it from very far away as all that I am concentrating on now is your voice and the continuing delicious flaming sensation that is sweeping across me.

“Why are you not answering me?”

The questions have altered now haven’t they? A switch from your nosiness about my work to you now asking why I have fallen silent. You can keep asking and I know you will. You will go on for some time. You will storm out of the room trying to force a response from me, but your slammed door just keeps the flames burning. You will come back in. you always do. You will return contrite and apologising although you won’t know what you are trying to apologise for. Still, that won’t stop you going through a carousel of reasons in the hope of breaking my silence.

“Did I upset you?”

“Did I say something wrong?”

“Did I not listen to you?”

“Did I say something offensive?”

“Please, what did I do wrong?”

“Please will you just talk to me?”

“I hate this. I hate falling out. What is that I have done?”

Every time you ask these questions, the pain and concern in your voice keeps adding to the sense of power that I am feeling. The wound you created has long since closed and now I am savouring the growing power that courses through me. You have no idea what you are doing as you try, as you always do, to make things right. I will stay seated here, not even looking at you. You won’t try and stand in front of me whilst I am watching the television. You will not dare do that or switch it off. You remember what happened last time when you did that don’t you and I know you won’t be in a hurry to experience that again. I can sit and revel in my power over you and you just keep adding to it with your pitiful and plaintive questions. You will try to find out what is wrong, you will blame yourself next and start to apologise as you scramble to guess what it is that you have done wrong in the hope that you stumble on the right subject matter and make things right. But you will fail. Then you move on to trying to bribe me into speaking to you, suggesting we go out, or my friends come round for drinks tomorrow night or that you will cook me something special. Keep at it, I won’t respond. I will not even look at you. You are completely invisible to me as far as you are concerned.

I wonder how long I will maintain this silence with you? You haven’t worked out what to do yet, I am pleased to say. You keep on asking, pestering and questioning, driven by your own anxiety that causes you to want to ascertain what has happened and make things right. This means you might break off for half an hour but then you resume, trying a different tack. If all you knew you had to so was do exactly what I am doing and it would stop. Go silent and get on with what you want to do and I will start speaking to you and acknowledging you once again as I consider a different manipulation to use against you to gather my precious fuel. Fortunately, your empathic nature which means you want to understand and you want to fix and heal, will make you hang in there and all the while you provide me with fuel and power me. So long as you do so, so long the silence will continue.

9 thoughts on “Shut Up!

  1. Kathy Mor says:

    I learned how to mirror silent treatments.

    1. Q says:

      Useless, in my opinnion. If you give him back silent treatment you are doing nothing, you are still in his twisted paradigma. You will be still planning HIS game. No, you should pretend there is no silent treatment from his part and go on like nothing happens. That would really frustrate him a lot. And if you do this, after a while it will frustrate you enough to ask yourself why on earth you put up and lose your precious time with a guy who gives you silent treatments, why you accept a relationship based on his logic of game&play when out there there are thousands of guys who do not give their partners silent treatments. Why you chose to react in any way to his actions instead of you acting the way you want.

      1. Kathy Mor says:

        I was being sarcastic.

    2. Nika says:


      Truly… haha…

  2. Q says:

    Any woman who accepts multiple situations of this kind is an idiot, not an empath. Sorry, it can happen once, maybe twice, but to stick with a guy who does this regularly is beyond stupid.

    1. Nika says:

      Q, you sound immensely wise as if you know every other woman’s entire situation (from infancy to present) in this entire world. Not.

      Those who make rash judgments and blatantly call “ALL women “idiots” if they do such & such”, are often oblivious to their own idiocy.

      Granted, I am not making a judgement against you, myself, and calling you an “idiot”, as I do not know you, but I am simply making a point about your all-encompassing, rash statement.

    2. Getting There says:

      I don’t think that is a fair assessment. I don’t know your situation but I can see that kind of message as something possibly easier to say when you are not in the midst of it yourself. For example, I know some of the best American football coaches – on Monday morning from their view of the game in the living room.

      I do understand where you are coming from (without the name calling and without questioning if a person is an empath) in that what you are saying sounds like “fool me once shame on you; fool me twice shame on me.”
      Should a person continue to accept the behavior? Heck no! Should the person apply HG’s recommendation? Heck yes!
      Does accepting the behavior twice or more mean that someone is an “idiot” or “beyond stupid” or mean they lose their “empath card?” It is my opinion that that answer is a big “No!”

      While I think I am not good at reacting to silent treatments in regards to how the other wanted me to, I can see it as easy to understand how someone could accept it and more than once.
      I see it as it may be about the connection, the hope, or the thought that something is wrong as they are not talking and all you want to do is help/fix. It may be about putting someone else and something else (the relationships) above your hurt and pain at that moment. It may be the fact that many do not respect themselves; or are taught that putting your own needs or wants or feelings above another is beyond selfish. It may be about being taught to forgive and forget and accept others as who they are and where they are and just love and do all you can to help. There may be an addiction component; think gambling. That intermittent positive win (big or small) helps keep one gambling although there is usually more money lost than won.
      Who knows? Maybe nature may play a small role in that it helps some remember components of hurt and pain but forget enough to be willing to try again: think childbirth. I sure as heck know I had pain in labor and all; however, I would have had another if I could have.
      For whatever reason, there are many different things each of us have allowed another to do over and again: maybe silent treatments, maybe cheating, maybe being put down by name calling, maybe being physically/sexually/verbally/emotionally abused. I agree it would be best to not accept any of those treatments. Maybe you can help teach those around you how to not do so in a positive way.

  3. Christopher Jackson says:

    Damn hg right on the head hg lol right on….

  4. Nika says:

    I’d rather have this said to me than the Silent Treatment.

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