New and Improved

You messed up. I gave you the world, I really did. I truly gave you everything you ever wanted from someone. I know I did because this is what I always do. I always deliver. You did not though and you let me down. Despite everything I said, everything that I did you failed. Oh I hear you bleat on about how you loved me like nobody else. You protest about all the things you sacrificed for me, all the things you did for me and how you put me ahead of everything else in order to please me, to make me happy. Stop going on about yourself will you? It is not very becoming. This hysteria surrounding how you pulled out all the stops, gave your all and did everything that I ever asked of you, even doing some things you did not like is pathetic. Ah I see, you complain about it now, but you did not at the time did you, you charlatan? You disgust me.

I am well rid of you and in a way I suppose I must thank you because if you had not failed you would not have made me realise how we did not belong together. I did everything I could to make it work but you let me down. Thank goodness I woke up and saw it otherwise I would still be trapped by you. You at least enabled me to realise how flawed you actually are and I won’t be making that mistake again. Not a chance of that happening. In fact, as testament to just how wonderful I am and how brilliantly I treat you I have someone else. What do you mean I wasted no time in moving on? Why should I? I am not going to sit around and bemoan how you let me down. That will not serve any purpose and besides I cannot help it if people want to be with me, it is only natural.

Yes I am with Lauren now. She is wonderful. She is everything I have ever wanted and I am her soul mate. I know that we are going to be very happy together now. She is the one. I know I thought that of you, but you misled me. Lauren is not like that. I am moving in with her next week. It makes perfect sense. I want to be with her all of the time. She is beautiful, just look at her, perfectly put together. She is so shiny and new. I am head over heels in love with her, I cannot be apart from her. Take a look. If you had been more like her then I would not have had to punish you the way I did. That is not going to happen with Lauren. No way. I can only see a bright and beautiful future for us. I hope she falls pregnant soon as our child will be such a wonder to behold. Thank God I did not have a child with you. Imagine that? Good God that would have been terrible having to share a child with a monster like you. Lauren will be a first class mother, we have already talked about it and I can tell that she is keen. She adores me and always will. Not like you. You had your chance but you messed it up. You only have yourself to blame. Oh I know what you are like, you will try and make out that it was me that was the problem but I know it was you. So do all my friends and yours. Yes I have already spoken to them and they agree that I am better off without you and that Lauren and I are the perfect couple. She always knows what to say you see. She understands me like nobody else does. She gets me. She is the only one. I bought a new ‘phone with an increased megapixel camera because there will be so many photographs I have to take of Lauren and I. I want all those perfect moments captured so I can show the world how happy we are together. I know other relationships have not worked out but that is what happens when you get duped by harpies. Lauren is not like them. She is not like you. We have booked a holiday away already. Two weeks in the sunshine. We are going to have such a brilliant time being together in paradise. You can expect plenty of postings on Facebook so feel free to look in on them, I know you will. You can expect all my friends to be talking about us. We are the golden couple. Thank goodness I found her. This is it. This is the one for me. We just fit together. It is as if she knows what I am thinking. She listens and learns and then always knows the right thing to say and to do. It is marvellous and just shows why we belong together. I know you will need to know all of this because, well, I deserve to be happy after what you did to me. You should be happy for me, you should, that is if you really do love me. You tell me you do but that does not matter now. I have a perfect love with Lauren and this is the one that will last.I imagine we will be married by the summer. It will be a glorious ceremony and she will look absolutely stunning, polished and gleaming, stood just the way I want and looking at me with rapturous adoration.

I could not be happier, I really could not. I have my soul mate, I am her angel sent from heaven to make her happy and I will do that because I am so good at doing that for people. Everything is going to be just wonderful and you had your chance but you blew it. I get so excited when I find someone new and when I know they will be better than you. Someone who puts me first rather than themselves. Someone who deserves me. Someone who is not you. Someone who is new and improved.

15 thoughts on “New and Improved

  1. Kathleen says:

    Should we advocate for a worldwide Narc registry? FB almost does the trick-but Is too easily manipulated. if HG vetted the entries in the registry- it could be helpful. Just like the sex offenders registry…Don’t forget to check that folks!
    It really could spare a lot of people some serious damage. Toxic and abusive motherfucker’s registry. You know that a lot of therapists in any city probably hear the same person’s name over and over again as a “crazy heartbreaker “ . Esp in gay community.

    1. Violetta says:

      Problem is, the narcs devaluing their soon-to-be exes will get them on the list to manipulate custody battles or just to mess with them.

  2. WendyRhoades says:

    This is the kind of gratiuitous jollification of your condition that puts people off.

  3. SMH says:

    HG, Are you punishing someone else with SM? I can’t keep track of all the women in your life so I don’t know who the last one was or maybe it is your ex-wife?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Of course.

      1. SMH says:

        If it is your ex-wife (not clear from your answer as it could be ‘someone else’) will she care? Didn’t she escape?

  4. Lori says:

    It all seems so exhausting

  5. Butterfly says:

    You know that the “pathethic” personality is the void that controls you…The closer we get to meet that monster, the more you need to put the blame on us. You are asking us to “offer” our lives to the monster, as virgins thrown to the volcano to keep the Gods calmed down.

  6. Jess says:

    Apologies for the double comment. WordPress playing up on me.

  7. Jess says:

    They’re only so new and perfect and enchantingly wonderful for so long though aren’t they HG. And then it’s time for another…..

  8. Jess says:

    They’re only new and perfect and enchantingly wonderful for so long aren’t they HG? Until the next one….

  9. santaann1964 says:

    , and the torture will continue no matter what. It’s just a matter of time. Poor Lauren.

  10. J.G THE ONE says:

    Hello, H.G. Tudor.
    Unfortunately for you, nobody believes that anymore. Just a façade of momentary happiness, because you can not feel that kind of feelings.
    I have to say, that this story would be nice, if it could finally be real. May your tormented souls finally find rest. But we already know that again it is a simple manipulation to punish its victim.
    And reflecting, I ask myself: what do you demand? what did you give? Do you say perfect love? That’s ironic, because that wasn’t true.
    If you were at least less synic, you would have told the truth. It was simply the REFLEX of a Perfect Love, Yours. Which we never wanted. Well, what simply interested us about you was your fuel.
    The one who now with these words of the story, I am obtaining from you…

    What the narcissist’s mind is really thinking:
    (What I have to invent, machine and what I have to be with, to get a few more crumbs of your fuel. I will squeeze you a little more before the decommitment. To then go to squeeze this new candidate incauuta Lauren which for the moment I will cover lovebombing so that this well hooked)
    I believe, from any point of view, that one tries to contemplate such behavior, both from the point of view (Narcissistic or Empathic) the result is the same, Pathetic.

    Although of course the victim would never know this without the revelations of HG Tudor.

    1. lisk says:

      “Unfortunately for you, nobody believes that anymore.”

      HG and many of us know that this statement is not true.

      To paraphrase the words attributed to PT Barnum (Who knows? Barnum was probably also a narcissist.):

      “There’s an Empath born every minute.”

      1. Joanne says:

        True, sadly. Plenty of “fans” in his corner with their blindfolds on. Plenty of women will continue falling at his feet because the facade is *that* good 🤷🏼‍♀️

        And when I say “his” I am referring to my narc but obviously HG as well…

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