My Secret Garden

MY-SECRET-GARDEN

 

Would you like to know what my garden is like? Before I tell you, why don’t you stop and close your eyes and picture in your mind’s eye what you think my garden looks like? That’s right, conjure up the image that forms when you think of me and what my garden might be like. Take your time, move around it and ensure you have given it due consideration as you generate the image. Have you done it? Did it take you long? I suspect you managed to envisage it rather quickly didn’t you, after all, you are well-known for your amazing imagination aren’t you? I often find I have to apologise for your fantastic tales and over the top comments, but that is to be expected of somebody like you. Anyway, let’s leave your behaviour to one side for the time being (although I will return to it when nobody is looking, you can be assured of that) and let’s consider what you created in your mind.

I should imagine that the landscape you have formulated is one of two outcomes. I expect that some of you will have pictured nothing but concrete. All plant life and flora banished by a solid slab of grey cement that has solidified into an impenetrable barrier that stretches in all directions, lifeless and uninspiring. Once there might have been a flourishing and verdant garden but it has been banished by this concrete covering which has extinguished anything that grew or blossomed. If the concrete carbuncle is not what you saw in your mind then you will have opted for the alternative.

You will have pictured solid, barren and lifeless soil which will not sustain anything of beauty. A toxic and poisonous stream flows through the centre of it, dead fish floating on their backs as they drift lifelessly along. Not even algae grows on this polluted stream. The few trees there are in this garden are dead. The bark grey and lifeless, forlorn limbs stretching into a dark grey sky, where there is always cloud. The branches and twigs are leafless. The bushes consist of brambles which hinder anybody who might try and move through this uninviting place. There is no grass and there a few brown, dried-out husks which suggest there might have once been something greener and vibrant. There are no sweet smelling flowers here, only the awful stench which rises from the slow-moving stream which looks more like treacle than water. Even the weeds are few and far between, struggling to find any sustenance from the sterile soil.

Is this what you saw?

Come and follow me as I take you into my secret garden. I produce a key from my jacket explaining that very few people ever get to see my secret garden but I am letting you inside because you are special and I like you. I open the thick gate and usher you inside. You do not see me hurriedly lock it behind you since you are busy staring at the beautiful garden that rolls out before you. Capability Brown must have laboured long and hard here. The lawn is flat and even, the grass has been rolled so that stripes have formed and there is not one blemish to be seen amidst the green, green blades. The edges of the lawn have been carefully cut so that no grass overhangs so that there is a distinct line between the lawn and the flower beds.

The soil looks fertile, well-nourished and is free of weeds. A dazzling array of flowers grow from this well-tilled soil. Strong stalks reach up towards the azure sky, shiny leaves sprouting from the stalks before the injection of colour appears. Every shade of the rainbow is represented amongst the many varieties of flower that flourish in my secret garden. Brilliant blues, fiery oranges, ruby reds and sunshine yellows abound. The flowers have short petals, long petals which move in the gentle breeze, there are bell-shaped flowers, trumpet shaped flowers and others shaped like stars. White, purple, scarlet and ochre all combine to create this tapestry of beauty. A stream gurgles as it passes through the garden, cutting across the magnificently manicured lawn, so that an intricate bridge has been created allowing one to traverse from one side to the other. Bushes ring the flowers, an expert in topiary having crafted them into sensational shapes. Beyond the bushes are the trees, tall and trimmed so that they form a fence around this paradise. You stand on the edge of this magnificent garden utterly transfixed. The scents waft from the roses, from the lilies and the sweet William combining to create a heady concoction of fragrances. You are over awed by this display.

“Do you like it?” I ask.

You are dumb-founded, unable to speak. All you can muster is a slow nod as you feel a tear trickle down your cheek from your left eye as you are overtaken by how beautiful it all is.

I beckon to you and you follow me to a nearby apple tree which is festooned with fruit. The red and green apples hang from the branches and I pluck one and pass it to you. You smile and take a bite anticipating how fresh and crisp the apple will be. Your teeth easily sink in as you are surprised to find the flesh of the apple soft. You taste bitterness in your mouth and instinctively spit out the piece of fruit.

“What’s wrong?” I ask as I select an apple too.

“It is sour,” you explain. I take a bite from my apple and you hear the crunch as I take a chunk from it. I chew and through the mouthful explain that mine tastes fine. I hand the apple to you and you bite into it. It is soft and again tastes sour. Confusion rises inside you as you look at the apple and see a maggot wriggling beneath where you have bitten into the apple. You hurl the apple away as I invite you to sniff a magnificent rose nearby. You lean in and inhale its perfume, pulling the petalled head towards you. There is no scent and instead you sneeze.

As you let go of the rose you give a short cry of pain and find that a thorn is wedged in your finger, the blood already spooring from the wound and trickling down your finger. You sneeze again,your nose irritated by something and you keep sneezing as your eyes water. You stagger away from the rose still sneezing and into a bush but it is not the sculpted creation you saw moments earlier.

Instead, you feel a prickling sensation as you are stung and realise you have stumbled into a bed of nettles. Pain rising you stagger away, eyes streaming and make for where you recall the stream is hoping to use the cool, clear water to wash away the irritation you have suffered.

You can just make out where it is through your blurred vision as you drop to your knees only to cry out again. You have knelt on some thistles.Where did they come from? This lawn was flawless before. You reach out flailing for the stream but there is nothing, The water has gone and the stream has dried up. You feel something wrap around your left wrist and as you try to wipe away the tears from your eyes with your free hand, you feel pain as a vine begins to tighten about your wrist. You pull trying to free yourself from it and twist around to call to me for help.

The smooth lawn is no longer there. Gone is the rolled grass. Instead you are looking at a mountainside, rugged and steep. You yank your arm as the vine is trying to pull you and look upwards. You can see me standing there smiling at you, looking down from my lofty position atop this mountain which has sprung out of nowhere. A cold wind begins to blow as you shout for help, another vine beginning to snake towards you. I tilt my head as if I cannot hear you, a smile still plastered across my face.

“Help me, what is happening?” you shout.

“Nothing,” I call back, ” I don’t know what you are talking about.”

“This. The garden, it has changed,” you yell above the gathering wind. You see that I am shaking my head.

” Not it’s not, everything is just the same, Beautiful isn’t it?” I reply.

You frown. How can I not see what has altered? The beautiful glade has become a hostile and hurtful place. How has this happened to you?

You try and crawl forward and I stand watching you, offering no help as more vines snake towards you, the ground beneath you hard and stony. The vines wrap about you and threaten to pull you into the abyss below you. All the while I stand and watch smiling.

Welcome to my secret garden.

16 thoughts on “My Secret Garden

  1. SParham says:

    I can fully see you growing nettle, thistle and roses. I grow all three in separate gardens. Thistle flowers are by far my favorite. I love using it in arrangements. The bushes come alive with birds and pollinators. Unreal beautiful.

  2. Asp Emp says:

    My grandmother was very good at gardening, she really enjoyed it. I enjoy it too.

    I’d love a secret garden – an outdoor ‘room’ to enjoy whether it’s day or night……

    1. A Victor says:

      I like to play at gardening but not really do the heavy lifting. Weeding makes me crazy! But it is nice, each year I do something to improve my space and the next many years I get to enjoy it. Hostas are a favorite. The garden here sounds like a nightmare in the end, same as my marriage to the narc was.

      1. Asp Emp says:

        AV, RE: Hostas, what do you use, if anything, to stop snails eating the leaves? I could not understand why my grandmother used ‘vaseline’ around the edge of her plant pots……until I tried it. Seems to work though. Slimy little buggers!

        1. A Victor says:

          I have never had much of a snail problem, the couple of times I have seen one or two I put them in a different location in my yard and they never came back. I have many many hostas in all sorts of varieties, at my old house and the new one, same re slugs and snails both locations. Maybe it’s our climate? I have heard salt water in low containers works well though.

          1. Asp Emp says:

            AV, thank you for your answer. I do know they don’t like gravel either. The ones in your area obviously can’t be arsed to slither back! I would not use salt because I read that it is not good for the environment. I had a surprise when I foun around 50, yes, 50, in one spot behind some bricks that I had moved moved in years – none were alive. It depends if anyone has hedgehogs in the area,

          2. A Victor says:

            Interesting! How do hedgehogs affect it? We had a neighbor family that kept one as a pet for a number of years. But none live here in the wild.

            The salt is in water and contained in a shallow dish. That said, here we salt everything all winter long, if we didn’t we wouldn’t be able to walk on our sidewalks or drive on our roads for half the year. I don’t use salt, I use kitty litter. Or I just don’t go out. But, many people, including the highway department, do. They have been experimenting with other things the last few years but that makes me nervous, we don’t always know long term effects of new chemical compounds until later, on the environment or on us.

            Your snail situation sounds pretty slimy, laughing! 50 dead ones, gross! Glad they were dead.

          3. Asp Emp says:

            AV, hedgehogs do not affect the issue of snails. In the UK, they are now ‘protected’ but used to be in abundance. I had one, it was massive – my dog ‘met’ it one night. I thought it was her ball, until it moved. Fk! LOL. It lived in my garden until the Sasquatches removed the fence, built the wall, removed the said wall, replaced it with a new fence. I’ve not seen the hedgehog since. I’d permit the ‘Hedgehog Preservation Society’ to introduce a couple into my garden but there are commitments that has to be ‘followed’ – so I did not go down that route.

            Well, road gritters would not be permitted to use abrasive chemicals any more because the Environment Agencies have a part to contribute to assisting in reducing impact on wildlife etc.

            Ah, no, I have not seen as many snails, nor slugs in the last couple of years. Maybe Sasquatches had something to do with that 😉 Took them with them when they moved. LOL.

          4. A Victor says:

            My friends that lived in the UK until recently had a hedgehog in their backyard also. He was cute but very secretive, I was only able to catch a glimpse one time.

            Well, good riddance to the Sasquatches and the snails!! Lol!!

          5. Asp Emp says:

            AV, hedgehogs being nocturnal and have their own way of getting around, in the dark. Yeah, so glad to have them Sasquatches gone. 🙂

          6. A Victor says:

            Yes, we went out at dust or dawn to try to see him. He only came once or twice while I was visiting. But my friend got to enjoy him for 3 years.

            Our old chi fell off the bed tonight and broke something. We have to take him to the vet and have him put down in a few minutes, I’m sad. But I think the vet is a narcissist. I’ve been observing him, this will be a prime opportunity. I’ll let you know what I see.

          7. A Victor says:

            Update on the vet, I can’t tell. He’s very nice, he doesn’t come across as pushy but he is straightforward. He saw the dog and said “Yeah, there is something really wrong, I don’t think there’s anything to be done.” Even when I mentioned thousands of dollars he said “Not sure what we could do even then given his age and so on.” But he was very sweet, went and got a piece of bubble wrap to put the dog on for the procedure. It was my daughter’s dog but I have had him since she moved out, that’s why I’m not more upset, when they’re mine it is harder. I will miss him of course but life will be a bit easier now too. Anyway, the doc is potential date material hence my curiosity. He only charged me $27! I gave him $40, he’d stayed until 10 pm to take care of it for me. He doesn’t seem to have any strong indicators that I can see. Last time I was there my mom’s cat bit me really badly and he seemed kind of mad at the cat, must be why I thought he was a narc. I was kind of mad at the cat too though. If anything changes I’ll let you know. I am laughing right now because you didn’t ask, thank you for putting up with my silliness tonight.

          8. Asp Emp says:

            AV, it is not always easy to tell whether a vet is a narcissist or not. A non-narcissist vet (especially near retirement age – the one who dealt with my dog) will have learned to ‘harden’ their emotions – called ‘dampening’ of the emotions. Sorry to hear about the dog. When they get to senior age, anaesthetic can cause complications, hence the reluctance of vets to always carry out a procedure for this reason alone. Maybe the vet secretly hates cats? I am quite surprised that the vet used bubble-wrap – bloody hell, that is appalling really. I used an old towel and the vet had a blanket (because my dog was old), just finding it a little hard at mo because I was there as my dog passed away after being given the injection. It’s nearly two years since. My dog was a people ‘magnet’. LOL.

            Why do people say “Oh, you can get another one” when a dog dies? But they don’t say the same when a dad dies. Ridiculous!

            Why do you say something about your ‘silliness’?

  3. Desiree L Whitney says:

    You are a talented writer and a very twisted man.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Fair enough.

  4. psychologyandworldaffairs says:

    My Gran used to say = if it looks too good to be true it probably is

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