Impervious to Penetration

 

 

 

You should consider that you are rather fortunate to be given these glimpses into the workings of my mind through this book and the others that I have written. Ordinarily you are unable to peer into the dark mind of my kind and I. As an empathic individual you do cultivate an ability to understand the way that other people are thinking and how they are feeling. It provides you with a degree of intuition and this is applicable to many of the people that you meet. You apply this ability for the purposes of doing good things and I understand why you do that. Notwithstanding this ability however it does not work with us. You are unable to establish what is going through our minds or what we might be thinking, no matter how desperate you are to be able to do this. This is because we do not abide by the normal rules and conventions of everyone else. We do not travel on the well-worn path but instead we take those routes which are from the beaten path. These routes are tangled, unmapped and dangerous and they are so designed to prevent others from following us down them. We do not want you to know what we are thinking.

This is because we have no desire to convey you any advantage in seeking to escape our effects and make it harder for us to obtain fuel from you. We must cloak our minds and make them impervious to your attempts to read them. We must operate through secrecy and covert behaviours so that you never see us coming, so that you never know what will happen next and so that you have no opportunity to evade us. Not only do we shroud our minds in this manner through our rejection of logic and the adoption of behaviours which are outside those considered normal we also ensure you cannot read us through our eyes.

Many people look to the eyes as a device for gauging what someone might be thinking or perhaps more accurately feeling. If we are explaining something to somebody and we confusion in that person’s eyes we know we must adopt a clearer method in our explanation. If we are conveying some news and see a pained expression in those eyes we know (if it was you making the comment) to alter the manner in which it is expressed to make it less painful or to do or say something to offer support. Of course, when we see it, we merely increase the pain in order to extract a reaction from you.

This weakness of the eyes in allowing another person to gauge how someone is feeling and therefore ascertain what they are thinking is not something that we can countenance. This is vulnerability and we do not like vulnerabilities at all. We have enough to contend with without allowing you to see what they are. Accordingly, in order to ensure that our mind is impervious to your inspection we will either adopt a cold, dead look in our eyes which renders them impenetrable or we will simply reflect back at you what you are feeling and mislead you. When we adopt that cold stare, it may be designed to induce a sense of dread in you but it has a primary purpose. This purpose is to create a shield so that you are unable to ascertain what we are thinking and thus our plotting mind is secure from external influence and can proceed in its scheming. Should we reflect back to you what you are showing to us we are doing this to mislead you but also again to prevent you from having any chance of understanding what is going on in our dark minds. Our minds are the core of our operations. Our minds control everything in order to achieve our aim of securing fuel and as such, this most precious of devices must not be compromised in any way by people like you and your meddling.

We must ensure that our minds are ring-fenced, cut-off and protected from your attempts to read us. Should you be able to do that then you will be taking away one of our advantages. We know what you are thinking and we know what you are going to do next because you are an empath and you not only wear your heart on your sleeve but you wear your mind there as well. Your eyes allow us straight into what you are thinking and feeling. Your mind may as well be transparent or broadcast its thoughts onto a flat screen for all to see. You are easy to work out and study, hence why we choose you. A similar fate must not befall us and this is why we ensure at all times that our minds are impervious to your penetration.

 

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36 thoughts on “Impervious to Penetration”

  1. I’m not so sure your kind are completely impervious. I think there are weak spots where the light can come in (and go out). It might be a good idea to always wear sunglasses because eyes can betray vulnerabilities when you’re not aware.

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  2. My N1 always knew what I was thinking. It was uncanny. My second narc did to a lesser extent, but I attribute that to me learning. People still say they can tell by the look in my eyes what I am thinking. I’m glad you and I will never have eye contact.

    Ultimately, my betrayal to them came as a shock when survival mode came in and I refused certain requests (orders).. They say they never saw it coming even though I warned them several times.

    I’m not sure that your kind are impervious 100%. I saw certain things…droppings of the mask, but intuition said to be silent…that survival thing again. You are correct that wee are fortunate that you provide insight. As always, thanks.

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  3. Impervious to most people, yeah. But I was born to & raised by a narcissist of the first magnitude and I got a very good look at the machinations of her mind. Sure, I’m capable of being “more manipulative” than she is, and I’m as much of (if not more than) a narcissist as she is. You don’t get that close to it without it having an effect.

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  4. But, your abuse on us has caused us to better trust on own very sensitive intuition. And, we also come to a point where we heal our childhood wounds due to the trauma you inflict upon us. So, some very good can come your very bad. You might not wish to hear this, but the human spirit is quite resilient, and triumphant.

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    1. That is so true Tamara. Exactly what happened to me. He essentially made me regress, I left at the right time and was able to heal and grow to a place I had not thought was ever achievable.

      He wanted to be my worst nightmare but in fact he was the best thing that ever happened to me !

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      1. This is true with me, too! I would have never, otherwise, opened up the Pandora Box of all my inner pain. In fact, all the triggers I use to have from my traumatic experiences of growing up are actually lessening more and more. It was only from this experience with the Sociopath/Narcissist that has been able to make this happen, despite all past therapy! <3 <3 <3 The Lord makes good come from the bad! I should write a post about this 🙂

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      2. So pleased for you Tamara. This really is the beginning for us and yes it has released me from all the childhood trauma. Pre the N it was almost as though I needed to keep feeling the pain, so I would indulge in things that would make that happen, all subconsciously (repetition compulsion). I no longer do that or feel any need to.

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      3. Yes! If something very positive can come from this experience then it really was not a waste of time at all 🙂 Maybe we can even go as far to say that we just went through some very vigorous and intense therapy! 🙂

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      4. Me, too! I went to one therapist, and she’d never even heard of Malignant Narcissism. I was really surprised and it didn’t make me feel very confident with her. I don’t want to have to explain the entire breakdown of NPD to a therapist; I want them to have some, at least, basic understanding of where I’m coming from in my trauma experience.

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      5. It’s rather unbelievable isn’t it ? I didn’t go down the therapist route, mainly because my mother and sent me to so many as a child when in actual fact she was the one with the problem but made me think it was me. But I’ve read masses about therapists not knowing about NPd and many of them having it themselves.

        It must have been so frustrating for you to know more than your therapist.

        I read so much on many different sites, I found shari schreibers work particularly good in my healing process. Although she does get it a bit wrong about Ns but her work is mainly on BPDs which she understands far better. But her articles on child / parent relationships are spot on ! My favourite, ‘do you love to be needed or need to be loved’.

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  5. Great post HG. And thanks to you we do know what Ns are thinking.

    And once you know what one N is thinking, you know what they’re all thinking – wouldn’t you agree ?

    Or do you think there is a possibility I could be mistaken ? Maybe the next one could be different ?

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  6. As an empath child of a narc, I somehow ended up with both skillsets. I rank high in narcissism, but am not NPD. So when I unconditionally trust, and fall in love I fall victim. But once I am stung and aware, my own narc skills take over as a survival mechanism, and it confuses the hell out of the narcs because I turn the mirror on them. Hey, whatever works.

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  7. That was a great post, and enjoyed reading all the comments, here, too 🙂 I wasn’t sure if it was really a psychopath writing this, post, or not. But, I see from the other post, it was not from a real one. So, now I can safely say, “Excellent Post”, and not be fearful of giving you supply. (LOL) Thank you!

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  8. That image is driving me crazy!

    I have cloaked my mind in the presence of the NS before and he found it very disconcerting. That incident pushed my need to play dead in order to survive into my awareness. Which illuminated the pathological dynamic of the relationship.

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  9. Well, I asked what is…so I meant that. Your favorite was Eagle and since you no longer read, it still is if you had to choose one, no?. I had to look that one up and liked what I saw.

    The Far Side and Calvin and Hobbes were two of mine…who wouldn’t want a youngster who would put Crisco in his hair on picture day? If that’s the worst this world offers, I’ll take it.

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      1. Had to look that one up too. The twisted humor is entertaining. Alexnarc seems like such the character, along with those who fuel him. Unsurprising that it would happen at a megabank. From the short snippet, Jane would have been my hero with her parting shot.

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  10. Being the stickler that I am, just here to point out that this post would only apply to unhealthy empaths, not empaths in general. I guess to some of your regulars that might be stating the obvious though, cause I think you’ve mentioned elsewhere that you choose women who are damaged.

    Nice snowflakes.

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  11. Can I ask you HG ” why ” you are sharing all your knowledge with us empaths. ??

    Im in process of reading all your most interesting articles …..and am

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