Love Letter


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“Dear Victim,

I have not addressed you by name because your name does not matter to me. In fact, I am struggling to recall it as after all we have only been together for a week but notwithstanding this I wanted to write this letter for you because for once, perhaps the first and only time in my life I wanted to be honest with you and tell you the truth. Your name does not matter because I do not see you as a person. I see you as an appliance but I know you must be the best appliance. How do I know that? Simple. I chose you. You see, although I have given you the impression that I have met you by chance in a wine bar a week ago (is it only a week, it feels like we have known one another a lifetime) I picked you out. I look out for ladies like you. I know that there is a hospital nearby and many of the staff drink in that particular bar. I use it for many of my victims but I don’t want to talk about them because I only now want to focus on you. I saw you with your friends and saw how you made people laugh and how people often turned to you when you were speaking. I saw your membership card when you opened your purse at the bar so I knew from that you did indeed work at the hospital. In fact, I watched you three times before I came over to speak to you. That was to make sure you were my kind of victim and guess what? Good news. You tick so many boxes and that is very exciting. I am not interested in you as a person. I only want to know what you can do for me. I am of course going to pretend I am interested in you and I spent some time finding your social media footprint and having a good look through. Have you had any friend requests lately from someone you were not sure you knew? You have because that was me. Thanks for letting me in and allowing me to look around your page. Great photographs and you gave me so much material to work with. You have been a busy bee telling the world about all the places you go to. I didn’t like that man who kept appearing in your pictures though. I will be trying to find out who he is. Hopefully it is your brother or a cousin otherwise I will need to have him isolated. He seems far too friendly and may get in the way of what I want to do. So, I knew you long before you knew me, but you soon felt like you knew me. That’s what I do. I trot out so many marvellous and flattering lines They are just devices to make you think that we have some special connection. I know you are into all of that. I heard one of your conversations with your friends as I stood nearby as you explained all about the need for connections with those you fall in love with, your belief in astrology oh and spiritualism. I have already organised two tickets for the clairvoyant who is in town in three weeks. I will tell you about that later, although maybe you already know this given your “special powers”? I will tell you this, they are not as special as mine because I already know lots about you. You think you know plenty about me but over half of what I told you was made-up and the balance was embellished and exaggerated. I am great but not as great as I want the world to know me as, so I tell some lies. Okay, I tell a lot of lies but I have to. That is the way I am. You won’t mind though because they are lovely lies. Pleasant lies. Lies that make you smile and grin, that make your head spin and your heart beat faster. That’s good isn’t it? There is nothing wrong with making you feel good because that is what you need to do for me. I am going to seduce you, you see, in order to have you fall in love with me. You will really enjoy it. I promise you that. You will be swept off your feet and you will end up loving me like never before and you will never again. At least, that is what I hope. I truly hope you will be the one that can fill up this void inside me with your perfect love. That is why I chose you. If you can do that I will always be good to you. It is a transaction. If you let me down, well, hey, let’s not be pessimistic about things, we don’t need to go there. Yet. There is plenty of fun to have first. How long? Oh that is up to you. I will do my part. I will put you on a pedestal and make you into a queen and I honestly do mean it because I want you to love me, adore me and admire me. I want you to praise me and raise me up to recognise I am your king, a prince amongst men. I need all of that. You must understand that for some reason which has never been explained to me by anybody I have this nagging sensation of emptiness inside of me but I have learned that if you show massive amounts of positive emotions towards me I feel so much better. I will be good to you, so you will be good to me, so I will be good you and round and round we will go. I have lots to show you. I have lots of friends. I am a popular fellow. I charmed them all and if they knew what I was really like they would run a mile, but they do not know, so we need not concern ourselves about that need we? I know you won’t say anything to them and to be frank, even if you did, they have had so long a period exposed to my charm and magnetism they would not believe you. You may find out about that down the line. Sorry, there I go again, being the doom-monger. Let’s hope we don’t have to go there. This is the best part. It is all sunshine, love and romance. I will amaze you. Yes, I will. I will probably want to move in with you in about three months’ time because then we can have an even more amazing time together and also I can use all your resources without paying for them. Come on, it is only fair. I am going to give you everything so I will also take everything also. That is how I operate. What I give you isn’t real but that doesn’t matter because you will think it is and that is all that counts. Hey, if it looks the same and feels the same, why complain right? I will buy you many wonderful things. I will say a lot to you and I will do it all day and through the night too. I am an expert at finding different ways to compliment you but then I have had a lot of practice. Just accept it though, it is better that way, after all, those others were just a trial run for you, because you are the real thing. Look at me, I just cannot help it. That is one of those standard lines right there. Anyway, you might want to spend the next couple of days with family and friends because I will steadily isolate you from them. Oh they are nice enough I realise but I need you to be subsumed in my world and there is no room for them, especially your sister who I think may be a trouble maker. Either that or she’s next if things don’t work out with you. What am I writing, of course they will, we are soul mates, whoops there I go again. I do it so often it is second nature to me, no wonder I end up believing my own lies at times. Anyway, what I wanted to tell you was that you are going to now have the most amazing, scintillating, glorious and breath-taking time which will be beyond anything that you have ever experienced before. I will charm, delight, mesmerise and amaze you. Hang on for dear life as we are going to soaring up very, very high indeed. We are heaven bound. I do want you to be the one. I really do mean that. Please don’t let me down. I don’t think you will. I think I have it right this time. I have studied you well and you are a perfect match for me. So enjoy these words, understand them because once you have they will vanish, but I won’t. I will be with you forever and that is very much the truth.

With love for your fountaining fuel but not you as a person,

With falsity, fraud and fakery

  1. Arc


42 thoughts on “Love Letter

  1. Denise says:

    Wow HG ! Thanks for reminding me.

  2. Elizabeth says:

    Very Nice HG,
    I lasted 20 years with an elite. He’s not so elite now. Poor guy, he is not malignant and we will always be best friends.
    The next one (because they do GET you right at the end of a marriage) truly believe he was gonna be living large off my trust and shared wealth from the marriage. He tried that moving in with me thing, by blackmailing me. Guess where he’s off to live for the next 15-20? A nice institution, three hots and a cot and all the weird deviant “degrading to him” sex he could ever imagine.

    You know, you guys don’t stay young and sexually mesmerizing forever.
    Empaths tend to age more gracefully not being filled with guile loathing and anger really softens the passing years.
    I’ve seen supposed somatics turn into victims who can’t perform, give up on their appearance or maybe are delusional and still think they are handsome sexperts.
    Emapaths like sex too, and we don’t all fall on our brains in love with someone who talks pretty and has some skills.
    Unless someone can aford half of everything I don’t care how skilled they are or even if they are my soul mate. Intellectual, spiritual, emotional, moral and economic equals are a turn on, someone who is older and even more stable is even hotter. Add some new books to my library, tell about your ideas, spiritual philosophies and world views.

    Great article HG, if only your kind came with a manual that read like that article.
    Thanks to you many of them will now and the world is a little safer for the tender hearted.

  3. 1jaded1 says:

    I kept waiting for the punchline. Triple F. F*ckery applies too to square the quadrangle. No soul…no f*ckbook…yay. Just yesterday, I received a text from someone I haven’t spoken to in 4 years. I was all who are you bc they knew my irrelevant name and only the number came up. He is not a narc and we had a great convo. Point is, if you don’t recognise the sender or requester, ask…

    My Ns chose someone they wanted to see. You would be much more in tune, I’m sure. If not, I can waste 21 years of your life or divide it by almost 2.

    Dear Narc,

    I address you by this name because you have tried twice ro ensnare me and have failed, so with respect, your name means very little. Yes, I used the four letter base word with you. Fail. Why did you even try? You saw a glimpse of my pre nine year old self…Face darkens. Do your homework a little better next time, for both of our sakes.

    Love you.

  4. 1jaded1 says:

    I kept waiting for the punchline. Triple F. F*ckery applies too to square the quadrangle. No soul…no f*ckbook…yay. Just yesterday, I received a text from someone I haven’t spoken to in 4 years. I was all who are you bc they knew my irrelevant name and only the number came up. He is not a narc and we had a great convo. Point is, if you don’t recognise the sender or requester, ask…

    My Ns chose someone they wanted to see. You would be much more in tune, I’m sure. If not, I can waste 21 years of your life or divide it by almost 2.

    Dear Narc,

    I address you by this name because you have tried twice ro ensnare me and have failed, so with respect, your name means very little. Yes, I used the four letter base word with you. Fail. Why did you even try? You saw a glimpse of my pre nine year old self…Face darkens. Do your homework a little better next time, for both of our sakes.

    Love you.

  5. luckyotter says:

    Creepy, HG. This reminds me of the Police song, “Every Breath You Take.”

    1. luckyotter says:

      Wait…that comment was meant for the other post “Presence.” Is it possible to move the comment over there?

  6. Claire says:

    Truth! 👌

  7. Fool me 1 time says:


    1. mlaclarece says:

      Triple the kisses…wherever you want them. Lol

  8. Steeviann says:

    I had a lovely latte today and in the foam was a question mark. It was pointed out to me. I love the question game.
    BTW HG, I am reading your latest Ask part two.
    You are one crazy guy.

  9. Stephanie says:

    So you do know that everyone can have a bit of crazy in them, can we agree of this? What makes you think you can be totally immune from someone who would turn batshit crazy on you and snap? You know, go postal.

    1. Christy patterson says:

      LMAO I’m about to

  10. mlaclarece says:

    So, you make repeated mention of having researched your victims prior to the first official meeting. Is that a generalization for all Narcs across the board as standard operating procedure? Surely through networking, work functions, social gatherings, you’ve sometimes met someone on the fly and had to go with your gut reaction? Do you then research them to decide on following through with meeting them again? What really happens in that lapse of time between meeting & getting someone’s number and then calling?
    What has worked better for you personally? Staging a meeting after watching from afar for a while or a spontaneous meeting with chemistry?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      It is behaviour of the greater and some mid-range. A lesser may do some preliminary work but it is not extensive. Of course I meet lots of different people through my week and naturally somebody will come up on my radar who is worth looking at further. I will use that unsolicited meeting to gather some information which will enable me to then continue with research to determine whether you will be a viable prospect or not. In that lapse of time between getting someone’s number and calling there is much to investigate and prepare in readiness for moving in for the kill.
      It is often the case that I will meet someone and think they show promise and then I will research further before advancing my agenda with them.

  11. paula says:

    We do heal from the narc, when we are with them they take us to a height where magic happens, the magic is within us, not them, they need us to take them there, but it’s a place they cannot go, and they know that! We have such a capability to love but we need to learn to love ourselves, the narc can teach us this. H G Tudor, you remind me so much of the man I feel in love with. My intuition told me not to go there and I thought how bad could it be if I ignored it! I will never ignore me intuition again! I trust myself more than ever, I could feel his darkness and his void and I told him this and I know that he could not feel energy, he just couldn’t feel! There were times when I was with him that I felt that I was on top of the world, no challenge was too much. I don’t need him to feel this, he showed me a parts of myself I may never have seen, the light and the dark. I did see what he was during the course of our relationship so despite being an empath I did love him but I used this to my advantage, well why not, I gave him what he needed! 🙂

  12. Jessica says:

    This is heartbreaking…. To been seen as a mere appliance and not as a living breathing human being. The first sentence was tough to read… Dear victim. So many lives ruined. Love can kill you you but a great love can save you. I hold onto that hope, that’s all I have left

  13. Cara says:

    Dear Victim, I don’t address you by name because you and all my other victims are interchangeable to me. You serve a purpose, MY purpose.

  14. Miss_stress says:

    Precisely, this affords…”someone ” the chance to choose to accept or refuse such an invitation. There are Those out there who would choose, even if you were a stranger or known you for a week. Based On their own addictive personalities, attachments to Narcissists or own their need to take from Another to fill their own voids with another. Such as yourself. But, for the normals as you say, the empaths who love for the sake of loving and Being loved, who trust and believe in others. This affords them the opportunity to refuse the entanglement/ relationship.
    If CN in the beginning had of wrote me such a letter , I would have declined.. But, to be fair. If he wrote such a letter to me at the end. I May have stayed. Simply because it was what I wanted from him at that point, to be honest with what I was or was not to him. It is different when you already love someone for us normals, we have already formed an emotionally and spiritual attachment, which is why we hold on and try to fix the relationship. The letter if nothing else would provide closure.
    Thank you HG, I will print this out as a reminder to myself when I think of CN and why he did what he… because of who and what he was and for my fuel.
    What prompted this posting HG, current supply source? Or so many of your readers desire and expression of closure. This is said closure, I my mind. They are your words, that I wished for him to state.

  15. Mary says:

    Hi, I have a question for you H G in regards to your book Escape. All of my N’s ex’s never lasted beyond 2 years including myself except one. That relationship lasted 9 years. I have become friends with this lady, she is a sweetheart. How on earth did my ex and her manage to stay together that long? She said it was hell. (they lived together) Maybe she was a push over?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      I suspect that she gave copious amounts of fuel, compromised herself repeatedly in order to facilitate him, put up with all manner of affairs and abuse and therefore the relationship lasted that long.

      1. CC says:

        That’s exactly how I managed 14 years with mine. It would have lasted to my death bed, if I had been willing to do so, I guess I betrayed him by deciding in fact I could not put up with it anymore, I am starting to understand his point of view of that, I can’t imagine how much fury he must have towards me, even as he praises me, spewing regret and apologies, underneath his compliments, what sorts of things could he be thinking HG?

        1. HG Tudor says:

          He would be wondering why you do not do what he wants, why must you make life difficult, why do you always spoil everything, why do you have to try and upset him, why do you have to cause problems when there aren’t any, why is it that you cant be more like her or her or her. So many criticisms of you will be wheeling around in his head that arise from the perceived criticisms you have of him, all of which drive his fury.

      2. Mary says:


      3. So Sad says:

        Blimey HG ..

        I must have been the Deluxe model of appliances for 15 years .. GrrrrRR.

        Ohhh & just for the record my social media security
        is higher than HMP Belmarsh 🙂

        Brilliantly written HG. Thank you .

  16. Dear IMEONE Promotions,
    I am writing in regards to your letter posted August 4, 2016.
    The letter is very well written and I appreciate your posting it, however, I take issue to the following:
    1. I did not receive my gifts.
    2. I did not obtain enough compliments.
    3. My pedestal is faulty as it is not high enough.
    4. I have not received our tickets.
    5. I have not had nearly enough scintillating stories.
    Upon receipt of this comment I expect full recompense for your behavior starting immediately.
    Yours Truly,
    P.S. You don’t like Pavlov’s treats?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Most amusing. See our Head of Complaints, yes just through that doorway, ignore the blood, it was er there before we moved in.

  17. Evan711 says:


    1. HG Tudor says:

      Ha ha,perhaps I had better never send it?

    2. So Sad says:

      Move over Evan , I’ll join you .. Safety in numbers & all that 🙂

  18. lmmc says:

    How do you not trip over all the lies you tell?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Charming Immc, stop projecting!

      I have a good memory and even if I did not, we never accept that we tell lies anyway as we blame-shift, project,deflect and deny as a matter of course.

      1. Christine says:

        HG do you or your kind ever like the lady you target ?
        Mine alienated me from my friend – he would call us — the penny and chris show — my friend was offended . On holiday people round the pool would say hello and chat to me and hed be hissing — is it the chris show again — did he see this as wounding , causing him rage , so causing me punishment , triangulation with a woman wen we arrived home , on our 1st anniversary – of course i was devastated .

        1. HG Tudor says:

          We like their fuel that is what matters.

          He had to isolate you from your friend because together you were drawing attention to yourselves and away from him. His reaction to people giving “fuel” to you feels like a criticism to him. He wants them to say hello and chat to him, not you. He is missing out on the fuel and feels criticised. This in turn ignites his fury and thus he lashed out at you in the manner that you have described.

  19. God your f**king brilliant.

    And I love you for it.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      I am obliged.

      1. I must apologize for my language. I couldn`t help myself.

  20. Troyce says:

    Wow! This is dead on! I hate Narcs! Why do they prey on good people? And why do they suck our souls dry, throw us away, and smear us to anyone that will listen? I fight daily to recover from poisons injected into me by the heartless viper. Although over time the posion seeps away the near fatal wounds of the bite never heal

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Hello Troyce, it is understandable that you hate our kind. That hate is what we want. It feeds us fuel and stops you moving forward. We seek out the good people as they have the traits that matter to us. We suck your souls dry because we need what you have because we do not have it. We throw you away when you run dry so that you might fill up again and thus we can return. We smear you because we have to ensure that everyone thinks we are the victim and not you.

      1. Christine says:

        – but i dont hate my ex N ? Im struggling with cognitive dissonance .
        Yes he made me the bad one with his smears .
        Are you having a bad day HG or is this just a routine reality for you and your brethren ?
        Im shell shocked 😔

        1. HG Tudor says:

          I am conveying the reality Christine.

  21. nikitalondon says:

    Wow amazimg!!! How exciting how you write exactly like it happens, like if you would be the ex. And I guess all the readers will say the same..
    Its that feeling.. Not you as a person but what you can do. 😓😓 … Sad…
    I suppose it is because of the not connecting with the feelings…
    This is why LO IS so assertive saying the healing starts by going through the trauma to feel again and then the perspective chamges.
    Thanks for this letter. Amazing ideas 😍😍

  22. Maddie says:


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