To Sin Is To Win
Winning is everything to me. I have to win. This applies to every facet of my life. You will be aware of not only my desire to win but the fact that I always come up smelling of roses. I know you find this particularly unfair as this is something that has been hurled in my direction on several occasions,
“You just walk away from the carnage you create without so much as a scratch.”
“You carry on as if nothing has happened without a care about what you have done.”
“How is it that someone as nasty as you just gets to sail through life untouched?”
“You cause so much misery yet you always land on your feet.”
I am able to fire the useless employee without worrying about how that will impact on his or her life. I do know that this will improve productivity. The weak link has been expunged and the ruthlessness by which it is executed causes those still in employment to work harder. Result? It’s a win. I renege on financial arrangements which leave your position in tatters and mine intact. I use my charm and plethora of excuses to always avoid having to pay for dinner, for an evening out or a holiday. Consequently you carry the burden of our entertainment whilst my bank balance grows. Amazingly, you are aware that I out earn you but the application of my manipulative techniques results in you happily forking out for that weekend away, again. You do it because I have been so loving and charming to you. You do it because I have been so brutal to you yet you still want to please me. Whichever stance I adopt, seduction or devaluation, I secure the desired result. The win.
My lack of conscience and legendary capacity to tell lies sees me grind you into submission during any discussion about financial settlements so that you are left exhausted and just wanting an end to it all. Accordingly, you agree to a far weaker position than that which you might be entitled to. I threaten unfounded complaints to ensure I gain an upgrade, free vouchers or a better outcome for me. I have no qualms about fabricating such a position in order to secure the result I want. It’s another win.
The skill by which I control friendships sees me lob the metaphorical hand grenade into a friendship group and I will stroll away as it detonates behind me causing carnage. I watch from the side lines as friend turns on friend, based on the whispered smear campaign I have created for my own amusement. This is another win as I marvel at my power over people. Nobody has the presence of mind to direct their anger towards me. Oh no, I am too clever to be sucked into that and I can stand and observe the bitter recriminations all stemming from my behaviour. I will always move on to a new relationship without a backwards glance, my smile radiating from every picture and posting that I can muster. I leave you in abject misery as you watch dumbfounded as I find someone new in a matter of days (or more often I already have them lined up). You are staggered as to how I can do this so easily after my proclamations of undying love towards you. How can it be right that you, the one who gave everything and always behaved so properly is left distraught, confused and bereft whilst I waltz around town without a care in the world? Why am I never upset or miserable? It seems unjust and unfair. Why do I always seem to win? Why do I get the cream, win the main prize and have the golden ticket? It is because of how I am designed. I am designed to win. That is my sole focus. By winning I gain admiration and power which gives me fuel. You know how I need that fuel and therefore to secure it I have to win. Unlike you, I have been created with the skill sets that allow me to behave without integrity, to function without a conscience and to sail through life untouched by moral concerns. Normal people are upset and troubled by my machinations, but I am not hampered by such concerns. They do not affect me. I have been fashioned to always secure the win because without it I cannot survive. That is why I have to win and that is why I always win. There is no hope for any other outcome. By the time you and others have worked out that I have been the architect of the chaos and destruction that surrounds you I am long gone. I have left town and ridden off into the sunset in search of my next victory, having conquered you before any consequences of defeat can come looking for me,
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yep. much truth….
but…. some people can see through you…you are not happy. but rather miserable. some people have eyes for this in you.
You would not win if not for Your hard work so You want to be praised and glorified and that’s understandable my dear. This blog is a great place for You. I can see it’s nearly as therapy or something and I’m glad it evolved and You have Your sanctuary here. You will be safe here always as most of the people will protect You here. I know I will and many others too. Hope You are well and have a great day xxx
Not sure how unless you move around a lot that this is possible. If you operate ruthlessly and without integrity you can succeed for awhile but eventually your reputation for creating chaos becomes known. A few friends talk and realize what you did or said to cause havoc, a client gets screwed then comes within your sphere again in a business capacity and now knows how you operate, etc. It makes me wonder then if the winning is strictly in your mind as you decree everything else to be true and have the outcome that you want, and not that you have actually “won” at all. You are certainly not the only narcissist out there so I’m sure there are lots of you “winners” running around proclaiming the same thing since your pride and mind allow no other outcome. I do know people who talk in the way that you write the post and I can tell you that they can only fool a few new people who do not heed the warning of others burned and have to move on. But to hear them tell it is an entirely different story. Most people dont call them on it not because they fear, they just smile and listen and nod their head thinking: what a poor deluded bugger. I know the winners dont care what people think about them, but Im pointing out that in a lot of cases they haven’t actually “won” and have been so clever as to put one over on others- the others are not fooled, its just that they care so little about how the winners have to delude theselves or prop themselves up to call them on it.
This resonates with me… I have seen this behaviour many times, and often think along those lines…
That just what happens to me only they still there am off in someone else’s home who looking to do the same
I LIKE the Seasonal Snowflake accent added to your blog…
Yes, me too! How about some Christmas music as well?
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HG TUDOR
Self Proclaimed Narcissist
Creative & clever Obviously extremely Intelligent
Painting imaginary portraits of possibilities while simultaneously revealing legendary love secrets. WINNERS?
No I don’t just land on my feet…I had to work hard to be able to create such wreckage and make landing on my feet in the aftermath look effortless, and I will be praised for it.
Cara …everything you write is like an emotional enema …that is a cleansing and truthful perspective on how your approach is vastly different than someone with empathetic traits. Both you and HG are truly wonderful people! I can only hope one day you feel the magnificence of a true connection.
they are not wonderful in this sense.