The Narcissistic Truths – No. 141

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14 thoughts on “The Narcissistic Truths – No. 141”

    1. I make excuses because I feel like I should be able to make this work. ..I still love this evil demon. Despite everything. Hate it

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  1. Because trauma bonding and cognitive dissonance. Because I kept hoping against hope that this was the time he would truly change and appreciate the unconditional love I offered him. Because I was a fool. Because I so desperately wanted to believe I could reach the scared little boy that I saw when I was able to get past his walls for a few, precious fleeting moments. Then the walls went back up and the devaluation became more vicious. Because playing angel to his devil was what I felt I was put here to do…

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  2. Because you told me he was nice, even though red flags said otherwise. Because you told me he was a real man though my gut said otherwise. Were you lying to me then, or are you lying to me now? In the end, it is my accountability. I will listen to me, thanks to you, HG.

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  3. Because I was addicted to his encyclopedical knowledge, his cooking, his humor, his smell ( Dior’s Fahrenheit), and his deep masculine voice (these male narcs and testosterone). And he had beautiful hair! But, above all, I would keep going back to him because he would say he loved me (delicious food for the codependent’s hungry soul) and because I always questioned my perceptions: yes, maybe I am being too sensitive here (I grew up hearing this after all), he is a geologist, he studied rocks; what does he know about human feelings? I need to explain to him that what he did is hurtful and everything will be fine. He is a brilliant man, he will get it and we will live happily ever after. Homeless unicorns will always be welcome in our house.

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  4. Alanis Morissette says in her meaningful song Ironic: “It’s like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife.”
    Spoons are uninteresting, they are only used to eat soup.
    But a knife…
    I suppose that’s the price you have to pay.
    Así es la vida.

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