Spectral

spectral

Whether you believe in ghosts or not, we certainly behave with certain similar attributes. We appear out of thin air. It is similar to how you can never remember the beginning of a dream can you? You cannot remember quite how we appeared. We just did. We seemed to coalesce into your life with the ease of a ghost walking through a wall. We arrive and ghost into your life. In the same way as seeing a ghost, when you experience us, it is not an event that you will forget in a hurry. We sidle up to you, insert ourselves into our lives and make connection after connection with you as we feed from you. Like some wraith we attach outselves to you and steadily begin to suck the life force from you as we gorge on the fuel that you provide.

Often we will vanish just as we arrived, without any warning or announcement and try as you might you cannot find us again. It is as if we have disappeared off the face of the earth. Naturally we chose the moment of our vanishing act without any concern for its effect on you. We slip away like a mist evaporating. Once we were everywhere, woven around you and captivating you. Much in the same way as one might be transfixed by the appearance of some spirit. You are entranced by our appearance, there is something ethereal and mysterious about us that causes you to be drawn to us and then we are gone.

We are that elusive spirit that can now not be found. You might go to the same place where we first manifested but there is no sign of us. We have left no footprint, no trace of our existence when you try and seek us out, just like our spectral cousins and then suddenly we have returned. We ghost back into your life and continuing our haunting of you. We are incessant and ever present, drifting about you as we resume our extraction of fuel. We resume our draining of your spirit, leeching it from you as our cold, dead hands take hold of you once again.

People have many theories as to what ghosts are if they indeed exist. Some suggest that where there has been a sudden explosion of emotion, a heightened experience, then an imprint has been made on the fabric of existence. This imprint appears to those who are attuned to seeing it. That imprint is seen doing the same thing over and over again. It walks the same route, passes through the same wall and then vanishes only to appear the next night in the same place. The spirit follows the same routine like a piece of video film stuck in an endless loop. Just like such a ghost we engage in the same behaviours over and over again. The same actions all designed to haunt you as we extract our fuel. The same gestures, the same actions all of which must be replayed. Some believe that a ghost is the soul of someone who has suffered eternal damnation. He or she has been denied entry to heaven or hell and instead has been consigned to walk the earth for eternity, stuck in an unceasing routine. Our endless quest for fuel finds us in such a similar position. We must make our way through life, restless and never finding peace. We move from place to place, unable to rest and be satisfied. Instead we are driven onwards, plagued by the curse of our need for fuel. Thus we must haunt others, our appearance bringing dread and fear in the same way as terror follows the appearance of a spectre.

Unable to quite fit in we are ghost at the feast. Even when we have vanished there is a lingering coldness that strikes you to your core. You still sense us, able to feel the effect of our chilling appearance. You are wary and anxious as you know we will appear once again. Quite when is a mystery but as we first arrived and as we first disappeared we will ghost into your life and continue our haunting of you. Better consult that exorcist.

10 thoughts on “Spectral

  1. The narc I was involved with had the ability to move soundlessly, to disappear and reappear out of the blue…
    You describe it perfectly, Mr. Tudor. What I would like to know: HOW are those of your kind perfecting those skills.
    HOW are you getting able to smell it out if a discarded target is alone at home and thats the perfect moment for a hoover?
    Those abilities inforced my impression of soulmateship. If he was able to literally smell my readiness to reengage with him, to hit the right moment perfectly, then he must be bound to me, right?
    How come those of your kind to be able to sense us, feel us and make it look like a spiritual connection? Where there is none? That was one thing that fascinated me so much that I didn’t resist the hoovering. I admired those capabilities.
    HOW do those of your kind achieve those abilities?
    By the way: the narc I was involved with is a deeply traumatized person, survivor of childhood abuse. I often thought he perfected his craft in running away from his brutal father, hiding, and the like.
    But I would be interested in your answer.
    Thank you so very much!

  2. Maria says:

    The vanishing act will be the most dreadful act.
    The most frithening act.
    The most vile act.
    The most cowardly act.
    The most screaming act.
    The most killing act.
    The most sickening act.
    The most hated act.
    The most…..
    It is the act that i had anticipated from the beginning, almost like having already read script by script.. and all the acts are unfolding…
    but the vanishing act i want to shun…
    it is too frightening ..

  3. superxena says:

    Very intresting post HG…Strong words you use in your description. I quote a part of what you wrote that made react strongly:
    ” We must make our way through life, restless and never finding peace. We move from place to place, unable to rest and be satisfied. Instead we are driven onwards, plagued by the curse of our need for fuel”.
    So do you really see your need of fuel as a curse?

  4. 1jaded1 says:

    Yep.

  5. Mel says:

    Interesting analogy! HG, have met and observed other greater narcissist? I have a friend I believe is one but not sure. I’ve read your posts but he’s different, although highly intelligent, I’ve never seen him angry, he’s always mild tempered, yet arrogant and manipulative at times but uses silent treatment when annoyed. He’s very private and secretive, when kids, he was very odd(always observing). Can you give me a sure telling mark of a greater?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      See the articles about Greaters, Mel.

  6. Karen says:

    You still sense us, able to feel the effect of our chilling appearance. You are wary and anxious as you know we will appear once again. Quite when is a mystery but as we first arrived and as we first disappeared we will ghost into your life and continue our haunting of you. Better consult that exorcist.

    Oh how that resonates and chills me to the bone. That hold. Forever.
    The unpredictability of the narc. THAT’S what keeps me in a state of fear. The not knowing if or when or where. That’s what keeps me chained to panic attacks. That’s why I feel I’ll be forever trapped.
    What would keep the narc from not wanting to reappear HG? (Desperately hoping I fit the criteria of a forever cast off to him)
    I discarded him. Will that make a difference that he knows he can’t feed from me anymore? Will he leave me alone because of it?
    Chilling as it was to read this particular article I am grateful for you writing and sharing it. Thank you HG. Sincerely.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Hello Karen, the only thing that would stop us from appearing (in some form) is if we have no idea where you are and have no idea as to how to communicate with you.
      Otherwise, you need to weigh up the various factors which make up the Hoover Execution Criteria – some increase the risk of a hoover (lower the bar) and others decrease the risk (raising the bar).

      1. Karen says:

        Thank you so much HG.
        I have looked at the criteria and it seems I’m less likely to be hoovered being as he cannot contact me in any way without being arrested, he believes I am happy and got straight back on with my life, he knows I have the power and evidence to expose him at any given time.
        I have always said the only predictable thing about that man is his unpredictability. I’ll never feel quite free of him but nonetheless I feel I will gain a couple of hours extra sleep for knowing I’m at low risk.
        For that Sir, I am beyond grateful.
        Thank you.

  7. Pam says:

    …is the “Narcissist”in my life moving to SD to be with Tom and the kids …?

    Since I never actually “see” him, it won’t be a great loss now, will it…..most of any speculated communication is merely innuendo…

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