The Narcissistic Truths – No. 49

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18 thoughts on “The Narcissistic Truths – No. 49”

  1. This goes both ways! I was able to retrieve his emails before I ended it….and saw the role of who he has to be with the new supply. He hates emotional intimacy but with the new supply he had to pretend and play into her happily ever after fantasy so she would help him financially. She was sending pictures of rings, wedding venues, and her declarations of love almost daily to which there was no reply. I am happy to know he has his own personal Hell pandering to her needs lol!

  2. How did it feel when I saw through you? Knew what you were up to and couldn’t get to me any longer? When you were outsmarted and your cunning plans failed one after the other? Do you hate me? Do you still want your revenge?

  3. Ha! I read his phone and that’s what tipped me off that he was a pathological liar, even though my gut knew, proof is always sweet. However, he still lied and denied the black and white! Effed up…sociopath.

  4. for a long long time i was transparent – silly me thought that any healthy relationship contains that certain transparency from both partner in order to create and sustain trust… I still do… only… ***a relationship with a narc is NOT a healthy one***…

    his face fell when I shut him out, stopped being transparent, began to treat him like he treated me… oops no more access… tough… and he may have thought he had me on a string until… there was no more info going his way… that REALLY pissed him off

    there. is. nothing. he. can. do. about. it.

    then I left him.

    and to use his words back on him: No one will ever want him like I did in the beginning. No one will ever fall for it like I did. Our child? chose to discard him and his selfish, abusive ways in the end. So much for making sure I never see our child again… came back, bit him in the behind. His dangling certain things over my head? well they are getting done, slowly maybe, but absolutely. and.without. him.

    I do not need him
    I am worth more then he will ever know or appreciate
    I am Happy and independent and *FREE of him*
    He has no hand in everything I am accomplishing now
    He cannot take the credit for any of it
    and if he wishes to try and scape-goat me? well good luck with that.

    if my leaving has caused you so much distress, find solace in your mother. Figure out that I am not responsible for YOU and never was.

    I am out of your life, therefore I cannot be blamed for your self-sabotage… you lacks, your unwillingness to do for yourself because mooching off others is your entitled right… (not off me though, never off me)

    watch me rise from the ashes as if the fire never happened – I am a force of nature, bright and warm and I am no different then my other fellow humans, no different then that plant breaking through concrete to find the sun, air and rain. and. thrive.

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  5. I told him everything about me in the first month I met him. I figured why wait and have him find out 3 to 6 months from now and then I scare him away. I didn’t want to waste any time. And after I told him everything I had been through and he didn’t runaway I felt accepted. And he wasn’t afraid of my EX narc. And he actually wanted to marry me after I told him everything. I thought I had found me a keeper.

  6. Maybe he doesn’t read my stuff because that would require to much energy. I think he just prefers me to tell him everything. And I usually do because I am so excited that he is showing interest.
    That’s was a mistake because now he knows all my secrets and weaknesses and now he knows how to manipulate me.
    The only time he shows interest in my phone is if I am on it and not paying attention to him.

    1. Serena, that’s how mine is too. He’s not interested
      In anything I journal – too boring. He gets his info from listening and body language. And his only interest in my phone is if I’m Giving it too much attention instead of him. He will get irritated.

      Of course he’s on his phone all the time – fighting boredom again by playing games. His boredom threshold is about 30 seconds. Before there were cell phones he constantly played mind games like squaring numbers in his head.

  7. A friend of mines narc created a fake facebook acct and added some of her friends and was flirting with them… smh

  8. So true… He read my diary while I was not at home. I felt stripped from my intimacy. Instead of saying “‘I’m sorry” he insisted my diary proves I’m a megalomaniac.

    1. Or he could blatantly ask for a CHECKLIST “you to think in depths about what you want and need. Your desires, your wants. And this isn’t something to be taken lightly. This is your innermost weaknesses and what makes you shake”

      And then, if any of you have been like me and opened your soul to what wakes you in the middle of the night, blah blah (except it wasn’t), you may wanna drink a bottle of vodka two days later when he see again it’s CRAP, and laugh now at how obvious it was.

      Do they script this stuff? Anyone go through something similar? I’ll never open a lock to diary or journal, computer, etc etc, within 300 mile radius of him.

    2. Of course, he stabs, and he’s the one the wound. You tell him “I’m hurt by you”, and your evil witch.

      You are NOT a megalomaniac! (First time I have heard that term, ever)

  9. Who wouldn’t? It’s the portals to our inner sanctum and those private boundaries don’t apply to you.

  10. He doesn’t read my stuff because he only cares about himself. I love it when he tries to figure out what I am thinking.
    Me: (looking at him and thinking to myself wow he has a lot of gray hair.)
    Him: you love me
    Me: why do you say that
    Him: I can tell by the way you look at me. I see it in your eyes
    Me: (I smile thinking to myself that is not what I was thinking at all)
    Him: you’re like butter in my hands.
    Me: (I smile bigger. Thinking wrong again)
    He sure does think highly of himself.

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