The Veiled Primary Source

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You were crowned as the Intimate Partner Primary Source (“IPPS”) and you enjoyed that magnificent golden period. Those mesmerising days with the narcissist have gone, but the memory remains bittersweet. Blackened devaluation followed and now disengagement as you find yourself cast aside. During the downward spiral you had concerns that the person you loved and still love, was playing around, seeing other people and tarnishing that once professed perfect love. You believe that you have been pushed to one side and another has taken your crown.

Amidst the confusion and mayhem, your quest for answers, being the empathic truth seeker that you are, has led you to realise that you have been ensnared by a narcissist. You dive down the rabbit hole, reading all you can about this extraordinary disorder, shaking your head as you see the similarities of the experiences of other people, fighting back the tears as the humiliation of your treatments weighs heavy on your shoulders and still wanting him back. The wanting, the desire, the need remains and like so many others the questions form and occupy your thoughts on a daily basis.

Your suspicions that the narcissist was seducing someone else as the sun set on your empire with him, remain. You understand from your reading that the narcissist will often revel in rubbing the former IPPS’ nose in it, by parading the new IPPS to all and sundry. There are Relationship Bulletins placed on social media. The new subject of the narcissist’s infatuation is introduced to the narcissist’s coterie, the friends, the family and the colleagues as they get to bask in the golden light and you sob in the shadows. It is unfair. It is unjust. It is wrong. You worry that this new IPPS will be the one to make everything right and that the behaviours you experienced through devaluation will not be repeated. You want to derail the coupling and ensure you are installed back in that vaulted position of IPPS and this time you will strive to ensure you do everything right and avoid this awful fate that has currently befallen you. These are common responses and feelings.

You have been engaged in the customary social media stalking, looking to find out who has taken your place, but you cannot find anything. There are no posts showing the narcissist grinning with the new conquest, cold dead eyes gazing out from a score of posts, tendril wrapped about the new victim. You have not been able to contact any of the narcissist’s family or friends, learning that you had been smeared as an abuser by the narcissist, this litany of lies having been established well in advance of your disengagement. Nobody wishes to talk with you. You have managed to convince a handful of friends, failing to notice their eye-rolling, to try to find out who the narcissist is now with, but they have drawn a blank, yet you still have that nagging itch that someone new is in your place. Surely that is how it works? The narcissist needs that primary source of fuel to ensure that potent, plentiful and frequent fuel is provided to keep the construct in place. The narcissist cannot be without this particular appliance (or at least not for long) if a fuel crisis is to be averted, so what has happened? What is going on? Where is the new IPPS?

There are four scenarios which are relevant where it appears that a veil has been drawn across the new IPPS.

  1. Didn’t Receive the Memo

There is a new IPPS and the narcissist has not gone without the necessary fuel, but you do not know about it because you have simply missed the fact that this is happening. You have looked in the wrong places, you have been kept out of the loop and the side lining and ostracization which takes place following your disengagement has meant that you just have not come across the evidence of the new IPPS. You haven’t been included in the Relationship Bulletins because you have, as the former IPPS, been deleted from the world of the narcissist and you just haven’t learned of the new IPPS although he or she is very much there.

  1. Keeping It In The Family

Your suspicion that there is a new primary source is a well-founded suspicion but you have been looking in the wrong place. You have been looking for the new romantic partner of the narcissist, expecting to see him and her promenading together, dining at the haunts you were once taken to and splashed all over social media. Since you cannot find these indicators you are puzzled – surely he needs a primary source but where is she?

It is possible that the primary source is not an IPPS but a Non Intimate Primary Source and this usually means a family member. The narcissist has not ensnared a romantic primary source, for various reasons and therefore has fallen back on a family member to be the chief provider of fuel (and often considerable residual benefits). The NIPS will usually be a parent, child or sibling, in that order of likelihood. Extended family members can be NIPS but this is rarer.

If the narcissist has lived at home with a parent or moved back to live with the parent and you do not see a romantic primary source, it is highly likely that the mother or father is now the primary source. If the narcissist has children (minor or adult) and they live with the narcissist, one of these children will be crowned as the primary source and this is why you cannot find the new girlfriend.

If the narcissist rents an apartment with her sister or brother, then again, they are likely to be the primary source. If there is no romantic primary source and you know the narcissist is living with a family member, then it is a Keeping It In The Family scenario. If they are not living with a family member and you cannot find a romantic partner, ascertain whether the narcissist is spending a lot of time with a family member. Are they turning up at their mother’s house a lot? Do you know if he or she is popping across every day for dinner? Also keep in mind there are likely to be communications which you are not privy to between narcissist and family member which underlines their status as the new primary source.

  1. Troublemaker

There is a new IPPS but you are not being allowed to see that this person is in place. The narcissist is concerned that you are going to cause a major issue to the new golden period for this new IPPS and does not want you interfering. You have been smeared as a crazed harpy, the lunatic and psycho ex, so that the loyal members of the coterie form a protective wall around the narcissist and his new love interest. The coterie and the lieutenants will have been extensively briefed as to your catalogue of (fabricated) awful behaviours towards the narcissist, but your obsessed investigations as you sought to obtain answers are now used against you. You are painted as the crazy stalker, the oddball who just will not move on and although in part you are unable to move on, it is not for the reasons that have been explained about you.

The narcissist is most concerned that you are going to try to expose him or her to the new IPPS so that the wonderful golden period is derailed. He or she is worried that precious energy will be taken up trying to keep you away, fending off your attempts to display the truth about us as the narcissist seeks to manage the façade and prevent his good name being muddied. You will not find a Greater Narcissist in this position. The concern about you and what you will do is the preserve of the Mid Ranger (most likely) and the Lesser (to a degree) and therefore it is those schools who will be keeping the new IPPS on the down low. They will frequent different places, avoid social media pronouncements, block you on social media and create the appearance of there not being a new IPPS all done to ensure that you do not spoil matters.

This situation is most likely where you have escaped or if you have been disengaged it is where you have shown particular application in trying to have your truth told to many other appliances within the fuel matrix so you are refusing to abide by the expected role of weeping and woeful former IPPS. Show any fight against being controlled in this way, demonstrate a desire to confront and challenge and you will be swiftly labelled as a troublemaker. The narcissist will then pull a veil over the IPPS, shrouding them from you, ensuring the coterie makes no mention of a new girlfriend, avoiding any possibility of detection and thus ensuring that the newly embedded IPPS is not affected by your crazed rantings.

  1. Secondary Sources Rule

You cannot find a new IPPS for the simple reason that there is not one. The narcissist has not embedded a new IPPS or NIPS. Instead, the narcissist is content to operate by obtaining fuel from key secondary sources IPSSs, DLSs and NISSs. There are two instances where this occurs

  1. The narcissist is a Greater and has such an extensive fuel matrix that he can readily juggle various IPSSs and DLSs who provide plenty of fuel and therefore there is not yet a need for an IPPS (Greaters very rarely have NIPSs) . Indeed, some Greaters may operate a fuel matrix of extensive secondary sources and no primary source for several months;
  2. The narcissist is Mid Range or Lesser and has not been able to embed a new IPPS quickly enough and therefore has been forced to rely on the supplementary sources (secondary and tertiary) in the meanwhile. This state of affairs will not last long and the narcissist will be endeavouring to find an IPPS or turn to a NIPS if need be.

Thus, just because you cannot spot the new love interest of the narcissist who has callously disengaged from you (or more rarely you have escaped from) it does not mean that there is not one. Usually that primary source has an obscuring veil placed across them.

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11 thoughts on “The Veiled Primary Source”

  1. This was very thought provoking. My exhusband keeps it in the family – surely no surprise to any of the family! Lol!

    I moved out 13 years ago. Since then he’s lived either in one of my houses, with our middle son or now in his sisters basement. Spends much time at our oldest son’s house. Never any sign of an IP. But then he is a cerebral who does not do golden periods. He prides himself on his attitude of in your face, “Hey, this is me. Take it or leave it.”

    I don’t think he could pretend to love someone if his life depended on it. And it doesn’t. He gets plenty of fuel from an extensive raft of family (which includes me), colleagues and other narcs he gets to jerk around thru the legal system.

    I wonder if not using sex as a way to obtain fuel is just more common with cerebrals? I mean, narcissists have preferences just like the rest of us. Why do something you find distasteful (physical seduction) to get fuel if you can get plenty doing things you enjoy?

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  2. After not speaking to me for a few weeks my narc sent me photos of his new IPS and described her to me. He had been seeing for her for several months prior but I did not find this out until later on. He also left her name on a Facebook post where she liked something he posted making her identity to me known all of this contrast to this posting. I then was able to find out EVERYTHING about her. It got worse. I contacted her. Sent her screen shots of his messages to me , etc. He went back and forth between us for 2 more subsequent years , always flaunting her to me with photos and details of what an incredible woman she was. That’s only 1 example of many other women. I am sure he hid others that I never knew of but I’m curious about this behavior in light of this post. Thanks.

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  3. I’ve learned a lot here.
    1. My ex is a mid ranger, probably
    2. I was or am the escaped troublemaker

    I know who the new victim is now and not even bothered.

    When I suspected it was all happening I warned him I would figure it all out, expose him and make him look like a complete dickhead. HG speaks total truth, I became too much of a liability and threat to keep around and he disengaged more. But me being me, I had the final say and discarded and escaped from him. His follow up hoovers have given me some satisfaction. I guess I’m a bit sadistic.

    HG you don’t always approve my comments.. or have taken days that I even forget to verify again. I hope my honesty isn’t off putting for you.

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  4. “Are they turning up at their mother’s house a lot? Do you know if he or she is popping across every day for dinner? Also keep in mind there is likely to be communications which you are not privy to between narcissist and family member which underlines their status as the new primary source. ”

    Some narcissistic mothers expect their adult children to remain in daily contact with them, even when their sons are living with their partners and children or have a life of their own. If not, the controlling mother will make her son or daughter feel guilty for supposedly *abandoning the poor and helpless mother*.

    Don’t adult narcissists have feelings of obligation or guilt towards their manipulative mothers?
    Apart from choosing the mother as a NIPS, aren’t narcissists visiting them so often (e.g. having lunch with them everyday) out of obligation or guilt?

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      1. Thank you for your answer, HG. “It’s your duty” said by a narcissist parent over a long period of time can be an effective form of mind control.

        Adults are responsible for themselves and for their own children. We are not responsible for other (adult) people’s feelings or emotional well-being.

        It was not my obligation to meet my parents’ needs. It was their duty to give me a healthy upbringing. Instead, dysfunctional parents damage our lives (C-PTSD, personality disorders, chronic autoimmune illnesses, depression and so on).

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  5. Ha ha… yes he hid her… but as far as I am concerned its because she is not as good as a fuel as I was..so back to Hooverville again! How many venues do you N find? Now via Instagram direct messages…. He thinks about me?! O well…. keep on thinking mate! I’m dating and he found out… God knows how! Very ‘happy for me’…then that he is thinking of me. Hooverville..
    Just go back to the woman you so ‘clever’ tried to hide from me… she is your new reality dude!
    I guess I feel stronger the more of the N traits he is showing. It is amazing that I can tick off so many boxes in the N manual now! Knowledge is power my fellow victims.

    Now of to the beach to work on my tan… need to look good at my next date with a normal man.

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  6. HG…I do not follow this paragraph ( quote):
    ” 1. The narcissist is a Greater and has such an extensive fuel matrix that he can readily juggle various IPPSs and DLSs who provide plenty of fuel and therefore there is not yet a need for an IPPS (Greaters very rarely have NIPSs)”.
    Do you mean …he can readily juggle various IPSSs and DLSs….instead of “he can readily juggle various IPPSs and DLSs”? I lost my track there…Thank you.

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