A Letter to the Narcissist – No. 11




Life around you has been the proverbial dog chasing his own tail.
Each and evey moment..you ..manipulating me and others. I have stepped back,watched and went along with you calling me names..you yourself really are….
“faults”…you yourself needed to fix.
Impossible tasks, jumping through hoops,….all has to be accomplish being a better person. All except YOU. You just told me..you are going to kill 2 more people..then called me..a terrible person and woman…wow.
I watched you throw that red phone in the creek years ago to get away from killing people.
Heard calls from the CDC. Listened to you..and you..and you..you..you..All the while ignoring what I wanted and needed.
You act strangled…yet at times you..strangled me to the point u GPS ED me. Snatched and destroyed phones out of my hand. Told me who I could or could not see.

Here is the “All you have done to me list”.
I lost thousands of dollars..because of you.
Child support. Over once again you getting in my business with my daughter.
You verbally assaulted a minor..telling her that her father was a piece of crap.
Assaulted me while drunk many times.
Told good people..I am violent..stalker..psycho..while not telling them..you are violent and have cheated on me an all the women you have used.

Bragged about being a Master Stalker to kill people for hire.
Controlling..telling good people I have tried to control you.
Lied about how many times you were married.
Lied about seeing your Ex.
Lied about being a plant manager
Lied about cheating on your Ex with a married woman.
Lied to others about your violent behavior to women..stating I was Violent,when you have been.
Betrayed me with Brenda.
Told me Brenda was a psycho
If you did this, though the years how many others did you lie to me about?
Betrayed me with Tom, Ted, Todd, Mike, and  many others.
Lied about land/money deals/drugs/past.
You used times I was down an needed you, to pull rug out from under me..then wonder why you have been investigated and researched.

I looked in your safe an saw dui papers. condomns an man up pills, also cucumbers in your dresser drawers and going camping at Nolin, with your intent to use them…on me…without my wishes.
Let me speak this again….without my wishes.

Never did I ask want or need cucumbers /vegetables or life like penis dildos for the enjoyment of sex. Apparently…you needed them.you needed them.you needed them.you needed them. Or just wanted to punish me.

If you asked..that would have been different.you did not ask.you felt you were above asking.   It was a big deal. You being the incredible brain you state you are ..you knew this.
What are you going to say about it?

Assaulted me and went to Jail for it..
Threatened me after Jail…

Locked me out of the trailer and I slept in the cold car during Winter. While you slept drunk as a baby. All while I paid rent.

Told me to you other men and you and it was okay.
So you could use it against me like a weapon.

Tried to talk me into threesomes.

Tried to get me with you, to kill my Ex husband

Tried to get me to buy Countetfeit Money.

Gave me Counterfeit money..without telling me

I have seen  you so drunk you were a big fool.too many times to count. Snort pills like their is no tommorrow.

I have had sex and felt afraid around you..especially you demanding bj,s for rent.

You cracked my tailbone, choked me against my car an your truck.

You pulled me by the hair and put cold water all the while threathening me if I did not give you a great blow job…

All this when you said..you LOVED ME?
So..I betrayed you?


12 thoughts on “A Letter to the Narcissist – No. 11”

  1. So sorry for your aweful psin and suffering.
    wasted years but now you have learnt and are learning still. now you are free just remember as I do that we will never suffer a narc/ psycho again. we see um smell um and know we can’t fix um. Buddhists say each life we have is to learn a lesson. maybe in a past life we were a narc and our lesson is to learn about being on the receiving end. food for thought. if this is true then we have learnt the lesson of this life and we can help others. What terrible fears your narc must have to rage so violently. he will come to a dreadful end I’m sure. it’s so sad for every one.
    I’d be interested to know from HG if he had another life and had to choose between being a narc or an empath which would he choose?

      1. K
        Mine would too. I think that’s because they really do think that’s the most logical way to be. They view everyone else as either lying or delusional.

        1. Windstorm
          Also, that logic means no dithering, which can be very efficient when it comes to making decisions.

      2. I think he would too because in his present life its hard for him to consider any other way, but maybe because he is working with the doctors he may change his mind. He fears the dark void the inner emptiness and the struggles to maintain fuel are exhausting, maybe he would crave the peace, especially as if an empath finds another empath maybe it could be a wonderful match, what do you think HG?

        1. LYNN
          To be honest, I think he is more afraid of the “feels” than the dark void and he seems to have no problem getting fuel.

          He is used to being a narcissist and he seems quite satisfied with it; it’s his normal.

          1. Ha ha ha….I know. You seem very satisfied with who you are and sometimes I get the impression you would NOT want to be an empath. Although, I do wonder what it would feel like to be a narcissist. To need fuel, to not have a true self… just for a day. I have the “feels” and I am ok with it, now.

  2. The sad thing is, we got stuck in this sick fun house of horrors because we were deceived by a con artist who has been doing this for years. WE were a con job. They knew who to look for, of a victim then GROOM US, like a pedophile. So they could win our love and trust…YET…we caught on and knew This Was NOT a normal messed up person…They have evil in them. They put a spell of some type on us. They marked us with the sexual energy of owning us. WE seek and seek for answers and one day we got them…So we become warriors…We help each other. Those who are weak and can not stand on their own. We held them up till they got on their feet and held themselves up. Together we stand divided we fall…Spiritual Warrior

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