How The Narcissist Turns A Trait Against You


The chime of my ‘phone alerted me to the arrival of a text. There was nothing unusual in that. Scores arrive daily and this rises to beyond a hundred and more when the glorious seduction has commenced of a fresh, prime target. I looked over with half-interest to my ‘phone and see a name which attracted a greater level of interest. It is from Jane. An ex. One of the many exes. I stopped what I was doing and reached for my ‘phone and opened up the message.

“It would be 2 years today x”

A flame rose inside of me at this sudden provision of fuel. Even better it was unsolicited. Goodness me, would it have been two years? How time flies. The power flowed, generated by this welcome dollop of fuel. Dear Jane, always the one for remembering dates. She sent me a card and a gift to mark 1 month together. She pole-danced for me to commemorate one month since we first had sex (no the pole-dance and the card and gift were on different dates, just in case you were wondering. I am a gentleman after all). She sent a card to remind me that is was three months since our first kiss, a month since I first stayed overnight at her house, six months since we first set eyes on another. I used to call her the Chronicler for her ability to remember the anniversary of certain key moments in our relationship. At first I was suitable impressed by her memory and power of recall but then I realised that she had assistance. On one particular occasion I was having a good look around her house whilst she was out, opening draws, cupboards and so on in order to learn more about this enticing individual who I had seduced and in the process of this trawl I found a diary. At the rear she had a list of key moments in our relationship with the date written next to it. First date, first kiss, first time we had sex, first time pet name was used, first weekend away, first “I love you” and so on. Each milestone, from the trivial to the fundamental had been carefully written in her neat hand-writing (she always wrote with a Mont Blanc fountain pen – something which I liked until I decided to bend the nib one day after she accused me of forgetting her mother’s birthday. I didn’t forget. I deliberately did not remember). Each moment, each occasion had been carefully committed to the rear of this diary and beside it the date inserted as well. I was impressed and as I sat reading it, I felt the fuel of her dedication and admiration pouring over me. She was not there to do it but I knew from reading those neat entries just how much we meant to her, just how important I was and the fuel flowed. I remember sitting on her bed clasping the leather bound diary and realising that Jane was meeting my expectations and that I had such high hopes for her. The reminders and commemorations kept coming. She never forgot anything. Naturally the more traditional anniversaries – birthdays, Christmas and so forth were addressed and not only for me, but close friends, family and even Matrinarc.

Of course this slavish devotion to the recollection of events could not go unused by me. When she fell from grace and her denigration and devaluation began I would always send her a reminder written in black ink (using a superior Mont Blanc fountain pen) on a crisp piece of thick white paper inserted into a stylish small envelope. I would leave these reminders on her pillow, on her car seat, under her windscreen wiper, in her bag, on her laptop and so forth.

–         1 week since I last spoke to you –

–         2 months since our first argument –

–         5 days since I rang you –

–         A month since we last made love –

–         A week since the last silent treatment –

–         Three months since I took you anywhere

I have no idea if the timing was entirely correct with some of them, it was the effects I was after. Sometimes she would telephone me and question why I had done this. If it was during a silent treatment I said nothing but listened, allowing her strained tones to fuel me. Other times I would just stare at her and then snarl an insult, causing her to jump and her fearful look would naturally provide me with further fuel. On other occasions she did not manage to contact me but it did not matter because I knew how she would be responding as I used the very thing she liked to engage as an endearing gesture from her to me in our relationship, against her. We like to take the wonderful and then batter it, rust it, twist it and warp it so it resembles something else entirely and this act of defiling is powerful indeed in its effect.

Soon I accelerated their use at one stage having them delivered through her door on a daily basis.

–         One day since I realised I hate you –

–         Two days since I realised I hate you –

–         Three days since I realised I hate you –

–         Four days since I realised I hate you –

–         Five days since I realised I hate you

–         Six days since I realised I hate you –

–         Seven days since I realised I hate you –

–         Eight days since I realised I hate you –

–         Nine days since I realised I hate you –

–         Ten days since I realised I hate you –

–         I don’t hate you. I love you –

That last note was a highly effective respite hoover which had her call me straight away and I answered straight away and her sobbed relief poured over me with such potency, marvellous fuel that it was. Once again by using the very tool she deployed in our relationship I was able to bend it and her to my will.

Eventually she was cast aside, the new prospect of Andrea having come into my sights and dear Jane was removed, not even afforded the courtesy of being a memory. That is until that text message arrived.

A foolish move on her part to reach out to me in this way but having received the text, I knew that it was inevitable she would have done it and indeed I know that when it is 3 years, 5 years or 10 years she will keep sending these reminders. Her memory had been conditioned this way. Notwithstanding the pain it will invariably cause her she wanted me to know that she remembered still. The addition of a single ‘x’ was the green light which told me that my follow-up hoover (of course there would be one) will succeed and she would respond to it. Dangerous to apply those kisses. She had entered my sphere of influence. I did not want her back, I was busy with Andrea and that seduction, but this reminder told me that there was fuel just waiting to be collected. All I had to decide was how I was going to go about. There was no need to be malign about it, a benign follow-up hoover would work but in what form and for how long? That was what then occupied my mind as once again I remembered dear Jane and her delicious fuel. So good of her to remind me.

10 thoughts on “How The Narcissist Turns A Trait Against You

  1. Presque Vu says:

    You really did this?
    Told you.

  2. Amanda Snapchat 2 says:

    That’s great amanda that you see things more clearly now. Narcs always return. there is no final discard so be aware. But it’s great u now understand what you are dealing with. Good luck. Keep fighting!

    1. Amanda Snapchat 2 says:

      The comment was for Amanda Katz. hahaha I am soo the magnetic empath always rooting for everyone and sending motivational messages..hahahaha I will try to control myself.

  3. KM says:

    Wow. This is next level mean

  4. analise13 says:

    HG, is this an exaggeration of narcissistic behaviour?
    To demonstrate the malice and over the top machinations,
    Or did you really do this to an IPPS?

  5. Clarece says:

    “We like to take the wonderful and then batter it, rust it, twist it and warp it so it resembles something else entirely and this act of defiling is powerful indeed in its effect.”

    Hmmm. So this can apply to the bedroom too then? For example, with your girlfriend, Tabitha, when you gradually starting having her do more and more degrading things in the bedroom (like 3-somes)? If the sex was something that starts off explosive, being that you have to avoid intimacy over time, you will turn the “clean” girlfriend who adores you into the “filthy” whore which gives you an escape hatch on then disrespecting. You took something innocent and loving and defile and debase it. Does that count in this?

    1. Clarece says:

      HG, I was asking you legit questions not just throwing them up in cyber space as random hyperbole. lol (sigh)

  6. Amanda Katz says:

    Overtly sadistic. I thought greaters were a little more subtle in their manipulations!

    1. Twilight says:

      Amanda Katz

      My phone is acting up and I don’t know if my first comment went through.

      I believe some just like being a holes, some have a stream of sadism flowing through them to those that own an entire ocean of it.
      The is the dark triad and dark tetrad

      Dark Triad is a subject in psychology that focuses on three personality traits: narcissism, Machiavellianism, and psychopathy.
      Dark Tetrad is composed of four parts: narcissism, Machiavellianism, psychopathy, and sadism.

      1. Amanda Katz says:

        Almost all of my comments on this site have included the word “inconceivable.” This kind of manipulation and unconscionable behavior are so foreign to me, even in the abstract. The narc ex was so skilled in gaslighting that I questioned my sanity for years. Here’s one example: I found a parking meter receipt in his car with a date/time stamp of 8:30am on a Monday morning, when he should’ve been at work. later that day I asked him about it, and he said John from work was in his car at lunch, and John’s briefcase tipped over and all of his documents had fallen out. I asked, “When was John in your car, because you said you stayed in the office for lunch today?” He yelled and accused me of being suspicious, jealous, jumping to conclusions, making up stories, etc. I said, “No, I just asked you a question.” Then after two days of him giving me silent treatment, he asked to meet. We sat in his car while he told me that the receipt was from a meter downtown, where he went to consult with a tax law attorney because his consulting business was being audited and he was certain that, because of a clerical error, he was going to owe $40,000 in taxes and could possibly face jail time. I asked, “If it’s an error, and you pay what is due, why would you face jail time?” He went on to tell a sob story about how it was such a big mistake and he’s afraid it looks like he was trying to defraud the IRS blah blah blah. He was actually weeping and at the end of the conversation I was consoling him because he seemed genuinely frightened. I was naïve, yes? Stupid, yes? Yet I didn’t actually buy it all. I sent a copy of the parking ticket to the county parking authority and asked if they could tell me where the meter was located. A few days later, I got an email saying it was on the corner of X and Y street, with an address. When I googled the address, the photo that came up was of a hotel. A hotel where I knew one of his former flames (or current ones, as it turned out) was staying for the weekend because she had “checked in” there on facebook. I confronted him again, and he admitted to seeing her. Then he broke it off with her, hoovered me back by reinstating the golden period and that continued for five months, until I found out he never really let her go. Gaslighting. Manipulation. Mindfuckery. And I stayed with him for three more years until the final discard, which came one month ago.

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