The Veiled Primary Source

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You were crowned as the Intimate Partner Primary Source (“IPPS”) and you enjoyed that magnificent golden period. Those mesmerising days with the narcissist have gone, but the memory remains bittersweet. Blackened devaluation followed and now disengagement as you find yourself cast aside. During the downward spiral you had concerns that the person you loved and still love, was playing around, seeing other people and tarnishing that once professed perfect love. You believe that you have been pushed to one side and another has taken your crown.

Amidst the confusion and mayhem, your quest for answers, being the empathic truth seeker that you are, has led you to realise that you have been ensnared by a narcissist. You dive down the rabbit hole, reading all you can about this extraordinary disorder, shaking your head as you see the similarities of the experiences of other people, fighting back the tears as the humiliation of your treatments weighs heavy on your shoulders and still wanting him back. The wanting, the desire, the need remains and like so many others the questions form and occupy your thoughts on a daily basis.

Your suspicions that the narcissist was seducing someone else as the sun set on your empire with him, remain. You understand from your reading that the narcissist will often revel in rubbing the former IPPS’ nose in it, by parading the new IPPS to all and sundry. There are Relationship Bulletins placed on social media. The new subject of the narcissist’s infatuation is introduced to the narcissist’s coterie, the friends, the family and the colleagues as they get to bask in the golden light and you sob in the shadows. It is unfair. It is unjust. It is wrong. You worry that this new IPPS will be the one to make everything right and that the behaviours you experienced through devaluation will not be repeated. You want to derail the coupling and ensure you are installed back in that vaulted position of IPPS and this time you will strive to ensure you do everything right and avoid this awful fate that has currently befallen you. These are common responses and feelings.

You have been engaged in the customary social media stalking, looking to find out who has taken your place, but you cannot find anything. There are no posts showing the narcissist grinning with the new conquest, cold dead eyes gazing out from a score of posts, tendril wrapped about the new victim. You have not been able to contact any of the narcissist’s family or friends, learning that you had been smeared as an abuser by the narcissist, this litany of lies having been established well in advance of your disengagement. Nobody wishes to talk with you. You have managed to convince a handful of friends, failing to notice their eye-rolling, to try to find out who the narcissist is now with, but they have drawn a blank, yet you still have that nagging itch that someone new is in your place. Surely that is how it works? The narcissist needs that primary source of fuel to ensure that potent, plentiful and frequent fuel is provided to keep the construct in place. The narcissist cannot be without this particular appliance (or at least not for long) if a fuel crisis is to be averted, so what has happened? What is going on? Where is the new IPPS?

There are four scenarios which are relevant where it appears that a veil has been drawn across the new IPPS.

  1. Didn’t Receive the Memo

There is a new IPPS and the narcissist has not gone without the necessary fuel, but you do not know about it because you have simply missed the fact that this is happening. You have looked in the wrong places, you have been kept out of the loop and the side lining and ostracization which takes place following your disengagement has meant that you just have not come across the evidence of the new IPPS. You haven’t been included in the Relationship Bulletins because you have, as the former IPPS, been deleted from the world of the narcissist and you just haven’t learned of the new IPPS although he or she is very much there.

  1. Keeping It In The Family

Your suspicion that there is a new primary source is a well-founded suspicion but you have been looking in the wrong place. You have been looking for the new romantic partner of the narcissist, expecting to see him and her promenading together, dining at the haunts you were once taken to and splashed all over social media. Since you cannot find these indicators you are puzzled – surely he needs a primary source but where is she?

It is possible that the primary source is not an IPPS but a Non Intimate Primary Source and this usually means a family member. The narcissist has not ensnared a romantic primary source, for various reasons and therefore has fallen back on a family member to be the chief provider of fuel (and often considerable residual benefits). The NIPS will usually be a parent, child or sibling, in that order of likelihood. Extended family members can be NIPS but this is rarer.

If the narcissist has lived at home with a parent or moved back to live with the parent and you do not see a romantic primary source, it is highly likely that the mother or father is now the primary source. If the narcissist has children (minor or adult) and they live with the narcissist, one of these children will be crowned as the primary source and this is why you cannot find the new girlfriend.

If the narcissist rents an apartment with her sister or brother, then again, they are likely to be the primary source. If there is no romantic primary source and you know the narcissist is living with a family member, then it is a Keeping It In The Family scenario. If they are not living with a family member and you cannot find a romantic partner, ascertain whether the narcissist is spending a lot of time with a family member. Are they turning up at their mother’s house a lot? Do you know if he or she is popping across every day for dinner? Also keep in mind there are likely to be communications which you are not privy to between narcissist and family member which underlines their status as the new primary source.

  1. Troublemaker

There is a new IPPS but you are not being allowed to see that this person is in place. The narcissist is concerned that you are going to cause a major issue to the new golden period for this new IPPS and does not want you interfering. You have been smeared as a crazed harpy, the lunatic and psycho ex, so that the loyal members of the coterie form a protective wall around the narcissist and his new love interest. The coterie and the lieutenants will have been extensively briefed as to your catalogue of (fabricated) awful behaviours towards the narcissist, but your obsessed investigations as you sought to obtain answers are now used against you. You are painted as the crazy stalker, the oddball who just will not move on and although in part you are unable to move on, it is not for the reasons that have been explained about you.

The narcissist is most concerned that you are going to try to expose him or her to the new IPPS so that the wonderful golden period is derailed. He or she is worried that precious energy will be taken up trying to keep you away, fending off your attempts to display the truth about us as the narcissist seeks to manage the façade and prevent his good name being muddied. You will not find a Greater Narcissist in this position. The concern about you and what you will do is the preserve of the Mid Ranger (most likely) and the Lesser (to a degree) and therefore it is those schools who will be keeping the new IPPS on the down low. They will frequent different places, avoid social media pronouncements, block you on social media and create the appearance of there not being a new IPPS all done to ensure that you do not spoil matters.

This situation is most likely where you have escaped or if you have been disengaged it is where you have shown particular application in trying to have your truth told to many other appliances within the fuel matrix so you are refusing to abide by the expected role of weeping and woeful former IPPS. Show any fight against being controlled in this way, demonstrate a desire to confront and challenge and you will be swiftly labelled as a troublemaker. The narcissist will then pull a veil over the IPPS, shrouding them from you, ensuring the coterie makes no mention of a new girlfriend, avoiding any possibility of detection and thus ensuring that the newly embedded IPPS is not affected by your crazed rantings.

  1. Secondary Sources Rule

You cannot find a new IPPS for the simple reason that there is not one. The narcissist has not embedded a new IPPS or NIPS. Instead, the narcissist is content to operate by obtaining fuel from key secondary sources IPSSs, DLSs and NISSs. There are two instances where this occurs

  1. The narcissist is a Greater and has such an extensive fuel matrix that he can readily juggle various IPSSs and DLSs who provide plenty of fuel and therefore there is not yet a need for an IPPS (Greaters very rarely have NIPSs) . Indeed, some Greaters may operate a fuel matrix of extensive secondary sources and no primary source for several months;
  2. The narcissist is Mid Range or Lesser and has not been able to embed a new IPPS quickly enough and therefore has been forced to rely on the supplementary sources (secondary and tertiary) in the meanwhile. This state of affairs will not last long and the narcissist will be endeavouring to find an IPPS or turn to a NIPS if need be.

Thus, just because you cannot spot the new love interest of the narcissist who has callously disengaged from you (or more rarely you have escaped from) it does not mean that there is not one. Usually that primary source has an obscuring veil placed across them.

11 thoughts on “The Veiled Primary Source

  1. Presque Vu says:

    Look at my last comment. No IPPS in sight when I wrote this and I thought I was over him. Sure I got stronger.
    Until recently he declared his gift for Christmas as he’s been a good boy. He even wrote her poetry, 12 days of Chris … detailing first kiss, first smile and touch, first dance, first crime… hands entwined life’s together…
    struggling. He took the same picture of them both we would take.
    I shouldn’t look at his fb, I swear it’s like some torture addiction. But I had to see proof, to move on. Trouble is I’m hurting and remembering the times he wrote about me, he’d read the poetry to me and then fuck me. Whispering I was his. I belong to him. I was his muse.

    I really need some words of encouragement tonight to not blow his phone up, yes I’m stupid I kept his number. I feel like getting wasted!!!

    1. NarcAngel says:

      Presque Vu
      Emotional thinking is selective. There were many firsts that you didn’t list and that she will also experience.

      The first time he insulted you and made you feel small.
      The first time he embarassed you in front of others.
      The first time he didn’t keep a date that was important to you.
      The first time he denied you sex or ruined it for you.
      The first time his eyes turned black or looked right through you.
      The first time he didn’t call you back and let you worry and wonder.
      The first time you lied to others to make excuses for him.
      The first silent treatment.
      And on and on…..

      Logic remembers too. Let logic trump emotion. Not to hurt you, but to spare you.

  2. Presque Vu says:

    HG the good thing about you describing in graphic detail the situations that happen…..

    Is when you get through the other side, the articles no longer make you cry – because you’ve moved forwards.

    Your hold on our type is only for as long as we allow it – I’ve realised this now.

  3. Michelle says:

    One of the reasons this blog is so riveting is because the patterns that narcissists follow seem so universal. People say it’s not fair to stereotype, but so many of the strange experiences I’ve had appear here as a succinct summary one after the other.

    I was a secondary source, even perhaps emerging as an IPPS Candidate, but there was an IPPS I didn’t know about. My narc friend was quite literally going on vacation with the IPPS, sending me vacation photos without her in them, and making me think he was alone. He never said he was single, granted, but he said many things to lead me to believe that so that I would chase him. He eventually became so desperate to hide her that he lied to me outright. We fell out when I discovered that he was hiding the IPPS from me — the reason to do this is obvious — and I felt violated. I accused him of being a woman collector and feigning friendship with me. In other words, I told him exactly what he was. And that’s the end . . . for now.

    Had he not made a simple slip and given away the IPPS by accident, I might have become the primary source shortly thereafter, with very few signs I was dealing with a narc. That was my lucky break.

  4. Mercy says:

    HG I have a 5th scenario, please correct me if this is not possible.

    You were never IPPS and only the IPSS. The narcissist already has a IPPS that you were not aware of. There was never a need to publicly display the IPPS because she does not have social media and your relationship never got to the point where the narcissist had to introduce you the the friends, family or colleagues. Instead the narcissist keeps a steady stream of IPSSs and devalues them or demotes them to dirty secret or lieutenant before solid commitments are made.

  5. WhoCares says:

    Yes I do wonder about this – not because I care about what he is doing these days but so I can predict the future. Because he has kept everything about his new situation so carefully separated and secretive that I think he fears his dealings with me will have negative fallout for new relationships etc. I believe he has not properly secured a new primary source and I keep repeatedly exposing him through the our current formal interactions. Plus, this is a fairly small pond where we are and when you repeatedly rely on eliciting sympathy from people…eventually they make see through it…and then he’ll have no choice but to search out new hunting grounds.

    HG – do you help with assessing/predicting the narc’s pattern of behaviour in this manner?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      I very much do so WC.

      1. WhoCares says:

        Thank-you HG.

        I just may follow up with you on this one, when I can.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          I look forward to you doing so.

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