Your World In My Eyes



I want you to look into my eyes and there you will find yourself. You will see everything that you have ever desired in my eyes. Every hope you have will shine from my eyes, everything you have every wanted will be visible to you. However, you will not look on the ordinary version of those things that you covet. You will see the enhanced variety, the shining and gleaming types of those things which you hold dear. I want you to stare deep into my eyes and focus on what you find there. Allow yourself to become absorbed by those deep pools of desire as you begin to lose yourself. It is only natural to want to fall into what you see, to let go of those constraints and inhibitions so that you become consumed totally by what you are looking upon. No harm can come of it for you are only staring at the very things which matter to you. Honesty, humility, humour and desire. Integrity, values and passion. Everything which you regard as a virtue can be seen in the world that I have created in my eyes. What you tell me, both directly and indirectly, will invariably come into your view within a matter of moments. It is like a far flung barren planet which has been discovered by intergalactic explorers who commence terraforming of the planet in order to make it habitable. Everything you want becomes a reality as they are formed in this world right before you. The interests you have appear; the places you enjoy visiting come into view and the events that you like to attend flare up. You are hypnotised as this wonderful world forms in my eyes, all generated by you although you are so taken by the process and what you see that you do not realise that all I am doing is taking the materials that you are furnishing me with and replicating all those things that you want to see. I am skilled in ensuring you tell me everything about yourself to add to all the preparatory work that I undertook before I made my move. Like ingredients in a particularly delicious cocktail I combine all of these things which matter to you and weave my magic to create a drink which you will never want to stop drinking. It is intoxicating and invigorating, an addictive concoction that once you have taken your first sip you will continue to draw deep on. You have no chance to escape because from the moment I cause you to look deep into my eyes I show you all the things that you want. I show you the world where you are queen, where nothing will ever hurt you, where your true worth has been recognised by me. This world is perfect. Everything is in its place and accords with your values. You ever stop to question how is it that I have been able to create this world so accurately and so brilliantly. You do not query how this creation is so magnificent because it is everything that you have always wanted. From the fairy tale existence you promised yourself as a young girl through to the correct treatment that you deserve as the decent person that you are, everything appears on this world which I have tailor made for you. It is captivating, mesmerising and alluring. You want this world more than anything you have ever known. You want to be absorbed by it and to fall deep into its fabric, cossetted by the security that it provides. Nothing goes wrong on this world, it is a clear utopia and best of all it is right there before you. All you need to do is maintain my gaze, letting yourself fall deep, deep into this marvellous world and everything will be alright. Everything will remain wonderful.

What you never realise is that this world will be consumed in an instance. In just one blink, this utopia will be obliterated and it will be as if it never existed. The dark inky pools that are the reality of these eyes will devour this created world, erasing it just as readily as a black hole consuming a planet. Once again the darkness will take hold and annihilate the fabrication which you held so dear. Even when this happens you will go on searching though. You will stare deep into my eyes, trying to find this world again amidst the ink-black darkness. There is no light that can shine any longer which may just happen to illuminate where this world has gone to. The darkness is absolute because it is the darkness that is the reality. Not that it will stop you trying. You will keep looking and searching, trying to find the perfect world once again, hoping for it to emerge into the light once again. You will keep trying and that is why we show you the world in our eyes.

6 thoughts on “Your World In My Eyes

  1. Kelly says:

    It’s so fun being in the know now! I can see the multiple fuels my narc is conquering in one action. Yesterday he swung around the corner to chat with a couple of women- positive fuel, and made a work related comment that caused me to look over at him-I’m nc mostly now, and I’m sure his assistant was possibly feeling a little jealousy – 3 things at once. This is fun at least, knowing what’s going on in his mind.

  2. Kelly says:

    Why do you use the same words as my narc?
    Close personal friend
    You serve a purpose
    I invested a lot of time in you

    You’re British and he’s a New Yorker. Most people don’t say those words, but you both say them repeatedly. You referenced the cologne he uses in one of your stories. I read your story about narc’s being alike in behavior, but how can you both possibly say these specific same words and sentences?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      See ‘Do Narcissists Operate From The Same Book?’

      1. Kelly says:

        That story doesn’t mention specific words and sentences, or how a Brit and a New Yorker would have the same lingo. It’s not that you’re saying the same message, it’s that your words are identical. There are more words than those above that aren’t coming to mind at the moment. No matter, I’m guessing you’re not aware of it.

      2. NarcAngel says:

        Re: Narcissists operating from the same playbook.

        ’There has been much discussion over time about how narcissists seem to operate from a playbook, so your article Do Narcissists Operate From The Same Book? is appreciated, and more specifically, your noting that it is the other way around. That those similar behaviours is what identifies you as a narcissists. I thought that was an excellent way to have it explained and to view it. So to my question…

        Do narcissists not have that same view of empaths despite the different categories? I would think that you must, because conversely the same behaviours and manipulations appear to work on us. Do you think: Oh empaths all think and are essentially the same and predictable in their behaviours? (as we charge your kind are). Or is it that we all fall for the same manipulations that makes us empaths? (In your view). Hope that made sense.

    2. Caroline says:

      I know exactly what you mean by this, Kelly. As an empath who has heard *only* my (ex-BF) narcissist and HG say certain, very specific phrases — and being that they live in completely different parts of the world/entirely different types of upbringing — it seemed odd to me too, even if they are of a similar narcissistic “type/class.” I have mulled over a few possible factors:

      -similar education level, which goes along with type; but more specifically, exposure to the same literature/general reading material (which they then copy for impact/attention/efficiency, in everyday exchanges).
      -mirroring/copying of narcissists of other narcissists — they hear/see what’s effective, like a big club of members with similar needs/tools to ensure their needs are met.

      That’s all I could come up with… but it’s freaked me out at times also. (The cologne could be just coincidence – or similar class or wealth/type of taste issue).

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