Scapegoat

 

scapegoat

“You don’t want to end up like him do you now?”

Years later those words still echo through my mind. They act as some cruel guardian which ensures that I will never stumble, never flounder and never fall victim to the injustices which this world has in store for me. I was shown what happens to those who are weak, those who fail to seize control and grasp the power for themselves. The consequences of failure were paraded before me on an almost daily basis to allow me to witness the full horror of what it was to be sub-standard, below par and just not good enough.

I knew that this fate must not befall me and that it became necessary for me to clamber higher than everybody else no matter what it took or what the cost was. So long as there was somebody underneath me on that ladder as I climbed, then, as the saying goes, the devil would take the hindmost.

Onwards and upwards, climbing higher and higher to escape the consequences of vulnerability, weakness and failure. I was given a swift induction into learning how to stay ahead and protect myself. There were two routes available to ensure that you stayed number one and the best. Strive to stay ahead of the opposition and by the opposition I was taught that this means everybody else and furthermore bring the opposition down so that they become subsumed into the quagmire of failure.

If your opponent is taller, chop him off at the knees. If he is better looking, fling acid in his face. If he is smarter, batter his brains out. If he is stronger, poison him into weakness. If he is wealthier, sap him of penny and cent. If he lives in a pleasant place, pollute the neighbourhood. If he has a good job, get him sacked. Figuratively speaking some of the time of course and that means to do all of those things, that it is necessary to play the scapegoat card. Become proficient at pointing the finger elsewhere, cultivate persuasiveness so that the allocation of blame falls on the shoulders of another, practise plausible deniability so the mantle of fault never rests on my head. Never be the one at fault. Ever. Those were my instructions.

The indoctrination continued. You are not to blame, you are not guilty, you are not the problem, you did not cause the problem either. Erase sorry from your vocabulary as you do not feel it, remove the idea of apologising as you have nothing to apologise for, do not express anything which might be regarded as guilt as that is an alien concept.

There is always somebody else who can be blamed. It does not take long for the repeated mantra of it never being my fault to engender that sense of impregnability and a lack of accountability. Since it is the fault of everyone else it is impeccable logic is it not that it can never be my fault? It therefore follows that if it is never my fault then such a fault-free individual is truly superior and stands above all others.

To facilitate this it therefore becomes necessary to identify a scapegoat or more accurately scapegoats. The role of scapegoat slots seamlessly into our thinking. Fault is an intangible concept but it exists. Someone is always to blame. I was taught that from the beginning. Things do not just happen, they happen for a reason and the reason that she was always crying, that he was always failing, that they were socially ostracised, that she could not pass her exam, that he never scored a goal, that they never went on holiday, that he could not hold down a job, that she was a single mother, that he had a drink problem, that she was ugly, that he lived in a poor area, that she was never invited out, that he died alone, that she was beaten, that he was arrested, that she was raped, that he was murdered was because they were scapegoats.

Make others the scapegoat and immunity from fault and blame follows and thus one can move without hindrance, barrier or boundary. Make him or her a scapegoat because if you do not get in first they will do it to you. Make sure you blame them before they can turn that accusing eye in your direction. Stay one, no ten, steps ahead. They deserve to be blamed. If they had any value they would not be stigmatised in such a fashion, it is their own fault.

I learnt that they may come with smiles but the blade of blame is held behind their back ready to strike, so plunge your dagger of fault deep into them first. Do not be taken in by the false proclamations of love and compassion, they are but veils to place across my eyes so a crown of accountability can be thrust on my head.

Soon, the lessons that I learned began to automatically teach me. Not feeling enough attention at a party? The guests are ignorant and impolite. Tell one that this is a case and see how the attention shifts. Served slowly at the bar? The bar man is incompetent and he should be reminded of this fact. See how he has responded now? Report not completed on time? Find a junior colleague and point out how he has failed to provide the necessary information. Criticised for not earning enough? Blame the bosses for running the company into the ground and failing to reward an achiever such as I. Feeling restless and unloved? Lash out at her so she seeks to make amends. Stuck in a traffic jam? Blame the department of transport for the ill-thought out road works. Struggling to sleep? Must be those damned neighbours and their late-night music, go and give them a piece of your mind and see how much better you feel when you point out they are at fault.

But what if it is not those things and it is because I am not interesting enough to talk to, or not attractive enough to catch the server’s eye, or not good enough at my job, or not hitting the targets because I cannot apply the required effort, or because I do not show her any affection any longer, or because I set off late from the house, or because I fell asleep this afternoon?

Never. That is what they want you to think. That is the control that they seek to exert over you. That is how they get inside your mind and try to make you think that you are weak, when you are not. Remember, they want you to be the scapegoat. They want you to be the failure, they want you to be the subject of their blaming, so you take the rap, take the hit and become the patsy. Yes, you are right, I remember now.

The diktat still resonates even now, reminding and emphasising. That is not your role. You are better than all of them. You will rise above them and to do that you must work hard at everything and ensure that they are the ones who are to blame, because they are. They are the ones who are trying to stop you achieving and claiming what is rightfully yours. They are the traitors, the insidious foes, the treacherous betrayers who spout sedition and practise disloyalty. Let them know who they are, scapegoat them.

Thus this carries into everything that we do. We find a scapegoat in every aspect of our lives. The put-upon sibling, the browbeaten colleague, the lambasted neighbour, the oddball in the local superstore, the subjugated underling, the butt of the social circle and most of all you, the intimate partner who becomes the ultimate scapegoat.

It is you that becomes the receptacle for our domineering, hectoring, nagging, bullying, blaming, intimidating, coercing, blaming, accusing, menacing, terrorising, bludgeoning and oppressive persecutions. You burnt dinner, you made the white shirt turn pink, you forgot to get that present that we wanted, you failed to satisfy our sexual appetite, you made us be unfaithful, you made us break that mirror, you made us slap you, you made us ill, you made our team lose, you cost us that promotion, you woke us too early, you woke us too late, you let us fall asleep, you kept us awake, you didn’t do it, you did it. Again.

This conditioning ensured that the only way to stay ahead, to win and to succeed was to find someone else to blame and that does not change because we know you are just waiting to try to blame us, well we know your game. We have you in our eyes and it is you who is to blame, not us.

The only way to prevent the hell of being a scapegoat is to make others a scapegoat instead.

And so I do as I do, I say as I say and I am what I am so that I do not end up like him, like her, like them, like you.

Can you really blame me for doing that?

13 thoughts on “Scapegoat

  1. nunya biz says:

    I feel that

    -credit taking (plagarism, idea stealing, denying contribution)
    -point twisting (making someone else’s point one’s own by altering it)
    -fact screening (sharing/omitting information to one’s advantage, sometimes gossip)

    are all very related behaviors and sometimes more difficult to detect. They essentially come back to the same outcome of removing someone’s identity and co-opting the positives for one’s self and dimming the individuality of the other person, sometimes to the point of limiting their freedom of movement, choice and expression (by altering the intentions of another person). It also comes back to competition and an internal drive to dominate another person by comparison in order to negate an insecurity like you describe in the article.

    It is very odd because I really can’t understand it as it usually preys on resources that are not truly limited or gained by comparison to one other specific person, which seems like such a weirdly limited view point. Personal creative contribution always seems superior and also pretty much within the grasp and ability of most people anyway, certainly if they are smart enough to unconsciously spin a bunch of spider web bullshit, but I guess that doesn’t effectively hobble anyone nearby, so insufficient.

  2. kel says:

    Narcissists have disgusting behavior where they blatantly do sexually harassing things in full view and right under everyone’s noses- placing their hands on a woman in an inappropriate area as he’s walking by – he might say ‘oh, excuse me ‘ or not. If those women didn’t feel like school girls again and flattered, or if the narcissist wasn’t charming enough, they would be very offended. But just watching that happening in an office is offensive because it’s wrong, there are laws against it. The nonsense flirting in an office from narcissists is disruptive to work, and often slants favoritisms towards the cooperating victims and against those who push away the narcissists hands. Those people subsequently become the scapegoats. All of a sudden they are the crazy person who the narcissist will claim is to blame for why they must distance themselves from their poor flirtatious victim. It’s not his fault – he loves her, but it must be done because it’s the nosy scapegoats fault. Never mind the supposed scapegoat knows nothing about it and has nothing to do with it.

  3. Kelly B says:

    In my family I came from a military family. My dad the greater narcissist and my brother the midrange. My sister the golden child and I’m the scapegoat. I feel empaths are targeted to be scapegoats.As well as in relationships with narcissists and psychopaths.

  4. Kel says:

    Scapegoating isn’t winning, it’s being a poor loser. And yes, I can blame you, the truth comes easy to me.

  5. Karen Gawin says:

    Wow. This actually makes complete sense. Is there not a way to avoid being a scapegoat without scapegoating others? (Maybe not as a child, but later?)

    1. windstorm says:

      Karen
      I’m never scapegoated anymore. Just stay away and ignore the people who scapegoat and do what you should be doing. If other people think well of you, and you ignore negative comments, narcs will choose someone else to blame

    2. WiserNow says:

      Karen,

      You can avoid being a scapegoat by learning about narcissists and being aware of what they do and why. Knowledge is power. Awareness and logical thinking will help you when no contact or avoiding narcissistic people is not possible.

      Narcissists are good at saying things that make others “think” the narcissist has all the answers and the power, but they don’t. They are good at figuring out a person’s emotional triggers and then playing on them to make that person feel bad or inferior.

      If you can recognise the behaviours and understand why they’re happening if someone tries to scapegoat you, you’ll be better able to resist it without being emotionally affected by it. Having said that, once you detect the narcissistic behaviours, try and avoid that person as much as possible.

      Kindness, honesty, doing the right thing and having a conscience are NOT weaknesses, even though narcissistic people will try to convince you they are. They are not. However, the person with these qualities has to be aware of what their own thoughts, values and attitudes are. You need to be self-aware enough not to allow anyone to make you feel unworthy or weak or wrong or powerless. You need to maintain your own logic and not take it to heart when someone tries to criticise you in order to get a rise out of you or make you feel inferior.

      Narcissists “need” to have scapegoats in order to make someone inferior and to make someone else carry all the blame. This is how they can “justify” their own false sense of superiority. They get away with their own lies and selfishness by pointing the finger and making someone else the “guilty” one.

      When you’re both self-aware and aware of the behaviours of others, I don’t think you’ll scapegoat others to avoid being scapegoated yourself. Hopefully you’ll be aware enough to know better.

      1. windstorm says:

        WiserNow
        Very good answer. I totally agree.

        1. WiserNow says:

          Thank you windstorm. I appreciate your kind and reassuring comment very much. I think your answer to Karen is great too. Your advice to ignore anyone who tries to scapegoat you is spot on.

          Before becoming more self-aware and knowledgable about narcissism, I remember wanting and actually craving validation and the feeling of closeness or inclusion in relationships. That made it much easier to be scapegoated because my emotions depended on the interactions with the other person. I didn’t even think of boundaries, let alone try to strengthen them. I literally made myself a target. I took the other person and their views very seriously and ‘believed’ in what they said, even when they were demeaning or unfair. These days I consciously keep reminding myself not to do that.

          Like you say, now I ignore the negative comments, or I actually see through them to the reason they’re being said. If I’m being criticised or made to feel inadequate in some way, I think that the opposite is probably true and the other person probably needs to bolster their own ego because I’ve done something good or made ‘them’ feel inadequate.

          1. windstorm says:

            Wiser now
            You’re welcome.

            “If I’m being criticised or made to feel inadequate in some way, I think that the opposite is probably true and the other person probably needs to bolster their own ego”

            I think this is very true. I’ve noticed over the years that whenever people are vocally critical of other people’s actions or viewpoints, they always feel vulnerable or threatened in some way themselves. Do an experiment and take note of whenever someone is critical of another person. I bet it will pop out to you how the critical person feels threatened – whether it is their vanity, their job, their relationship, or their sense of entitlement. So much of criticism is really just a means for the criticizer to feel better about himself.

          2. WiserNow says:

            Yes, I think so too windstorm. Since learning about narcissism and being more conscious about the psychology behind why people say and do certain things, I’ve become much more aware. This applies to my own behaviours too.

            Emotional reactions, defensiveness and ‘ego protection’ make up a significant part of why people say and do certain things. I’ve found it helps to take the words someone says at face value and then try to better understand the reasoning behind their words.

      2. nunya biz says:

        Both of these posts are helpful, WN.

        1. WiserNow says:

          Thank you nunya biz. I’m glad if they are helpful. I’ve learned a great deal from HG’s blog and everyone who comments. I see things so differently now compared to a few years ago.

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