A Letter to the Narcissist No. 6



Dear Narc,

 I don’t know what to say to you anymore.
I can’t muster up the anger I once had and I definitely can’t muster up any love.   You are becoming more and more of a memory that will hopefully be completely gone.
There was a time when I would have given you anything in the world,  anything you asked for.  I do wish you knew that.  But you killed that person,  that woman who thought she had at last found her soulmate.  I’m more of a husk now I’m sorry to say,  more of a hole, just like you.
You won because I won’t even try to find love anymore. I wish I could say I would.  I’ve had it in the past and I know what it looks like but no, I won’t try.
I know you’ll keep trying to find what you think is love.  I know you are desperately trying to find it now and it doesn’t hurt anymore. I just feel apathy.
I’m weary inside. I’m worn out. I’m dry and I have nothing to give which I guess is a good thing. I won’t even respond to any offers of love, not from anyone and definitely not from you.
You are not who I thought you were but I’m not who I was anymore. The smile has faded, my bones ache and there’s nothing here for you anymore. You said that I am lower than a homeless person and in many ways you are  right. I have a lot in common with them because we both have nothing left to fight for anymore. Nevertheless, there is one thing which is on the bright side and that  is the fact that I won’t be fighting for your love anymore either.

3 thoughts on “A Letter to the Narcissist No. 6

  1. SJ says:

    I really like this, MLO.

    This would have been my sentiments completely, but now I know what has happened and it being post-escape – I would never show my weaknesses to him.

  2. Joanne says:

    This was a rough one to read. I’m glad I reverted back to the previous postings to see that the author has come a long way from where she was at during the time of writing.

  3. J.G THE ONE says:

    Dear reader…
    I just have to encourage you, as you know I have been through each and every one of these states. And this one that you verbalize is one of the states through which the empath transits. Now you can be closed and denying this possibility. Look at you, I also said the same things as you. And I’ve had a partner for 12 years and I enjoy a happy life. Just take your time and work on yourself.
    You don’t know, even as empathics recover if they have done the closing correctly. And absolute zero contact is maintained.
    I wish you a speedy recovery and many years of happiness. Don’t close, just be cautious with men who approach you.
    Enjoy your life and be HAPPY. That will really annoy your narcissist in some way.

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