A Lack of Support



We don’t provide support. We are too concerned with ourselves and our daily hunt for the fuel that we need to be concerned about you. We are engrossed in our own world and have no interest in yours. The only time we pay attention to you is when you are providing us with fuel or you stop providing us with fuel. Everything we do is focussed around us. This is because we have to obtain fuel, as without we will disintegrate. The hunger for this fuel is never ending and accordingly all of our energy must be applied towards obtaining it. This leaves us with nothing left over for anyone else.

Being a caregiver yourself, you would like to think that the person who you share your life with, or who you work closely with, would be amenable to providing you with support. That may mean giving you emotional support when you are experiencing a difficult time or taking the strain allowing you to lessen the burden on yourself. You give and you are happy to do so, therefore why should they not do so as well? That is the outlook of someone normal operating by the norms and rules of your world. Those do not apply to us. We cannot provide you with support since we have nothing available to do so.

Added to that we do not know how to provide emotional support. Yes we can see how chores can be done and the like. We also have observed the ways that you provide emotional support to other people and we know the phrases that are used, the expressions that are formed on people’s faces and the gestures that are made. We have seen all that and we could trot all that out. In fact we have done in the past. We did this when we were seducing you. When we wanted you to divulge about your weaknesses and vulnerabilities this will have invariably saddened you and upset you. It may even have caused an episode where you need emotional support. We were happy to go through the motions then because we were at the stage of investing in your in order to get our fuel. We were content to make the right noises, give you a hug and make the panacea that is the cup of tea. All of this was learned from others. We did not feel anything for you. We could not put ourselves in your shoes (heaven forbid that would ever happen) and we could not empathise with what you were experiencing and nor can we ever do that. Yet again, we conned you into thinking that we are a caring and selfless person. We demonstrated such an approach when we were first together and that attracted you to us. This raised expectations that you could rely on us and turn to us when the need arose. It is all false.

Furthermore, when you need support and expect it from us, you are showing to us how you are weak. We despise weakness. You will find that our kind is rarely found near children, the infirm and ill and the elderly. This is because they are all weak and want support regularly. We do not want to be reminded of that fact. We cannot be bothered with you cluttering up our route to fuel. An exhibition of weakness infuriates us. A normal person would see someone in a position of weakness and deign to help and assist. We have seen how this is a natural reaction in normal people. It will not happen with us.

If you are fortunate, we will absent ourselves from the situation in an instant. We will generate some urgent reason; find a pressing engagement we had forgotten about in order to ensure we can get away from you and your ailment, woe or injury. You probably will never see us move as quick when it comes to getting away from somebody who needs help. If we are unable to exit the situation then we may just stand and look at you. You could be reaching out to us, eyes filled with tears of pain, asking for help and we will just give you a blank stare. We know we ought to be helping you, convention and observation has told us this, but we cannot do so. We are unable to leave but we are also unable to help you. This requires compassion and we do not have any. It requires us to us our energies to help you out and we are forbidden from doing so.

Our ultimate reaction where you need support from us is to go on the offensive. The uncomfortable feeling that you have generated inside of us makes us feel less powerful and smacks of inferiority. We know of only one way to banish such a sensation. We need to reassert our power and that means we must lash out at you. It becomes necessary to subject you to further insults and denigrating comments, at a time when you are feeling hurt and vulnerable.

“What are you crying for? I have had worse happen to me.”

“I am sick and tired of you being pathetic. Deal with it.”

“I bet (insert name of triangulated individual) would not make such a song and dance about it like you do.”

“It’s only a dog, you can get another one. Seriously, what a display over a dumb animal.”

“You are hysterical, you need to get help.”

“Stop crying or I will give you something to cry about.”

“That’s right; make it about you on my special day.”

We will lash out at you with these words in order to make you feel worse and ourselves feel better because that is all we care about. We fooled you into thinking that we care about you. That is a fallacy. Do not expect us to support you.

Demonstrating our legendary hypocrisy we will expect you to always be there for us. When we have a need you must attend to it straight away, even if you are experiencing difficulties yourself. When we have a scratch we expect you to make it better even though you might be bleeding to death before us. As with so much of our behaviour we do not regard the way we act towards you as meaning you should behave the same way towards us. If you chopped us in half you would most likely find this stencilled through us like lettering on a stick of rock

“Do as I say, not do as I do.”


13 thoughts on “A Lack of Support

  1. Narc noob says:

    Do you think “normals” find it hard to offer empaths support? Especially emotional, HG?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      It depends on the relationship to the empath and what the source of the required support is.

  2. KellyD says:

    “That’s right; make it about you on my special day.”
    He’d say that when I made my feelings known about his crap behaviors. Ironically, it was never about me. So when he’d throw that at me I’d get more frustrated that he could find that even remotely true. It was always always about him. Grrrrrrrrrr

  3. Cyn says:

    I often wonder how my ex handled his six distraught kids when their mother passed away from cancer; aside from having her replacement already secured and preparing for relocation. I presume he let them console each other.

  4. AR says:

    We fooled you into thinking that we care about you. That is a fallacy. Do not expect us to support you – i know. I have never had a support. He was my last hope. Old me died after his betrayal. But phoenix always rises from ashes. The war between us is not over yet.

    1. Cyn says:

      I think the biggest war is the one to trust ourselves again. Our own judgement. I remember saying to mine that I wished I had left at the first red flag, and that whoever he was with would leave the first time he insulted her or gave her the silent treatment for speaking her mind, or the first time she caught him in a lie. The battle is to stop doubting ourselves. When we learn not to second guess ourselves we will not invite them keep predators with us. It’s no use battling with them because the rules change. The rules are not based on our logic.

      1. Joanne says:

        You have a gravatar 🙂

        1. Cyn says:

          It will change, I got ocd about it. Haven’t settled on one yet lol

      2. AR says:

        I agree with stopping doubting ourselves. Well, we are strangers to each other. He betrayed his soul by betraying me. The pain and damage he caused to me are unforgivable. i don’t want to wait until something like karma will get back at him. I will be his karma. Let bygones be bygones. No i can’t just let it go. Both embarrassment and betrayal are eating me up inside each day.

        1. Cyn says:

          But you can’t get even when you are enraged. That rage is justified but it’s fuel. The karma thing is different for a narc, karma for them is that they are never quite full. The only payback really is when he can’t control your emotions or get a response from you and the only way to do that is no contact. The gratification for you is your own thought fuel knowing he is flailing. I did get some of that watching his hoover methods escalate incrementally over time periods.

          1. AR says:

            I am still in no contact. I have a plan. He can continue to be under the illusion that he won. I rarely comment here. I’d like to get my revenge when least expected as i wrote in one of previous comments. I need to be very careful and calculated for it to work. Unfortunately thought fuel is not enough for me. There are some things that i cannot share here since it is too personal. But thank you for sharing your opinion.

          2. Cyn says:

            Tried to reply and not sure it worked. Your comment sent me into revenge thinking yesterday too lol. I get it. I have ways I could get revenge without contact also and I’m glad to hear you aren’t in contact. I hate not having the last word. I hate having the truth to all the insane lies and letting him think he won, all the flailing hoover attempts where he dug his hole deeper with letters furthering the lies lol. Never a good idea to put lies in writing when they can be disproved… I hear you and feel you(of course!)

  5. Cyn says:

    I remember this when horrible things happened. Deaths, fires, and even after he raged and ripped me to shreds the first time. One of the first times before I remembered that I knew how not to cry. He mocked me for sniveling and whining after tearing me to nothing. I did not know who that person was. I didn’t want him to come back. That Was the monster he showed me. The one who hated my insides.

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