Your Pledge To The Narcissist

You signed the pledge. Your tears of joy fell on it and washed away what I had written there revealing instead what has been carved into the stone underneath. It is your pledge to me.

You promise to supply me with the fuel that I need, be it morning, noon or night. You dedicate yourself to loving, cherishing but above all else admiring me. From the moment you wake until the moment you close your eyes and hopefully seek slumber, you will apply your every thought, word and deed to supplying me with the potent fuel that I require.

You swear that you will be cast adrift from everything that you once held dear. You vow that you will raise no complaint nor seek to remedy your splendid isolation and instead you shall give thanks for the opportunity to be beholden to me.

You will agree with me without condition. You will submit to my will and my word. You will be subjugated and dominated and you will allow this to happen with a great gladness in your heart.

You unconditionally accept the dogma of my thinking and you will without demurring or deferring accept my rules even where there are no rules. You shall speak when I demand it and remain silent otherwise. You agree that you will second-guess, anticipate and ascertain all that I require and you shall do so without assistance, hint or help. You will raise no complaint nor identify any contradiction in the diktats that I shall pronounce, no matter how wildly they alter and vacillate.

You agree to remain trapped in the altered reality that shall be created for you and you shall do nothing to seek your escape from it. You agree you shall polish my hall of mirrors and keep the same free from dust, defect or deterioration.

You shall not better anything that I do, you shall diminish anything that you do in deference to my brilliance. You agree to comply with my every wish, demand and command and in so doing recognise that it is for your own good.

You shall recognise that you over-react, forget, fail to remember, blow out of proportion and engage in crazy aberrations of behaviour and you shall give repeated thanks for the tolerance and forgiveness that I allow you in the face of such blatant and sustained provocation.

You willingly and without complaint, claim or seeking redress agree to forgo your self-esteem, your identity and your sense of self. You volunteer to lay your self-worth, reason and confidence as sacrifices on the altar of my greatness.

You will submit to every whim I express, each desire I create and every demand without regard for its depravation, degradation or denigration.

You will with marvellous enthusiasm praise and worship me and with clarion call declare your awe at my almighty brilliance. You shall not suffer others to denigrate my name and instead you swear to defend my honour and reputation irrespective of logic, reason or hypocrisy.

You agree to be coated in confusion, enshrined in bewilderment and driven to demented frustration. You shall willingly strive with every fibre of your being to pander, soothe and placate me save when I do not require such treatment and expect you to realise without indication or clue.

You will go down on your knees and give thanks for the largesse that I exhibit towards you, that you are granted a daily audience with my scintillating superiority and that you are allowed to breath the air that I breath.

You shall cast off all notion of self, forgo your relationships and  betray your friends and family in order to better dedicate yourself to my greatness. You shall relinquish all interests, hobbies and activities in order to devote your life to me. You shall forgo all assets and chattels, delivering them up for my use, abuse and destruction.

You agree that yes means no, no means yes and yes and no mean whatever I want them to mean. You shall always give thanks for the enlightenment that I shall bring to you and do nothing to evade, dilute, diffuse or ameliorate my greatness.

You agree to become my appliance and an extension of my greater glory. You understand that you have only one role and that is to supply me with my precious fuel. You will not diminish nor interrupt this supply on pain of most terrible retribution.

You swear on pain of damnation that you shall never ignore me, never show indifference towards me and never to fail to react to everything that I say and do.

You will sacrifice everything that you hold dear in recognition of the god that I am and you shall do so whilst smiling despite the trauma you will suffer, the abuse you will endure and the horror visited on you each and every day.

You shall say my name with your dying breath and raise no complaint when I forget who you are.

I note you have already signed this pledge. You are learning already.

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8 Comments

      1. Thank you ..so hard to sometimes really see how they think this way but reading here constantly opens my eyes to the truth and reminds me to stay no contact.

  1. HG if it wasnt for you I wouldnt know what I was actually dealing with. Reading your books and listening to you on YouTube helped me understand your kind. Even though you are a Narcissist yourself thank you for helping the rest of us. We are learning from the best keep on writing.

      1. I second what Pati said. The insight you’ve given into the narcissistic psyche has proven to be invaluable. Your words guide me as I strive to understand the man who still, and will likely always, own my heart. I know what he is, and still I love him. It’s been three years since we broke up, but we still live together. To say that our situation is complicated; that how things came to be this way convoluted, doesn’t even begin to scratch the surface. The problem is this: after being a couple for over a decade, we broke up for good. I would have moved out immediately after that, except multiple severe health problems left me in a state of temporary disability for a year. I was forced to leave my job as a hospice nurse during that time because I was unable to meet the physical demands of caring for my patients. After undergoing four big surgeries over the last year, I’m thrilled to finally be back at work doing what I love, stronger and healthier than ever. Soon, I’ll be able to extricate myself from this nightmare. But sometimes I think I don’t want to. How screwed up is that? 🤦‍♀️
        The thing is, there are parts of his personality I truly do enjoy and I like being around him when he isn’t walking around with his head up his ass. I’m really going to miss the jerk. I want to hate him, loathe him even, but I CAN’T. It’s all so very confusing. Sometimes I wonder if he really is a narcissist after all, but then he just has to remind me of his true nature. Clearly I’ve still got plenty of work ahead of me left to do, and I’m nowhere near the end of this journey, but I want to thank you, H.G. I sincerely don’t know where I’d be if not for your willingness to share the unvarnished truth. I don’t care if you’re a narcissist yourself or whatever your reasoning/motivation is for sharing such a priceless gift. I don’t know if you will ever truly know what you’ve done or the difference you’ve already made, but I want you to know my sincerest and deepest gratitude is, and shall always be, wholly yours.

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