One More Chance


What harm could it do to give us one more chance? Like the gambler placing another bet in the hope of winning big, there is everything to gain and not much more to lose really is there?

You are down amongst the dead so what could possibly go wrong? Besides, imagine if you did not do so? Imagine that you pass up this opportunity and somebody else takes it? Somebody else benefits from all of your work and they get it right.

They do and say the right things so they enjoy the joy of the golden period but this time it lasts forever. It would be like allowing someone ahead of you in the queue and they buy a winning lottery scratchcard from the selection you had your eye on. So near, yet oh so far.

Imagine the crushing dejection of knowing that you had it in your grasp but you failed to fllow through and seize the moment. How could you live with yourself thereafter if you failed to act on this glorious chance?

You don’t want to let anybody else gain the advantage do you? Not after everything you have done to steady the ship, to keep things afloat and to steer a sensible course through hazardous waters.

You are owed that chance.

You are entitled to that magnificent outcome and here it is being offered to you. All you have to do is take hold of it and give us another chance to make things right. Yes, it has failed in the past but did Robert the Bruce give up in his attempts to defeat the English? No he did not, he kept on going didn’t he and I know, I just know that you are made of similar stuff.

You have that indefatigable spirit, that is why I hcose you. I knew you would not give up. Too many people let me down, but not you. You aren’t going to do that are you? You have your eyes on the prize. You could not live with yourself if you knew you had given up the chance for us to return to our golden period once again.

I know some people say that past behaviour is the greatest indicator of future behaviour but they are just bitter because they lacked the capacity and the ability to make a change. They wanted to make a difference but they didn’t have the goods.

They didn’t have the gumption, the wherewithal, the necessary to do the job. You have. I can tell. I know these things and if you just believe in me this one time then everything will be different. Just one chance. That is all that I am asking for. It isn’t much, not after everything we have been through.

You aren’t going to throw away everything that we have built up are you? I surely do not think that you will do such a thing. You are not like that. You believe in us and you are the one who holds the key to a magical future. Just place the key in the lock, turn it and open the door to me.

I will be there waiting. I have all the time in the world. I am not going to go anywhere soon if I know that you are going to continue to believe in me, but if you are going to give up, even though I don’t think you will, well, there are plenty who will take your place.

No, I haven’t got anybody lined up, I am not saying that. I am just pointing out that someone as special as me, well, there are people who would be interested, that is all that I am saying. But let’s not talk about them.

That is just something which might happen if you make the wrong decision. Not that you will. You are good at making decisions. I know that. You chose to be with me. Oh I know I made it seem like that I came after you but let’s not delude ourselves here, you are the one who made the decision.

After all, you are in control of your own destiny aren’t you? I just offered myself to you, you had to make the decision to make that step towards me and you did and do you know why? Because you know. You know that we belong together. You know how we feel about one another.

Yes, I know there are difficult times, but that is just what life throws at us but you and I, well, we are better than that aren’t we? I am not trying to influence you because I have ultimate faith in you to do the right thing. You know your own mind. All I am doing is asking yourself whether it is worth throwing away all that we have, all that we can have, just because you will not give me another chance?

I know you are someone who believes in the power of love. I do too. Love is all that we need and what you and I have, well, nobody else really understands it do they? I know what people say about me and you being together, but it is all jealousy. Are you going to let the outrageous comments of others deny you your happiness?

I would not think that for a moment you would conceivable allow that to happen. You are your own person. I have always respected that. I gave you what you needed. I know at times I might be a hard task master but I did it for us because it is only when you are truly and sorely tested that you can tell that it is love.

Anybody can love like the books and the films. Anybody can be on top of their game when they have no worries and no concerns. A real test of a relationship is when the chips are down, when your backs are against the wall when it is against all odds. It is when somebody else interferes, wants what you have and you have to fight for what you want. You have.

I have seen the fire and the determination in your eyes because I know you want me. You want us to be together. We have been tested, repeatedly, but have we not come through it? Have we not come out on the other side and we are better for it? Our love has become stronger because we have been tested and we survived that test. Are you going to let all of that go to waste just because I say some things in the heat of the moment?

That is passion for you, you bring it out in me, I cannot help it that you cause these emotions to erupt from me. Would you rather me be a cold and heartless shell? Of course you would not. I am what I am and I am a cauldron which you manage to stir because that is how you and I are.

Other people hurl their opinions around, I know they do, I am not stupid, I know what they say, but they do not understand you and me. They do not have what we have and they are misguided at best and jealous at worst.

So, give me another chance. It is easy and we have so, so much to look forward. There is nothing really more you can lose is there by trying again, but if you don’t you will always wonder, “what if?” and it will drive you demented not knowing what might have been if you had trusted your instinct and allowed me back.

Let’s do it. Let’s create our wonderful world again. Just you and me.

Just say yes.

9 thoughts on “One More Chance

  1. santaann1964 says:

    My new phone is coming with a new number! I’m on it. He is coming to the Sunshine State to work and visit his parents which live 1/2 mile away and I want to crawl into a shell like a turtle! The thought of seeing his face and hearing his voice full of lies is making me sick. Ewwww

  2. santaann1964 says:

    Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me! Get knowledge from Mr.H boom , there is no 3rd time! But yet he keeps trying to come back like a sleezy 🐍. Only to bite again, but this time I know better! Lmao!

    1. HG Tudor says:

      If he keeps trying and you know about it, you need to revisit your no contact regime.

  3. misstasia says:

    I was stupid enough to fall for this over and over the past five years. Our on and off again relationship consisted of this kind of plea. This plea is/was not spoken to me directly only in my head I heard that voice the words spoken to me. My own mind playing tricks on me into thinking that this time it would be different and no way would I let someone else have him. This toxic merry go around was doomed to everyone else but me. No this time I had a handle on it, this time I knew what I was doing. I was so wrong.
    It wasn’t until I started to do some deep research into narcism earlier this year but everything I read or listen to was very generic and didn’t always fit my narcs’ description. You see my narc is not that smart, to begin with, he is a high school drop out, low comprehension level. Well, he knew everything about hunting, fishing, dog training he was mechanically enclined a good helper in the house to a point. I thought that was enough and I did have to dumb myself down a lot around him to not hurt his feelings. He exploited my knowledge to his advantage, of course, I was his secretary/personal assistance if you will. So I started to google during devaluation period ” low comprehension level or dumb narcissist” and wham there he was. The one and only H.G. Tudor. It was the youtube video about the mid-ranger well things started to make sense. I must admit at first I thought it was a joke a narcissist teaching about narcissism but after listening more and reading about H.G. I understood. Now after months of research I can honestly say I would never want my narc back I know who he is and I have no desire to go back. I don’t miss his kisses and sex was never anything to brag about anyway what I do miss is our hunting & fishing trips and the dogs but I can live without it. There are other men out there hopefully a normal who likes outdoor activities. I will admit I am not a hundred percent out of the woods I still have some work to do.
    I don’t believe I will ever stop reading and educate myself about narcissism. I see and recognize narcissism everywhere these days thanks to H.G. I do hope that with everything I have learned and continue to learn I can recognize when I am being ensnared and escape before anything has begun.
    Thank you H. G.

    1. santaann1964 says:

      Great reading, nah we aren’t stupid at all. Blessed with the gift of feeling love. It’s awesome! Love hurts many times but honestly the experience of feeling it is truly amazing!

  4. Pati says:

    Sometimes you bet your money on the wrong horse.

  5. Lynn Hansing says:

    I did not jump on that opportunity. The longer I spend away from him, my abuser, the more clear my mind becomes. The lighter I feel. I have hope, passion, & freedom back into my life now that he is out of it. He has called me, texted me, & did a little smear campaign but none of it bothers me. My heart races when I see that he called, but then I just remind myself how fucking evil he was. I don’t miss him.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      The longer you spend away from him, the lower your Emotional Thinking becomes which is very important. You state none of it bothers you, but actually it does. You may not feel upset, but you admitted your heart races and the issue is far greater than “a racoon heart”. Read The Devil´s Pitchfork. You remain at risk because you do not have a no contact regime in place.

  6. Sweetest Perfection says:

    Noooooo! I’ve heard this before!! “You’re free to choose. I’m no possessive or jealous you are free. But how can you stop desire? How can you stop when you find real love? I am not in a hurry. I love a good delay.” NO!!!!! No no no and more no!

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