The Veiled Primary Source


You were crowned as the Intimate Partner Primary Source (“IPPS”) and you enjoyed that magnificent golden period. Those mesmerising days with the narcissist have gone, but the memory remains bittersweet. Blackened devaluation followed and now disengagement as you find yourself cast aside. During the downward spiral you had concerns that the person you loved and still love, was playing around, seeing other people and tarnishing that once professed perfect love. You believe that you have been pushed to one side and another has taken your crown.

Amidst the confusion and mayhem, your quest for answers, being the empathic truth seeker that you are, has led you to realise that you have been ensnared by a narcissist. You dive down the rabbit hole, reading all you can about this extraordinary disorder, shaking your head as you see the similarities of the experiences of other people, fighting back the tears as the humiliation of your treatments weighs heavy on your shoulders and still wanting him back. The wanting, the desire, the need remains and like so many others the questions form and occupy your thoughts on a daily basis.

Your suspicions that the narcissist was seducing someone else as the sun set on your empire with him, remain. You understand from your reading that the narcissist will often revel in rubbing the former IPPS’ nose in it, by parading the new IPPS to all and sundry. There are Relationship Bulletins placed on social media. The new subject of the narcissist’s infatuation is introduced to the narcissist’s coterie, the friends, the family and the colleagues as they get to bask in the golden light and you sob in the shadows. It is unfair. It is unjust. It is wrong. You worry that this new IPPS will be the one to make everything right and that the behaviours you experienced through devaluation will not be repeated. You want to derail the coupling and ensure you are installed back in that vaulted position of IPPS and this time you will strive to ensure you do everything right and avoid this awful fate that has currently befallen you. These are common responses and feelings.

You have been engaged in the customary social media stalking, looking to find out who has taken your place, but you cannot find anything. There are no posts showing the narcissist grinning with the new conquest, cold dead eyes gazing out from a score of posts, tendril wrapped about the new victim. You have not been able to contact any of the narcissist’s family or friends, learning that you had been smeared as an abuser by the narcissist, this litany of lies having been established well in advance of your disengagement. Nobody wishes to talk with you. You have managed to convince a handful of friends, failing to notice their eye-rolling, to try to find out who the narcissist is now with, but they have drawn a blank, yet you still have that nagging itch that someone new is in your place. Surely that is how it works? The narcissist needs that primary source of fuel to ensure that potent, plentiful and frequent fuel is provided to keep the construct in place. The narcissist cannot be without this particular appliance (or at least not for long) if a fuel crisis is to be averted, so what has happened? What is going on? Where is the new IPPS?

There are four scenarios which are relevant where it appears that a veil has been drawn across the new IPPS.

  1. Didn’t Receive the Memo

There is a new IPPS and the narcissist has not gone without the necessary fuel, but you do not know about it because you have simply missed the fact that this is happening. You have looked in the wrong places, you have been kept out of the loop and the side lining and ostracization which takes place following your disengagement has meant that you just have not come across the evidence of the new IPPS. You haven’t been included in the Relationship Bulletins because you have, as the former IPPS, been deleted from the world of the narcissist and you just haven’t learned of the new IPPS although he or she is very much there.

  1. Keeping It In The Family

Your suspicion that there is a new primary source is a well-founded suspicion but you have been looking in the wrong place. You have been looking for the new romantic partner of the narcissist, expecting to see him and her promenading together, dining at the haunts you were once taken to and splashed all over social media. Since you cannot find these indicators you are puzzled – surely he needs a primary source but where is she?

It is possible that the primary source is not an IPPS but a Non Intimate Primary Source and this usually means a family member. The narcissist has not ensnared a romantic primary source, for various reasons and therefore has fallen back on a family member to be the chief provider of fuel (and often considerable residual benefits). The NIPS will usually be a parent, child or sibling, in that order of likelihood. Extended family members can be NIPS but this is rarer.

If the narcissist has lived at home with a parent or moved back to live with the parent and you do not see a romantic primary source, it is highly likely that the mother or father is now the primary source. If the narcissist has children (minor or adult) and they live with the narcissist, one of these children will be crowned as the primary source and this is why you cannot find the new girlfriend.

If the narcissist rents an apartment with her sister or brother, then again, they are likely to be the primary source. If there is no romantic primary source and you know the narcissist is living with a family member, then it is a Keeping It In The Family scenario. If they are not living with a family member and you cannot find a romantic partner, ascertain whether the narcissist is spending a lot of time with a family member. Are they turning up at their mother’s house a lot? Do you know if he or she is popping across every day for dinner? Also keep in mind there are likely to be communications which you are not privy to between narcissist and family member which underlines their status as the new primary source.

  1. Troublemaker

There is a new IPPS but you are not being allowed to see that this person is in place. The narcissist is concerned that you are going to cause a major issue to the new golden period for this new IPPS and does not want you interfering. You have been smeared as a crazed harpy, the lunatic and psycho ex, so that the loyal members of the coterie form a protective wall around the narcissist and his new love interest. The coterie and the lieutenants will have been extensively briefed as to your catalogue of (fabricated) awful behaviours towards the narcissist, but your obsessed investigations as you sought to obtain answers are now used against you. You are painted as the crazy stalker, the oddball who just will not move on and although in part you are unable to move on, it is not for the reasons that have been explained about you.

The narcissist is most concerned that you are going to try to expose him or her to the new IPPS so that the wonderful golden period is derailed. He or she is worried that precious energy will be taken up trying to keep you away, fending off your attempts to display the truth about us as the narcissist seeks to manage the façade and prevent his good name being muddied. You will not find a Greater Narcissist in this position. The concern about you and what you will do is the preserve of the Mid Ranger (most likely) and the Lesser (to a degree) and therefore it is those schools who will be keeping the new IPPS on the down low. They will frequent different places, avoid social media pronouncements, block you on social media and create the appearance of there not being a new IPPS all done to ensure that you do not spoil matters.

This situation is most likely where you have escaped or if you have been disengaged it is where you have shown particular application in trying to have your truth told to many other appliances within the fuel matrix so you are refusing to abide by the expected role of weeping and woeful former IPPS. Show any fight against being controlled in this way, demonstrate a desire to confront and challenge and you will be swiftly labelled as a troublemaker. The narcissist will then pull a veil over the IPPS, shrouding them from you, ensuring the coterie makes no mention of a new girlfriend, avoiding any possibility of detection and thus ensuring that the newly embedded IPPS is not affected by your crazed rantings.

  1. Secondary Sources Rule

You cannot find a new IPPS for the simple reason that there is not one. The narcissist has not embedded a new IPPS or NIPS. Instead, the narcissist is content to operate by obtaining fuel from key secondary sources IPSSs, DLSs and NISSs. There are two instances where this occurs

  1. The narcissist is a Greater and has such an extensive fuel matrix that he can readily juggle various IPSSs and DLSs who provide plenty of fuel and therefore there is not yet a need for an IPPS (Greaters very rarely have NIPSs) . Indeed, some Greaters may operate a fuel matrix of extensive secondary sources and no primary source for several months;
  2. The narcissist is Mid Range or Lesser and has not been able to embed a new IPPS quickly enough and therefore has been forced to rely on the supplementary sources (secondary and tertiary) in the meanwhile. This state of affairs will not last long and the narcissist will be endeavouring to find an IPPS or turn to a NIPS if need be.

Thus, just because you cannot spot the new love interest of the narcissist who has callously disengaged from you (or more rarely you have escaped from) it does not mean that there is not one. Usually that primary source has an obscuring veil placed across them.

9 thoughts on “The Veiled Primary Source

  1. Empath007 says:

    HG do you think it’s becoming more prevelant amongst the younger generation of narcissists to juggle multiple women (or men) at a time and crown none of them the IPPS ?

    I ask because my narc is young, in is 20s, and hasn’t had an IPPS in nearly and decade, he is carrying on intimate relationships with generally 2 or 3 women at a time… they are generally oblivious of each other and he pretends each are his “girlfriend” for example with me… I found separate bottles of lubrication he’d use with each “girlfriend” in the secret stash in his apartment. He had many separate things like that around his place.

    I would not at all be surprised if he was a greater. I’ve expresses on here before in detail why I beleive he is one… however since that’s rare I was also curious If it’s just becoming more “in fashion” to lead a secret love life…

    1. HG Tudor says:

      1. There may be an IPPS but you do not realise. See The Veiled IPPS.
      2. Your level of knowledge about the narcissist demonstrates you are breaching no contact and you should focus on no contact rather than the constitution of the narcissists fuel matrix.
      3. If you want to ascertain whether he is a Greater to aid your understanding of what you need to do for your NCR, use the Narc Detector consultation.
      4. Having a secret love life is something that narcissists have done for a very long time.

      1. Empath007 says:

        Thanks HG. I was just curious if “hook up culture” made it easier for narcs not the be burdened by social pressures such as marriage, long term relationships etc. As society changes, I thought perhaps the “game”
        Could change as well.

        #2… you got me pegged, what can I say. You’re right.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          I agree that the prevailing culture (which is generated by narcissists and then implemented by unsuspecting, misguided normals) does make it easier. I explain as such in Danger : 50 Things You Should Not Do With a Narcissist when I write about the rise of the narcissistic “backdrop”. It does make it easier for us.

          1. Whitney says:

            HG, when I started dating the one who choked me, he expressed disapproval of the hookup culture. He did this to mislead me. He’s actually with a different woman every night.

          2. Violetta says:

            Re: the prevailing culture (which is generated by narcissists….)

            Cosmo, that oracle of sexually uninhibited modern career girls, was transformed from a staid literary magazine to Bridget Jones’s bible not so much by Helen Gurley Brown as by her husband, who advised this course to jack up sales.

            As with TH White’s totalitarian ants, sex for single girls went from forbidden to compulsory. Except when no means no, a later development.

            Gwyneth Paltrow still has that mindset. If you don’t do as she says, you’re not an Independent Modern Woman.

          3. HG Tudor says:

            Valid points.

          4. Empath007 says:

            So interesting. Thank you HG. This why I assumed my narc did not feel pressure to have an IPPS, simply because, society no longer makes it so. He is a young man “playing the field” and that is not a problem for most, seen as a normal part of a mans development… not even most of the women he is hooking up with (although his “hook ups” are a long term basis – as he likes to keep women hooked for a while) have any issue with it, as they are also ingrained in the culture of “casual”.

          5. Violetta says:

            Now that I think about it, in dystopias, as with all narcy things, sex is about control.

            In 1984, sex is almost completely repressed except for breeding more little comrades to love Big Brother. As Julia astutely notes, the resulting frustration is channeled into fiercer devotion to the Party and The War, no matter how many times The War changes enemies or the Party its regulations.

            In Brave New World, sex is compulsory. A teacher reproaches a little boy for not wanting to play sex games; Lenina’s best friend reproaches her for taking exclusive interest first in Henry, then in John. Bernard, the guy who would be the nerd jammed into his own gum locker if this were high school instead of science fiction, has to do the nasty with a girl with a unibrow, and can barely function with that picture in his head even when the lights are dimmed. With sexual energy being dispersed, instead of concentrated by denial, Huxley’s characters are largely prevented from having any enthusiasm at all, either for each other or for questioning the government.

            The result in both cases is the same. You’ll feel what the government wants you to feel, and you must not bond with another human in an exclusive way. No “Ownlife” in 1984, “Everyone belongs to everyone else” in BNW.

            Meet the new boss, same as the old boss.

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