Kiss Me



The kiss is probably the pinnacle of romanticism from everything that I have observed. The couple who flirt with one another throughout the film in an attempt to create a will they or won’t they scenario, finally kiss and everybody smiles. The kidnapped child is finally reunited with his parents and is smothered in relieved kisses. The power of seduction that exists in that first kiss between a passionate couple which then leads to their love making. A kiss good bye on a steam filled railway platform. As ever, books and films have played their part in elevating the status of the kiss to near legendary status.

Like so much of what I do, the kiss is a weapon which I use to maximise the impact of my machinations. At the outset I shall use it to overpower you. You are unlikely to have much resistance to my overtures following my campaign of love-bombing but if there is any it will be obliterated the first time I kiss you. I have studied a thousand  kisses.

From Burt Lancaster and Deborah Kerr in From Here to Eternity to Clark Gable and Vivien Leigh in Gone With the Wind through to Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze in Ghost. I have viewed Audrey Hepburn jump from her taxi to kiss George Peppard in the rain in the film, Breakfast at Tiffany’s and the post-nuptial kiss between Prince Charles and Princess Diana. It is not just the famous kisses that have been subjected to my scrutiny. I have sat at railway stations and watched the greeting kiss, full of excitement and passion or the departure kiss which encapsulates longing.

I have watched the almost frenzied and desperate embrace that arises from a man finally ensnaring his quarry in a nightclub after spending a couple of hours chatting her up. Whilst sipping from my drink in a restaurant I see hundreds of kisses between spouses, lovers, friends and acquaintances all delivered in different styles with varying emphasises. All of this knowledge is collated and stored ready for my use.

I have been told many times how good a kisser I am. I am blessed with full lips and therefore do not suffer the sometimes dispassionate affliction that can befall those who have lips of a thinner nature. From my observations I have learned to make my advance slowly, lingering just in front of the other person’s lips as I reach a hand up to cradle their neck and let my fingers lightly caress the back of their neck. My soft lips press gently against theirs and then I retreat slightly before advancing again and then retreating.

I do this several times before allowing my mouth to press on to theirs and remain there as we lock our embrace, lips moving slowly together, each time moving a little wider until a tentative tongue gently probes and touches against hers. My tongue flicks back and forth as the embrace grows stronger. I can hear her low moan of delight and know that this approach is working. I reach another arm around her and pull her closer to me, bodies pressed against one another and now her mouth has opened wider, her own tongue almost battling with mine.

I know that the tingle will be racing up and down her spine; I know that she will feel the churning in her stomach and that light headedness will be sweeping across her. I am well practised in the art of the seductive kiss and during our golden period I shall allow you to experience it often. I shall do it when we meet in my house at the end of the day, I will embrace you in that fashion when I lead you by the hand to our bedroom and I shall surprise you by grabbing hold of you in the lift and kissing you in this way.

What of course is all the sweeter about being able to embrace you in such a scintillating fashion is the fact that I will withdraw this marvellous kiss. You will take hold of me and push your mouth against mine only to find that my lips are set rigid and do not respond in the way you have been used to. There is no warmth or passion. You wonder where it has gone. The truth is that there was never any there to begin with. Like so much of what I do, it is an artifice purely designed to capture you and make the inevitable denigration all the more contrasting.

I can see the confusion in your eyes as you try again to kiss me but the effect is the same. You look at me, eyes searching for an answer but I do not offer one. You ask me what is wrong and I look away and say that there is nothing wrong. I have a variety of responses which confuse you when you try to kiss me or expect to be kissed. When once I kissed you often and repeatedly I will reduce it to next to nothing. This reduction coupled with a lack of explanation has you flailing around for some kind of reason. You end up blaming yourself of course that is to be expected. I will do any or all of the following:-

  1. Remain tight-lipped when we kiss;
  2. Move my head so you kiss my cheek rather than my mouth;
  3. Put my hand up and block your advance;
  4. Hug you instead so that your kiss flies into thin air over my shoulder
  5. Just walk away

Where once my kiss was magical and uplifting, now it is cold or non-existent. You relished our passionate embraces and now you find yourself remarking how it is like kissing an automaton or a mannequin. I do not care. All I wish to achieve is your pained and hurt reaction to the cold front that I exhibit where once there was heat and passion.

6 thoughts on “Kiss Me

  1. Truthseeker6157 says:

    ‘The almost kiss’. Can’t believe you didn’t mention ‘the almost kiss’!

    1. A Victor says:

      Is Darcy a narcissist? Very dramatic.

  2. Dee J says:

    “Like so much of what I do, it is an artifice purely designed to capture you and make the inevitable denigration all the more contrasting.” There it is. In a crowded New Year’s eve ballroom as we rang in 2020.I tried to kiss my husband and he literally pushed me back. I identified him in that moment as a 13 year old pubescent boy posing as an adult and said as much to him. He looked confused and oddly satisfied. This night marked the beginning of my escape from years of heart-stopping sustained devaluation. Not that there were not many other confusing exchanges and incidents basically yielding a sexless marriage. I had pushed those back. This is before the knowledge; immediately before I found you, HG. I walked past him with my rolling suitcase and out the door in the midst of a two-month present silent treatment 3 months later. The world had gone into pandemic lockdown and I went no contact and never returned. Divorce? Check..

  3. Ciara says:

    Wow! H.G. You had seduced me with your words at the beginning ,hahaha!!! 😃But at the end, whoa! Reality stepped in. You are super good on learning and knowing what releases the Oxytocin hormone in females. How fascinating it is to learn, and know so many kissing styles. However, it’s horrendous that she will end up in agony later from your kiss.

  4. Jackie says:

    Yea my ex narc started pulling away when I tried to kiss him. I asked him why and he said I had bad breath. I have always been very conscious about my breath and I know for a fact that if I kissed him after cleaning my teeth etc that my breath would be good.
    After that he started withholding sex.

    1. A Victor says:

      Hi Jackie, mine was weird about all sorts of bodily things, tactile, sights, odors etc. Come to find out, it was his hang-up, nothing to do with me. But he knew just what to say and do to make me retreat, it was so frustrating and hurtful. It has helped a little bit to learn it wasn’t personal, it was just part of his manipulations and control of me. I hope it will start to hurt less eventually, for you also. Thanks for sharing.

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