Warning Letter
“Dear Victim.
Well here we are again. Or rather, here I am again. I referred to we because as I mentioned in my first letter to you, I do not really distinguish between you and all the others, so what is about to happen next seems to me as if it has happened with you, numerous times before. What is going to happen is something that I have done so many times before with so many other victims so one thing to keep at the forefront of your mind is that you are not alone in being subjected to what will come next.
It has been amazing so far hasn’t it? I told you I would love you like nobody else ever has and I delivered. Okay, I was actually loving your praise, love, admiration and adoration of me, but to you it felt like I loved you in a way which went beyond anything you had ever experienced before. That certainly kept you happy. You told me every day how happy you were. You told your friends, your family, your colleagues, the man at the hot dog stand, in fact anybody who would listen. I enjoyed watching you do that. It made me feel good. It made me feel powerful.
Here I was able to make you tell the world about our perfect love and goodness me have you loved me perfectly. You told me every day just how much you loved me. You cared for me, looked after me and helped me in so many ways. From letting me use your car when I crashed mine to scratching my back as I lay in bed at night ready to sleep. Of course it was not all one way. I gave you everything I could. I only did it though, to get your fuel. I give to receive. I do not know any other way. You sometimes told me about your love for me being without condition.
I didn’t understand what you meant. No, that is wrong. I understood what you meant but I struggled to imagine doing this. I love you with so many conditions, the chief one being that I only actually love you for the fuel that you give me. Not for who you are. It will take you a long time to understand this and even longer to accept that this is the case. This is why I am writing this letter so that you can keep reading and re-reading it in order to allow it to sink in. After all, nobody else is going to be able to tell you how it really is will they? Anyway, it has been brilliant so far. Ordinarily I would claim that that is all down to me, after all am I not brilliant? It is a fact however that you more than played your part. You gave me absolutely everything.
Your heart, your soul and you poured every essence of your being in to the concept of us. I know you did this because I could see you doing it. I had to because I needed that in order to sustain me. The more you gave, the more brilliant I became, so you gave even more in return. It was an upwards spiral. Two people working in magnificent harmony. You because you believed in us. Me because I needed your fuel. Not that you ever realised this. Why would you? I became the perfect partner, complimenting you, praising you and loving you in that oh so spectacular way. It was intense, it was scintillating and I made sure I became everything that you would want from a relationship. It was a great deal for us both. I made you feel ultra-special.
You gave me the ultra fuel that I need. Does it matter that what I provided to you was based on something else? I would say not, you still got what you wanted didn’t you? I should imagine you would argue that it did matter because you truly believed that I loved you for who you are and that should be the case. I can understand why you would think like that.
You are big on this love thing aren’t you? That is why I picked you of course, that and many other reasons as well, but that played a big part. I wonder though; if nothing altered, if I kept treating you the same way forever as I have done so far, even though it is predicated on a completely different basis to the one you think it is, would that trouble you? You wouldn’t know of course. All you would know is that I continuing to give you the apparent love you crave, in the manner that you have come to expect and in a fashion that makes you feel so special. I don’t suppose you would be particularly upset if that remained the case would you? The thing is though, that isn’t going to happen. Yes, you read that correctly.
What has happened so far, marvellous as it is, is effectively at an end. Oh, you will be allowed some glimpses of the person you thought I was, from time to time, in order to keep you with me, but to all intents and purposes this golden period of unparalleled love has come to an end. You won’t realise this because first of all you just cannot accept that something so wonderful could end in this manner. Second of all you will not realise because of what I am going to do. I am going to confuse you, bewilder you and befuddle you. I am going to make everything hazy, amorphous, nebulous, blurred and indistinct so you are not going to understand what is going on.
Why am I going to do this? Well something has changed. I would usually explain, if I ever felt that an explanation should be given (and I operate from the stance that I owe you no explanations because I am unaccountable) that as usual it is your fault. You have let me down. I do believe that to be the case. I wish it was not. I wish this wonderful period could have continued for the rest of our days together but it cannot. What once invigorated me and made me feel powerful just does not do so in the same way anymore.
Don’t think you are alone in this happening. You are not. All the others let me down as well. It is as if you are not trying any longer. It is as if you have become bored with my brilliance and you see no reason to admire me and adore me in the way that you once did. That wounds me. Your actions or perhaps more accurately, your lack of actions makes me feel less than what I am. It makes me feel weak. It makes me feel worthless and this infuriates me. I know that others have said to me in the past that nothing has changed in the way that they feel about me, that they love me just as much as they always have done.
Yet even though they tell me this it does not feel like that anymore to me. The power I felt when you showed me that love and admiration is either no longer there or not as strong. I cannot help it. That is the way that I feel. Since I have not changed in the way that I regard you, I can only reach the conclusion that this alteration in how I feel has been brought about as a consequence of you. Something in the way you act towards me has altered. You perhaps are not giving enough of yourself to me, you are not manifesting the love, the admiration and the adoration in the way that powers me.
It might be that sometimes it feels stale to me, that has happened, perhaps it is because you have become too familiar to me and therefore I do not derive the same reaction that I once did to the way you have behaved. I know that this has been suggested to me but I do not know if it is right. For so long you behaved the same way towards me, loving me in that wonderful way and it did not feel stale or jaded. I think, more likely, it is because you have begun to treat me differently. You are not performing at the level that I require and therefore to me this means you no longer regard me in the same light and this offends me.
I feel criticised by this behaviour of yours and therefore I have to protect myself. You see, I do not like criticism. In fact, I hate it and therefore I need to act promptly to defend myself against this criticism. That is why I have to do what comes next. I had hoped this would not happen. I had hoped that you would be The One so this could be avoided. I had hoped you would not let me down, that I had made the right choices and decisions so that our golden reign could continue forever.
I guess I got it wrong, although it is not something I would ever openly admit, I do not want to be seen as wrong because that suggests weakness and that is the last thing I want you to think I am. So, here I am again, about to protect myself from your implied criticism. Anybody else would say sorry for what is about to happen, but as you will soon find out, I do not do apologies. I am sorry for myself that it has come to this of course. I am full of self-pity when the need arises. So, that is the end of the golden period we had. I must do what I have done so many times before and bring the hurt. I will stop now as I have some other people to attend to, but I will write again. You might want to put your tin hat on and buckle up.
This is where it turns nasty.
Yours in disappointed fury
N. Arc
X”
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“You are big on this love thing aren’t you? That is why I picked you of course, that and many other reasons as well, but that played a big part.”
Perhaps this is why I’ve been fortunate to not be targetted by narcissists as often or as intimately as so many other empaths seem to be. I’ve never been very big on the love thing. Yet another reason to feel lucky for that.
I was writing him this, after two months of us being broken up and she being back in his life to the degree of showing up before work to drop her dog off for her day of free pet care and then picking her back up right after work. Since she’s not there at night and hardly fucking him (but maybe so) I still get to be but I have to leave at 3:00 in the morning so she doesn’t see me. I still can’t believe that he’s back with her to replace me but she sure hasn’t fulfilled any of the things that he got from me –which is why he still has me providing them for him because I want what I want when he does too and I’m haven’t been able to say no or take any opportunity to have good with him for granted. Stupid me, I do know.
This is what i just wrote him (but haven’t sent) before I happened upon this warning letter article.
What’s really disappointing is that you probably haven’t learned your lesson at all.
You probably have only learned how to get away with it better the next round.
You only have learned to be more deceitful and more damaging—to everyone, including yourself. Then there’s no one wanting more or missing out on more.
You haven’t learned to be happier or how to actually win at relationships by believing that win-win is way better than win-lose or lose-lose. You’ve learned how to care only that you win and acting like you care for them just causes more problems… If you just don’t care if they think you don’t care, then you don’t have to waste that energy. They aren’t gonna leave just because you don’t care about them. And they aren’t gonna stop caring for you if they realize you don’t care for them.
You have learned how to settle for “not bad” and how to half ass it or ruin it a little or find the flaws and blow them up into real problems when they’re more or better than you expected, just to keep it easier to let go of when you can’t look keep your act up with one or both of them anymore. That way it’s not much of a loss.
You were supposed to learn that you could have it all, for real, and that you either could come back after being set free or you will always just have to live with that regret of losing the one that got away.
You were supposed to teach me that I was better than what I thought, better than what I keep having, that I deserved more than what i was settling for….
And wow, I learned I’m not as good as I thought–simply because NO ONE is ever going to be special enough to be the first to be able to convince you of love being the way…
No one will ever be able to to be that one who you’ve never really had, no one’s never loved you unconditionally or shown you that you are lovable….
Because YOU don’t take love as love is given…. You take it like love takes fear. You take it as painful, untrustworthy, suspicious, out to get you, going to betray you. Love isn’t a good thing from where you stand. It’s a tool to manipulate and get what you need out of others. It’s a tactic to mimic and convince others to trust you. It’s an easy way out, or a short cut to, your ultimate goal of which you have the ulterior motive to achieve your hidden agenda for.
Love isn’t a means to happiness or satisfaction in your eyes. Love isn’t fun, or what you want.
Just as the devil is fear based, opposite of good being love based… You are an opponent, and I need to stop thinking you want to be recruited or converted or had a change of heart to be on my team. Just like I can’t convince evil that they’re better off if they’d join my team, they can’t convince me joining theirs would be the better way for me either.
And even while I want to believe you so bad when you are convincing me that you do want love that you are on it’s side and that you arent a lost cause, to keep holding on to you and believing youre going to come around and b choose happiness and love… I HAVE TO LEARN THAT YOU AREN’T TEACHABLE…
SO THEN IT IS AT THE SAME TIME, THAT MAYBE NEITHER AM I.
A married man I went to college with slipped “you’re amazing and absolutely beautiful” thrice ! After I had made a small comment on a Social media story of his…. I told him thank you and that it looked as though he was well and his wife was lovely (she is a total knockout – definitely better looking then me). However he didn’t follow up with “thank you she is”
But rather just how how amazing and beautiful I was (magical thinking, we barely know each other) …. my empath senses were tingling… could this be a narcissist ? Am I on his potential list of people for a DLS? And If so…. why do I like that so much ? Truthfully I’ve been wanting someone to fulfill my sexual desires – and I’m 100 percent a dirty empath – and capable of an affair (although I’ve never had one yet, I’m often attracted to married men).
It’s been 3 YEARS since I’ve been intimate with someone – and I feel like I want to explore this more. How do I get this narcissist to take the bait ? And make myself a DLS. he is SMOKiNG hot. Out of my league hot… and I’m into it.
1. Use the Narc Detector.
2. If he is a narcissist, you should not want him to take the bait. That is emotional thinking.
I truly don’t think I have enough information on this individual for the narc decector. I haven’t seen him in 10 years and I barely recall our college interactions. This one conversation is all I’ve got ! It seemed to be riddled with red flags… he’s very attractive but unless he begins to contact me regularly, I wouldn’t pursue it. I do like the idea of being someone’s DLS – seems like there would be less drama that way. And I’m not interested in a meaningful relationship right now – that will distract from some important goals I’m working on. And I’ve decided relationships are unrealistic and always doomed to fail – even when it’s 2 good people. I quite enjoy my solitude and freedom and don’t want that disrupted
Thanks HG
Oh empath007, don’t do it girl! It will not be worth it! That excitement you feel right now In the pit of your stomach is the most excitement you are gonna feel in relation to this person. The downfall after will be absolute hell on earth if you pursue this. Dream about him then rub on out.
Haha ! Fair enough.
E007
That’s how emotional thinking works. It presently has your ego colluding with your hormones to lead you into believing this can be harmless fun and has eroded your empathy with regard to his wife/family. Logic is screaming that there are myriad other men that can fulfill this need for you, but emotional thinking has muffled it with a scarf and locked it in a closet so it presents as nothing but a whisper.
But you can still hear it. That’s why you wrote what you did here.
“Ego colluding with hormones”
– very true !
It’s been over one year without any contact from Malcolm. 🎉
Well done.
BC30, great job! So happy for you! 🎉
A handful of times I thought about unblocking, but I heard HG’s voice in my head and did not.
Well done.
Good for you! And yay for HG’s voice! I’ve thought of that a handful of times with the summer narc also. But, we know where it leads, to no good end, we deserve better. I’m glad you didn’t do it! 💕
Dearest BC30,
That’s a huge achievement, congratulations lovely 🥳 lovely
‘Blocking’ … .. set n forget as they say 🤪
Luv Bubbles xx 😘
Yea ! Great job !