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  1. Christy says:

    When will Manipulated be released in on?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Do you mean in paperback form? Later this month Christy.

  2. Mary says:

    I just ordered this in hopes it will help me in case of any future bull shit. Just finished fury… I figure these two subjects hit home for me the most.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Thank you Mary. I hope you enjoyed Fury, to my mind not enough people grasp how integral Fury is in terms of understanding what is behind so much of what we do to our victim.

      1. Mary says:

        I believe it. He never seemed to sleep I recall. He must have had a lot rolling around inside his head. When I confronted him on a lie I caught him in or pointed out to him what I felt was wrong, he bolted out the door after exploding on me. He would say, ” when I return I will see if your bad attitude has changed.” Of course my attitude had not changed so he then would not come home for days. Ahhh!!! The punishment.

  3. Iseethroughyou says:

    Is this my life for ever more? I am
    In a boat with one oar…. Firstly is the recounting of conversations with my N, regurgitating everything said and done every day? Analysing behaviour, conversations, regurgitating conversations .. Oh did I repeat myself there?? Of course I did, only a million times!! Did I say that outloud or was that just in my head??? I have had enough of this NOT SO MERRY, go round!! And now my life revolves (going round again how apt!) reading your post, gathering your words, putting them in formation like an army beside me to fight this “Goliath” of a memory and physical being each day at work. The days I have clarity, I pity him, he is going to go through life never really existing. Who was he? Who am I remembering? He repulses me when I watch how his new prey feeds him, puts song in to his soul. He is just like a magnet, attracting paper clips, collecting His personality with each desk he sits. He is like a rain cloud in my life, heavy dark and thunderous and once the rain has fallen, the wisps of the cloud just get blown away, evaporating like cigarette smoke, all the atoms/particles of what he was or pretended to be just disintegrating in to space.. And with that comes Joy, I remove the Mac and wellies and I smile, the sun shines and I am happy … AND then it comes again, that heavy rain cloud has formed again.. I’m not prepared and the rain falls like hail stone …Like British weather, is this not going to change? Eat, sleep, repeat repeat. Make it stop please HGT

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Hello ISTY, I liked the way you described your situation. The dynamic between him and his new prey is no concern of yours. Do not observe it or check on it because then you will only remain trapped and unable to move forward. There is nothing you can do for her. She must look to her own defences as must you. You describe how he goes and then returns, a series of rainshowers. Can you explain to me where you are with him? Has the formal relationship ended? Or do you remain entangled with him whilst he triangulates you with the new prey? If the formal relationship is over he is evidently hoovering you. How do these hoovers manifest? This will assist me in articulating further.

  4. Clary says:

    I see thanks for the heads up you’re like our evil best friend hahahaaaaaa the no contact Ive been having some trouble getting it but I do have the sample which is helping me; speaking of no contact I’ve not sense anymore manipulation or hoovering from mr wrong during the whole day

    1. HG Tudor says:

      One day at a time Clary.

  5. Miss_stress says:

    I will say the sacrificial altar did sound delightful…

    1. I like you (does that scare you?) I jest of course.

      What home isn`t complete without a sacrificial altar?

  6. If you arrive within an hour my time, I`ll be sure to have something delicious ready for you to feast upon. It will be dinner time, after all.

    Any requests…..

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Fillet of soul Florentine.

      1. Sounds delicious. And for dessert, une tarte au libre arbitre.

        My soul is tender and juicy, but it`s spicy…it`s got bite.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          Ha ha marvellous.

          1. One more question – would you like to use the Bernardaud china or in this instance, do you prefer to use your hands?

          2. HG Tudor says:

            A proboscis.

      2. Miss_stress says:

        Reminds me of D. He was so clever.

      3. HG, a proboscis, huh? The possibilities are endless when you put it that way, though the definition varies a bit depending on whether we`re going with entomology or zoology.

        Either way, game on.

    2. Miss_stress says:

      Did you give consign your soul to the dark master for eternal servitude, blood and thunder?
      What test do you put people through on a public blog? What was going In here whilst I was away? I must have escaped just in time. Timing is everyhting.

      1. Miss_stress, I consigned my soul to the dark side long ago, I`m afraid. There was never really any saving me. The Devil came knocking and he was so handsome and charming and beautiful and magnificent (not to mention tons of fun and great in the sack!) and I couldn`t resist.

        It was only natural that I`d get sucked into HG`s sphere and I`m quite comfortable here.

        I don`t operate any under illusions, nor do I hold out hope for anything. I accept and admire HG for who and what he is, absolutely, without question or conditions. If he doesn`t ever want to change, then that`s his decision. If he has an epiphany in therapy and decides he wants to change, then again, that`s his choice. I expect nothing, not only because I have no right to, but also because I simply don`t see the point.

        I come here to commune with him for reasons we have a mutual understanding of. I admire those of you who are here seeking healing and help. I think it`s great that HG has helped so many of you understand what you went through/are going through and that he is, for many of you, the light at the end of a long, dark tunnel.

        Everyone is here for their own reasons, whether it be salvation, realization or damnation.

        And I want to say, that I appreciate you and the way you interact with me. I know you don`t see things from my point of view often, but your willingness to interact with me in such a respectful and lighthearted manner is very much appreciated.

        I just wanna be loved, after all. 😉

        1. Miss_stress says:

          You are welcome blood and thunder, I enjoy your posts. Yes, we have differing mindsets on numerous things, but I can appreciate your perspective and the way in which you express such. I try to view opinions with an open mind and determine where I agree and even why I do not and where I can become enlightened , as well.
          I operate from an empathetic perspective…but I have a vast catalogue of thoughts and awareness that reaches beyond my own expressions. My thoughts and actions can be opposing. I can think one way and act an entirely different way. I am of the do no harm mindset. But I can understand how others think and operate and view from their perspective and thusly create a greater understanding for myself. I will not behave as they do, as that opposes my values, but I can accept and understand why they do, if that makes any sense.
          I can accept others who are different from me. I nevr wish to change anyone. I operate From he concept of acceptance only, for myself and others.
          I try to be respectful at all times, but sometimes my wording in my own expression can be flawed and come across as harsh. I am far from perfect.
          I understand you align your thinking closest to that of HG then readers. That you are here to better understand yourself through him. I understand that, as I am here only to gain a better insight and awareness into myself and to understand why Narcissists attract to me and why D had such a hypnotic and addicting hold over me.
          I appreciate Hg and all readers wisdom and advice. Including yours, blood and thunder. We truly all can learn from one another, if we are willing.
          Yes, the root and heart of the issue..we do all just want to be loved and accepted fro who and what we are.

        2. Miss_stress says:

          Premature reply sending……we all have darkness and light within us blood and thunder, and we all tend to gravitate to one side more then the other. You have been drawn to the dark side. I have resisted the dark side which is drawn towards me.
          I do have dark thoughts circling my light actions.

          I am here soley for realization, no further designs.
          Yes, regarding HG, he will change if he deems it necessary and if he reaches a point when he can or wants to. He clearly states that he is not I therapy to heal, as he does not need to heal and is happy as he is. We should all be so lucky to be happy as we are. I admit I do need to heal past childhood issues, not to become a better person…but to forgive myself as I can so readily forgive others. To let go. As with HG, no knew else can heal me, but me, the work is mine alone.
          Thank you for your insights about yourself blood and thunder. We are who we are. As long as we accept ourselves, if others follow then wonderful, if not. Then again, we can’t change another, nor can we change their opinion. We can respectfully disagree and move on.

    3. nikitalondon says:

      So now we not only disagree in everything and misunderstand each other, but we compete for HG.. although I dont know if pears and apples compete.. Were just in two very different menus.

      1. Competing? Aww Nikita, if that`s what you`d like to think we`re doing, then I won`t burst your pretty little bubble.

        We are two very different people and I`m fine with that. I appreciate the points of view you offer here even though I don`t happen to relate to anything you say or express.

        I imagine HG has need of both of us, for very different reasons. He is drawn to you for much different reasons than he is drawn to me, that is an absolute certainty.

        So you can offer him your love and devotion under your sunny sky full of rainbows and love, and I will offer him mine on a sacrificial altar made of fine Italian marble in a tempest of chaos.


        1. nikitalondon says:

          I like reading your poetic style 😃. So like I said different menus just less poetic than you. 😊.
          Makes me wonder what makes you use Italian Marmor. Here its a sign of power, exclusivity and being invencible. Its cultural also because the drug barons use it to control the façade of their gigantic villas. So you know already what it is when a house has the front part in Italian marmor. Just a thought 😂😂. In the 90s Italian marmor used to be quiet a subject

      2. I like your innocence and your unabashed devotion, Nikita. There is lots I like about you, even if we don`t agree all the time.

        Well, I`m not a drug lord, although I hear it is quite the lucrative business these days. Something to think about.

        I love Italian marble for exactly the reasons you describe – it is a symbol of beauty, strength, invincibility, power and wealth. Plus it feels nice against my bare skin when I am offering myself up for sacrifice!

        1. nikitalondon says:

          B&T I like reading you alot also even if we dont agree and I like your confidence and strenghth. On the lucrative business to think about … Think about it only if you desire to spend some time behind Bars.
          The once powerful and wealthy houses are now empty and abandoned because of the lucrTive business.
          I hope you dont get sacrificed 😳😳

      3. You are very sweet, Nikita. Yet another attribute of yours I like. 🙂

        Despite the massive amounts of money to be made, I would not be a drug dealer for exactly that reason – I would not wish to suffer any of the negative consequences associated with that type of lifestyle. Though I would be careful and ensure others would take the fall, it still strikes me as being a tad base and tacky.

        And anyway, I don`t like having to hide in the background. It`s not really my style.

        There`s enough room for you up here on my altar, Nikita, if you`d like to join me in the sacrifice. It`s for HG, after all, and I am certain he would love to see an entity of pure light and love sacrificing herself alongside an entity of darkness and chaos, all in his brilliant name, of course.

        What do you think, HG?

        1. HG Tudor says:

          Most drug dealers do not make much money at all. They use it on their own habit, are too stupid to see the big picture and remain foot soldiers and pawns. It is only a small number who make the serious money.
          The metaphorical sacrifices are most welcome.

        2. nikitalondon says:

          Thanks you B&T. Lets see wht HG comments ON YOU AND ME BEING SACRIFICED ONE NEXT TO the other. I dee a problem because I dont like marmor 😖 And I dont like sacrifices. So I wait for HGs opinion.
          The capitals are by mistake

        3. nikitalondon says:

          B&T how are you? HG did not answer us so maybe he is not willing to sacrifice us and see the fuel source extinguish 😂😂. All ok with you?

      4. Hello, sweet one.

        I am well, though extremely busy professionally and personally, these days.

        HG did mention he appreciated the metaphorical sacrifices, but I agree with you – he`s not interested in extinguishing two brilliantly wonderful fuel sources such as ourselves.

        And how are things with you?

        1. nikitalondon says:

          Hi B&T. Yes better keep us a fuel sources.. Fuel fountains 😂😂.
          Busy is better than having too less to do 😃😃. I tell myself this everyday, as part of the positive approach I strive to have in life 😃. Me too busy very busy. Vacatioms over. Real life. Demanding job. Enjoying summer here…
          Im happy to come to the blog in the evening 😃😃.
          Be well ☀️

          1. Absolutely, Nikita. You see, love, we DO agree on some things! 🙂

            I agree that being busy is better than not having enough to do. I thrive on being busy and on the go. I can`t stand being idle….I get bored so darn quickly!

            Thank you for your kind words, Nikita. I wish you a lovely evening too!


  7. I am sure many would agree that YOU need to read the audiobooks, HG.

    No one else could possibly come close to doing them justice.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      I concur. It will be me reading them. A spoken dedication is available on relinquishment of your free will.

      1. I am fairly certain that when I first came to this blog, I volunteered to sign the contract in blood, since I enjoy making things as binding as possible.

        You are well aware of what I have relinquished to you. Or do I need to do it here in this space to make it official?

        1. HG Tudor says:

          No, you passed the test some time ago.

          1. Of course, the credit goes to you, HG, for being such a bloody fine teacher.

            And here I was all set to offer myself up as a sacrifice. What`s a girl to do with a ceremonial blade and altar made of fine Italian marble now?

          2. HG Tudor says:

            I’ll be there in an hour.

      2. Ms submissive says:

        You have no idea how many times I was told to relinquish my free will with my N! Yummy flash backs though.

  8. Miss_stress says:

    Signed with a message , not just a name copies, then let me forward my address ASAP 😏

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Oh there will be a bespoke message for each person, after all, you are all the only ones who get me aren’t you?

  9. Miss_stress says:

    Blood and thunder, I was going to offer my condolences if you suffered same issues as me….I have many. Close Your eyes and pick…
    Happy reading.

  10. nikitalondon says:

    Wow. Great! Way to go!! And the audiobooks?? 😍😍. Patiently waiting! I will be your first customer. I will buy even the ones I have as e-books.

  11. Lisa says:

    Audio books anytime soon?!?!? 🙏🏻

    1. HG Tudor says:

      In hand but I cannot confirm a release date just yet.

      1. nikitalondon says:


  12. Miss_stress says:

    States currently out of stock, wow that was quick HG, selling like hot cakes, right off the press ….I have these titles on Kindle. Will all further releases be available in book form?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      I doubt they were out of stock,it is POD, so I think it was just coming on-line so to speak. As mentioned in an earlier response further titles will be added this week.

      1. Miss_stress says:


      2. Miss_stress says:

        POD?…Prince of Darkness, I presume 😏 would make one hell of an editor.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          Print on Demand.

          1. Miss_stress says:

            Oh HG, thank you so much for clarification, silly me on my interpretation. It is difficult being a “stupid ” woman in such a clever world and such!!!

          2. Miss_stress says:

            Still says currently unavailable, HG….on Amazon.

          3. HG Tudor says:

            Shown as available whenever I have checked, including just now. You must have annoyed Amazon.

          4. Miss_stress says:

            Currently unavailable.
            We don’t know when or if this item will be back in stock.

            I guess I can always pay twice as many for the books on my Uk account.

            That must be it, I annoyed Amazon.

            Thank you for your help, HG.

          5. HG Tudor says:

            Which Amazon are you looking at?

          6. Miss_stress says:

            The one for my home region account.
            I was only concerned for your books sales if it shows unavailable in certain regions.
            I can still buy happily via kindle.
            But I didn’t want your readers to miss out on the opportunity to buy the actual book.
            Sorry, to be a bother.

          7. HG Tudor says:

            Not at all.

          8. Miss_stress says:

            I can be a tad obsessive at times. Thank you for listening to me, HG.

          9. HG Tudor says:

            No problem.

          10. HG Tudor says:

            I’ve checked. Two jurisdictions have it as available. A different jurisdiction is as you describe. I would suggest waiting for the system to update and then it will be available for you.

          11. Miss_stress says:

            Thank you for checking again, I would like to buy your actual books as well, but since I have those two titles, I was more concerned for those in same region that might not be availed of such.
            Plus, I know you have several books available soon that I would love to have and hold. So that aspect is purely selfish.
            Good luck with sales, I saw Escape is listed as a best seller, well done HG.

          12. HG Tudor says:

            Thank you. It should sort itself out eventually. Yes two more titles should be added by tonight with three more tomorrow, to the paperback range. Is there a particular title you would like as a PB?

          13. Miss_stress says:

            That’s wonderful HG, I am so pleased for all your success.
            I of course want the three books yet to released in paperback, little boy lost, the ACON one on empaths and the creature book….for books already available on kindle, I have many of them. Of that which I do to have, I would say BLack Hole and Ask the Narcissist in paperback…..I think chained, sitting target and fuel are essential as well with the two already released.

          14. HG Tudor says:

            Duly noted, I will see what happens with the three which are yet to be released. Ask will be coming out in paperback. Sitting Target should be available tonight (subject to the relevant platform approving it) Chained and Fuel will follow later this week.

          15. Miss_stress says:

            Obviously sex and the narcissist as well.
            This is fantastic that so many are being released in another format.
            Very exciting time for you and your work. There is no end for you. Only beginnings.

          16. HG Tudor says:

            Thank you. Sex and the Narcissist should be available tonight – it is apparently especially good for spanking with as well.

          17. nikitalondon says:

            😂😂😂😂 spanking with your book and that cover. You made me laugh.
            Is it marketing?

          18. HG Tudor says:

            Massage therapy.

          19. nikitalondon says:

            😂😂😂 of course. Only with your book and after reading it. Perfect massage therapy. Cant wait to get the book 😍

          20. Miss_stress says:

            Can’t you just use your hand, why damage the book. Is there a problem?

          21. Miss_stress says:

            I should think you would use the Bible to spank your partner with HG 😏 now that’s the Good book for you to use.

          22. HG Tudor says:

            That’s used to bite down on.

          23. Miss_stress says:

            Yes, my Bible is leather, leather bits are the best for whorses…okay I will bite…who is biting down, you or her, can you eat those words, HG?

          24. HG Tudor says:

            It’s not going to me is it?

          25. Miss_stress says:

            I would rather recite the Bible then devour it otherwise.

      3. I am having the same issue as Miss_stress.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          That sentences offers a world of possibility to someone like me! Yes, I suspect you will have. I shall be issuing a demand to the relevant Amazon jurisdiction to “get its shit together” in two hours, if the matter has not been resolved.

          1. nikitalondon says:

            i will buy them when Im back home. Next week. Which ones are in PB?

          2. HG Tudor says:

            Escape and No Contact with more to follow. Personalised signed copies from the author are also available, in exchange for your soul.

          3. nikitalondon says:

            Okay deal. Ill give you but part of my soul. And you sign them all?

          4. HG Tudor says:

            It’s all soul Nikita, no part exchanges!

          5. nikitalondon says:

            Hmmmm HG… Hmmmm
            Okay … With all trust 😍😍

      4. Ha Ha! I can understand why, HG, but I only mean in terms of not being able to access your brilliance in paperback form.

        Sorry to disappoint. 😉

  13. Fool me 1 time says:

    This is fantastic!! Thank you HG!! There is just something about holding a book in your hands! Hopefully you will put your whole collection in book form!! Xxx

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Pleasure. Five more titles will be added this week.

      1. Fool me 1 time says:

        That is fantastic news! We are watching a star being born!! Xxx

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