Live Stream – 45 minutes and counting


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  1. gypsylee73 says:

    Anonymous leaving sexual innuendos toward HG? I’d like to see that. I’ve known her for 10+ years and the only reason guys like the ex-narc get a look-in is they pursue her relentlessly. So flirting with a man she’s never seen, who admits to being a narc, is definitely not her style.

    1. Bel says:

      I understood exactly what you were saying Anonymous 🤗 🤗

    2. Love says:

      Gypsy, as I explained to Anonymous above, I either mistook her for someone else or I misunderstood.

  2. Natalie says:

    I just finished the recording of the live stream and hate that I missed it live. Awesome interaction between you and the readers! I do think it will be fun to have a drinking game for when someone asks: “are you a satanist/demon”, “are you lying” and the my personal favorite “are you in prison”

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Ha ha that is a good idea. I did think of having a klaxon or an alarm that sounds every time someone asks one of these questions. A little like QI where the klaxon goes off when someone states an incorrect but oft-given answer, but then what do I know? I am a lying, satanic ritual attending inmate of HMP Psychopath.

      1. MLA - Clarece says:

        Wait… everyone is forgetting the best question and one of HG’s favorites… “Are you getting a lot of fuel from this? ” during a live stream.

        1. HG Tudor says:


          1. MLA - Clarece says:

            HG… will you say my name during the next live stream… And do a shout out to my daughter?!
            (no, no, jk)

          2. HG Tudor says:

            I don’t mind saying hello to people namely those who have engaged with me for some time and I recognise from the blog. YouTube etc but always better to leave that decision with me than ask of course. I will however in certain instances respond to certain comments, not because I approve of the question or comment but to draw attention to the behaviour that is manifesting as it is instructive to notice how certain people respond to one such as I, given their experiences and what they know. It often serves as an excellent example of the impact the narcissistic dynamic has on people and the effect of emotional thinking.

            (I am available for birthdays, anniversaries, retirement celebrations, barmitzvahs, virgin sacrifices, satanic rituals and bed time stories)

          3. MLA - Clarece says:

            Understood. Well said. And I’m glad I provided an opportunity for you to pimp yourself out for said special occasions. That would make a great infomercial on YouTube getting to hear a snippet of lines for each event. From matzo balls to Goodnight Moon. 😉

          4. HG Tudor says:

            Thanks Clarece. The HG Soundbite App is in development.

          5. MLA - Clarece says:

            It’s not done yet? Wtf?

          6. Love says:

            Bed time stories! Yippy! Do we get to choose the story?
            Btw: Next time you’re asked your age, I like the saying “Old enough to know better, narc enough not to give a damn’

      2. Natalie says:

        Lol, The klaxon is a great idea, every time it sounds we can take a shot lol!! We will also have to add the London Geography questions in from good measure!

      3. Natalie says:

        MLA Clarece- lol, of course! We really must keep a running list of these little gems!

      4. Twilight says:



        Satanic ritual attending inmate. I choke on my sip of water when I read that.
        Just doesn’t go with my image of you.

      5. Narc affair says:

        Hg can i hire you for my mother in laws 75th bday 😂

        1. HG Tudor says:

          Let’s talk rates but I am not jumping out of a birthday cake, okay?

      6. Narc affair says:

        I hope you dont mind granny panties thrown at you 😄 the rate probably just jumped sky high lol

      7. ballerina9 says:

        To avoid the old “hey HG, are you married?”:

        1. At the bottom of your post announcing the livestream, include the questions you will not address.

        2. A compulsory Q&A must be correctly answered to be granted access to “HG Live”.

        3. If you still choose to answer them  – in your infinite generosity – all responses must be followed by some “stubble”, so we all get something. ☺ It’s only fair.


      8. Narc affair says:

        Ballerina…Lol @ the stubble! The sound comes thru really good 😄

        1. ballerina9 says:

          Hi Narc Affair, indeed excellent microphone quality. HG’s camera however doesn’t seem to work as well… 😆

          1. Love says:

            He stated he covers all cameras on all devices unless he wants to video chat with someone in his personal life.
            Ahhhhh, to be on the other end of that chat ❤💗😍🌈

          2. ballerina9 says:

            Hi Love, indeed and he advised us to do the same.
            I was just joking with N. Affair. Maybe it is best for us!! If his looks match his brain…. bloody hell!!☺

          3. Love says:

            I have no doubt his looks and brains are a deadly combo.
            But I’m keeping my cameras uncovered. 😂 if people want to look in so much, then by all means … Come into my world.

          4. ballerina9 says:

            I don’t doubt it either…. I’m just trying not to think about it lol! Plus he said he’d pick NY over LA. We’re safe!

          5. Love says:

            Shame on him for neglecting his West Coast fans!

          6. HG Tudor says:

            I don’t neglect my fans.

          7. Love says:

            Then come to the West Coast too! There is so much to see and do.

          8. MLA - Clarece says:

            And he said Chicago is a no go so I’m just sitting in a flyover State.

          9. Love says:

            Oh no Mr. Tudor. You need to tour all of the US. Visitng ALL the cities your fans are in!

          10. ballerina9 says:

            @Clarece… did he now? What a wanker!
            (I hope I’m using this correctly! I guess I’m about to find out! 😅)

    2. AH OH says:

      He is in prison, metaphorically. We all are to some degree.

      1. Twilight says:

        Ah Oh

        In many ways we are and the door is wide open, yet we chose to stay.

        1. AH OH says:

          hmmm, I am not sure? there is no such thing as free will. The mind is so complex I accept this reality of a mental imprisonment. It is to what degree we allow it to interfere with our lives. Chemical imbalances and such are very real, a prison that you can not escape. Emotional prisons are the ones we can control, how thick are the bars? But nonetheless, a prison of our minds. Crazy huh.
          Even HG is a prisoner to his negative emotions. They guide his actions.
          In the big picture of it all, we are nothing to anyone but ourselves.

          1. Twilight says:

            Awareness I believe brings freedom from such cages, IMO
            Yes the mind is very complex, what one persons perspective is going to be different from another, yet both holds truth for each individual.

          2. Love says:

            Yes Twilight. A separation of the true self from the ego mind. Then you have freedom. It is very difficult to reach that state. But it is not impossible.

          3. Twilight says:


            No it is not impossible to get to this state. Things take a different perspective

          4. AH OH says:

            very good.

          5. Twilight says:

            My views of the big picture differs greatly from yours. We are everything to each other, yet in the small picture I agree with you in the fact we are nothing but ourselves.
            This runs with my beliefs and I mean no disrespect towards you and your opinion.

          6. AH OH says:

            I do not take your opinion as disrespect. I like it. I do know anyone who is everything to me.

  3. Damn it, I missed it!!!! Maybe next time.

    1. Bel says:

      I find all the trival questions entertaining, it gives HG a more human side . Although it adds to my confusion of narcissism, listening to someone sound so normal , when really they aren’t . You patiently answered the same old questions .. do you have children , have you been abused etc over & over again . I think for me the hardest thing is listening to women flirt with you , I think are you kidding . Have these women not learnt anything reading your blogs and listening to your live streams , you are a narcissist you hurt people deliberately. I also think it’s tragic & extremely sad that other human beings altered your life’s path .

      1. HG Tudor says:

        Valid points Bel and the fact I sound “so normal” is an education in itself because it shows how easily we move amongst you and keep hidden what is really going on.

      2. Anonymous says:

        Bel, the flirting part was what I meant when I mentioned the Justin Bieber concert. Of course, people are free to do as they please and I’m sure it’s flattering to HG and it’s his channel so his rules. But having escaped a relationship with one of HG’s kind recently, those comments are a bit uncomfortable to me. It makes me think of how women could throw themselves at my ex – whilst they’re aware what he did to me, and it’s just not a nice thought at all because it makes me realise how extremely easy it is for him to ensnare others. I realise to some people the flirting with HG might be somewhat “therapeutical” though. So I simply don’t even look at the chat, it moves too fast for me anyway, no idea how others can keep up without going insane.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          All fair observations and of course the way people behave in that way is instructive also in terms of evidencing the nature of the dynamic and the impact it has on people.

      3. Narc affair says:

        Anonymous…i can relate to what youre saying about the flirting. When you see the whole picture tho any woman that would flirt with your exnarc knowing at the time what he was doing to you is a FOOL bc they will be that very same person eventually. This can happen to anyone especially a man that gives women attention. Ive seen it with my narc and hes not famous or well known yet he have a magnetic pull and has women flirting. Some women are starving for attention and will jump at any crumbs given.
        You can tell by certain commenters which are more healed than others. Some come off lovesick and desperate while others are interested in learning. Regardless i try never to judge bc ive not been in their shoes or lived their life.
        I find all the banter fun and informative. A lot of laughs too which is refreshing given that the topic is abuse.
        It is hard to keep up tho and i have no clue how hg does it and answer the questions lol

      4. Anonymous says:

        Narc affair, I think in some cases people just want to believe they’re special enough to change someone. I knew my ex cheated on his wife. I didn’t know he was a narc (I didn’t know what a narc was back then) but I knew he cheated and used prostitutes. Yet after telling him he’s disgusting and leaving the room for about 20 minutes, I returned and found him in tears (crocodile ones) saying he thinks he ruined everything now. I stayed with him, for four years, thinking he won’t do it to me. I believed all the nonsense about me being special and bla bla. So yes, I’m not exactly in the position to throw stones at anyone. Yet it is difficult at times to witness the flirting, makes me want to grab people and shake them. Not really, just a little.

        I was thinking how I’m not sure how HG can keep up with the chat for four hours. I would lose my patience after about ten minutes of scrolling. And I would change my profile picture to something like “NO KIDS, NOT MARRIED, NO AGE”. He can’t even take any breaks. Not sure how he does it.

        1. HG Tudor says:

          There are four of us working a shift pattern.

        2. Lisa says:

          Yes I was amazed at his tolerance, it’s very strange but then they do love to talk about themselves !!

      5. Anonymous says:

        Well maybe one of the four will tell me what I really want to know.

      6. Love says:

        Anonymous, I understand the flirting might trigger pain in you – wondering if other women are doing the same to your ex narc. Yes, it is a hard pill to swallow, but I’ve learned that the flirting would happen around me, behind me, and in front of me regardless. Narc Affair is right, narcs are very charming so naturally women are drawn to that cocky confidence (even if its a facade). I think their ‘stock’ price greatly increases when women see them with someone – especially someone who is in love with them. Others think there must be something very special about this man if a woman is so head over heels for him. As Mr. Tudor has written, it doesn’t matter if the people around you see what he has done. Narcs (at least the higher level ones) can charm the pants off your friends and possibly family too. There are only very few loyal friends/ family that would rebuff the narc’s advances. And yes, some women want to believe they are special and the abuse won’t happen to them. Even if they have been through it many times over.
        That all said, I remember your sexual innuendos toward Mr. Tudor. I thought they were fun and enjoyable. Why the change of heart?

        1. Fool me 1 time says:

          I have seen this happen often on the blog love. I think it has to do with where people are in their healing process. The flirting and HG flirting back and of course his charm perhaps makes a victim feel attractive and some the attention they are getting from him is like Fuel! It makes them feel good about themselves if only for a little while. Some become jealous if some one else is getting his attention or flirting with him and I believe some have come such a long way in their heeling that they perhaps forget what it was like in the beginning and the things that they said. 🌻

          1. Love says:

            Very true. Everyone is on their own journey.

          2. Fool me 1 time says:

            I agree! Have a nice evening.

      7. Anonymous says:

        Wait, what? “I remember your sexual innuendos toward Mr. Tudor.” Which ones? Are you confusing me with someone? I don’t use sexual innuendos towards anyone so if you aren’t confusing me with someone, you may have misunderstood. Genuinely interested in this, so please share.

        My ex isn’t in my life. As in literally not in my life. We live in different countries so I don’t see him. Don’t see him buy bread, don’t see him flirt, nothing. My friends and family have absolutely no contact with him either. In that respect I’m lucky because whatever it is that’s happening, I won’t see it unless I have one of my moments of utter stupidity and stalk him online. I haven’t in a few days though.

        1. Love says:

          Sorry if I confused you with another. Did you not want pics of Mr. Tudor’s hands and to be sent his semen? There were other things too – I can’t remember now. I thought you were very sexually drawn to him. If not you… Or if I misunderstood, then my bad. Sorry.

        2. Love says:

          Anonymous, You have my sincere apology. I mistook you for another lady … At some point, your profile pic resembled hers and she had stopped posting. I thought you were her with a name change. Anyhoo. Sorry about the mix up.

      8. Anonymous says:

        Trying to remember if I ever came on here drunk but I don’t think I did hahaha.

      9. Narc affair says:

        Hi anonymous…yes ive been guilty if that too. Ive never been with a married man but ive been fed lies about the narcs past and exes not in a smearing way but in a way why it never progressed into anything. The simple truth is my narc never wanted it to AND im pretty certain they never did fully end. I think he has a matrix going of secondaries. He knows to have a primary would require more time and effort and its more fun to have less expected of you and have more longterm secondaries. Its actually pretty smart on his part. He gets lots of fuel and variety and isnt expected much. Its no wonder hes in his early 60s and never been married. Hes happy the way his life is. Oddly im not even angry with him aside from the way our relationship fluctuates at times. Im not happy its built on a facade but he couldnt really tell me the truth either. Guess thats what you get when you are in a relationship of deceit.

  4. A383 says:

    Brilliant HG! Listening to you on holiday in London. Amazing information especially the info re your siblings! You do love them!!!! Thanx xx

  5. Not So Sad says:

    Thanks HG .

    However some constructive ” criticism ” If you don’t mind .

    The stream was way too long & many of the questions were embarrassingly ” inane ”

    As Anonymous said . I too felt like I was ” adult in the middle of a Justin Bieber concert ”

    Can I suggest next time you put a time limit on your stream & less frequently .. Part of your charm is to keep your readers informed as well as guessing .

    I really don’t want to know what colour Jelly Baby you prefer .

    Stick to he Hard Facts HG !

    NNS 🙂

    1. Love says:

      But that is the beauty of it. People can come and go as they please or stick around for the entire show. I believe Mr. Tudor was quick about answering questions so if you have an important one – put it in, get it answered, and then go about your day and check in later.
      I think as Mr. Tudor gets busier, we’ll have less opportunities with him. So please do continue with these streams as long as you are able.

    2. MLA - Clarece says:

      Not a fan of the “shout outs” NSS? lol
      I was impressed with the length but yes, I did not realize ahead of time that it may go over 4 hours, so I was ducking in and out the last two hours because of another commitment and then listened to what I missed the next morning.
      The one thing I found distasteful was one listener asking for their name to be said and another getting fed up with that and then cussing at said listener. I was glad that didn’t snowball into something uglier.
      You got to have some fun questions though to add some levity to such a hard subject. Don’t ya think a little? Just sprinkled in? lol It gives HG a chance to demonstrate his patience.

      1. AH OH says:

        I missed the Say my name, say my name. LOL I signed on in the last 1.5 hours.

        1. C★ says:

          I am embarrassed FOR the person that kept saying/asking this!

          1. AH OH says:

            Wonder why they wanted this. Perhaps they only had one hand on the keyboard?
            Is it anyone I know.

        2. MLA - Clarece says:

          It was cute and harmless but it riled up one listener…

          1. AH OH says:

            why was this asked to begin with? serious.

  6. Indy says:

    Always enjoy HG radio Live!
    And, most thankful.

    Here’s to you reaching more targets/survivors of narcissistic abuse ***cheers!***

    Indy the Witchy One

  7. Geminimom says:

    Thank you again for answering my question and I really enjoyed everyone else’s and your answers to them.

  8. Very enjoyable evening and I learned a few new things. Thank you!

  9. Brian says:

    I was in a car with no internets, next time hopefully.

    1. Bel says:

      I enjoy the live streams ,although I only got to listen to the last 40 mins as it was very early morning for me . But listened to the rest later in the day . HG you remind me of Edward Mulhare from the Ghost & mrs Muir , if I had to imagine how you looked that’s how I’d picture you .

    2. Love says:

      I was in the car some of the time too. Thank God for 4G 🌟

      1. HG Tudor says:

        You really meant thank god 4 HG didn’t you?

        1. Love says:

          That is given. I would go straight to the source.
          Thank you for all you do 🎉🎊🌟💥❤

  10. Carrie Ann says:

    My Sunday is indeed fulfilled. Again thank you, HG.

  11. RecoveringNarcoholic says:

    Thanks for giving us so much time, HG. Very informative and entertaining. I would have participated if I weren’t too technologically challenged to figure out how to create a channel!

    1. Narc affair says:

      Recovering narcoholic…you can find how to start a u tube channel tutorials right on u tube. Its thru the u tube home page.

      1. RecoveringNarcoholic says:

        Thanks, Narc Affair — I see that now. Will get set up before the next live stream!

  12. MLA - Clarece says:

    It was truly an HG Extravaganza this afternoon and you were so generous with your time! Thank you HG!

    1. HG Tudor says:

      You’re welcome.

      1. RS says:

        I wholeheartedly agree!

  13. foolme1time says:

    Thank you HG for starting and continuing with the live streams! Your charm and professionalism shine through as is always the case with you!! Have a safe trip!! Xxx

    1. HG Tudor says:

      You’re welcome.

  14. Khaleesi says:

    I really enjoyed the live stream today. Thanks again HG.

  15. Maia says:

    Thanks HG, thoroughly enjoyed the live stream.

  16. Matilda says:

    Thank you for this livestream! Don’t worry about buffering or not being able to answer all questions. You did a great job, and I enjoyed listening! 😀

    I hope you did not do anything worse to the animal (a dog?) than kicking it in self-defence!

    With regard to winding up those you spot reading your books, you may want to refrain from doing that if you want to remain incognito: they most probably will recognise your voice! 😀

  17. Anonymous says:

    Thanks, HG. I was there but didn’t ask any questions. Unpopular opinion follows so if you’re fragile stop reading now: I learnt from your last stream and didn’t even look at the chat but listened to you and played Shuffle Cats on my phone. The reason for this is that at times things that are submitted make me feel like this awkward adult in the middle of a Justin Bieber concert hahaha.

  18. Kim says:

    I really enjoyed the live chat HG! Thank you! I learned quite a bit, actually and realized how much I do know. Thanks again!

  19. C★ says:

    Thank you for sharing your Sunday evening with us… knowledgeable, gracious, entertaining, and most charming, as ever.

  20. Narc affair says:

    Thx again hg for the livestream chat! Its such a treat and educational as well. I really enjoyed the questions and your input. Its also just fun hanging out with you hg youve got a great sense of humor. You give a lot of yourself and it doesnt go unnoticed 👍

  21. LD says:

    Is Melanie Trump a Super Empathy?

  22. LD says:

    Me HG, my narcs father was a narc, his mother then said she chose her son over her husband and made him her serogate husband. Which parent did the damage and why?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Depends on what age he was when this happened and how long he was exposed to the various prevailing characters of Mother and Father.

  23. LD says:

    Can you give me some feedback on the narc that uses the Bible to manipulate and control?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Please see ‘The Holy Narcissist’

  24. RS says:

    Do we see this on YouTube?

  25. Lisa says:

    How do I listen to this HG ?

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