HG when reading about you as a child or even your university time you don’t seem to have been a blank , you seemed to have a clear idea of what you liked , your interests and what you were good at
Were the fibers that make up the fabric of who you are. Without us your construct falls apart.
I see this so much in celebs especially younger ones that are no longer in the spotlight. They fall apart. Succumbing to drugs to help ease the pain and truth that they arent number one anymore. Their audience has betrayed them and their inflated ego starts to deflate which sends them on a tailspin. Why? Bc they failed to realise who they are in the grand scheme of things …they are one of many people who are all special in their own right but they have to be number one or theyre dead to themselves. They need everyone to make who they are. They dont possess the inner love and confidence to feel good on their own. The construct needs all of it or its nothing. We make the narcissist. Without our praise and what they can take from us they become nothing to themselves.
The celebs that survive are the ones who celebrate each others talents and are grateful for their gifts and enjoy who they are without relying on others to feel this way. They go on to accomplish much, some not as in the spotlight but still just as important. These celebs are self sustaining and survive the entertainment business and its narcissistic pitfalls.
I feel empty and void as well. A cube. My construct imploded and I realize outside of a narcissistic dynamic I have no idea who I am. Obviously, since I am only a “block” IN the dynamic I have no idea either. I am FINALLY getting the whole fear of “holy crap what it I am or become a narc” aspect. Yes, many parts appear and seem similar. The false or no clue sense of self. The facade. Yada yada. I feel and I care. To a pathological state (my personal not professional dx) which keeps me stuck and hostage to disordered behavior. It can be my own or putting myself in proximity of others’ disordered behavior. Either works. To seek and ensure my own demise. My personal favorite is a cocktail of both. This ginormous glob of taffy is sticky. It takes awhile to tease out. I am no longer afraid I will “catch” narcissism or find it at the core of my wad of taffy. I will find me. Eventually. I believe this is the “reason” why it all happened, is happening. Some one else said on here that “every thing happens for a reason….” quote. and we do not know the reason. for me i believe it is to find me. simple as that.
The Green color means the Nature, Spring, Renewal, Rebirth, Harmony, Life. The small robot wants to understand what it is. To inhale it. To taste it. To sense it. To feel it. To be alive.
LOL! You made me laugh, Patricia. I’m guessing you mean fuel. That emoji is Japanese and it’s a kind of logo/shorthand for a public–yes, totally naked–bath. LOL
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HG when reading about you as a child or even your university time you don’t seem to have been a blank , you seemed to have a clear idea of what you liked , your interests and what you were good at
In order to mirror and manipulate.
HG is this something you were aware of at the time ? Or can you look back and see it ? Or is it the good doctors telling you this ? Thank you
Hindsight and input of the good doctors.
Were the fibers that make up the fabric of who you are. Without us your construct falls apart.
I see this so much in celebs especially younger ones that are no longer in the spotlight. They fall apart. Succumbing to drugs to help ease the pain and truth that they arent number one anymore. Their audience has betrayed them and their inflated ego starts to deflate which sends them on a tailspin. Why? Bc they failed to realise who they are in the grand scheme of things …they are one of many people who are all special in their own right but they have to be number one or theyre dead to themselves. They need everyone to make who they are. They dont possess the inner love and confidence to feel good on their own. The construct needs all of it or its nothing. We make the narcissist. Without our praise and what they can take from us they become nothing to themselves.
The celebs that survive are the ones who celebrate each others talents and are grateful for their gifts and enjoy who they are without relying on others to feel this way. They go on to accomplish much, some not as in the spotlight but still just as important. These celebs are self sustaining and survive the entertainment business and its narcissistic pitfalls.
I feel empty and void as well. A cube. My construct imploded and I realize outside of a narcissistic dynamic I have no idea who I am. Obviously, since I am only a “block” IN the dynamic I have no idea either. I am FINALLY getting the whole fear of “holy crap what it I am or become a narc” aspect. Yes, many parts appear and seem similar. The false or no clue sense of self. The facade. Yada yada. I feel and I care. To a pathological state (my personal not professional dx) which keeps me stuck and hostage to disordered behavior. It can be my own or putting myself in proximity of others’ disordered behavior. Either works. To seek and ensure my own demise. My personal favorite is a cocktail of both. This ginormous glob of taffy is sticky. It takes awhile to tease out. I am no longer afraid I will “catch” narcissism or find it at the core of my wad of taffy. I will find me. Eventually. I believe this is the “reason” why it all happened, is happening. Some one else said on here that “every thing happens for a reason….” quote. and we do not know the reason. for me i believe it is to find me. simple as that.
Wooden.
Block of wood.
It implies no feelings but they do have feelings… negative ones…
Not such a block of wood at those times.
Bare wood..
In need of painting…
Layers need painting on..
Im sounding like an episode of catchphrase…soon you’ll be saying ” it’s good but it’s not right”.
Say what you see.
Haha…well remembered….
ok I’ll say what I see… the catchphrase is
“blockhead”
and now you can really say ” it’s good but it’s not right”
I think it really means alone and dead sort of…wooden with a need of our input to add some colourful attributes…(ish)
Without us you fail to exist.
I don’t get this one ? What’s that little box man ? Meaning the narcissist is a blank thing ? Lol
Correct.
It’s an outlet. Only gets fuel when there is something plugged in.
The Green color means the Nature, Spring, Renewal, Rebirth, Harmony, Life. The small robot wants to understand what it is. To inhale it. To taste it. To sense it. To feel it. To be alive.
That’s why.
I would frequently call my MMRN “an empty shell of a man” when we were together.
I forgot the most important part: If it wasn’t for me, you would be an empty shell of a man. Damn! I said that quite often.
I don’t get this one……maybe I should look later……when I see other comments it may become clear…….it’s probably staring me in the face…..Diva
Hi Diva, the box is empty, just promising to have something inside. We think we are getting something and we aren’t.
Dear Mr Tudor,
⛽️ Narcissists need us more than we need them! ⛽️
Your cardboard character is replaceable, has no personality and unmemorable. It’s nothing! Sad really!
Another goodie !
LOL! You made me laugh, Patricia. I’m guessing you mean fuel. That emoji is Japanese and it’s a kind of logo/shorthand for a public–yes, totally naked–bath. LOL
Didn’t get this one.
Why?
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