The 5 Wants of the Narcissist


  1. I want your fuel


I want your fuel. I want it all and I want it from you, him, her, them and especially you. I want it from the moment I rise until the moment I am embraced by slumber. I want it pouring over me, potent and plenty, gushing from you. I want your positive fuel, the joy, the adoration, the love, the passion and the praise. I want your negative fuel, the hatred, the anger, the tears and the fear. Pour it over me, immerse me in that edifying, invigorating and sustaining fuel. There is never enough and I want to keep on experiencing the surge as your fuel increases the flames inside me, burning and rising, powering me as I blaze a trail through all that `I do. I want your fuel now, tomorrow and always.

  1. I want to engulf you

I am immense, a giant, a prince amongst men, a behemoth that moves with ease and purpose about the earth. I want to subsume you into me, ensuring that there is no trace of you left as I fully integrate you into what I am. I want my tendrils to reach out to you, feeling their way towards the fuel vapours that emanate from you, their probing senses tracking you down. I want them to coil about you and pull you towards me, binding you to me until steadily I suck you into my world and into my false reality. I want you hooked up, connected, locked-in, attached and embedded as little by little I consume you and encompass you with my greatness. You will not resist for the elation and delight that you experience as this process happens is irresistible. I want to own you, I want you to become part of me, I want there to be no start to you and any end to me.

  1. I want to be the one

I want to be the one that you think of all of the time. I want you to be the person that you orbit around, your sun, your centre of the universe. I want to be the one that is recognised for my greatness, for my brilliance and my achievements. I do not care that I have exaggerated them or stolen them from others whom I have brushed against, stripping away facets of their character to add to my own. I have no care for that. All I care is that I am the one towards whom heads turn when I enter a room. I am the one who is applauded. I want to be the one who leads, conquers and smites. The destroyer of worlds, the creator of new ones, a god. I want to be the one whose power radiates from him so that is tangible to all those who look upon me. I want to be the one who shocks and awes. I want to be the one who does. I want to be the one who rules, who presides and who dictates. I want to be the one you rely on, turn to and devote yourself too. I want to be the one who is credited for all successes, I want to be the one who is your alpha and your omega, your first thought and your last thought. I want to be the one whose name you utter with your dying breath.

  1. I want your essence

I am the stealer of souls, the charlatan that comes and with sugar-coated promises and offers you the world in exchange for your very essence. You never realise that this is the cost of this transaction but I want to suck the essence from within you, drain you of it and consume it for myself. I want to leave you a broken, dried out husk. I want your essence to fill the gaping hole that endures inside of me. I want that sweet, wonderful essence to flow through me, easing the pain, soothing the fevered freneticism and bring comfort and relief. Like a purifying river, I want your essence to course through me, sweeping away the disease that riddles me. I want your essence to wipe away the dirt, remove the smears and eradicate the stains. I know I flirt with all kinds of dirt, but your essence will save me from such temptation. That is why I want it.

  1. I want it to stop

Or do I?

16 thoughts on “The 5 Wants of the Narcissist

  1. inspire2bu says:

    Your kind never wants it to stop. As you’ve stated in other posts…… Only death with stop it.

  2. J.G says:

    Hello, H.G. Tudor.
    There are so many things you want and so many things you are given and offered. You consume with such gluttony and voracity, that in spite of everything, the weariness and tiredness of all of them, is evident and produces you such Indigestion. That you finally hate the dish that you so long for and taste.
    Salts for your stomach acidity?

  3. flutterbymorpho says:

    5 wants out of a hundred..

  4. SeaSalt says:

    HG – do you believe a person with undiagnosed NPD within the ‘Greater’ category is born this way or created through their upbringing /familial environment or possibly a combination of both? Or maybe a third option? If a person presents with these behaviours at the age of 2 and then becomes disabled ie. completely physically immobile, mute and blind due to an accident at an early age (mid 20’s) do you think this behaviour could be magnified with the disability? They are the ‘perfect monster’ as said in their words. How does one execute fury when you cannot move your body, speak or see?

    1. HG Tudor says:


      With impossible difficulty.

  5. Alexissmith2016 says:

    If an N tells you that he doesn’t believe in, ‘the one’ there’s no such thing. And does so repeatedly. Is he saying this in an attempt to make you prove to him that you could be ‘the one’?

    1. K says:

      It could be a test to provoke you into trying to prove that you are ‘The One’ so he gains fuel and his control is underlined.

      1. alexissmith2016 says:

        Thank you K!

        I do find his comments terribly amusing as he has no chance lol

        I don’t respond at all when he says this, I just sit quietly. And the more I fail to respond, the more he continues to say it.

        Your answer explains everything!

        1. K says:

          You are welcome alexissmith2016!
          Ha ha ha…your failure to respond causes him to repeat himself to prompt a reaction from you to gain fuel and exert control. But it appears that his manipulation isn’t working with you…ha ha ha.

          1. alexissmith2016 says:

            Oh I do enjoy myself and maintaining their frustration!

  6. Leslie says:

    Souls are not a one size fits all. Maybe he steals mine, but it won’t fix him. He has to fix himself.

  7. amanda SNapchat says:

    This reminded me of ursula from the Little Mermaid. Maybe she was a narc?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      Interesting observations, do expand if you wish.

      1. Leslie says:

        Each soul is unique. Souls are not like lightbulbs to be popped in and out of a socket. They are not like tire patches to be applied to a hole in a tube.

        Therefore, stealing the soul of another does nothing for the thief. It cannot work to enlighten him nor can it repair the damage of his own soul. Only he can effect the necessary work to fill the void. The choice is his alone.

        The dark thing he sees inside himself is a fraudulent substitute but he is too afraid to find his own light. My soul can’t enlighten his chosen darkness.

        Has the positivity of anyone else ever truly resolved your internal negativity? Of course not. Steal away. It is a fake fix. You are deluding yourself and wasting your time, which can never be reclaimed, on a pointless endeavour.

  8. WW says:

    Is it possible that we pour our soul into you and this is why we are subjected to your inner voice? (Projections mainly). The inner voice that keeps score that you keep trying to hush? We hear it and no matter how much it hurts us to be devalued we know it is really what you think of yourself so we cling hoping to be your strength. Perhaps for a Greater the story you tell yourself is that you do it all on purpose to enjoy contrasts, you’ve codified it. It’s a process, it’s efficient, you plan-do-check-act and do it all over again. This is your way to see it at arm’s length and justify it. Much easier than finding that one person that will mirror YOU for a change until you heal.
    This story you are telling may be more elaborate but it, like everything else, could be just another lie.
    What if courage is all you are missing?

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