Something Does Not Feel Right



“I am left feeling I am not good enough”

“I am always waiting for him to call.”

“She never seems to listen to me.”

“I feel like I always have to respond straight away.”

“I do not feel settled.”

“I always feel like I am being scrutinised.”

“I feel like I am out of my depth.”

“I am always wondering whether he is serious or joking with me, I struggle to tell.”

“I cannot seem to think about anything other than him.”

“She makes me feel left out.”

“It seems like I am always running around after him.”

“I always feels like I have to please them.”

“I feel like I am on trial.”

“I find myself always having to explain myself.”

“It feels more like an obligation than a friendship.”

“I am often left wondering what is happening.”

“I am left feeling unsure of myself.”

“I feel like I am always on call for her.”

“I keep feeling jealous and that makes me feel bad.”

“I am anxious for him to leave her and be with me.”

“If I express an opinion I feel like I am being unfair in doing so.”

“It is great when we are together, but then am left feeling uncertain when we are apart.”

“I am sure he doesn’t mean to make me feel nervous, but I am.”

“I don’t think I am good enough.”

“I don’t want to let her down.”

“Nothing seems to bother him and I am such a worrier. I will put him off.”

“I don’t understand why he still keeps in touch with her, but I don’t feel I can say anything.”

“I am nervous I will mess this up and he is so wonderful.”

“It´s nothing specific, but there´s something that makes me uneasy. It is probably just me.”

Doubtless many of you will find some of the above comments will resonate with you.

You have been created with emotional empathy. This has formed the bedrock for your worldview and your perspective. This accords with a majority perspective and forms the basis for those subjective qualities of what is deemed as “good” and “bad”. Since you operate within the majority perspective it is your perspective of “good” and “bad” which prevails.

When you encounter something which contrasts with this majority perspective, you often do not see it as a clear, shining example. Instead, you have a “feeling” or a “gut instinct”. This is the manifestation of behaviour which clashes with your empathic world view. This is your alarm bell.

There are those of you whose alarm bell does not often ring at all, although you are limited in number. For most of those who are empathic, the alarm bell rings through some kind of feeling encapsulated by many of the phrases detailed above and more besides.

So far, so effective. You have an established worldview formed by your emotional empathy. When you encounter behaviour which contrasts with this empathic worldview, your alarm bell goes off. Where it is one of our kind (and it almost always is one of our kind) which has caused this alarm bell to sound, this is when the problem starts.

Your alarm bell sounds but you attribute it to the wrong cause.

You either think that the cause is an external reason for this alarm bell, such as

  • The individual is tired or exhausted
  • The individual is drunk
  • The individual is suffering from stress
  • The individual is suffering from grief or bereavement
  • The individual is under some kind of pressure
  • The individual suffers from anger management issues
  • The individual is highly strung

There are others besides.

The alternative is that you think the cause is an internal reason, namely your behaviour, such as

  • You are too sensitive
  • You have been hurt before
  • You are too direct
  • You think badly of people too quickly
  • You are too trusting
  • You were not listening
  • You judged too soon
  • You are tired, upset, stressed
  • You were insensitive to the needs of others
  • You were worried

There are others besides.

Accordingly, when your alarm bell rings, you end up attributing the sensation of something feeling wrong to either an external cause to that you are the problem.

This is incorrect.

It is akin to your burglar alarm going off and you think it was a passing cat or that you tripped the sensor yourself. It was the burglar.

Something which offends your worldview, offends the logic of your world. Your logic seeks to warn you by creating a feeling or a sensation (the alarm bell) so that you take action.

Unfortunately, two factors interfere in this warning system.

The first is a lack of understanding about the nature of the individual that is generating the behaviour which causes the alarm. The red flags that signal that it is a narcissist which is engaging in behaviours which are offending your worldview.

The second is the obscuring nature of your emotional thinking which does not want you to pay attention to the alarm´s actual source and instead diverts you to thinking it is the external source (incorrect) or your fault (also incorrect).

Your emotional thinking does not want you abiding by the logic of your world. It does not want you acting on the alarm by identifying the real cause (the narcissist) and then taking the logical step to avoid further harm (further feelings that something is wrong) by removing yourself from the real cause (the narcissist).

Your emotional thinking does not want to do what is best for you. It does not want you to know the actual source of the alarm nor act on that alarm. It wants you looking in the wrong place,e taking the incorrect course of action so that you remain interacting with the narcissist.

Your emotional thinking does not care about your physical health, your emotional contentment, your mental well-being or the state of your bank balance. It is not interested in you engaging with a healthy, normal and well-adjusted individual. That does not matter to your emotional thinking.

For a very unfortunate few of you, there is no inherent alarm system and you need to build one. It is hard work but achievable.

For the vast majority of you, you have the alarm system but it is infected and caused to malfunction by making you look in the wrong place for the problem and not act on the actual problem. Fortunately for you, this faulty alarm system can be corrected although it requires repeated and ongoing maintenance, which is naturally most worthwhile.

There is a valid reason why you feel something is not right. It is your early warning system, but it is not perfect and it is fundamental that you realise this and understand that it is here that you are able to perfect its operation.

Early Warning Detector

8 thoughts on “Something Does Not Feel Right

  1. Bibi says:

    Guilt definitely plays a part. We don’t WANT to think ill of anyone, and so I do try to give people the benefit of the doubt, and more chances (that is, to a degree). I fuck up too–I can be cranky and in a bad mood sometimes.

    As example, the UMR at my job was a slow accrual of clues that he was a narc. In hindsight, it is obvious, but I had lunch w him ONCE since I worked there 4+ yrs ago and all he spoke about was himself. What some would call out as bragging, I justified it by saying he was just eager and excited by life.

    Over time, his condescension, arrogance and resentment towards anyone who didn’t admire him became more obvious and I could not look away from it. I realized that he does not engage in conversations but in presentations. There is never a back and forth exchange but more so about him showing off what he knows (a little about a lot–he knows enough to namedrop knowledge in certain convos to appear the most learned. Key word: APPEAR.)

    Sometimes he will be nice and I will feel badly for thinking he is a narc but then I stop myself. Ultimately, I can’t excuse bad behaviour. I listen to how he makes me feel, which he has this ability to pound you down into the ground if you let him. I refuse to let him. (For the most part, he does not bother me–he is in another dept now and keeps his distance.)

    I give him no fuel. I am sure he thinks I am cold, lacking in humor (that is definitely not so) and PC (again, none of this is true).

    I don’t WANT to think ill of him or anyone. Hell, I tried to even give Trump a chance when he won the election but by this point–fuck it. The dude is an orange doorknob.

    I have let go of the guilt. Don’t care. I know the traits I do not like and I stay away from them. To each their own.

    Oh and one last point–the Mid Ranger’s M.O. was always saying that he could not trust me, which left me wondering, why? why? why? am I not trustworthy? He never could give a reason.

    If only I could go back and say, ‘Is that so? Alright then. Adios, dipshit.’

  2. Summer says:

    The return on investment ive spent here is absolutely priceless. I check n daily to help me retain my grip on reality. U have my profound gratitude Mr Tudor

    1. HG Tudor says:

      You’re welcome

  3. Keef says:

    In case you needed a further explanation, that creature is a demon that torments you.
    I’m also posting this so you know my last comment wasn’t spam or a joke.

    1. HG Tudor says:

      No. It is not a demon.

    2. karmicoverload says:

      I feel almost all of those and have used most of those excuses regarding my lover. Yet still I convince myself he isn’t a narcissist.

  4. Keef says:

    Hi I was wondering if you would try an exorcism over the phone?

    1. HG Tudor says:

      I do not perform exorcisms nor do I need one. What I do provide over the phone, Keef, is expert, logical information which helps people considerably.

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