You Are Not Alone


One is never enough for us. Two or more are required. When we commence our seduction of you and launch those missiles towards you bearing love, passion and desire, we repeatedly tell you that you are the one. You are the only one that we want. All of our life we have waited for this moment to be with the one, you. This singularity of number meets singularity of purpose. One is all that we want. We tell you this, we text you this and we do some repeatedly in order to put you on that pedestal. The world may as well just be populated by you and me. Nobody else matters. All that we want is you and you alone. The effect of such words makes you feel extremely special, revered and worshipped and it feels wonderful doesn’t it? Being the sole recipient of our attention, such wonderful, dedicated and loving attention is uplifting, joyful and magnificent.

Recently a commenter posted a quote from Robert A Heinlein which revolved around kissing. Essentially, this quote referred to the fact that when most people kiss they are not putting their all into it, they have other things on their mind, they might be worrying about work, they know they have to put the rubbish out, they are wondering what is for dinner and as a consequence that person’s kiss is nowhere near as it should be because that person has distractions. The person they are kissing does not have their total attention. There is considerable merit in such a proposition. What we manage to do however is make you think that nobody else matters, that you are the only person we are kissing, have ever kissed and will ever kiss. We make you the centre of our universe and you believe it. Yet the reality is that whilst we exhibit this singularity of attention on you, we have so many other people in mind. Understand that when you are with one of our kind there is never, there is never a time when it is just you and me. There is always you, me and her or him or them. Your dynamic with us is not exclusive. It never is. It is not your sole preserve. You are shared throughout the entirety of your relationship with us, from the beginning until, well forever. I do not necessarily mean that we are engaged in s sexual relationship with someone else when we are with you but the fact is that when you think it is just you and I, there is far more going on that you will realise.

At the outset when I am seducing you, I make you feel like the only girl in the world, however there will be at least two other dynamics ongoing. The first is that I will be embarking on a cruel campaign against your predecessor. I will be considering how next to provoke them and punish them so I am able to draw negative fuel from them. I will undoubtedly tell you about them as I explain how horrible and abusive that person was to me. What you are less likely to know is that I am sending them abusive messages, stalking them and organising various methods of manipulation to keep punishing them.

The second dynamic at the outset is the fact that I may also be working on another prospect as well as you. In the extremely unlikely event that you ever had access to my mobile ‘phone and you looked in the messages you would see something like this.

“Message to You 19:48 – I cannot stop thinking about you. What have you done to me? I love it though. I cannot wait to see you tomorrow even though it is too long to wait for my aching heart.”

“Message to Her 19:50 – I cannot stop thinking about you. What have you done to me? I love it though. I cannot wait to see you tomorrow even though it is too long to wait for my aching heart.”

There may even be,

“Message to Her 2 19:52 – I cannot stop thinking about you. What have you done to me? I love it though. I cannot wait to see you tomorrow even though it is too long to wait for my aching heart.”

Notoriously greedy for fuel and wary of the effects of not having a supply of the same, we will ensure that we have other targeted prospects in hand. You may become the chosen one as my primary source of fuel but the others will not necessarily be discarded. They will be retained as “friends” who rank as high producing secondary appliances, continuing to supply me with fuel. You think you have me to yourself. Of course that is the impression that I will create but you are sharing me with the others who will be kept ready to replace you should you start to fail in your production of fuel.

During the golden period it may seem that there is just you and me but I will be keeping other prospects warm and extracting negative fuel from one or more predecessors in the meanwhile. Then, without warning you find yourself being devalued. You have your suspicions that we are playing away. Indeed, we are as we use these secondary sources that we have kept “warm”. There will be others as we find additional people to draw into our network as we play them off against you. You will find you will be compared to these people, to friends and family and always found to be wanting as we press the devaluation against you. After this horrendous time, we will cast you to one side with a callous discard and somebody else has replaced you. How did that happen so quickly? How were we able to move with unseemly haste and find someone else who we now declare our love for? Easily. They were waiting in the wings all along.

Now discarded you will find you are still involved in the dynamic as we play you against your replacement. We will keep trying to draw negative fuel from you and then suddenly hoover you back and make you the apple of our eye again, as your short-lived replacement is cast aside. A period of vacillation may follow as we lift you up and crash you down. You are sat on one end of a see saw, as you go up, she goes down and vice versa. We stand in the centre, straddling this see saw and gobbling up all the fuel that is pouring from you both.

As our primary source you will always find that there is somebody else involved in the dynamic of our relationship. It does not end there though with the person who is our primary source of fuel. This addition of an extra player in the game happens throughout all our fuel gathering activities. We set family member against family member, our brothers against our sisters, or one parent against another. We treat one child as golden and the other as a pariah as we have them compete for our blessing and affection. We pit one colleague against another as they vie for that promotion which lies in our gift. We have friend fighting against friend in order to spend time with us at the expense of the other. We enter the online realm and have people backbiting, clashing and competing all through a few keystrokes on the keyboard. We can never be satisfied with it being just you and me, we always have to involve others and that involvement cannot be harmonious. There must be competition in order for the fuel to flow. Never think that we are dedicated to just you, our need for fuel does not allow it. There is always someone else despite what we may tell you. If you were ever able to ascertain the full extent of our machinations, schemes and plans you would see so many lines radiating away from us, connecting us to you, to her and to many others, with lines running between the unknowing and knowing until it looks like an extremely complex organogram on the wall of an incident room in a police station.

It can never just be you and me.

There always has to be another.

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15 thoughts on “You Are Not Alone

  1. Eternity says:

    I am happy that you are free of him.
    Well I didn’t kick him in the nuts,but I really wanted to. He pissed me off so bad. Plus everything piled up over the years so I was upset.
    I really don’t have a temper ,but he brought out the bad side of me. I have never wanted to hit anyone in my life. I dont believe in violence

    1. Asp Emp says:

      I missed your response – “Well I didn’t kick him in the nuts,but I really wanted to” (laughing). I totally understand what you mean – same thing happened to me – it “built-up” over a period of time. Eventually – I literally exploded with anger (years of anger & abuse from the past – the past was also included without me realising but now I do). But, I raged for hours – it was not a few minutes, it went on for hours. I didn’t call him names, just basically called him out on lots of things – turned ‘everything’ & threw them back in his face 180 degrees. I think my anger that night shook him, a lot. It’s done & dusted. I do not regret it. I surprised myself at the amount of fury I felt & the fact I could not even stop myself. It simply had to be released. He tried ‘hoovers’ – pity-play BS. He obviously wanted my ‘fuel’ but probably realised I was too strong for him to ‘control’. Good thing too. It eventually led me to here……

      1. Eternity says:

        Oh boy! Well it happens I have done the same . I have kept things inside of me for years until BAM I exploded myself. I didnt call him names either,,that is not my style.but I told him I how felt. I left him for good. I am starting a whole new life for myself and it feels good. I can be myself again. Go where I want, dress how I want,talk without being accused of flirting . I am proud of you Asp Emp and wish you good luck too..

        1. Asp Emp says:

          Good to know that you are moving on too. Yes, it feels good. Just continue to educate yourself (as I am too) and build up your empowerment (which I am also doing). Thank you for your wishes, you too. x

          1. Eternity says:

            Good to talk to you Asp Emp it is a pleasure. I will continue to educate myself ,I have learned a lot. If it wasn’t for HG I wouldn’t have the courage to leave him.

          2. Asp Emp says:

            Likewise & we will continue to talk, always good to do so x

  2. Eternity says:

    Oh no that is even worse. They are cry babies looking for sympathy. I had one for years! Silent treatment galore. I almost kicked my MMRN in the nuts.

    1. Asp Emp says:

      I am just glad he is gone & that I am free of him. What do you mean “almost”?! Goes to show you do have a ‘little’ temper (not a bad thing at all) 😉

  3. Asp Emp says:

    Lesser also had another woman, I had not know about it – but began to suspect. I noticed scratches on his back – I don’t do that. He blamed it on when he was working on his car – yeah right – 4 lines, in a row? Come on, I ain’t thick. The ‘other’ woman in question, worked at the same place and one day he slapped her on her arse, in front of me. We all used to go out once a month – one time, she asked me if I was still ‘involved’ with him and the expression on her face was as if she had been told that there was ‘nothing’ going on……. I think she ‘ended’ whatever it was with him.

    MRN & his loads of “contacts”…….

    I understand why narcissists think they have to do this – it depends on the ‘fuel’ types that different ‘sources’ provide, it also depends on the types of ‘victims’.

    On a totally different track……

    On tv last night – there was a programme ‘Wives With Knives’ and it was interesting to see. The wife was “re-writing” history a number of times when she was interviewed by the police. The (grown up) daughter was supporting step-dad. The also ‘grown-up’ son was supporting the mother. The wife was convinced that he was going around having affairs, left, right and centre. The dad survived but the wife was ‘blaming’ him and she had it in her head a totally different story as to what came out in court. 19 years for a moment of ‘relapse’. Yet, once again, no mention of narcissism.

    1. Eternity says:

      So sorry you had to go through that. Mine would flirt with women all the time in front of me . He would compliment them. He never did that with me . I never caught him cheating but I suspected it. My gut feeling told me he did. I never cheated on him and I was faithful. I mean why be in a relationship if you are going to do that. Just play the field with no strings attached . I don’t get it .
      I cant believe you saw scratches on his back .

      1. Asp Emp says:

        Don’t feel / be sorry – you didn’t do anything. I should have told the guy to “foxtrot oscar” as soon as I was “suspicious”….. LOL “I cant believe you saw scratches on his back” – neither could I (at the time!) then he comes out with that BS ‘excuse’ – I didn’t believe him. Now, I know why he couldn’t come out with a better “excuse” = Lesser narcissist 😉

        1. Eternity says:

          Asp Emp, exactly lesser have hardly any cognitive function so there you go. You deserve better than that for sure .

          1. Asp Emp says:

            Of course! I upgraded to an MRN (laughing)

  4. leelasfuelstinks says:

    As you perfectly wrote, H.G.: “Infidelity is a guarantee when you´re with one of us”

    ALL narcs CHEAT!

  5. Whitney says:

    HG the God,
    I didn’t wanna take your time, so I asked my mum some questions instead. I wrote down exactly what she said:

    1. Why is he focusing on me, trying to take me places, and wanting to travel together.

    Her response: He wants to control you again.

    2. Another girl was throwing herself at him, but he wasn’t reciprocating. Why does he prefer me?

    Her response: Because you’re more fun to control.

    3. I feel sorry for him and I think he wants to kill himself

    Her response: Good. Good riddance. He should.

    4. Do you think he’s actually suicidal?

    Her response: No. I don’t think that’s typical of Narcissists. I’ve never heard of a Narcissist killing themselves.

    5. Why does he want to control me again?

    Her response: Cos it’s fun. He’s a control freak and it’s fun.

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