A Question of Trust

A QUESTION OF TRUST

We are able to do what we do because of a particularly fundamental trait that we look for in the people that we target; trust. We look for those who place particular reliance on trust and then we abuse that trust. Most people operate on a basis of trust. If they did not, the world would grind to a halt. Trust lubricates so many transactions between people whether those transactions are social, financial or emotional. When somebody tells you,

“I like your shirt it suits you.”

You trust them to be telling you the truth. If you did not do so, you would stop and cross examine them as to why they like it in order to evaluate whether you believe their comment to be a true one or not. You trust the company from which you make a purchase to deliver when they say they will and that the product will be fit for purpose. You trust your colleagues to do their jobs effectively so you can also fulfil your obligations.

You trust the police to maintain law and order, if you did not, there would be anarchy and rife vigilantism. It is axiomatic that there has to be trust otherwise everything would be slowed down or stopped as people evaluated, analysed, questioned and verified. Trust is evident everywhere and there is no greater trust than that which is expected in an intimate relationship.

People trust their partner to have their best interests at heart, to trust them not to do something to hurt them, to trust them to be faithful and loving. We know that in order for you to love in the way that you do, that deep and unconditional love, there must be trust. You approach your relationships with this trust held out in front of you, a symbol of good intent. You presume that everyone else that you will engage with will also adopt a similarly trusting stance. You expect them to reciprocate this trust. You trust that they will trust.

You are not a cynic. You do not operate in the realm of suspicion and mistrust. To do so would be admitting defeat and would tarnish the ideal of love that you are committed to. You accept much at face-value. That is not to label you as naïve, that would be unduly harsh, for as I have mentioned, many people operate on the basis of trust and so they must. You apply this trust to your dealings with those that you fall in love, led to believe by us that this trust will be reciprocated, that it will not  be breached, betrayed or damaged.

You are a truth seeker. You apply honesty in all your dealings and the taint of lies and dishonesty offends you considerably. The stench of our deceit, the rank odour of our mendacity is great but the perfumed veil we cast over such dark and dangerous deceptions is such that the malodorous warning never nears you. You are conned into believing that we tell you the truth when we first encounter you.

We behave with such conviction, the air of confidence we exude, seemingly unquestionable and unimpeachable. We look you in the eye, those unseen mirrors reflecting back at you your earnest trust so that you see what you require. You look upon supposed honesty, apparent openness and this maintains your sense of trust.

By trusting you believe that you will get the truth. That our love will be true, that our intentions are truthful, that our fidelity is real and we govern our interactions with you under the mantle of truth. You trust that all of this will happen because we make you think you can trust us.

We will reference those who have let us down, those who have betrayed us and in so doing we hold up our own reliance upon trust in order to receive your trust. See how we have trusted others and they let us down? We have always trusted beforehand and so you can be assured that we want to gain your trust and you shall have ours. It is all carefully orchestrated to channel one of the fundamental tenets by which you abide.

When we gain that trust and we do so easily, you enable us to take this valuable commodity and apply our own veneer to it, reinforcing it and demonstrating to you just how much we value it. As a fellow disciple in trust this enables us to conduct ourselves in a way which ensures we are above suspicion. When we meet with a member of the opposite sex and explain she or he is just a friend and it is a friendly drink you have no reason to think otherwise. You trust us. When we tell you that we are working late. You trust us. When we borrow money from you. You trust us. When we tell you that we are using the contraceptive pill. You trust us. When we tell you that we love you and have never loved anybody like this before – you trust us.

Trust equals the truth. We then abuse your trust by carrying out our treacherous acts. We court other partners and shatter your trust. As you sit at home watching television thinking we are working hard for our future we are philandering and sliding our tendrils around a fresh prospect.

When you are making that dinner for us both, looking forward to an evening together, I am showering in a hotel as I seek to wash away the scent of the person I have just coupled with. When you check your bank balance and consider what you will do with the return on the investment that I talked about so you lent me the money, your hard-earned money is being used to impress someone else so that they fall into my clutches. We take this very thing that is of such central importance to you and we abuse it. We disrespect and we trade it  just like a commodity.

When you eventually realise your trust has been shattered and this has happened repeatedly. When you finally wake up and join the dots. When you see the flagrant breaches of your trust, when the evidence is irrefutable and painful, we may well have gone. Not only have we abused your trust but we have left without explanation or reason, leaving you to deal with the aftermath alone as we move on to the next target and begin gaining their trust.

Like any confidence trickster it is necessary for us to gain trust before we are able to abuse it. Not only do we hurt you repeatedly through these actions we do so to such an extent, with so many people and with so many people aware of it, other than you until the last moment. This wide-ranging and wholesale desecration of trust, this tarnishing and defacing of the truth leaves you broken and unable to face the totality of the truth. You cannot comprehend that you have been conned so extensively and so often.

You cannot bear the sensation that arises from having been made to look so foolish. You held your trust up as something to be proud of and now you are left to rue your reliance on this as you hear the repeated comments of “Told you so”, “Didn’t you notice?” and “You are too trusting.” You equate trust with the truth. Our abuse of your trust causes you to not want to accept the truth of what we have done.

8 thoughts on “A Question of Trust

  1. Grace says:

    Mirroring you like a loving sister mirrors her beloved brother … With my eyes, my thoughts, my words, my gestures…

    My narcisstic Mom was not only pregnant with me but I had a twin brother. But then we lost him somewhen before he could appear on the radar. Subconciously I somehow always felt that it was because of me that he disapeared, that it was my fault. But perhaps he was disabled and for sure the wish of my Mom to have a daughter and not a son was so very strong that now I am sure we lost him not because of me…

    5,5 years later I got an (unwanted) brother for real: Norman Alexander. We did not get along very well as children because we got triangulated by our parents. But since we are adults we love each other a lot. I am very proud to have a brother like Norman 🙂

  2. Grace says:

    Mirroring you with my eyes like a loving mother does with her son?

    One of my favorite songs: Lullaby by secret garden:
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yQpU_73Dv0

    Mirroring you like a female lover mirrors her mal lover?
    the song with a lord of the ring MV:
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGfTPqOnqh8

    So that in the end when you see your eyes mirrored in the water of a calm lake you can see your Self as the one you and she wish your Self to be?

  3. Grace says:

    One of the reasons Narcs have this strong need to control people is because they are not able to trust. They do not have this general trust in life because they are victims. So they fear death.
    To be able to build up trust with other people you need to be authentic. Narcs cannot be authentic, it is all about the facade. So the only thing they can do is to manipulate people to trust them and to put up an illusion. Like a magician…

    There is this beautiful fairytale about “Krabat”:

  4. annaamel says:

    Another post that is very clear.

  5. Tom says:

    I ain’t a baby..I trust nobody until they prove to be trustworthy… it’s a cruel world…no time to be naive.

  6. Grace says:

    Dear HG, a very good and important article from you according to me. Trust is so very important because being able to trust it is the prerequisite to be able to love. This is one of the reasons Narcs cannot love: Because they cannot trust. F.e. because they could not find the basic trust from their mother. So if you want to learn to love you first need to learn to trust.

    How to learn to trust?

  7. A Victor says:

    This is such a vicious component, trust goes so easily to the untrustworthy and yet trust doesn’t go to those who might respect it, instead there is often skepticism of their sincerity. Better to not trust across the board, until it is earned. Or maybe better to trust across the board but then remove it if it turns out to not be well placed. This gives way for possible ensnarement but seems the better way to go in some ways. Maybe some of it is learning to trust ourselves to handle it well if another turns out to not be trustworthy, to know we will discern this prior to ensnarement and have the ability to walk away.

    1. Joa says:

      AV, I definitely prefer the latter method and recommend it.

      If someone restricts my trust in him, HE issues a card about himself.

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      But I would like to add, that you have to really try very hard, to make me decide to crumple or throw away this card.

      Big doses of trust.

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