The Lesser Narcissist

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Here comes a Lesser Narcissist. We shall call him Lee.

“What did you call me?”

Hello Lee. A Lesser Narcissist.

“No I’m not, it’s you that’s the narcissist, I’m sick of you saying that there is something wrong with me, when it’s you that has the problem. You do it on purpose, always trying to wind me up, I’ve fucking had enough of it.”

Sigh. That’s another plate broken and a panel punched in the door. Again. He’s gone, but he will be back. You see, that’s a typical reaction of the Lesser. He doesn’t know what he is. Often he will not even know what a narcissist is, but if you try to tell him, even if you do it in a calm and pleasant way, he doesn’t hear what you are saying, he just hears the criticism. When that happens his fury ignites and usually he will lash out. That’s why he insulted me, tried to shift the blame on to me, smashed the plate and punched the door. He didn’t think about doing any of that. It just happened. He reacts and responds by instinct. He is a creature of instinct. I didn’t hear the front door slam so he must be in the house still. Let’s go and find him.

Here he is. Locked in his den. His bolthole and sanctuary from the criticism. He is tapping away on his ‘phone. Let’s see. Yes, he is texting a couple of ladies who he has been flirting with online. You see, he didn’t hang around to see my reaction to the ignition of his fury, but he knows it will have troubled me. Sometimes knowing that reaction will be enough but not today. His fuel supplies must be low. That’s why he is tapping into some secondary sources by texting or probably sexting these women. Let’s see if we can coax him out of his bolthole. I will knock at the door.

You see he has turned his head and smiled, but hasn’t answered my knocking. He is pleased that I have come to try to find out if he is alright. That makes him feel powerful. My reaction, of tip-toing to him and gently rapping on the door reinforces that he is the one who is superior in our relationship. Again, he doesn’t think this through, so do be grateful for your humble narrator explaining this for you, but that is what is happening inside of Lee. I knock again and call out his name. He remains silent. Lee knows that silent treatment makes him feel powerful. Add that sensation to the flirtatious messages I can see that he is receiving and he is receiving fuel from three sources. Me and two supplementary sources. They are probably acquaintances now since mobile numbers have been exchanged. The fury that Lee experienced at my perceived criticism will now be subsiding as the fuel is provided. This makes him feel calmer. Lee knows that certain things make him furious and then other things makes him calmer. Let’s ask him if he knows why.

“Hey Lee, don’t hide in there, why did you get angry like that? All I did was say that you are a lesser narcissist.”

Notice that I haven’t said this in a pleading way, or through tears, or even shouted it at him. I have made this point and asked the question in a neutral fashion. Watch what he does now. See how fast the irritation has arrived. This is because I am not giving him any fuel with my comment. I have also interrupted the flow of the fuel from the two women by distracting him. To make matters worse I have repeated the comment and he will perceive this as a criticism. Again, he won’t have worked any of this out, he is a Lesser so it doesn’t happen. Whereas I have explained the process. This is what actually happens in Lee’s mind.

  1. He hears my comment;
  2. He feels wounded by that comment. This manifests as irritation;
  3. His fury ignites.

It is as quick and as straight forward as that. Here comes the fury.

Lee marches from his desk and flings the den door open.

“How many fucking times have I told you not to disturb me when I am in my den? You never listen to me!”

Notice the contorted features as the fury takes over.

“I only asked a reasonable question.”

I say this in a neutral tone again. No fuel is being provided. This annoys him further because this is a criticism and it wounds him.

“Are you saying I am unreasonable?” he demands jutting his jaw forward in an aggressive manner.

Of course dear reader I said no such thing did I, but Lee doesn’t process it that way. My neutral remark is taken again as a criticism, hence his response.

“I’m just pointing out what you are and besides, you are always in there, messing around doing who knows what, you should be working.”

Lee rarely works. He doesn’t see any reason to. He believes I should keep him after all, in his mind he is the superior one and therefore I should run around after him. He only does chores when he knows he can get some fuel, for instance, chopping logs in the yard so people can admire his physical prowess, otherwise he won’t bother. Again Lee doesn’t think about chopping the logs in terms of receiving admiring looks from our neighbour Josie, he just knows when he does it, she smiles and talks to him and he feels good inside. But I digress. Back to the foaming Lee who is stood in the doorway of the den. He won’t let me in there. It is his domain. What is his is his and nobody else’s.

“What are you saying that for?” he growls. His fury is increasing at the criticism that he should be working. Here it comes. The right hand swipes and he slaps me across my face. You see he cannot control the fury and with Lee it manifests as heated fury as he lashes out.

I let out a cry and raise my palm to my face, eyes showing the pain arising from his physical abuse of me. Look at that small smile on his lips. That is because my fearful reaction has given him negative fuel. He wanted that. He doesn’t know that he wanted that but he knows that seeing me scared, upset, angry or frustrated, amongst other things makes him feel stronger and more powerful.

“You should be working,” I repeat but the neutral tone is gone now and it comes out part comment, part sob as the tears well up. His hand is raised to deliver another blow but he doesn’t because my tears are fuelling him. Although I have criticised him by stating he should be working, it will not feel like criticism to Lee because it is surrounded in emotion. That is what he wants. He doesn’t know that, but that is what he wants.

His fury is still there but it has receded within his parameters of control, low as they are. If I had kept on he would have erupted further and probably punched and kicked me down the hall. It has happened before. And will again. As a Lesser his control threshold is low and regularly his fury boils over into verbal and physical violence. Notice how he is standing there grinning. The provision of my fuel is making him feel powerful and that is why he looks happy. It is not true happiness. Lee doesn’t know what that is, but he knows that feeling powerful makes him feel good and that is why he is smiling. I am going to back off now.

I walk away and Lee content with the fuel he has extracted from me (although he does not know this) turns and goes back into the den. He will text the two ladies for a while longer, gathering more fuel and then with the fury receded and his fuel levels higher, he will feel more settled so he will watch one of his action films or play on his Xbox for a while. He won’t be thinking about me. He doesn’t have the function to do so for long when I am not in front of him. Lee as a Lesser is very much about dealing with what is on his plate. Yes, I will invade his consciousness from time to time but he is not given to planning. It is all spur of the moment, reaction, responses, instinct, seat of the pants. That is why he is seen as such a whirlwind, bouncing from one ignition of fury to the next. He has no overarching strategy, no grand design, but he is an aggressive hunter gatherer who knows that I, his longstanding and long suffering partner infuriates him but he keeps me around because, well, I do the chores and lie there and think of England when he is grinding away on top of me. Writing of which, let’s fast forward to bed time. I have retired first and here comes Lee padding up the stairs, a belly full of Scotch (he likes a few drinks when he is watching his films).

“Hey,” he says as he enters the darkened bedroom. He doesn’t lower his voice or gently shake me. Why would be bother when he is entitled to do as he pleases. Again, Lee doesn’t think that way, he just does it, he just acts in that manner of the entitled Lesser.

“What is it?” I ask blearily.

“Move over, I’m getting in.”

That’s his way of saying he wants sex. If he wanted to sleep he would just climb into bed. Notice how there is no apology for hitting me, no expression of concern or remorse for the earlier altercation. That’s because he has forgotten about it. Imagine Lee’s mind like a small external hard drive. It only has so much memory and automatically jettisons so much information. If in a few days’ time I refer to him slapping me he will give me a confused look and say,

“What are you talking about?”

That’s because he cannot recall it. It has been wiped from his mind. It is an instinctive reponse and demonstrates why with the Lesser he denies so much of what he is accused of and does it with sincerity because he really does not remember. There is no pretence, not like those from other schools. He does not remember, but that is a few days away. Let’s return to now.

“I said, move up, I am getting in.”

Still no apology. He continues as if nothing happened earlier. This is because he sees no wrong in what he has done. He responded. It was instinct to him and therefore for him, instinct is natural and correct. If I challenged him about his behaviour from before, now, it would be a criticism. His fury would be ignited and with the additional accelerant of the alcohol I would be dragged from the bed, beaten and forced to sleep downstairs. He may even throw me in my night clothes on to the street. All an instinctive reaction to the criticism and his lack of control over his ignited fury. I won’t challenge him though. I have learned not to, it is safer you see. It took me a long time to realise that this was the best course of action. I used to stand up to him you see. I thought that it would make him respect me if I did but it won’t. The Lesser regards any denial of their authority as criticism and, you’ve guessed it, the fury ignites.

Time to put on a performance then. If I refuse his advances he will kick off. If I don’t put in feigned enthusiasm, he will kick off. As a Lesser he is not very good at distinguishing between real and faked emotions at times. He is better with some than others. For instance, he knows real fear and upset compared to any that is faked. This is because he has the most experience of seeing people scared, upset and frightened so he instinctively knows when it is real and when it is not. When it comes to matters between the sheets although Lee believes himself to be the champion of sexual technique (he has certainly had plenty of partners as he regularly likes to boast about them to me) he could be rutting a slab of steak for all the variance and finesse he deploys. He wasn’t always like that. He did make an effort during our golden period, but that is long gone. Now he just wants to exert his dominance over me and be made to feel powerful so you will have to excuse me as I make the relevant noises, say the stock phrases and pull my porn faces. That will please Lee the Lesser and provide him with a final burst of delicious positive fuel before he slumps besides me and falls into an undisturbed sleep. He always sleeps well does Lee. His lesser function means that there is not a lot racing around in his mind as slumber approaches. So, there’s a glimpse of how a – I’d better whisper this so he doesn’t hear – Lesser Narcissist is. Now, turn around please, you shouldn’t be watching what comes next.the-lesser

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45 thoughts on “The Lesser Narcissist”

  1. Dear Hg,
    My narc ex is a lesser for sure, I had him put in jail. I have 3 orders of protection against him. He recently married my best friend. He hasn’t made any moves to Hoover after the first few days. Is this the final discard?

  2. HG does the lesser regard supply as scare or readily available. I have read on quora that malignant narcs are more likely to discard permanently whereas other narcs see supply as scarce and would not discard permanently. I know you say that all schools of narcissists always come back but I just need to clarify of there is some truth in above statement.

    1. There is no such thing as a permanent discard. The Lesser finds fuel harder to come by in certain instances owing to the narrower range of appliances that he or she is connected to and the narrower range of manipulations available to them.

      1. HG,
        There’s no permanent discard so very true. I received a call from one last night he doesn’t receive any fuel from me and if he does its very minimum. And he just want go away. I purposely ignite fury in him so he disappears for a few months lately its been weeks.
        He called to tell me he was in a car accident the car rolled over 3 times in narc talk it was probably once any way he totalled his car. My response “you didn’t hurt or kill anyone did you? He said no. That may also be a lie. Then I asked if his grandmother’s death hit him yet? He had some one in the car with him and wanted them to no we were intimate before. Very ignorant 😂 I responded to his do I miss and if he was to come over now sex questions with we’ve never has sex why would I begin now. He said we did, you wanted me all the time. I told him to go back and have his head checked by the doctor. Of course he hung up.😊I smiled and slept like a baby. Again, Thanks HG

    2. Hurt—my N is a lesser (thank you HG for explaining that to me) and he is currently getting his supply from prostitutes. They give him positive fuel for money. I can always tell when he has not had sex or been fueled—he will text or email for the oddest reasons.

      My birthday was just a few days ago. Although he has been on a smear campaign saying I am bipolar, paranoid and crazy and that I am butting into his life, won’t leave him alone, etc. ; he left a voicemail for me wishing me a happy birthday and hope I had a great day. He even added if I had given him my postal box number, he was going to send me a birthday card. Hoovering and trying to get fuel from me. I ignored the voicemail.

  3. Yes. Now imagine children living in this. They’ve heard the arguments, degradation and sometimes violence. Theyve been sent to bed. They pretend to be asleep but they cannot because they are upset, confused, and anxious but have no voice and cannot make it stop. They also don’t know what will come next. Oh….tonight there will not be violence. Momentary relief. But wait…..oh yes….. here comes that last paragraph written. Now you will hear the sounds described above. The “rutting” and relevant noises and phrases. Basically rape. More confusion. Sex is what people do who are in love we are told. This must be what love is. If you don’t think that f***ks with a kids head-think again. Thats what youre teaching them if you stay. Collateral damage and for life. What they dont see they feel and hear. So what’s that now you tell yourself about staying for the kids?

  4. I am an unbelievably juicy target, HG, but I have to say that is one of the major thrills I get when do do battle with or discard the Greater. They have such specific, conditioned expectations of me that they never see it coming. One of the many benefits of reading your work is that it is a constant reminder to me never to worry about what they might be feeling on their end which is what I would naturally do were I dealing with a normal person.

    1. Laurie,

      The battle is half won. Once, I realized what I was dealing I was able to seize the power.

  5. Hi HG,
    Fascinating posts! Are Greaters always Greaters or do they start as a Lesser and move up?

    My soon to be ex is either a Lesser or Mid-Range. I am not sure which. He rages and more recently, had been making threats of physical violence and actually brought a gun out during an argument. But, he also has always had long term employment and does a lot of overtime. When I left, it was less than a month later that he moved a hooker into our marital home.

    Over the past year, we were in marriage counseling. As time went on, he started telling me “This is who I am. I cannot change”. A couple of times he told me he did not want to change. After I escaped, my therapist told me that N was convinced that I would never leave him.

    Is there a possibility he is moving into a higher range of Narcs?

    I am learning a lot through your posts and truly appreciate them (even the ones that bring back horrible memories).

    1. Hello SF and thank you. No, one starts in a particular school and remains there. A Lesser can have long-term employment, it is indicative of being an Upper Lesser. There are various indicators which determine which school a narcissist belongs to and from the pen portrait you have described in your comment I would regard him as a Lesser.

  6. HG what are the chances of someone knowing more then or being ensnared by more then one greater?
    I know they are rare, yet would this depend on situations one is in and this person (empath) just catches their(greater) eye?

      1. H.G. yes but they payout is always the largest. Excuse me payback in full in addition to your soul, mind, body ,and first born. 😟

      2. I have been entangled with three greaters all at once. One is family, two are ( well, were because I recently kicked one to the curb) “friends” and I can tell you it was a nightmare dealing with three swirling sets of machinations at once. While it sucks I think I have happily discovered that I am a Greater empath and am holding my own and smiling in my morning coffee every day.

      3. Some might suggest that is bad luck Laurie, it is actually because you clearly fair flow with empathy and other traits which makes you a prime target.

  7. HG sir… lessers don’t know who they are….but neither do all greaters……isn’t that right?
    what separates a greater who knows who he is and a greater who doesn’t? what is the difference.? thanks oz. 😉

      1. so there can never be a greater who does not know who he is? i wonder to what extent he knows. would he know and label him a narcicisst? or does he just “know” that he must operate in this way. Does knowing who he is mean he knows he is evil? or just that he’s superior, entitled etc. to what extent does he know….to say he knows.

      2. Thank you Alexis, by way of clarification, they will either know what they are in terms of label (in the way I found out or similar) or if they do not know the label they recognise much of what they do and why they do it without necessarily putting certain labels on it. For example, they know they like to be the centre of attention, they know they need recognition from people, they know they revel in manipulating people, they consider themselves above everybody else, they know what they do is wrong but they do not care – thus they have an awareness of what they are doing, even if they do not know precisely the label. We often know the label because of what we have been told or through being of a higher cognitive function we have looked into it. We have the capacity for insight unlike the Lessers and Mid-Rangers.

      1. Okay, but if a lesser is also a sociopath would that make it harder to pick him out as a lesser. I have yet to figure out what school he is from. He is conniving and treacherous and is aware that he does evil shit but he also has poor impulse control and many traits of a lesser. He insists he is not a narcissist.

      2. A Lesser will not be a sociopath. The factors are indicators and need to be looked at in the round, thus whilst a Mid-Ranger has reasonable control, if he engages in behaviours which accord with a MR – shows calculation, some charm, uses silent treatments, has a decent range of appliances, but poor impulse control, he will still be a MR but one of the traits sails closer to that of the lesser.

      3. HG–can you explain what reasonable control is? My N would absolutely rage with me—throw things, break things, scream obscenities at me. The same with the kids when they were growing up. Most impatient man I ever met…BUT, when he had an appointment with a hooker, he waited outside in the hotel parking lot for 2.5 hours before he gave up and found another.

        And would you find an appliance to include hookers? This is what brought about marriage counseling in the first place.

        Since I left him in Nov., he has returned to seeing hookers. In addition, he has one living in our home sporadically. He also supposedly has a “girlfriend”–yet, he still tries to hoover me (not to mention control me financially from 2 hours away).

      4. Your first example is control SF viz a viz the ignition of fury. The hooker instance is patience when there’s no ignition of fury, therein lies the difference.

        Yes hookers are appliances.

  8. Hi HG- To what degree do you think class/economic status influence these categories of narcissism? Thanks!

    1. Class/economic status does not influence the categories but in general terms there are patterns which correlate between the school and the economic status. Just because someone is a Lesser does not mean you cannot have a financially successful Lesser but they are rarer than say financially successful Greaters.

  9. Ugh. This is awful to read.

    Mainly because I have been in the lesser’s position at different points in my life, sorting out the borderline in me.

    What a mess.

    There is always insight, though. It’s the light that leads us forward. In whatever form it takes.

  10. On point, with the exception of the lessors I know are were involved with worked full time jobs and lots of overtime (verified). One would work 6 days a week 55 hours that’s will he gained the majority of his fuel. He would call me while he was with the customer on Bluetooth of course so I could hear how he interacted with them. Of course they were always nice to him and he would make sure to tell if treat him like trash and his customers love and respected him. 😂”Mrs. Smith was so nice to me I think she was flirting, no… she was probably just being nice however, she mentioned having coffee with me”. Lol…so predictable. Ewe

  11. Ugh. I do not miss these Neanderthals. From my experience, my lessers were more prone to blue-collar/street crime. Is it a fair statement that Lessers are more likely to commit blue-collar crimes because they have poor impulse control and lack the intelligence for more sophisticated mischief?

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