The Narcissistic Truths – No. 14

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28 thoughts on “The Narcissistic Truths – No. 14”

  1. Yes.. fell of the wagon and took the bait! Back in schattered pieces. Hoovered with lovely photos of him came into my mailbox. A promise to meet, “memories” and missing our favorite spot. My coldness was only a challenge and nothing else. Back to the chaos of wanting answers and closure… oh.. the “wanting to meet” .. the date postponed over and over again.
    I gave so much fuel .. I’m stupid and naive.

    Back on it again.. it’s been a few days of pure hell..but now on my feet. The blocking is back in place and not looking back.

    Ashamed and sad…

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    1. Don’t be ashamed AB. Sad is okay but shame isn’t. It’s a rocky road to extrication and your ex is only happy to cause you to fall on that road. You’ve gotten back up which is the hardest part and now you keep moving forward. You turned around for a minute. Who cares? It’s all mind fuckery anyway. Read, read, read here. I’m sorry you’re in that pain again. He’s a scorpion and a scorpions nature is to sting by any means possible. Pictures, favorite spots…anything that will capture prey. Any fuel you provided only satiated him for a second. We all fall.

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    2. Again Broken,
      Don’t feel ashamed we have all been there and done that. That is why we keep coming back and reading and learning. They are very cunning, clever and manipulative where we are all heart and understanding. For me AB staying away becomes easier one day at a time and that is why I have to keep coming back to this blog and reading HG’s articles daily. Like Alcoholics have to go to AA meetings daily to stay sober, we narcoholics, as I call myself, have to keep coming back to our teacher and fellow empaths to stay in no contact and grow in knowledge daily. At least that is what works for me. Just remember AB, they know how we are and play on our heart strings. Like HG continuously states: it is not our fault-if anything, this experience will make you stronger. Hang in there!
      A fellow empath.

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    3. There’s nothing to be ashamed about. You loved this man. Needing answers is how they keep stringing us along. Find your own closure. Hopefully he will leave you alone once he realises that you’ve blocked him so that you have some peace to rebuild again.

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    4. No need for shame!! (hugs) This is the path of so many and often times it takes several tries before no contact sticks. They are an addictive bunch and like what others have said here, typical rules of engagement do not apply with narcissists. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You know what to do, you are stronger this time around!

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    5. Again broken…dont beat yourself up over breaking no contact. Ive been there several times over. you have the strength to start again which is something to be proud of. On average it takes 7 no contacts or break ups before its successful. The main thing is to be good to yourself. Youve been in an abusive situation and dont need another beating down. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Youve got a good heart and your decent which makes you more vulnerable to the narcs black magic. Each no contact isnt a waste of time and you learn from each one. Eventually youll get to where you want to go 💓

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  2. SMH
    HG there are some here that make Jerry Springer show look mild. I understand this maybe due to whatever entanglement they have been in, and it is gracious you not only moderate for our benefit, yet also let them have a voice here. God knows I would never want to read all you do, very appreciative and grateful for the magnificent job you do here! If there was another I would let myself love ❤️ you’d be that one. You have done many wonders in my personal life just having a place to come, learn, and say my peace and leave.

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  3. Its ok… get back on that horse! Its how you learn and get stronger! you are not stupid you are more aware now… Follow the Master here, and when ever you feel like back sliding, get back to this blog!

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    1. You are right Ms. Brown-which is why we are all here on this blog, reading HG’s books and articles and continue to learn. Thank God for this blog, for HG and all my fellow empaths on this site!

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      1. Hypothetically speaking, if it were mother’s day last sunday in the U.K., would you have wished matrinarc a happy mother’s day?! 😝

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      1. In the UK…. Mother’s Day or Mothering Sunday is usually in March … 3 weeks before Easter Sunday, half way through Lent … x x

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  4. Thanks to all of you!!! What a relief to have all of your support!!! It means the world to me! HG too.. in this context I am very grateful that you exist!
    Thought I was strong but damn so weak ..
    thanks to all of you I will never ever do it again!!!
    Got massive love from family today as well … but they don’t understand as you do!

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